With all the threads you’ve made about your childhood, your neighbors and your job the same thing could be asked of you.
The difference being that I didn't cry out to others for help. Sometime we need to vent, I do and so do you. But at the end of it all we put on our big boy pants and keep on keeping on. I don't look for help from political parties, hell, they are the reason things are so fucked up.
The attitude of "don't bother to try, the deck is stacked against you" is pure poison and damning to the core. Dare I say that the same attitude of helplessness, hatred and resentment might be what compels young men to commit horrible acts. "Why bother"? "Why try?" "Lets get even...."
No one in Washington DC has a clue about real life in our nation. They ride around in limos, have the best health care and get paid quite well. I don't waste my time being pissed at them or at the fat cats, what good would it do? Change begins at the grass roots, in the neighborhood.
At the risk of some crying bullshit I will tell you that three years ago I started a business. This year I have over 70 customers and had to hire a part time worker. He was using drugs and facing eviction. I pay him $18. per hour he gets a paid lunch and I buy his lunch as well. His rent is now caught up and he seems to be on the right track. My motto for a worker is to treat them as I would want to be treated. Some people get a reduced price and some get their lawn cut for free.
I do what I can, when I can with what I have. I can't let tragedies stop my life. There was a school shooting in my home town about 35 mile north of Detroit back in December. Two years ago a neighbor two doors down was shot by the police when he came to the door with a shotgun, a few streets over a man killed his girlfriend with a knife. Down the street a young man overdosed and died.
We have homeless people everywhere, children are dying from disease and starvation around the world. This world is fucked up, not just America. Every night I pray (yeah, I pray) and sometimes cry while doing so when I pray for the parents that have to bury their children. Atrocities and evil have stalked mankind since we arrived on the scene. Hatred, abuse, genocide, disease, hunger, poverty, slavery, rape and injustice have been prevalent somewhere on this globe at just about every time in history.
I once told a therapist "everything" and he responded that he couldn't understand why I didn't have a problem with drugs, booze or never ended up in jail or prison. I responded by saying that I in spite of being severely depress at the time had always looked at the "big picture". People being put on box cars and sent to death camps, people used as property being sold on auction blocks. Children marketed to satisfy sick men.
Some use the phrase "born on third base". There is some truth to that statement for most of us in America. Can we just feel fortunate and be thankful even for a few minutes?
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