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[Andross]

Although it was the best Christmas I ever had, I am thankful that it's finally over. I just can't stand all that monotone Christmas music. My presents were... money, chocolate... a horror movie DVD. Now my new contact lenses can finally be paid (cost EUR 160 after all) and partying on Dec. 30th and 31st will be paid for.

Thanks mom, thanks grandma, thanks grandpa, thanks sister, thanks brother - love ya all.

Now if only Santa had a boyfriend for me, I'd be happy.

Oh, btw, this is my first blog entry. More to follow.

 

[Andross]

I recently signed up for the "Lord of the Rings Online Beta Test" and for some reason, all that LOTR talk on their forums got me interested in the movies again. So right now, I'm ... acquiring ... all 3 parts. *coughs*

I watched "Legend" yesterday - Tom Cruise actually looked cute in that one. Now I know where Shigeru Miyamoto got all the inspiration for the Zelda series from... Good job to Ridley Scott on that one.

 

[Andross]

http://**********.com/files/9171576/Jeff_Carter.mov

Thanks to fellow Jubber "NewFound_Lad" for posting it!

 

[Andross]

Shopping is probably one of the best things one can do - it's so nice to have a new sexy t-shirt or that new (brandname) jeans. However one of the other great aspects is, that many cute guys can be seen in shopping centres, such as the "Altmarkt Galerie" here in Dresden. During my hunt for contact lens refreshing solution, shaving foam and clothes, I noticed two cute guys - one of them having plucked eyebrows, "Hilfiger Denim" jacket and the cutest ass in a tight-fitting jeans. His spiky hair looked great too, but all the time I was wondering "Is he gay?"

I mean, using the escalator, I kept glancing casually at him and he kept glancing back at me with the cutest puppy dog eyes I've ever seen... I wish I could have taken a picture for you so you can imagine what he looked like.

So my question today is - why don't cute guys have a sign that makes them easier to distinguish as gay or straight? I've seen plenty cute guys in my life, but receiving glances like that still makes me nervous and wondering about the sexual orientation of the guy doing it. If a thing like this happens, how do you react to signal that you are interested - considering the short timeframe you have to make any signals...

 

[Andross]

Hey, that rhymes... been partying all night and feeling real crappy right now at 8 AM here in Germany. That's what too much Red Bull and coffee do to you.

I met one of my "crushes" again today... Yves... a barkeeper in one of the local gay bars. He has all that: great body, great face, charming personality, great guy for partying, gay... and he's taken...

He has a boyfriend since a few weeks, Robert. Another cute guy (I really adore that stubble!!!) which I met today aswell. Now granted, Yves is beautiful and a wonderful guy, but Robert is even better and... he kissed *me* (and man did I enjoy it). He looked like a sad puppy when I told him that I really like him, but as long as he's with Yves, I will not engage in kissing, sex and the like. Although my dick told me to shut up and kiss him back, my head said "Don't!" and so that was what I did... or didn't do. Well, maybe I'll see him again tomorrow at the new year parties in the city.

It hurt to see Yves with his new boyfriend, but that's what you get when you aren't courageous enough to ask the guy you are drooling over. Let that be a lesson to you guys out there.

I'll be patient and see how long they are together. The time was not yet right

 

[Andross]

It's 2007 now. Does it feel any different than 2006? I don't think so... yet. Actually I don't like "2007" much. That number looks odd and aggressive. Like a saw... Anyways, I should tell you what happened at the new years parties I was at.

Firstly, dancing in the "Lofthouse" disco was the same as every Saturday. Plenty people, many sad faces of people who felt lonely, lots of relatively good music from DJ Etienne. I gotta say, DJ Etienne normally is a really crappy DJ, but this time he apparently had a good day and played some nice music.

