So yea, like the title says, earlier this morning, I had my first homosexual experience with another guy. I'm straight, or at least I thought/think i'm straight, so this was unusual. Anyway, I needed a place to document all of this, as I don't really have any friends i can talk to about this, and not part of any online community where I can. So yea. Also, after i'm done classes, i'll look over this, as I'm pretty sure there are some grammar mistakes I made as I wrote all of this in one go.
Anyway, I’m a straight guy, and I like sex, like lots of sex. And because of, this I go through flashes of horniness when I just want to have sex. Normal for a guy right. Usually I cure this by going on tinder, or trying my best to call up a booty call, but most nights just settle for watching porn and beating off. Lately, I would journey outside my normal porn routine of girls, and would at times venture onto other things. Cartoon/Hentai, Transsexual, Gay, I don’t know, but these things would end up helping me get off. However, for the past three months, I’ve become fixated on dick. I don’t know, but I would watch gay porn, and pay attention to how the dick would enter a person, and gyrate in and out. It wasn’t just gay porn, as transsexual porn also got me off. I don’t know, but something about a dick during sex would get me off a little bit. At times, I caught myself stroking my dick during a beat of sessions, and would stare mesmerized at my dick, thinking to myself how badly I wanted to suck it, which would make my mouth slightly water. Eventually, during some sessions, I would squeeze my butt, imagining how it would be for a dick to slide up my cheeks. Almost every time, once I came, this sex high would go away, and I would just say wtf was wrong with me, and go about my day/night. However, earlier today, something came over me. I During a session, I thought about getting fucked, and this made me think about making this into reality. I was still hard, so my high was still there, and I download the grindr app, and posted on craigslist on the personal section. I took pictures of my butt and body, and posted with the title, “virgin, wanna be fucked.” Was hoping to get straight to the point.
About me first. I’m 5’10, African American, 175, with an athletic body due to playing on my university basketball team, and going to the gym. While body looks good for a male around my age, I’m very conscious about my butts. Throughout my years in highschool, and recently years in University, friends of both sexes at one point or the other have made a comment of how bubbly my butt was. In the beginning I didn’t pay attention to it, but recently, when these thoughts would come to my mind, I would think about it, and touch my ass during a single session. After a while, I noticed that my globes were kind roundish, and that if I sapped it, it would jiggle. This made me fearful of ever going to prison lol. Anyway, After I showered and took care of everything, I received about 10 replies from the email I used for the cragslist post. 6 of them had pictures, so I just looked through those to see which one to pic. Eventually, I chose this black guy who sent his body and dick picture with DL in the title. His dick from the picture looked about 7 inches, uncut, and I don’t know wtf was wrong with me but looking at it made my mouth water. I gave him my address after a few back and forth, and waited for about 30 minutes getting antsier by the minute. Eventually, he sent another email saying he was outside, and I dimmed the lights in the house and went out to let him in. He was about three inches taller than me, and a bit more muscular, but also had a little beer belly coming through. I didn’t really look him in the eyes as I was really uncomfortable about this. I led him to my room and to my bed, and he took his clothes off while he motioned me to take off my shorts. After that, he stood in front of me and started playing with his dick while looking at me. “Go ahead,” were his words. I went to my knees, and started sucking him off. I’ve never done this. Never touches another guys dick, let alone put one in my mouth. This was definitely a gay experience, and I don’t know what came over me. During this, there were half moments of me not wanting to this and say forget it, and another half somewhat enjoying pleasing this guy. It was weird, and I don’t know, but I enjoyed pleasing this guy. This went on for about 6-7 minutes, when he told me to laydown on my back on the bed. He knelt down and took something from his jeans pocket, was looked like a small tube, and I had assumed was lube. He took my legs and spread them apart, and started to play with my pelvic area (had to tense up as I’m very ticklish in that area.) Eventually he began sliding his finger up and my ass crack from my balls, and I would feel him do a small press when his finger would reach my ass hole. Eventually, he looked at me and asked if I was ready. In my mind I just said might as well get this over with, and said yea.
So he pushed my leg towards me where my left knee was to my chest, and my right leg was on his shoulder. He then started to play with my hole with his fingers for a while. He took the tube of lube from under us and squeezed what felt like a hole cup of it. The cold gel was unusual, but not as unusual as when his hand began to play with my hole even more. I felt his fingers slide up and became tense. My sphincter tightened around his finger, and I felt him probing my ass from the inside with it. After a minute or two of this, he pulled out his finger and lowered himself onto me. I could feel his dick at the entrance of my ass, and after a second of hesitation, started to push himself inside.
