Not sure I'm addicted but Yes, I do love to see a nice smooth cock, especially when it is hard. Add some cum dripping and it gets me close to cumin.
I’ve never really considered it as an addiction. But, I’ve always loved cock and never really understood it especially when I was young. I loved looking at my cock and playing with it before I even knew what I was doing. I always thought about another cock while I was playing with mine. It was the most natural thing, yet I thought I was weird for thinking about it and fantasizing about cocks. The first time I shut off I wanted my cum in my mouth. I didn’t know why. I didn’t even know guys did that stuff. When I found porn it’s all I could focus on. I loved looking at the cock. As I got a little older, my curiosity and my desires for cock led me to gay porn. That was life changing and I absolutely could not think of anything else.
At first it was just oral and all I wanted was cock and cum. But, the more I watched the more I realized it was more than that. I love the male body. Cock and balls are amazing and I can’t get enough of looking at pictures of different ones. When I started coming here I wanted to see what others likeminded guys thought about, talked about and to try to figure out who I am sexually. I never thought I had much to offer until I started looking at more cocks. I realized that I am a pretty average guy and that I have something to offer. But, it made me want to post pics to see what others might think. That took a lot of nerve to finally pull that trigger. It felt really good too. Especially when a few started making comments. . I’ve had some very positive feedback that really help in my journey. Though I tried relationships with females it was just not right. I could not even have sex with out fantasizing that I was with a guy. So, I knew that my earliest desires were my true desires.
I still masturbate like a high schooler. I look at cocks and can’t get enough. It makes me super horny. And watching gay porn it made me realize that everything I ever wanted sexually was real. Everything that gay guys do are the things I fantasized about way before I knew that guys did that stuff.
The realization that I have been gay since the first time I played with my cock as a kid hit me like ton of bricks. I never wanted to tell anyone, I just lived looking at cocks most everyday and watching gay porn makes me feel like nothing ever has. After finally saying to myself I am gay, everything is different. I’m still not out completely, but I’m surly looking. I’ve posted on a gay app and a gay dating site. Not sure that’s going to be fruitful, but it’s another step towards trying to at least find the right guy.
I do visit many of the same sites to look at cocks and watch gay porn pretty often. Masturbating is and has always been a part of my enjoyment. Am I addicted? I never thought about it on that level, but maybe I am. I love looking at cocks and I love looking at gay porn. I don’t everyday because I have to be productive in life in other ways. But, when I don’t do it, I still think about it daily. Is it part of being a gay man? I don’t know. But, I’m looking forward to using that energy and sharing it with another likeminded guy.
My journey is unfolding and I can’t wait to watch porn with my lover. I know it’s much more than sex. I want a relationship with a guy to share life with too. The sex is a given…again I repeat myself and I hope that’s OK.