A Compilation of a British Twenty-something's Experiences- *All True*

[Mstrshake]

Re: A Compilation of a British Twenty-somethging's Experiences- *All True*

I can never see myself being in a long-term relationship with a guy. Ever. I know it's bad and I know some of you may be angry reading this, but I would just feel so disappointed and unfulfilled with myself.

This didn't make me angry, and it shouldn't make anyone angry, or offend anyone. It did, however, cause me to stop paying any attention. No particular reason for me to be mentioning that, but I thought I would before I thanked you for sharing your experience.

Thanks for sharing your experience.

 

[Quality Street]

Re: A Compilation of a British Twenty-somethging's Experiences- *All True*

Can I ask why it stopped you paying attention?

And Mike, yeah it's been made pretty clear that there will be no strings attached and means very little, its just a blowjob.

 

[Mstrshake]

Don't worry about it, forget I typed that. This is your thread in which you tell your story and I should save any reservations I have about what I've read for another thread.

Thanks again.

 

[Quality Street]

Well that's a big tease. Spill the beans. By writing this I've opened myself to critique/opinions, so let's hear it.

 

[Mstrshake]

Oh, well. I just found it a little disappointing that you would feel unfulfilled about being with a guy. I don't know you, but if I had to guess I would think it would be because you have not entirely come to terms with your orientation or the feelings that you experience when around guys. I don't know if it will help, but I just want you to know that there's nothing wrong with who you are.

I certainly don't want to 'critique' you though (who am I to do something like that?), it was just a personal opinion/observation. I sort of typed it without really thinking about what I was doing, then realized it was sort of inappropriate considering your honesty in the thread, so I apologize for that.

 

[Quality Street]

I can completely understand why that could make you feel disappointed, and yeah, quite possibly it could be just down to me not coming to terms with myself. I guess that's something I'll find out over the next few years. Obviously all of my own beliefs/opinions are subject to change.

 

[Mstrshake]

Like you said, you are still young. I've said thanks for sharing your story like four times but +1.

 

[Quality Street]

About 4 years since I posted in this topic. A few things have happened and developed so I might as well divulge. This was a useful place when I was a bit younger to vent/express feelings and share experiences. I've now recently turned 24 and I'm still just as clueless with who or what I am. Just a reminder again that every 'story' in this thread has actually happened to me. This is pretty much a place where I can record my 'shenanigans.'

Number 7- Jamie (continued)
All those years ago when I last posted, I referred to a potential sexual experience with a friend called 'Jamie.' In case you haven't read the previous posts, I'll just do a very quick refresher. We had been best friends at primary school and spent a huge amount of time with each other. At a sleepover, after lots of buildup and boredom we started to unzip jeans for a handjob but both found it awkward and agreed that we couldn't go through with it. One time over MSN he teased me and I joked about "no sexual favours for you!" and he had replied jokingly with messages such as, "Oh, not even a blowjob?" etc. After initial interest we kind of laughed it off and agreed it couldn't happen. Quite a few months later he hit me up with a message out of the blue asking for a blowjob over the christmas holidays. I got massively hard straight away as it was something I'd thought about over many years as I've always found him attractive (skinny jeans, kind of emo hair, slim build). It didn't happen in those holidays but the opportunity eventually arose a few weeks after.

We live close to each other and occasionally meetup for a beer at the local pub. After our usual watching football and sharing funny stories about friends and work he commented that his parents would be out tonight which was quite a clear invitation over for some action what with all of our previous chats. I agreed to go along with it, went home for a shower and then met him at his house when the parents had left.

When we had first talked about it online we had agreed to just open up the door, start making out and getting on with it without any discussion so it wouldn't be weird. It didn't go like that. It was quite uncomfortable. We sat down at his table, had a it of small-talk, until eventually he said something like, "Well, come on then." He led me upstairs to his bedroom and we both laid down next to eachother in his single bed. It was a bit of a squeeze but it meant we had a lot of contact which was nice.

After some silence, he reached over very quickly and cupped my balls through my jeans. I wasn't hard yet which was a bit embarrassing. He joked about it and gave it a bit of a rub so it quickly came to a bit more life. He undid my belt, pulled down my boxers and opened a draw under his bed to reveal all sorts of flavoured lube. He rubbed some on me and started to suck it. It felt amazing and it is still the best blow job I've had to this day. It went on for a while and it was just awesome. He was cupping and rubbing my balls whilst he was sucking. I was running my hands through his hair that I liked so much and I was in a word, content. Then it was my turn.

He had previously bragged to me about his large penis and he wasn't joking. It was a bit of a monster and actually quite concerning for me! He was incredibly hard and I rubbed some of the flavoured gel thing onto his penis. It was a similar girth to mine but a good 2 or 3 inches longer. The taste still wasn't great and I still don't get a huge amount of pleasure for sucking cock. Due to its size, I did gag quite a lot but we both laughed about it together which was good. I tried to do the best I could with it but in all honesty he probably drew the short straw a bit, there.

After that, he was asking if there was anything else I wanted to try. I mentioned kissing but he was actually quite adamant that he wouldn't enjoy that so that was crossed off the list and he didn't like the thought of having a penis inside him. It's here I should have offered to let him try to shag me but unfortunately I didn't suggest that at the time. It was almost like he had something in his head that he really wanted to try but was too afraid to come out and say it. I secretly wanted him to sit on my face (in his jeans to start with) just to see if I liked it because I had fantasized about it before. However, I was also a bit too nervous to suggest that because I thought it'd be a bit of a weird request.

Eventually, it came to a natural conclusion and we jerked each other off until we came and then I went home. We're still very good friends and we still meet for a drink and to watch football (soccer) every few weeks. I tried a couple of times to hint about maybe giving it another go but he doesn't seem interested. He's had numerous girlfriends since and as far as I'm aware hasn't had any more experiences with guys. It was good fun and it felt great with him doing it to me, but because I still got very little pleasure (if any) from sucking him off, I was still very confused about what I wanted in life.