It hurt like bitch. The minute his cock head stretched my sphincter, I let out a sound of pain and he pulled out. My ass immediately became tense, and I could feel a slight burning feeling, as I felt as if my ass was about to tear. It hurt like a bitch. The minute I yelped he stopped and pulled out a few inches from me. He looked at me and told me to relax, and pushed my left leg even further to my chest. He then aimed his cock again at my hole, and began to slowly enter himself. I felt the stretching pain, and again my ass tightened, but he didn’t stop. He kept going inch my inch, and with the amount of lube he used, he was winning. I felt inch by inch enter me, and while I have said this already, it hurt like a bitch. His dick was filling me up, and after a couple more second, he was completely in me. He stayed inside for me for what felt like a couple of minutes. He looked at me in the eyes and smiled, then buried his head into my neck and started sucking on it. Normally, this is a good feeling when girls do it, but I couldn’t enjoy it as I felt him begin to move. He began to gyrate slowly back and forth, and with each thrust, came pain and a very uncomfortable feeling. I wasn’t enjoying this, and my ass at no point relaxed. But with the lube, and his persistence, he had as mush access as he wanted. He eventually began to slowly increase speed, and it just made the experience even more uncomfortable. Then, he pulled up from my neck, and with the pain from what was going on distracting me, went down and began to kiss me. The shock of what was happening didn’t allow mw to react in time, and I could feel his tongue trying to probe his way in. Even with his dick in my ass, I didn’t plan on kissing, but there as no use saying no as he already was doing what he wanted. So I tried tensing my mouth, trying to give him as little access to my mouth as I could. This didn’t deter him as he continued with his kissing and thrusting. That’s when it happened. He took his left hand, and grabbed my right ass cheek under is and started massaging it. I don’t know what, or why, but that felt good, and relaxing, to the point that I ended up relaxing my mouth. He immediately took advantage and had full access to my mouth with his tongue. His fucking of me continued, but I don’t know. With the kissing, and my add massage, it didn’t hurt anymore, and I began to feel a little bit of pleasure. This went on for awhile, with me even reciprocating his tongue kissing. Then something happened which In which I completely went brain dead. He pulled away from my mouth, and went to my ear. “Can I do it with no condom”, he asked. I don’t know what happened, but for some reason, I just let out an “okay”. I heard him say thank god, and he rose up from me pulling his dick out. He took off his condom, and started to stoke it looking at me my legs spread on the bed. He took my legs and spread both of them with my knees. Then he let go of my left leg, and aimed his cock at my hole again. With less resistance from earlier, began to slide in. I could feel his uncircumcised cock head slip in, and eventually he was in again. He leaned forward, and with his left hand held my head and began to kiss me again while fucking me. It felt a little different without the condom, but still felt filling. I enjoyed it. He was pumping me, and I wrapped my hands around his back while he continued fucking me. He stopped kissing me and began whispering. “So fucking tight.” “I’m going to cum, let me cum in you.” All I said was go ahead. He then grabbed me tight, and began ramming me with his dick. The pain began to come back, but the pleasure was still there. I Kept letting out moans here and there, and for some reason, while my dick was hard, I began to think about the lube, and I could cum rising in me. For some reason I was thanking the lube for being able to feel his cock clip and slide out my ass, and began thinking things that I normally didn’t think about, such as how thick it was and how it much have looked entering me. I closed my eyes and wanted to savor each moment. After five of six more hard thrusts, he jammed his dick in me, I could feel my lower abdomen get warmer. He was cumming. It’s an unsual feeling when you let another guy nut in you fully. I could feel his dick soften, and he began to pull out. He was sweating a little, and was panting, and looked at me and said thanks. He then got up and put his clothes on. I just laid there in the bed with the cum dripping out my ass hole. Once he was dressed, he just asked if I could let him out and I obliged by getting out and leading him out the door to my house.
After he was gone, I just sat on my bed like “what the fuck is wrong with you. You aren’t gay, and that wasn’t fun.” I decided on going to bed and trying to forget about it, but before I would, I would just do what I should have done earlier before going through with this and beat off, as I still wanted to cum. Went to the bathroom, and started doing the deed, when the thoughts of what happened came. Instead of the usual girl in my mind, I imagined getting fucked, and with my eyes closed kept telling myself “you enjoyed that didn’t you. Enjoyed his thick cock in you. That thick cock fucking you, all up in your ass.” While stroking my dick, I began bending over, and spreading my ass with the other hand, then began fingering it. This made me cum, and I just shot my load on the tub. After that, I just went to bed, and woke up and wrote this. Also, I think “thick” is trigger word for me now.
