Taz
JUB Addict
It's been a big week for me. Found out on Tuesday that I had my SLS proficiencies this week, so I've been training like a madman for them. Last one is tomorrow and I think I'm up to it.
But my biggest moment was that I told the last of my three besties that I was gay earlier today. Got some Ice cream and went and sat on the beach with her, thankfully the sun decided to shine today
Like my other two friends she didn't believe me at first. "Really!?" "Yeah, really". Like I thought she was fine with it, she went on to say "that explains why we never got together"
I think coming out to her was the best experience I've had so far, because she actually wanted to talk about it. I haven't really gotten the chance to talk about it so it felt really good. I know that it shouldn't really change me, but I feel like its a new piece of me and I want to explore it and talk about it.
So we sat there and talked about me being gay and boys and things for a couple of hours, I think my favorite part was rating the surfer boys out of 10 as they wandered past
So that completes my list. All my most trusted friends know, and I'm not telling anyone else until I've told my parents.
I feel like I want to tell them now, because I don't want to have to lie anymore. But at the same time It still scares the hell out of me. I have no idea how my dad will react. I think I know how mum will but I can never be sure. The hardest part is that I have to go home to tell them, so I can't just chicken out if I don't feel comfortable.
My mind is a bit of a buzz at the moment. It's a mixture of relief and anxiety. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow after my test. Thanks for reading
But my biggest moment was that I told the last of my three besties that I was gay earlier today. Got some Ice cream and went and sat on the beach with her, thankfully the sun decided to shine today
Like my other two friends she didn't believe me at first. "Really!?" "Yeah, really". Like I thought she was fine with it, she went on to say "that explains why we never got together"
I think coming out to her was the best experience I've had so far, because she actually wanted to talk about it. I haven't really gotten the chance to talk about it so it felt really good. I know that it shouldn't really change me, but I feel like its a new piece of me and I want to explore it and talk about it.
So we sat there and talked about me being gay and boys and things for a couple of hours, I think my favorite part was rating the surfer boys out of 10 as they wandered past
So that completes my list. All my most trusted friends know, and I'm not telling anyone else until I've told my parents.
I feel like I want to tell them now, because I don't want to have to lie anymore. But at the same time It still scares the hell out of me. I have no idea how my dad will react. I think I know how mum will but I can never be sure. The hardest part is that I have to go home to tell them, so I can't just chicken out if I don't feel comfortable.
My mind is a bit of a buzz at the moment. It's a mixture of relief and anxiety. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow after my test. Thanks for reading