So confused...

[curiousmike21]

I am so confused with my sexuality and really do not know if I am gay. I have never been with a guy before and do not actually think I would ever be in a relationship with a man, but I fantasize about gay sex all the time and really want to suck a cock. I really don't know if I am gay straight or what.

The reason I am not totally sure if i'm gay is when I am out walking around going to bars and clubs I never find myself checking out the men, I am constantly looking at pretty girls and can not seem to turn away from them. I do not find men attractive, but when I am horny I just really crave a cock. Most of the porn I watch is Gay/transexual and lesbian porn. I never watch straight porn it just doesn't do anything for me. After I finish my gay masturbation session I just feel guilty and wonder what the heck I was just doing.

I just do not know what to do, could it be that I am just into the female looks of the body, but the male sex organ? If that would be the case, being with a transexual would be ideal, but isn't that just weird? I have considered many times meeting up with a transexual escort, but really havn't gone through with this. I am always so scared to get caught, but maybe I should just suck it up and go through with it. When I fantasize about this I always envision myself as the bottom and the first thing I would do was go straight for her cock with my mouth.

Does anyone relate to this at all? My gay urges are only ever when I am alone and at home. It is strange when I am out and see a good looking guy I say to myself can I see myself ever having sex with a man like him... the answer is always noway. How can I not be attracted to men, find women completely beautiful, only ever picture myself in a relationship with women, but crave gay sex all the time?

please help

 

[easyroad]

I am so confused with my sexuality and really do not know if I am gay. I have never been with a guy before and do not actually think I would ever be in a relationship with a man, but I fantasize about gay sex all the time and really want to suck a cock. I really don't know if I am gay straight or what.

The reason I am not totally sure if i'm gay is when I am out walking around going to bars and clubs I never find myself checking out the men, I am constantly looking at pretty girls and can not seem to turn away from them. I do not find men attractive, but when I am horny I just really crave a cock. Most of the porn I watch is Gay/transexual and lesbian porn. I never watch straight porn it just doesn't do anything for me. After I finish my gay masturbation session I just feel guilty and wonder what the heck I was just doing.

I just do not know what to do, could it be that I am just into the female looks of the body, but the male sex organ? If that would be the case, being with a transexual would be ideal, but isn't that just weird? I have considered many times meeting up with a transexual escort, but really havn't gone through with this. I am always so scared to get caught, but maybe I should just suck it up and go through with it. When I fantasize about this I always envision myself as the bottom and the first thing I would do was go straight for her cock with my mouth.

Does anyone relate to this at all? How can I not be attracted to men, find women completely beautiful, only ever picture myself in a relationship with women, but crave gay sex all the time?

please help

I think you'll be fine on JUB. What you said is familiar territory around here. There are many threads from bisexuals who don't find men attractive but like dicks or getting fucked... but maybe that's not the case here.

Question: do you only watch transexual porn or does "gay/transexual" also include men-on-men? If you watch men-on-men porn, then it doesn't make sense that you're not attracted to men - after all, if you're only interested in the guy's dick, you might as well watch straight porn since that's all they show from him. If that's not the case, then you have a transexual fantasy - and that's completely normal. It's even said that transexuals are desired mostly by straight men.

Also: your relationship with women - is it sexual or platonic? In your post you described women as "pretty", "beautiful" and claimed wanting to be in a relationship, but it all seems a bit... chaste.

 

[mark08]

I am so confused with my sexuality and really do not know if I am gay. I have never been with a guy before and do not actually think I would ever be in a relationship with a man, but I fantasize about gay sex all the time and really want to suck a cock. I really don't know if I am gay straight or what.

The reason I am not totally sure if i'm gay is when I am out walking around going to bars and clubs I never find myself checking out the men, I am constantly looking at pretty girls and can not seem to turn away from them. I do not find men attractive, but when I am horny I just really crave a cock. Most of the porn I watch is Gay/transexual and lesbian porn. I never watch straight porn it just doesn't do anything for me. After I finish my gay masturbation session I just feel guilty and wonder what the heck I was just doing.