Anyway, I’m a straight guy, and I like sex, like lots of sex. And because of, this I go through flashes of horniness when I just want to have sex. Normal for a guy right. Usually I cure this by going on tinder, or trying my best to call up a booty call, but most nights just settle for watching porn and beating off. Lately, I would journey outside my normal porn routine of girls, and would at times venture onto other things. Cartoon/Hentai, Transsexual, Gay, I don’t know, but these things would end up helping me get off. However, for the past three months, I’ve become fixated on dick. I don’t know, but I would watch gay porn, and pay attention to how the dick would enter a person, and gyrate in and out. It wasn’t just gay porn, as transsexual porn also got me off. I don’t know, but something about a dick during sex would get me off a little bit. At times, I caught myself stroking my dick during a beat of sessions, and would stare mesmerized at my dick, thinking to myself how badly I wanted to suck it, which would make my mouth slightly water. Eventually, during some sessions, I would squeeze my butt, imagining how it would be for a dick to slide up my cheeks. Almost every time, once I came, this sex high would go away, and I would just say wtf was wrong with me, and go about my day/night. However, earlier today, something came over me. I During a session, I thought about getting fucked, and this made me think about making this into reality. I was still hard, so my high was still there, and I download the grindr app, and posted on craigslist on the personal section. I took pictures of my butt and body, and posted with the title, “virgin, wanna be fucked.” Was hoping to get straight to the point.
About me first. I’m 5’10, African American, 175, with an athletic body due to playing on my university basketball team, and going to the gym. While body looks good for a male around my age, I’m very conscious about my butts. Throughout my years in highschool, and recently years in University, friends of both sexes at one point or the other have made a comment of how bubbly my butt was. In the beginning I didn’t pay attention to it, but recently, when these thoughts would come to my mind, I would think about it, and touch my ass during a single session. After a while, I noticed that my globes were kind roundish, and that if I sapped it, it would jiggle. This made me fearful of ever going to prison lol. Anyway, After I showered and took care of everything, I received about 10 replies from the email I used for the cragslist post. 6 of them had pictures, so I just looked through those to see which one to pic. Eventually, I chose this black guy who sent his body and dick picture with DL in the title. His dick from the picture looked about 7 inches, uncut, and I don’t know wtf was wrong with me but looking at it made my mouth water. I gave him my address after a few back and forth, and waited for about 30 minutes getting antsier by the minute. Eventually, he sent another email saying he was outside, and I dimmed the lights in the house and went out to let him in. He was about three inches taller than me, and a bit more muscular, but also had a little beer belly coming through. I didn’t really look him in the eyes as I was really uncomfortable about this. I led him to my room and to my bed, and he took his clothes off while he motioned me to take off my shorts. After that, he stood in front of me and started playing with his dick while looking at me. “Go ahead,” were his words. I went to my knees, and started sucking him off. I’ve never done this. Never touches another guys dick, let alone put one in my mouth. This was definitely a gay experience, and I don’t know what came over me. During this, there were half moments of me not wanting to this and say forget it, and another half somewhat enjoying pleasing this guy. It was weird, and I don’t know, but I enjoyed pleasing this guy. This went on for about 6-7 minutes, when he told me to laydown on my back on the bed. He knelt down and took something from his jeans pocket, was looked like a small tube, and I had assumed was lube. He took my legs and spread them apart, and started to play with my pelvic area (had to tense up as I’m very ticklish in that area.) Eventually he began sliding his finger up and my ass crack from my balls, and I would feel him do a small press when his finger would reach my ass hole. Eventually, he looked at me and asked if I was ready. In my mind I just said might as well get this over with, and said yea.
So he pushed my leg towards me where my left knee was to my chest, and my right leg was on his shoulder. He then started to play with my hole with his fingers for a while. He took the tube of lube from under us and squeezed what felt like a hole cup of it. The cold gel was unusual, but not as unusual as when his hand began to play with my hole even more. I felt his fingers slide up and became tense. My sphincter tightened around his finger, and I felt him probing my ass from the inside with it. After a minute or two of this, he pulled out his finger and lowered himself onto me. I could feel his dick at the entrance of my ass, and after a second of hesitation, started to push himself inside.
