Silvernitrate
Porn Star
Last night was a crazier night than I expected! I was out partying all night with different friends. I had expected to get home around 930 PM the latest, because I had decided to stay home this weekend, but my friends wanted to hang out.
I was having dinner after my work out and my friend sarah called me saying to come to her apt for a party, and she was only several blocks away from me so I decided to stop by and have a few beers. Then after that I met up with my friend Joey. From there we went clubbing at the Abbey for a lil bit then went to hit up another place.
I Never really go to gay bars or clubs unless I'm with a girl, I know stupid, but I really can't come out just yet, so i had a few beers to relax me.
Well, it was 2 AM and everyone was rolling out of the bars, and I was driving on Roberston BLVD meeting up to Santa Monica right in front of the Abby, when I looked over and I saw this guy and girl holding hands, I was like.... OH SHIT! I tried to look away, but right before the girl and I made eye contact! How she recognized me in my car? I haven't got a clue, all my windows are tinted very dark so I didn't think I was able to seen very much. Well, this girl is a Personal trainer at my gym that I had a small crush on only because she's absolutely beautiful!! Anyways, she came running up to my car and so did her bf, who is also a personal trainer. I roll down my window and it was a very brief awkward conversation that went like this.
Girl: Hey what are you doing?
Me: Just got done clubbing right here, now about to head to a house party down the street, how about yourself?
Girl: What? Here? OMG Are you gay??
Me: ugh um, well yeah I'm gay
Girl: OMG! no way? You're really gay?
Me: yes, really I am
Girl: hahaha OMG! okay, Well, I'll see you later take care!
Me: ugh yeah okay later you too!
I know she has no problem with gay people because she was walking out of the Abbey, but she just wasn't expecting it from me I guess haha. After I left I thought about it, and i was like, holy fuck... I hop she doesn't tell my personal trainer! My personal trainer is gay friendly, but I'm just cautious about it, because we also work together on some projects we're doing on the side for some stuff. As far as I know, he thinks I'm straight, I'm just worried it will maybe alter the vibe a little in our working situations.
But he may know that I'm gay though. When we were working out with Jesse Metcalfe I became very shy and my trainer would always catch me checking jesse out, because after I did I'd realize he'd be looking at my eyes. I'd always get so embarrassed! And when we'd see Jesse, he'd be say, "Here comes your boy". It was so awkward when he'd refer to him as, "your boy" to me. I would never respond i'd just simply laugh it off. So maybe things wont be so bad if he finds out the truth.
I was having dinner after my work out and my friend sarah called me saying to come to her apt for a party, and she was only several blocks away from me so I decided to stop by and have a few beers. Then after that I met up with my friend Joey. From there we went clubbing at the Abbey for a lil bit then went to hit up another place.
I Never really go to gay bars or clubs unless I'm with a girl, I know stupid, but I really can't come out just yet, so i had a few beers to relax me.
Well, it was 2 AM and everyone was rolling out of the bars, and I was driving on Roberston BLVD meeting up to Santa Monica right in front of the Abby, when I looked over and I saw this guy and girl holding hands, I was like.... OH SHIT! I tried to look away, but right before the girl and I made eye contact! How she recognized me in my car? I haven't got a clue, all my windows are tinted very dark so I didn't think I was able to seen very much. Well, this girl is a Personal trainer at my gym that I had a small crush on only because she's absolutely beautiful!! Anyways, she came running up to my car and so did her bf, who is also a personal trainer. I roll down my window and it was a very brief awkward conversation that went like this.
Girl: Hey what are you doing?
Me: Just got done clubbing right here, now about to head to a house party down the street, how about yourself?
Girl: What? Here? OMG Are you gay??
Me: ugh um, well yeah I'm gay
Girl: OMG! no way? You're really gay?
Me: yes, really I am
Girl: hahaha OMG! okay, Well, I'll see you later take care!
Me: ugh yeah okay later you too!
I know she has no problem with gay people because she was walking out of the Abbey, but she just wasn't expecting it from me I guess haha. After I left I thought about it, and i was like, holy fuck... I hop she doesn't tell my personal trainer! My personal trainer is gay friendly, but I'm just cautious about it, because we also work together on some projects we're doing on the side for some stuff. As far as I know, he thinks I'm straight, I'm just worried it will maybe alter the vibe a little in our working situations.
But he may know that I'm gay though. When we were working out with Jesse Metcalfe I became very shy and my trainer would always catch me checking jesse out, because after I did I'd realize he'd be looking at my eyes. I'd always get so embarrassed! And when we'd see Jesse, he'd be say, "Here comes your boy". It was so awkward when he'd refer to him as, "your boy" to me. I would never respond i'd just simply laugh it off. So maybe things wont be so bad if he finds out the truth.