ReZerection
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A never ending cycle it seems. Year after year, looking back on past memories, photos, Journal entries...etc.. I can easily see the ups and downs that I my consciousness and self have went through. Can I pick out specific reasons or times in exsistence of why or when? Not off hand...could I? Perhaps.
How does one change who they are? When do those things that we were instilled with as children growing up, leave us? When does one completely break away from who they once were? Is it even possible to do so? Or if one were to even try, would our former selfs fade like that of a setting sun? Would we become something that we now despise? Having nothing to help mold us into that which we long to be? What must one do, to prove themselves worthy of receiving what they wish for? Or, is that the reasoning of our being here? To learn to strive for what we want, yet never making it quite that last step. Do we let our expectations and our dreams fall like that of rain? Do we hold no values or morals within our selves, of our selves or for those around us? Am I living within an illusion?
Am I living within an illusion, one that I set before myself? Did I dream these dreams and set these goals to let myself down? To show that nothing can be forever. To teach myself that sometimes, no matter what you do, it just won't be enough. Is this the very thing that drives me? Is this my life force? Or, is this my reality?
How do I discern what is real and what is not? How, where, when and or why, do I or would I, choose to limit what is and what isn't? If I am indeed lost, how do I find my way once again? If I am awakening, yet again, how do I realize what is truth and what is ego? What is the cause for this experience? What lies ahead of me to be learned or to be revealed? How much more am I worthy to learn and to understand, and what purpose will it fill, and to whom?
What is Reality and what is Illusion? Once again I am silenced by the very things that surround me, and as before, humility, takes control.
Another step in this journey, I call my life.
How does one change who they are? When do those things that we were instilled with as children growing up, leave us? When does one completely break away from who they once were? Is it even possible to do so? Or if one were to even try, would our former selfs fade like that of a setting sun? Would we become something that we now despise? Having nothing to help mold us into that which we long to be? What must one do, to prove themselves worthy of receiving what they wish for? Or, is that the reasoning of our being here? To learn to strive for what we want, yet never making it quite that last step. Do we let our expectations and our dreams fall like that of rain? Do we hold no values or morals within our selves, of our selves or for those around us? Am I living within an illusion?
Am I living within an illusion, one that I set before myself? Did I dream these dreams and set these goals to let myself down? To show that nothing can be forever. To teach myself that sometimes, no matter what you do, it just won't be enough. Is this the very thing that drives me? Is this my life force? Or, is this my reality?
How do I discern what is real and what is not? How, where, when and or why, do I or would I, choose to limit what is and what isn't? If I am indeed lost, how do I find my way once again? If I am awakening, yet again, how do I realize what is truth and what is ego? What is the cause for this experience? What lies ahead of me to be learned or to be revealed? How much more am I worthy to learn and to understand, and what purpose will it fill, and to whom?
What is Reality and what is Illusion? Once again I am silenced by the very things that surround me, and as before, humility, takes control.
Another step in this journey, I call my life.