Troubles understanding my sexuality

[cuckndsuck]

Hi all. I have been fantasizing having sex with a guy since my teens. My fantasies always involve me in the bottom role - the guy penetrating me and me doing a blowjob. It's makes me horny thinking about letting a man to have me like a woman. Even wearing panties is a hot fantasy of me. I also tried fingering my ass which felt really good, no orgasm unfortunately. All of my fantasies are really hot and I have desire to act on them.

All is well up to this point. I have always had zero attraction for guys. Every time I see a guy I can not make myself think about having sex with him or doing ANYTHING intimate. Even when I am fantasizing all day about it and I go out and see guys, I try to force myself into thinking about how would it feel if this was the guy I had sex with but I just can't! The only thing I feel at the moment is shame and disgust. I also tried watching gay porn but it did not turn me on either.

Not sure what to do. I have urge to act on my fantasies and try it because it feels hot and makes me horny but at the same time I am not able to view a man as a sexual object. I have a GF and have been with women continuously since my teens.

Anyone else was in similar situation? Whit did you do?

 

[bi4rightguy]

Hi all. I have been fantasizing having sex with a guy since my teens. My fantasies always involve me in the bottom role - the guy penetrating me and me doing a blowjob. It's makes me horny thinking about letting a man to have me like a woman. Even wearing panties is a hot fantasy of me. I also tried fingering my ass which felt really good, no orgasm unfortunately. All of my fantasies are really hot and I have desire to act on them.

All is well up to this point. I have always had zero attraction for guys. Every time I see a guy I can not make myself think about having sex with him or doing ANYTHING intimate. Even when I am fantasizing all day about it and I go out and see guys, I try to force myself into thinking about how would it feel if this was the guy I had sex with but I just can't! The only thing I feel at the moment is shame and disgust. I also tried watching gay porn but it did not turn me on either.

Not sure what to do. I have urge to act on my fantasies and try it because it feels hot and makes me horny but at the same time I am not able to view a man as a sexual object. I have a GF and have been with women continuously since my teens.

Anyone else was in similar situation? Whit did you do?

You sound almost just like me, I have been Bi curious since i was maybe 19-20 after having a gf for a couple years. Not sure why or how it started to be honest. back then i would talk with guys on chats online and on phone but was always to nervous/scared to actually go meet them. Now that i am much older i kinda wish i would have when i was younger. But for me its always been a fear of meeting the wrong person, and now days that is something you should be cautious about even more. Lot of folks out there turn out not to be who we thought they was. I see it in male/female dating. I have a friend who has terrible times finding a real/decent guy.
But often when i am in bed with my gal, i will think about having a man come in and stick his hard big cock in my ass and fuck me so good while im eating my gf out or while im doing her. I so want to know what its like to suck a cock. Ive wanted to try that for years and years Its just like where do folks find these people to hook up. often i hear about like best guy friends getting dunk and hooking up, I don't have any male friends i would even consider doing that with. used to have a gay couple of friends that were together I should hooked up with them but never did.
I sometimes wonder what be like to find another bi couple and do a swap but it be male on male and female on female. my gal says shes a lil bi but never done anything either so that might be fun but again how and where do you find another couple?
For now i have to just enjoy every now and then my woman wearing a strap on fucking me while she jacks me off that is fun. but i know a Real Cock would feel different.