Not Fade Away (Based on a True Story)

[Craiger]

Alphus,

You have brought us to the conclusion of your writing, leaving us with a feeling of pain and sorrow which we have shared with you. However, life has a strange way of working things out and by having an optimistic view you will be able to face it as it comes to past. The memories of both the hurt and the joy you have encountered will stay with you throughout your life. But, remember that there are still many years ahead of you to find other joys and loves that you will be able to pen into your life's story. Never give up that hope. Keep your dreams alive and you will survive. My best to you always.

Craiger

 

[Alphus]

Alphus,

You have brought us to the conclusion of your writing, leaving us with a feeling of pain and sorrow which we have shared with you. However, life has a strange way of working things out and by having an optimistic view you will be able to face it as it comes to past. The memories of both the hurt and the joy you have encountered will stay with you throughout your life. But, remember that there are still many years ahead of you to find other joys and loves that you will be able to pen into your life's story. Never give up that hope. Keep your dreams alive and you will survive. My best to you always.

Craiger

Thank you for your words. I've learned to keep looking forward, but I can't help having one eye looking back. It was only because of the last time I saw him did I feel bothered and just couldn't push it out of my head like the other times I saw him, so I decided to let it out. Why I chose here, I don't know. I know I'll feel better over the next couple of weeks, as writing this down did make me remember more than I have mentioned here and I'm feeling the pain again but also feeling relieved to get a chunk out of my head.

I do hope it all works out in the end, as then maybe I'd understand everything. I am happy I have at Christian who experienced what I went through; I'm happy that he at least got closure. I can't imagine the both of us not having it and trying to move forward at the same time.

Maybe I will get that chapter finished... but for now, there are a few things I have to accomplish with my life before time passes, with or without Bryan.