I’ll give you my take on it, for whatever it’s worth.
Having a man shoot in your mouth is an acquired taste, but I wouldn’t give it up for the world! I’m a swallower myself, and knowing my man’s sperm is inside me is the best fucking feeling. I can spend the whole day afterward thinking about it, and it makes me so fucking hard.
As to being married... if it makes you feel any better, years ago, I was in serious relationships with girls too. For better or worse, I broke up with my ex, and eventually came out, before we ever got engaged (though we did talk about getting married, we never followed through). You’re right, it does take a lot to take the plunge and do it with guys... at least for the first time.
If you’re married to a woman, I know it can get complicated, and I don’t want to downplay that. Still, I’m incredibly glad to have done what I did, and now I feel like I can really be myself. I can say from firsthand knowledge that those urges won’t go away. I thought about guys for years before I ever did anything with them. Hindsight is 20/20 of course, but my number one regret is that I didn’t go for it sooner.
Anyway, that’s just my own personal opinion....
I could have written that myself!
No doubt, I'm older. My teens and twenties perfectly coincided with the 60s and 70s, "Free Love", "Flower Power", and all that other "hippie stuff".
I had more than my fair share of luck with the ladies. Nearly married five, or six, of them, and, no, not at the same time. I enjoyed exploring sex, and, there were some guys in the mix, too. I was never officially engaged mainly because I knew, though couldn't admit, that I preferred beef over fish.
I'm grateful that I was able to experiment before committing to something I was not completely sure of. I was truly lucky.
When I hit 30, I finally came out to Myself, and it's been Just Us Boys ever since.
Before that, though, some of the guys I'd played with did get married. I was even in some of their weddings. And, there were a few that wanted to keep playing whenever the opportunity might arise. It didn't mean anything. It was just for sport, and old times.
I know that brings up all kinds of moral issues. I was not the initiator. Everyone has to decide what they are comfortable with. In one instance she knew, and that turned into some 3-way play. Another wife knew, and thanked me.
Nothing is written in stone. Human sexuality is, and relationships are, fluid through times, and circumstances. Each of us have our own paths to follow. Sometimes they cross.