It hurt like bitch. The minute his cock head stretched my sphincter, I let out a sound of pain and he pulled out. My ass immediately became tense, and I could feel a slight burning feeling, as I felt as if my ass was about to tear. It hurt like a bitch. The minute I yelped he stopped and pulled out a few inches from me. He looked at me and told me to relax, and pushed my left leg even further to my chest. He then aimed his cock again at my hole, and began to slowly enter himself. I felt the stretching pain, and again my ass tightened, but he didn’t stop. He kept going inch my inch, and with the amount of lube he used, he was winning. I felt inch by inch enter me, and while I have said this already, it hurt like a bitch. His dick was filling me up, and after a couple more second, he was completely in me. He stayed inside for me for what felt like a couple of minutes. He looked at me in the eyes and smiled, then buried his head into my neck and started sucking on it. Normally, this is a good feeling when girls do it, but I couldn’t enjoy it as I felt him begin to move. He began to gyrate slowly back and forth, and with each thrust, came pain and a very uncomfortable feeling. I wasn’t enjoying this, and my ass at no point relaxed. But with the lube, and his persistence, he had as mush access as he wanted. He eventually began to slowly increase speed, and it just made the experience even more uncomfortable. Then, he pulled up from my neck, and with the pain from what was going on distracting me, went down and began to kiss me. The shock of what was happening didn’t allow mw to react in time, and I could feel his tongue trying to probe his way in. Even with his dick in my ass, I didn’t plan on kissing, but there as no use saying no as he already was doing what he wanted. So I tried tensing my mouth, trying to give him as little access to my mouth as I could. This didn’t deter him as he continued with his kissing and thrusting. That’s when it happened. He took his left hand, and grabbed my right ass cheek under is and started massaging it. I don’t know what, or why, but that felt good, and relaxing, to the point that I ended up relaxing my mouth. He immediately took advantage and had full access to my mouth with his tongue. His fucking of me continued, but I don’t know. With the kissing, and my add massage, it didn’t hurt anymore, and I began to feel a little bit of pleasure. This went on for awhile, with me even reciprocating his tongue kissing. Then something happened which In which I completely went brain dead. He pulled away from my mouth, and went to my ear. “Can I do it with no condom”, he asked. I don’t know what happened, but for some reason, I just let out an “okay”. I heard him say thank god, and he rose up from me pulling his dick out. He took off his condom, and started to stoke it looking at me my legs spread on the bed. He took my legs and spread both of them with my knees. Then he let go of my left leg, and aimed his cock at my hole again. With less resistance from earlier, began to slide in. I could feel his uncircumcised cock head slip in, and eventually he was in again. He leaned forward, and with his left hand held my head and began to kiss me again while fucking me. It felt a little different without the condom, but still felt filling. I enjoyed it. He was pumping me, and I wrapped my hands around his back while he continued fucking me. He stopped kissing me and began whispering. “So fucking tight.” “I’m going to cum, let me cum in you.” All I said was go ahead. He then grabbed me tight, and began ramming me with his dick. The pain began to come back, but the pleasure was still there. I Kept letting out moans here and there, and for some reason, while my dick was hard, I began to think about the lube, and I could cum rising in me. For some reason I was thanking the lube for being able to feel his cock clip and slide out my ass, and began thinking things that I normally didn’t think about, such as how thick it was and how it much have looked entering me. I closed my eyes and wanted to savor each moment. After five of six more hard thrusts, he jammed his dick in me, I could feel my lower abdomen get warmer. He was cumming. It’s an unsual feeling when you let another guy nut in you fully. I could feel his dick soften, and he began to pull out. He was sweating a little, and was panting, and looked at me and said thanks. He then got up and put his clothes on. I just laid there in the bed with the cum dripping out my ass hole. Once he was dressed, he just asked if I could let him out and I obliged by getting out and leading him out the door to my house.
After he was gone, I just sat on my bed like “what the fuck is wrong with you. You aren’t gay, and that wasn’t fun.” I decided on going to bed and trying to forget about it, but before I would, I would just do what I should have done earlier before going through with this and beat off, as I still wanted to cum. Went to the bathroom, and started doing the deed, when the thoughts of what happened came. Instead of the usual girl in my mind, I imagined getting fucked, and with my eyes closed kept telling myself “you enjoyed that didn’t you. Enjoyed his thick cock in you. That thick cock fucking you, all up in your ass.” While stroking my dick, I began bending over, and spreading my ass with the other hand, then began fingering it. This made me cum, and I just shot my load on the tub. After that, I just went to bed, and woke up and wrote this. Also, I think “thick” is trigger word for me now.
