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Jak2333
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Not sure if this goes here or not. Does anyone else feel like their a drift in life? I hate it when I slip into these moods. Somedays I'm fine others like today I can't stop thinking about things that happened as I was growing up. I'm in my 40's now how stupid is that? Thinking about when you were growing up, what a waste of time, anyways, I see kids in stores laughing an joking with their parents and I think "Why couldn't that've be me?"
Anybody remember high school graduation? Suppose to be a happy time, right? What my brother and I got at our graduations is good ole dad being pissed about something pointless both times.
Instead I can't really remember that many good times, I mean, there had to be some. Instead I remember my father good ole dad when he'd get mad smacking my mother around, telling my brother and I that were useless, never amount to anything, your worthless, ect.
The thing that really gets me is the few friends my father still has or the neighbors think he's the best thing in the world, what a freaking joke.
My brother moved out soon as he could afford too, then I did the same a few years later.
I think that's the biggest reason why I never or will ever get into a relationship because I'm afraid I'll turn out like my father and I couldn't stand the thought of making someone elses life miserable or god forbid if their are any kids involved treating them like my brother and I were growing up.
Sorry about the rambling, just needed to get some of this weight off my chest. If the mods want to delete this go ahead.
Anybody remember high school graduation? Suppose to be a happy time, right? What my brother and I got at our graduations is good ole dad being pissed about something pointless both times.
Instead I can't really remember that many good times, I mean, there had to be some. Instead I remember my father good ole dad when he'd get mad smacking my mother around, telling my brother and I that were useless, never amount to anything, your worthless, ect.
The thing that really gets me is the few friends my father still has or the neighbors think he's the best thing in the world, what a freaking joke.
My brother moved out soon as he could afford too, then I did the same a few years later.
I think that's the biggest reason why I never or will ever get into a relationship because I'm afraid I'll turn out like my father and I couldn't stand the thought of making someone elses life miserable or god forbid if their are any kids involved treating them like my brother and I were growing up.
Sorry about the rambling, just needed to get some of this weight off my chest. If the mods want to delete this go ahead.
