Tell Me About Your Post Holiday Blues

[PreTTy PeTe]

drink...................

 

[2243]

Post Holiday blues?

My blues come and worsen with the holidays unfortunately.

 

[Fucker29]

Surprisingly, this year, I didn't have holiday blues. I had a couple of extremely depressed days a week ago or so but...as usual, it comes and goes. Yeah, just like that.

 

[PreTTy PeTe]

Doesn’t that just postpone the inevitable?

You can’t stay drunk, can you?

death is inevitable

being numb is life........

 

[scrapple]

Post-holiday blues? If you're talking about the holidays, post-holiday would be January 2. I guess you're talking about post-Christmas blues.

 

[Ram]

I don't have post holiday blues. I quite glad they are gone.

 

[davy]

...



I’m listening

are you opera?

 

[12fear99]

Do not have any blues this year. Just ready for them to be over and get back to my regular routine in life.

 

[StlKj]

Christmas was uneventful and went by so quickly it did not even feel like a holiday. The family was splintered into little pockets of people eating all over the house, and my cousins' new boyfriends took places at the table that should have been held for older family members. My uncle is dying of cancer, so in the back of our minds there was this cloud that hovered over the event. It was gray outside, and there was little joy within. It served to remind me that the family members who get together are getting older, and fewer attend each year. My own father's health is not good, and seeing him stay by his brother's side during dinner after they spent 20 years not talking to each other made me both happy and sad. Giants of my youth, now worn and battered by age.

And by their sides, the women who have loved them most of their lives, and who will most likely outlast them. It reminded me that my little piece of the family line stops with me--I've given them no grandchildren they can seek joy in.

I love them all more each year as I realize how lucky I have them for another one. And at night, when everyone is asleep, and the visits are over, I feel cold and heavy about the years to come.
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So last night I stopped at the strip club and had a hottie on my lap to cheer me up.

Hey, whatever gets you through.

 

[StlKj]

I’m guessing only the first part is true -- at least the love and the caring in it.

But, if the second part is true, that’s good, too.

lol Actually, it's all true.

Cool thing--at the club I ran into someone who could probably pass for a brother to me. He came from many miles away so that he could "be gay" before going home to his area, where he "can't." Reminded me of how I used to be just like him, and also reminded me of how far I've come. It was kind of cool and reassuring. Made me enjoy the stripper even more.

And I just left you a comment, Kahaih. Thanks for this thread, and thanks for your response just now to my post. Ack, now I'm teary--God, I'm so gay.

 

[StlKj]

And, um, if you care to share your own experiences, there are others willing to listen as well. Yup, I noticed that wink in your first post.

 

[Rule-Of-Thirds]

I had the pre-holiday blues. Now that they're basically over I feel like a huge weight as been lifted off my shoulders. The lead up to the holidays stresses me out so much and can also make me feel so self-conscious and lonely.

 

[Golliwog]

The scarcity of light is very much a part of my seasonal affective disorder. So I buy the highest wattage bulbs I can afford, and turn them all on when I am home. How does this change anything?

Well, it makes my power bill go higher.

And my spirits likewise.

 

[StlKj]

Well, actually, after looking over my opening post, it reminded me of Frasier Crane, and I though, ‘what the hell, I’ll add his cheesy line just for kicks’.

But really, I am listening. It’s a tough time of year for lots of folks for lots of reasons.



Still, if you’re interested, as a non participant in the year’s end festivities, I do still get a touch of separation anxiety as folks go away and/or get tied up with their holiday gatherings.

Apart, but not a part?

 

[StlKj]

Well, one could look at it this way--since James is dead, it's very "Ghost of Christmas Past."