I just do not know what to do, could it be that I am just into the female looks of the body, but the male sex organ? If that would be the case, being with a transexual would be ideal, but isn't that just weird? I have considered many times meeting up with a transexual escort, but really havn't gone through with this. I am always so scared to get caught, but maybe I should just suck it up and go through with it. When I fantasize about this I always envision myself as the bottom and the first thing I would do was go straight for her cock with my mouth.

Does anyone relate to this at all? My gay urges are only ever when I am alone and at home. It is strange when I am out and see a good looking guy I say to myself can I see myself ever having sex with a man like him... the answer is always noway. How can I not be attracted to men, find women completely beautiful, only ever picture myself in a relationship with women, but crave gay sex all the time?

please help

Lots of guys go through that because of porn addiction. At first you see a pic of boobs and get hard, then its videos, then hardcore anal, then bdsm, etc... and it can def lead to watching gay sex because its so ''tabboo' and you need it to get off. Like all addictions, you need to up the dosage to get the same effects.

Environnement can definitely have an effect on guys seeking out gay sex (internet, not getting laid with girls, etc.). If you're attracted to women physically and would never ever think about being in a relationship with a guy, then you're straight.

You have so curious thoughts, that's about it. My advise would be to either quit all forms of porn and see how that works, or try getting a cock down your throat and ass then afterwards see if it's for you or not.

 

[curiousmike21]

I think you'll be fine on JUB. What you said is familiar territory around here. There are many threads from bisexuals who don't find men attractive but like dicks or getting fucked... but maybe that's not the case here.

Question: do you only watch transexual porn or does "gay/transexual" also include men-on-men? If you watch men-on-men porn, then it doesn't make sense that you're not attracted to men - after all, if you're only interested in the guy's dick, you might as well watch straight porn since that's all they show from him. If that's not the case, then you have a transexual fantasy - and that's completely normal. It's even said that transexuals are desired mostly by straight men.

Also: your relationship with women - is it sexual or platonic? In your post you described women as "pretty", "beautiful" and claimed wanting to be in a relationship, but it all seems a bit... chaste.

yeah I have watched men-on-men porn as well, the idea of gay sex turns me on. But seeing a guy by himself does not do anything for me. Seeing 2 guys do anything sexual at all gets me off.

I have only ever been in a relationship with 1 girl in my life for about 5 years or so and it was on a sexual and platonic level. I guess the sex was ok nothing spectacular. And I was absolutely devastating/heart broken when it ended.

Lots of guys go through that because of porn addiction. At first you see a pic of boobs and get hard, then its videos, then hardcore anal, then bdsm, etc... and it can def lead to watching gay sex because its so ''tabboo' and you need it to get off. Like all addictions, you need to up the dosage to get the same effects.

Environnement can definitely have an effect on guys seeking out gay sex (internet, not getting laid with girls, etc.). If you're attracted to women physically and would never ever think about being in a relationship with a guy, then you're straight.

You have so curious thoughts, that's about it. My advise would be to either quit all forms of porn and see how that works, or try getting a cock down your throat and ass then afterwards see if it's for you or not.

This makes alot of sense because my porn watching habits started out strictly as lesbian porn for a long period of time and gradually grew in to transexual and gay porn. Yeah starting off with pictures then videos just wanting to see something more to get me off. This helps thanks.

Maybe i'll try quitting porn for awhile and see what happens, but that is so hard to do. And maybe I will go ahead and try an experience with a TS escort and see if it is for me.

Thanks both of you for your help, it definitely makes sense to me.

 

[Curiosity69]

I'm sort of similar but without the transexual thing. I do find some straight porn hot however. I like watching girls blow guys, I find that hotter than guys blowing guys, it just seems hotter to me. I've never checked out a guy in public/pool/beach, I don't know why. It's not like I'm forcing myself not to do it, I just never do it, I always check out women. I love women, I fell in love with one which I am still in love with after our year relationship ended, and I love everything about their bodies and their minds and I never want to be with a guy in a relationship, I want to be with a woman because I like that we're different and everything.

