Small penis and body a little female

[guy22br]

Hello, I am Brazilian and I am 22 years.
For starters, my life is a constant frustration. It is pathetic.
Since 17 years, I always knew there was something wrong with my body. My hip is wide, thin waist, resembling a woman's body. The bone structure is thus not just fat deposited on hips.
At 18 I went to the doctor and he said, my body really had problem and showed me a therapy with a drug testosterone base. Nothing worked. I went back the doctor he said I should work out to balance the shape of my body, and that in addition to hormonal problems I had, there is also the genetics that sets men with hip "somewhat" wider (...) I did not work out and left as tava. At 19 I went to two other doctors, they said I was not suffering from a specific problem (hypogonadism, klinefelter, etc.), only a low level (but normal) testosterone in the body.

I left still. Neither remedy made. He was tired and had accepted that it would be suffering.

At 20 I went to another doctor. This time really wanting to do something for me, because so far not mentioned the fact that my penis being childish. Is not small, is childish. Ridiculous. It measures 12-13 cm erect FULLY (I think about 5 inches) and only 11 cm (about 4.3 inches) in circumference.

I always avoided sex, focusing on studies and stuff. But at 20 I had my first sexual experience and saw how it was terrible to be inferior. The guy who was dating (had the huge penis) I stopped talking. I was really embarrassed. He tried to talk to me sometimes, but I avoided until it gave up.

And it made me try some type of treatment to change that.
Until I found a doctor who prescribed me a French drug (I had to import it does not sell here in Brazil) that was to be applied to the penis.
I used a few months. Nothing worked. Maybe a little, but my penis is still ridiculous.
A few months ago I took a very androgenic remedy for own account but I stopped because I was afraid.

I went out with other guys and two of them were really interested in me and said they loved my penis. But both ugly and also complexed (not Tamaho of penis as they have normal penis). They were calling me and everything. But I do not. Do not want to have to stay with people who do not interest me (I do not speak only of appearance) only for them to accept me as I am. Not fair to me. I prefer to be alone.

Now here I am at 22 with a problematic and limited sex life. This affects me in all areas of my life. I never imagined that both regret not having sought more doctors to 17 years and have tried most treatments, after 17 is possible that some gain to 22.

I am a boy said to be beautiful (who says I'm beautiful not imagine my problems), with a bizarre body and a small penis. I feel like a freak.

And what do you think? I kill myself? or continue giving up sex? I'm really wanting to change. I'll start working out and look for a doctor to try more hormonal treatments. (I'm in another city and I can not search for what really wanted to help me).

What do you say about that? I try to accept me more and become more attractive and confident? or should i give up rather than emotional / sexual life? And the fact that I'm versatile and want to be top too? with a penis would not be so ridiculous?

I apologize for the huge text. But on this subject, I can not be objective.

 

[guy22br]

the boys that loved my penis both prefer be top and loved my ass too. haha.

 

[dereperez]

Hi there,

I sympathize with your issues here. However, if you really think about it, the way you treat potential suitors may be part of the problems too? You stated that you won't be with anyone you deem "ugly and also complexed", but then ramble on about being alone...

There is nothing wrong with choosing to be with only those we are attracted to, but one shouldn't (IMHO) set an extremely high bar for guys to reach, then complain about no one reaching them. If you want guys to look past what you feel are less than ideal appearance of yourself, then maybe you could do the same for others. Those "ugly" guys you mentioned were more than okay with your penis and were into you, but you didn't reciprocate the favor. It's going to be extremely difficult to find a mate if you're only "willing" to be with someone you deem as perfect in every which way. And even the guy that you had sex with, who you thought was hung (and I assume physically attractive), you turned him away...It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I think you should seek a therapist to work out your self-ridiculing thoughts. A professional would be able to help you appreciate and come to terms with your body image.

As for your penis size: what you described is not really small. Not everyone is porn star huge.

Good luck.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Dereperez is right. Guys clearly are interested in you yet you seem to push them away deciding for them you're not good enough. You're not going to find some magic pill that will change your penis and hips. Accept what you have and work with that.

 

[guy22br]

Hello. Thank you for your patience to read it all. I have looked a bit shallow and arrogant, but not quite. I have my reasons for not having been interested in guys who I said. One is very cute, smart and have things in common. The other not have much in common but a good person. But the two has passed and a busy sex life and I have a little trepidation. They have so complex it, and complexed people tend to accept any kind of person. So I do not know if they have HIV and I'm really scared. It is not prejudice, is fear. And there are other factors as well.
I think people should not accept anyone for just afraid of not finding someone. Of course if you are not a beautiful and perfect face, you should be less select about it. However take any of a problem. It is necessary that you have at least some interest in the person, and do not speak in physical attraction. Anyway, I'm just clarifying.

 

[guy22br]

Yes, I actually end up pushing the guys think you do not deserve them too. So I need to improve my confidence to not end up deciding for them and isolating me. You're right and I'm really trying to change these my fears.

 

[RaKroma]

What you describe is not a micro-penis but just an average size penis. Millions of men have 5 inch penises. No cream or hormones is going to change your penis size. You need to seek therapy so you can learn to accept your body the way it is. You will not have healthy relationships with any guy if you can't accept and love yourself. So you need to fix what's inside your head about self perception. One your self esteem is built up, you will have an easier time allowing guys to like you just the way you are.

 

[cocksucker4use]

What you describe is not a micro-penis but just an average size penis. Millions of men have 5 inch penises. No cream or hormones is going to change your penis size. You need to seek therapy so you can learn to accept your body the way it is. You will not have healthy relationships with any guy if you can't accept and love yourself. So you need to fix what's inside your head about self perception. One your self esteem is built up, you will have an easier time allowing guys to like you just the way you are.

This is good advice. You can see a dozen endocrinologists, and try different treatments, which as you say, won't change your physical characteristics at this point. Think about finding a therapist and work on your self-esteem and feeling comfortable, appreciating your body. No matter what size penis, how well-proportioned, there are people who are unhappy with their bodies. No amount of plastic surgery, enhancement, working out will make you love your body. That has to come from within. Nothing is sexier than confidence.