I am starting this blog at what I consider to be a low point. I say this because I am struggling a bit financially at the moment and I am also feeling quite lonely at the same time. But I think that it's more the lonliness that is getting to me then the financial difficulties. I recently bought my own place as opposed to renting one, which is the reason for the financial problems.
I've been wanting to find someone to share life with and enjoy eachother's company. But for me that is more difficult than it sounds. I haven't had the best of luck when it comes to relationships. But I don't want to go into details about that. I guess I should have made more careful chioces and thought more with my head.
There are a lot of cute looking guys out there, the only problem is knowing if they are gay or not. I have a few crushes but those don't seem to be going anywhere. Even though I try to throw very subtle hints or try to break the ice.
Sometimes I feel that I don't fit in here. Everyone wants a model. When I chat and mention my age or weight I get dropped like a hot potatoe. I'm 30 and have a 38 waist. Sometimes I think of just forgetting abou chatting and not bothering.](/images/smilies/bang.gif "Brick wall ](*,)")
On a positive note I recieved my digital camera. I got it by obtaining Amazon gift certificates for helping in an evaluation program. It's a 6.3 megapixel camera. I have been trying it out throught the weekend and I am quite happy with it.
Tomorrow is another day, let's see what happens. Maybe my luck will change.
I've been wanting to find someone to share life with and enjoy eachother's company. But for me that is more difficult than it sounds. I haven't had the best of luck when it comes to relationships. But I don't want to go into details about that. I guess I should have made more careful chioces and thought more with my head.
There are a lot of cute looking guys out there, the only problem is knowing if they are gay or not. I have a few crushes but those don't seem to be going anywhere. Even though I try to throw very subtle hints or try to break the ice.
Sometimes I feel that I don't fit in here. Everyone wants a model. When I chat and mention my age or weight I get dropped like a hot potatoe. I'm 30 and have a 38 waist. Sometimes I think of just forgetting abou chatting and not bothering.
On a positive note I recieved my digital camera. I got it by obtaining Amazon gift certificates for helping in an evaluation program. It's a 6.3 megapixel camera. I have been trying it out throught the weekend and I am quite happy with it.
Tomorrow is another day, let's see what happens. Maybe my luck will change.