I can't believe I'm telling total strangers this online, but I bought my first dildo along with nipple clamps. It's 8 inches and thick with balls. I'm practicing sucking on it even though I'm having trouble with my gag reflex. I really want to learn to suck cock. It took some work, but with enough lube I was shocked that I got all 8 inches up my ass. It hurt at first, which I'm sure will be the case until I'm fully used to the feeling. I did start to enjoy having something so big up my ass so much that I can't wait to be with a man for the first time in my life. I can't believe I wasted my life being straight. I want to find the courage to admit I'm now gay and enjoy my new life. I'm right on the edge of swearing off pussy forever and worshipping big dicks.

