Oh, and hands up here everyone who's had a complete breakdown before?
Hands up who here has felt hopeless at one point or another?
Hands up who felt they just couldn't keep up the happy, brave exterior any more?
Hands up who felt like they were out of options?
Because we've al been there and I'd be willing to be virtually all of us have made it through the other side a better man for it?
Because I sure have.. all of the above... and more recently than I'd be willing to admit.
*raises hand*
My friend, I think I owe you an apology. I was one of the many JUBers who expressed interest in the photos you put on this forum, even tho I thought it might be a little too much. But I thought you were doing it just for the sake of it. Never had I imagined you were doing this because of self-esteem issues.
I might not have felt the exact same way as you, and I can assure you that two years and a half ago I felt like shit, no kidding. Everything seemed dull and unworthy, I was seeing myself as even less than trash.
I swear I would love to help you my friend, but no forum, no Internet pal can really do a thing. I would really advise you to seek help from a professional. It may be long and difficult..... you're gonna have to go dig through the darkest moments of your life..... but that's the price to pay if you wanna come to peace with all those terrible memories.
Very honestly, and I really, really hope you will believe me my friend, you are far from being fat or ugly or any synonymous of these. You're a fine-looking boy, and while you may not look like those models or those porn stars that are shoved down our throats (and I tend to think it's rather a good thing), I really think you are attractive. You look like a normal human being, with a body that has good aspects and bad aspects, just like every freaking human being on this planet !!!
That might not reassure you in any manner, because that's the "best" we on JUB can do. The rest is up to you my friend, but I think I speak on behalf of many here when I say we care about you and support you and encourage you all the way to getting that self-esteem you're looking for.
PM me if you want, I'll reply without hesitation.
Kisses
