This is just a very long story about this guy I met, and I mean hella long so you've been advised.
To start off I turned 19 early this year and last year around september/october I found this really cute and kinda mysterious guy on instagram, what caught my attention is that we both live on the same city (I'm from a really small interior city where almost everyone knows everyone, but we didn't know each other yet) so I looked up his profile on facebook, took a look on his pics until I finally got up the courage to message him, and after some time, he replied.
We talked a lil bit, learned some things about each other, like hobbies and stuff then we moved to whatsapp on the following day, where the conversation continued, he told me his age (16, turning 17 this june), and we laughed at the fact that we probably have seen each other before when we were kids but don't remember. He claims to be straight (although he never said that to me directly, and I never asked him) but I have many reasons to think he isn't. We couldn't talk very often cuz he works 12 hours a day at a fast food and barely have any free time, but the little we talked I could learn some interesting things. He always complained about his work and how he hates it, but he does it, so that his family can stop judging him, that plus more info I got from other sources made me jump to the conclusion his family are absolute dicks to him, like, his mom, beats him up (how disgusting is that? I mean, we are in 2021), he told me he had a girlfriend, until early 2019, when I asked why they broke up, he was like "haha that girl was nuts haha", later on I learned it was the girl who broke up with him. He also wanna move to another city when he has money and is of age.
Now I can't explain why I think he isn't straight, I just feel it, he is different, the way he takes pictures also, is like, gay men trying to look like straight men, he cares a lot about looks, works out and all that, I'm obviously not saying all vain men are gay but it's a characteristic a lot of them share, some friends of mine who know him agree with me too.
He is still young and immature, we live in a very small, and extremely homophobic city, he has an awful fam by default so imagine if his parents find out their son likes men. If he is really gay or bi he has plenty of reasons to hide that for as long as he can (I myself only came out last year, and just to a few very close friends, before that not event my childhood best friend knew I was gay)
I really like him, he is always very nice and fun, talking to him makes my shit day 100% better and I think about him all day long, damn I even dream about him, like, so often. But we haven't talked for over a month now, after he suddenly stopped replying my messages and when I questioned why he gave me a very weird excuse so I decided to not message him anymore, at least not for now.
My biggest fear is that he could've found out about my intentions, cuz sometimes I could be kinda extra when talking to him, delivering lines like "hey dude when are we going out to do something?" or "I wanna know more about", I always tried to make it very clear that I just wanted to be friends with him and never told him I was gay, but he could still have figured it out somehow and because of that decided to stop talking to me.
Sorry this got ridiculously long cuz I talk too much, but I really wanted to share this with other people who could understand me.
To start off I turned 19 early this year and last year around september/october I found this really cute and kinda mysterious guy on instagram, what caught my attention is that we both live on the same city (I'm from a really small interior city where almost everyone knows everyone, but we didn't know each other yet) so I looked up his profile on facebook, took a look on his pics until I finally got up the courage to message him, and after some time, he replied.
We talked a lil bit, learned some things about each other, like hobbies and stuff then we moved to whatsapp on the following day, where the conversation continued, he told me his age (16, turning 17 this june), and we laughed at the fact that we probably have seen each other before when we were kids but don't remember. He claims to be straight (although he never said that to me directly, and I never asked him) but I have many reasons to think he isn't. We couldn't talk very often cuz he works 12 hours a day at a fast food and barely have any free time, but the little we talked I could learn some interesting things. He always complained about his work and how he hates it, but he does it, so that his family can stop judging him, that plus more info I got from other sources made me jump to the conclusion his family are absolute dicks to him, like, his mom, beats him up (how disgusting is that? I mean, we are in 2021), he told me he had a girlfriend, until early 2019, when I asked why they broke up, he was like "haha that girl was nuts haha", later on I learned it was the girl who broke up with him. He also wanna move to another city when he has money and is of age.
Now I can't explain why I think he isn't straight, I just feel it, he is different, the way he takes pictures also, is like, gay men trying to look like straight men, he cares a lot about looks, works out and all that, I'm obviously not saying all vain men are gay but it's a characteristic a lot of them share, some friends of mine who know him agree with me too.
He is still young and immature, we live in a very small, and extremely homophobic city, he has an awful fam by default so imagine if his parents find out their son likes men. If he is really gay or bi he has plenty of reasons to hide that for as long as he can (I myself only came out last year, and just to a few very close friends, before that not event my childhood best friend knew I was gay)
I really like him, he is always very nice and fun, talking to him makes my shit day 100% better and I think about him all day long, damn I even dream about him, like, so often. But we haven't talked for over a month now, after he suddenly stopped replying my messages and when I questioned why he gave me a very weird excuse so I decided to not message him anymore, at least not for now.
My biggest fear is that he could've found out about my intentions, cuz sometimes I could be kinda extra when talking to him, delivering lines like "hey dude when are we going out to do something?" or "I wanna know more about", I always tried to make it very clear that I just wanted to be friends with him and never told him I was gay, but he could still have figured it out somehow and because of that decided to stop talking to me.
Sorry this got ridiculously long cuz I talk too much, but I really wanted to share this with other people who could understand me.
to JUB whatever the guys sexuality is its his decision to figure out what he is into and likes and see how it goes
