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I lived a gay life for years, but I found myself getting more and more attracted to women, so I decided to pursue it. Now I've discovered that I really enjoy having sex with women, more so than with men. The desires I'm now experiencing are the most intense of my life (I'm not so young). In many ways, I'm experiencing a season of joy in my life, going from woman to woman to woman.
But what am I now? Bi? But I've never seen a single thing in the media or elsewhere portraying a bi man in a favorable light. And a lot of women won't date bi men. Gay? I was comfortable with that label for years. But how can one be gay if one prefers to sleep with the opposite sex? Straight? Not after the life I've led. Ex-gay? Um, no.
Almost all of the porn I watch now features women. I went to a hetero strip club, got a lap dance from a woman, and loved it. I'm attracted to women all the time, wherever I go, somewhat more so than to men. Heterosexual desire throbs through my body every day.
So what now? Live a hetero existence? Wouldn't that hurt the gays? And what woman would ever want me? Live a homo existence? That would mean denying myself what I want most. I guess I could meet another guy and we could go to strip clubs together and beat off to straight porn together. But that seems odd.
But what am I now? Bi? But I've never seen a single thing in the media or elsewhere portraying a bi man in a favorable light. And a lot of women won't date bi men. Gay? I was comfortable with that label for years. But how can one be gay if one prefers to sleep with the opposite sex? Straight? Not after the life I've led. Ex-gay? Um, no.
Almost all of the porn I watch now features women. I went to a hetero strip club, got a lap dance from a woman, and loved it. I'm attracted to women all the time, wherever I go, somewhat more so than to men. Heterosexual desire throbs through my body every day.
So what now? Live a hetero existence? Wouldn't that hurt the gays? And what woman would ever want me? Live a homo existence? That would mean denying myself what I want most. I guess I could meet another guy and we could go to strip clubs together and beat off to straight porn together. But that seems odd.


