It does seem like it's just to do with porn. That's really the only place I've been interested in guys, just porn and fantasies sometimes.

Remember if you try something you might regret it more than never trying something, so don't just go ahead and do it because it could be the worst thing you've done. So just go with the flow and if it comes down to it you'll make the choice based on your heart and see what happens.

Seriously though it could just be a curiosity porn thing, there is probably a surprising amount of straight guys that go through this when they're in their teens but no one tells.

 

[stevexxx]

Your Gay..end of story

 

[Curiosity69]

Your Gay..end of story

You should leave this forum, you don't post anything of substance or intelligence.

 

[stevexxx]

You should leave this forum, you don't post anything of substance or intelligence.

of course i do. let me explain... if you crave dick you are at least bi-curious leaning to the straight side. why? because you do not have an emotional connection to men. meaning you would not pursue a relationship with someone of the same gender but you crave a dick. you are probably curious how a dick feels up your ass (or in your mouth) because you never felt the real thing only substitutes such as a dildo or a strap-on. this would leave you curious enough to think how a real dick feels either anally or orally. The transgendered is abnormal in my opinion but hey that's you and you do what drives you. but you are on an emotional level with women and find them as more suitable life partners as opposed to a man. i don't think you are attracted to men but just their dick. Don't worry there is nothing wrong with ya buddy. you are as perfect as the way you are. if you didn't like what you like, do what you do, and be how you be, then you wouldn't be you.

 

[Scottf]

Hey, I can see where your coming from and I used to be the same myself. Though I'm straight and would only ever want to be intimate with my gf, I used to and still do to a level really get turned on by gay porn etc and do have a curiosity toward other guys, wich kinda started as a comparison thing, what do they have that i don't? This said, when out i would never get attracted to or really even pay any attention to other guys, but when Im back in bed alone gay sex or just other naked guys can get me aroused, though not as much anymore. It's difficult to say really and just depends how you feel toward each gender I guess. If your not sure if your gay then like talk to any gay mates, a friend would be much better than anyone else, if just talking about it can be arousing enough then try it, but take it slow. Don't go straight to sex, start small and work your way up. I never had this experience, I was never turned on by the idea of having sex with a guy myself, just watching it.

Hope that can be some help dude, if you need a chat ever feel free to send me a private message

~Scott

 

[Curiosity69]

of course i do. let me explain... if you crave dick you are at least bi-curious leaning to the straight side. why? because you do not have an emotional connection to men. meaning you would not pursue a relationship with someone of the same gender but you crave a dick. you are probably curious how a dick feels up your ass (or in your mouth) because you never felt the real thing only substitutes such as a dildo or a strap-on. this would leave you curious enough to think how a real dick feels either anally or orally. The transgendered is abnormal in my opinion but hey that's you and you do what drives you. but you are on an emotional level with women and find them as more suitable life partners as opposed to a man. i don't think you are attracted to men but just their dick. Don't worry there is nothing wrong with ya buddy. you are as perfect as the way you are. if you didn't like what you like, do what you do, and be how you be, then you wouldn't be you.

See what you said there was OK, I'm not the OP by the way, I didn't start the thread, so I don't have the tranny thing. I don't think the OP is gay at all because he wouldn't be attracted to women as much as he is, which is why I thought your comment was stupid. It's quite possible he's definitely bi and not just curious but it's up to him to make the decision.

 

[easyroad]

The beauty of porn on the internet is that it's much easier to go - not just to ~the~ other side, but to TONS of other sides: transgender, BDSM, tickling, balloons, anything that you desire. You can find yourself in what you watch. That happened to me, I used to watch straight porn all the time because I thought that's all there was - until I got my own computer with internet and all that changed.

