starwars
Virgin
Ok before i get started i want everyone to know that my family is as weird as fuck, ok...
1) from a very young age i collected barbie dolls and used to dress up in my sisters dresses and use toothpaste as makeup (feel free to laugh this was when i was in my 4 - 8 year old period)
2) i have never openly had any interest in girls to my families knowledge, even though when i have had girlfriends i have not bothered to tell my family
3) during a big argument after mom and dad split up (about 1.5 years) my mom shouts to me ''and i think your gay''. (this would be at age 12)
4) my actually very understanding dad always says that i inherited most of my moms genes as oppossed to his
5) at the age of 13 my mom agrees to have broadband installed at the house while i am at school, but while im at school the internet man needed to install in on the comp and needed my password, thinking nothing of it i gave her the password over the phone. and to my horror when i returned home she was angry and started shouting about the internet man and her finding ''filthy images'' on the comp (i had some gay stuff on the comp that i thought was well hidden, by this time i knew i was gay). she went on to say how embarrassed she was when he found them. shortly after she asks ''does ya' dad know'' to which i reply NO, believing that she knows im gay.
she then tells me that she wants everything deleted and that she would have minded a little bit but 'apparently' the stash had eaten up a good percentage of the hard drive (i was 13 and horny) luckily at the time she knew nothing of computer and i deleted it all but instead of accessing the file it was in i just deleted all of My Pictures that had various SW and LOTR images in as well, so i spared her from seeing these pics ever again as i really didnt want to put her through it, she then tells me it will be our secret. I NEVER HEARD ANYTHING ABOUT THIS MATTER MENTIONED AGAIN UNTIL...
6) when this same computer broke she called round a friend to fix it and while he is upstairs fixing it i asked her if she wanted a drink she jokingly said ''he aint gonna find anythin rude is he'' to which i jokingly reply ''no''
7) it was also mentioned again at somepoint but i hit back straightaway with the fact that i had found one of hers and her boyfriends special DVD's, which made her shutup right away
8) at some point during another argument she threatens to tell my dad and gets her phone out and texts him, but he has never mentioned anything to me about it and is still his normal self.
9) one night my sister tells mom she is bisexual (note: my sister does not know either) and mom hits the roof, telling dad with both me and my sis in the other room listening, my dad is his jokey self about it and manages to laugh it off but mom gets into an anger surge and retreats to her bedroom for the week (ehy would she not have done this with me)
10) mom is always on about me having/getting girlfriends, to which i just go along with.
so that was all the evidence do we think they know or dont they, i wont ask them though through feer that they dont know, i had it into my head for a while that me mom was lying about seeing the pics on the comp, and 5 years on nothing has changed in our family relationships, so please fire away
1) from a very young age i collected barbie dolls and used to dress up in my sisters dresses and use toothpaste as makeup (feel free to laugh this was when i was in my 4 - 8 year old period)
2) i have never openly had any interest in girls to my families knowledge, even though when i have had girlfriends i have not bothered to tell my family
3) during a big argument after mom and dad split up (about 1.5 years) my mom shouts to me ''and i think your gay''. (this would be at age 12)
4) my actually very understanding dad always says that i inherited most of my moms genes as oppossed to his
5) at the age of 13 my mom agrees to have broadband installed at the house while i am at school, but while im at school the internet man needed to install in on the comp and needed my password, thinking nothing of it i gave her the password over the phone. and to my horror when i returned home she was angry and started shouting about the internet man and her finding ''filthy images'' on the comp (i had some gay stuff on the comp that i thought was well hidden, by this time i knew i was gay). she went on to say how embarrassed she was when he found them. shortly after she asks ''does ya' dad know'' to which i reply NO, believing that she knows im gay.
she then tells me that she wants everything deleted and that she would have minded a little bit but 'apparently' the stash had eaten up a good percentage of the hard drive (i was 13 and horny) luckily at the time she knew nothing of computer and i deleted it all but instead of accessing the file it was in i just deleted all of My Pictures that had various SW and LOTR images in as well, so i spared her from seeing these pics ever again as i really didnt want to put her through it, she then tells me it will be our secret. I NEVER HEARD ANYTHING ABOUT THIS MATTER MENTIONED AGAIN UNTIL...
6) when this same computer broke she called round a friend to fix it and while he is upstairs fixing it i asked her if she wanted a drink she jokingly said ''he aint gonna find anythin rude is he'' to which i jokingly reply ''no''
7) it was also mentioned again at somepoint but i hit back straightaway with the fact that i had found one of hers and her boyfriends special DVD's, which made her shutup right away
8) at some point during another argument she threatens to tell my dad and gets her phone out and texts him, but he has never mentioned anything to me about it and is still his normal self.
9) one night my sister tells mom she is bisexual (note: my sister does not know either) and mom hits the roof, telling dad with both me and my sis in the other room listening, my dad is his jokey self about it and manages to laugh it off but mom gets into an anger surge and retreats to her bedroom for the week (ehy would she not have done this with me)
10) mom is always on about me having/getting girlfriends, to which i just go along with.
so that was all the evidence do we think they know or dont they, i wont ask them though through feer that they dont know, i had it into my head for a while that me mom was lying about seeing the pics on the comp, and 5 years on nothing has changed in our family relationships, so please fire away



















