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Guys I have this mixed feeling, I came out to my brother, and now I am regretting about it, I think he can't understand me. Read the whole chat Log of my conversation with my brother on facebook chat.
I am Pakistani Muslim, my family is not conservative or extremist, however they are still Muslim and living in East. Do consider the background while reading the whole chat log.
Tell me Did I did something wrong by disclosing it to my brother?
He: i am planing to get engage
Me:with whom?
He: well bit confuse...!! i got 3 option in gal
Me:are you serious
He: yeap..!!
Me:strange, you dont have a job
He: job is not
job has no issue wid getting marry...!!
Me: there are lot of obligations like Eidhi and other customs, how would you arrange that shit
He: rite now i am planning to get date..!!
Me
o whatever suits you
He :if we end up with good moral then definately i for marry... i mean it will take 3-4 years
Me: yea nice plan
He: but i am bit confuse regarding dad... coz some1 has to fulfill his dream
Me: what dream?
He :u know..!! buy large home, take him to foreign country....etc
Me: I would definitely help him
He :same here...
so wat ya suggest ??
Me : I suggest you complete your studies and get a job and we both Inshahallah will make our parents' dreams come true
He:i guess i have to marks X on her....it means no
Me: no actually you can get engaged
He :if density is pre-defined then why keep on trying our luck..!! yet it move us in its direction
Me: Destiny is a map that has been defined by your creator, though a diversion might lead you to place which destiny has never thought of, question is Are you going to take that risk
He : i love to face challenges.... i don't believe in density i believe i make my own destiny with my actions and thoughts
Me: Thats the spirit my boy!
He: i am not arguing or insisting..!! if i few plan to start making my own capital ..!! but due to orthodox mom we haf it am not executing it...!! becoz u know women want security....and we men r insecure....i am in my comfort zone.. so i just want to break this dis dat why i am moving to Australia rather than norway
Me: Bro you are smart enough to take your decisions, I am just here to help you pick the best one for yourself
He: dude ur here in module E becoz of ur thoughts and action ....u did u effort see now u getting great outcome.... even other hazara boy did dere effort yet it not comparable to ur one.... dat is source of motivation for me
This is the part where I thought to come out
Me :so tell me one thing how much can I trust you
He :110%
Me: But you know you have been mom's pet. you disclose everything to her
He:I don't cry for feeder now...!! i am throughly changed now
Me:There is something that you already know, I just want to confirm it to you
He:sure go ahead
Me: wait (I was tense, thinking whether to tell or not?)
He: ok
Me: But still its complicated, I don't know whether you will understand it or not?
He: sure.!! let me see how much u feed me
go ahead share it ....
Me: Its not about sharing, it is about confirming something
He: sure go ahead
Me: something you have for me in the back of your head
He : wat ??
Me: About my sexuality
He: being gay or straight... !!
Me: Gay!
He: yet i had in past..!! but truely speaking it ur decision.... u happy then i am happy
Me: Oh My God I am relieved
He: i won't mind to kal u KUNI (Kunee Means someone who gets fucked for money) lolx
Me: Its not that I am kunni
Its my sexuality, and I am born with it
He:so wat u want...!!
Me: Don't disclose it to anyone, I don;t want mom to panic
He: i already know.... but wats ur plan ??
Me: I trusted you and thought to share with you
He: trust me u head in wrong direction....
Me :hey come on, what do you know about homosexuality?
He: and i don't want to know..!! through every1 has it own sexual right and pleasure
Me:Its genetic problem, not some mental illness, I have this attraction for men since my childhood, I am not Kunee, its what drives me, I had no option to be straight or gay, its something that has been within me, since birth, my first wet dream was about a men, there are thousands like me, Homosexuality is not a state where a person gets physical for financial reasons, I am not that, I am just in love with a man
He:but there must me some cure to dis genetic problem
Me: there is no cure,
He: do u get fantasize abt chicks with 2 boobs and 1 Virgina
Me: I just wanted to come out, to my loved ones just like you, to make sure that they love me the way I am. I love mom, you, sis and dad, whatever you guys do , you all are still my family
He: so wats ur plan...?? how come u say this 2 mum
Me: she knows already I think, she is my mother
He: see may be mom accept this reality ...i do ... then wat abt dad and ur wife ..??
Naa...!! she don\t know abt dis
Me: what wife? that is why I am telling you this, I don't want to get married, I dont want to spoil a chick's life, I can sure fuck her, but cant love her
He: did ya discussed it wid ur doctor ??
Me: You should read about homosexuality on wikipedia
come on it will take 5 minutes
He: wait for sec
Me: Did you read it
Me: Wait I am sending you the link to my story, you read it and decided.
(I sent the whole story to him in an email. You guys can read it here
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/view.php?blog=178524&id=16669&title=hiding-from-my-own-shadow
He: so mean me ur ADD(Attention Disorder) started due to me and some racist teacher ??
Me:no its not attention disorder, Its complicated, when I will meet you in person I will let you know, we can talk about this
He:sure.!!
see until i realize ur story... u diverted becoz of attention becoz our racisted society push u to make u believe dat ur worst part of it and u accept it without using ur mind
Me: My lovely brother, I will tell you everything in detail, just wait till I come home
He: okay..!! until then i got short story abt dis problem and i am sure u can overcome it..!!
Me:I am signing off now, honestly I have a mixed feelings right now about coming out to you, I will talk to you later, in the mean while please keep all of these to yourself, don't disclose it to any one, Please its about my life.