But when you watch a LOT of porn, there comes a point where you know what you like. You can watch a ton of things, but those you keep coming back to -- that's where the truth lies. Recently I got off watching a Skinemax show because the guy was really hot, but it was quite meh compared to what gay porn makes me feel.

So curiousmike, if you don't feel ready to go for the real thing, maybe you should keep watching your porn and eventually you'll figure it out. You might even grow tired of it, like scottf. Take the videos you really like, think about the best things about them and look for similar ones. As long as porn doesn't take a lot of your free time, you have nothing to feel ashamed about.

 

[stevexxx]

See what you said there was OK, I'm not the OP by the way, I didn't start the thread, so I don't have the tranny thing. I don't think the OP is gay at all because he wouldn't be attracted to women as much as he is, which is why I thought your comment was stupid. It's quite possible he's definitely bi and not just curious but it's up to him to make the decision.

"OK"....really

 

[curiousmike21]

thanks guys for your help... yeah it might just be a porn thing, it might not. Still unsure, I may just go ahead and try it and see if it is for me. Easy for me to say that when I am at home in front of my computer. But I really don't know if I will go through with it.

 

[Marqovuu]

You sound Pansexual to me.

I'm kind of like you. When it comes to sex I like both male and female, but the type of sex is different between the two.

Men are purely for lust and nothing more. I don't see myself ever in a relationship with a man and I think the furthest I'd go (for a while) would be oral for the most part. The most romantic I'd be with a guy is spooning or cuddling at the end.

Women are different. While I do lust after them I'm looking more for actual love/relationships with them.

So yeah, I think you're just more open. You see sex as both something you do for love and something you do for pure pleasure.

As long as you cum at the end and feels good who cares if it's a man or woman who gets you to it.

 

[nycollegehunk]

I'm with you all the way-

I'm turned on by guys physically but not emotionally, and I can't see myself dating one. But I'm turned on physically AND emotionally by girls. I've been confused as to what I "am," and knowing my personality I always have to have a name for something.

But this really cleared up some of my thoughts- thanks guys!

 

[pablo6989]

You sound Pansexual to me.

I'm kind of like you. When it comes to sex I like both male and female, but the type of sex is different between the two.

Men are purely for lust and nothing more. I don't see myself ever in a relationship with a man and I think the furthest I'd go (for a while) would be oral for the most part. The most romantic I'd be with a guy is spooning or cuddling at the end.

Women are different. While I do lust after them I'm looking more for actual love/relationships with them.

So yeah, I think you're just more open. You see sex as both something you do for love and something you do for pure pleasure.

As long as you cum at the end and feels good who cares if it's a man or woman who gets you to it.

I feel the same. But also I think it's more complicated. Generally I have strong fantasies about sex with men but for example no so much guys turn me on in fact. I have some personal types of man of my dreams- that's it. Oridinary guys doesn't turn me on...

But if met perfect guy I think would be hard to resist for me

 

[pablo6989]

Fixed.

Not just for OP, but a number of others in this thread as well.

I dont agree.
Its just a deep simplification of all these cases saying "you are gay".

But its neverending discussion....

 

[conrad]

I read all the posts and come to the conclusion that it is unwise to define yourself and your sexuality too soom in life.

Relax, and let it all happen the way it has for thousands of years. For those in the present time I have a feeling that everything would be much more pleasant if everyone just started out with being a friend to others generally. You may be surprised that the person you bond with is of the same sex as yourself. And, if you do reach the point where you an your friend have sex, the sex will serve to confirm the bond that already exists between you and your friend.

And, if it is a guy and you are a guy having sex will not make you gay. You may discover in time that when you have bonded in friendship with a girl and the sex happens naturally that this is the dominant part of your sexuality.

In my own life I found it wise never to attempt to have an active sex life with both a male and a female partner.

Words like love and relationship, and trust and honesty will take on deeper meanings as you journey into the fullness of what your sexuality turns out to be.