He: ok then take care
I am Pakistani Muslim, my family is not conservative or extremist, however they are still Muslim and living in East. Do consider the background while reading the whole chat log.
Tell me Did I did something wrong by disclosing it to my brother?
He: i am planing to get engage
Me:with whom?
He: well bit confuse...!! i got 3 option in gal
Me:are you serious
He: yeap..!!
Me:strange, you dont have a job
He: job is not
job has no issue wid getting marry...!!
Me: there are lot of obligations like Eidhi and other customs, how would you arrange that shit
He: rite now i am planning to get date..!!
Me
o whatever suits youHe :if we end up with good moral then definately i for marry... i mean it will take 3-4 years
Me: yea nice plan
He: but i am bit confuse regarding dad... coz some1 has to fulfill his dream
Me: what dream?
He :u know..!! buy large home, take him to foreign country....etc
Me: I would definitely help him
He :same here...
so wat ya suggest ??
Me : I suggest you complete your studies and get a job and we both Inshahallah will make our parents' dreams come true
He:i guess i have to marks X on her....it means no
Me: no actually you can get engaged
He :if density is pre-defined then why keep on trying our luck..!! yet it move us in its direction
Me: Destiny is a map that has been defined by your creator, though a diversion might lead you to place which destiny has never thought of, question is Are you going to take that risk
He : i love to face challenges.... i don't believe in density i believe i make my own destiny with my actions and thoughts
Me: Thats the spirit my boy!
He: i am not arguing or insisting..!! if i few plan to start making my own capital ..!! but due to orthodox mom we haf it am not executing it...!! becoz u know women want security....and we men r insecure....i am in my comfort zone.. so i just want to break this dis dat why i am moving to Australia rather than norway
Me: Bro you are smart enough to take your decisions, I am just here to help you pick the best one for yourself
He: dude ur here in module E becoz of ur thoughts and action ....u did u effort see now u getting great outcome.... even other hazara boy did dere effort yet it not comparable to ur one.... dat is source of motivation for me
This is the part where I thought to come out
Me :so tell me one thing how much can I trust you
He :110%
Me: But you know you have been mom's pet. you disclose everything to her
He:I don't cry for feeder now...!! i am throughly changed now
Me:There is something that you already know, I just want to confirm it to you
He:sure go ahead
Me: wait (I was tense, thinking whether to tell or not?)
He: ok
Me: But still its complicated, I don't know whether you will understand it or not?
He: sure.!! let me see how much u feed me
go ahead share it ....
Me: Its not about sharing, it is about confirming something
He: sure go ahead
Me: something you have for me in the back of your head
He : wat ??
Me: About my sexuality
He: being gay or straight... !!
Me: Gay!
He: yet i had in past..!! but truely speaking it ur decision.... u happy then i am happy
Me: Oh My God I am relieved
He: i won't mind to kal u KUNI (Kunee Means someone who gets fucked for money) lolx
Me: Its not that I am kunni
Its my sexuality, and I am born with it
He:so wat u want...!!
Me: Don't disclose it to anyone, I don;t want mom to panic
He: i already know.... but wats ur plan ??
Me: I trusted you and thought to share with you
He: trust me u head in wrong direction....
Me :hey come on, what do you know about homosexuality?
He: and i don't want to know..!! through every1 has it own sexual right and pleasure
Me:Its genetic problem, not some mental illness, I have this attraction for men since my childhood, I am not Kunee, its what drives me, I had no option to be straight or gay, its something that has been within me, since birth, my first wet dream was about a men, there are thousands like me, Homosexuality is not a state where a person gets physical for financial reasons, I am not that, I am just in love with a man
He:but there must me some cure to dis genetic problem
Me: there is no cure,
He: do u get fantasize abt chicks with 2 boobs and 1 Virgina
Me: I just wanted to come out, to my loved ones just like you, to make sure that they love me the way I am. I love mom, you, sis and dad, whatever you guys do , you all are still my family
He: so wats ur plan...?? how come u say this 2 mum
Me: she knows already I think, she is my mother
He: see may be mom accept this reality ...i do ... then wat abt dad and ur wife ..??
Naa...!! she don\t know abt dis
Me: what wife? that is why I am telling you this, I don't want to get married, I dont want to spoil a chick's life, I can sure fuck her, but cant love her
He: did ya discussed it wid ur doctor ??
Me: You should read about homosexuality on wikipedia
come on it will take 5 minutes
He: wait for sec
Me: Did you read it
Me: Wait I am sending you the link to my story, you read it and decided.
(I sent the whole story to him in an email. You guys can read it here
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/view.php?blog=178524&id=16669&title=hiding-from-my-own-shadow
He: so mean me ur ADD(Attention Disorder) started due to me and some racist teacher ??
Me:no its not attention disorder, Its complicated, when I will meet you in person I will let you know, we can talk about this
He:sure.!!
see until i realize ur story... u diverted becoz of attention becoz our racisted society push u to make u believe dat ur worst part of it and u accept it without using ur mind
Me: My lovely brother, I will tell you everything in detail, just wait till I come home
He: okay..!! until then i got short story abt dis problem and i am sure u can overcome it..!!
Me:I am signing off now, honestly I have a mixed feelings right now about coming out to you, I will talk to you later, in the mean while please keep all of these to yourself, don't disclose it to any one, Please its about my life.
He: ok then take care