11:59 PM came and so did 0:00 of January 1st 2007. Relatively uneventful, but with lots of new years greetings, alcohol, hugging, etc. Same procedure as every year. Unfortunately I have no pics to show you

At around 2 AM my boss and her wife (my two companions at parties ) went home and I went to one of the gay bars nearby. Big mistake...

If you thought that being heavily flirted with by older men is bad, try being heavily flirted with by an older transvestite! It seems my thighs and groin area attracted his/her hand like a bee hive attracts a bear... it felt really uncomfortable and I was about to leave relatively early, when I luckily found someone else who sat to he left of me who I could engage in conversation with to look busy It worked. Thank god. You know, I am very tolerant and not prude, but I *hate* it when guys or transvestites for that matter, think they can grope me *there* when I don't know them and when I told them that I don't want them to do it. If you're new to the gay scene, much like me, this is a real turn off.

Luckily Yves was there - one of the cuties I have an eye on His friend Robert wasn't, unfortunately. *shrug* However, it looks like one of the other barkeepers is interested in me. His name is Stefan. He's 18 - too young for me actually. He snuck a piece of paper with his name, cell phone number and email address in my cigarettes box. I was quite surprised! Should I call him? Write him? Should I do nothing? Hmm... decisions decisions.

Maybe he'd like to join me when I go swimming? I would not mind having a young guy like him tag along. Or how about watching some movie at a cinema? I don't want him as a boyfriend (due to his young age, I prefer guys at least 21 years old so they have at least a little experience in life), but as a friend, maybe we can build a friendship...

Next time partying will be this coming Friday. "Girl's Night". For some reason I'm allowed to be there, because normally it's only for lesbians and women. *feels real womanly all of a sudden* Well a few other gay guys will be there too. It's quite fun, really!

I'll keep you informed of my progress

Oh and I quit smoking again. This time forever. It's just too expensive and you look and feel better when you aren't smoking.

 

[Andross]

Yves and Robert are not a couple anymore. Here's a pic of them at one of the recent gay parties. Left-hand side Yves. Right-hand side Robert. They split up two days ago. However... Yves rejected my little note with my cell phone number and email address. I guess, he doesn't like me. At least now I know that he's off limits for me. Today it's party again. Just like yesterday.

By the way, I think one of the other barkeepers of the gay bar I go to frequently, really likes me. I stayed until 6 AM, although the bar is only open until 5 AM. He liked my company while he was cleaning up the tables and such. Together we went to a nearby bakery and had some breakfast. We went to the tram stop together and we hugged real tightly when my tram arrived. His name is André - mine is Andree. He's nice, though not my "type" of man. He wears transvestite stuff sometimes, fake hair, luxurious dresses, make-up... that's not my idea of a man Maybe I'll develop a friendship with him. He knows all sorts of people in the gay scene. I'm still new to the "scene" and all that, so he's a great guide, if you will.

Now where might Robert be?

 

[Andross]

That's me at 10:42 AM in the morning after a whole night of partying. I was at party until 2 AM as usual, and at my favourite gay bar afterwards.

This time a 34 year old, rather fit guy who was unfortunately rather drunk, almost made love to me in the gay bar in front of all the other gay guys... without my consent. It felt awkward... but also a bit nice... to have him caress my neck, stroke my hair, ears, back, etc. I've never had anyone in RL tell me that I have beautiful eyes... beautiful ears... nice hair... nice upper arms... until tonight that is. He wanted sex from me, but I already have my eyes on someone else. Somehow it is difficult to tell guys thanks but no thanks, when their warm, gentle hand is doing all sorts of things to you *sigh*

I'm still learning how to avoid situations like this, so excuse my naiveté.

The upside is that he paid for all the drinks - roughly €50, which is a lot, compared to normal bills.

When the bar closed at about 7 AM, I "escorted" the barkeeper to the train station. He's such a cute guy on one hand. Same name as me, a little short and chubby, 31 years old. But there will not be more than being good friends. I appreciate that he "supported" me a little back at the bar by serving me Cola when the guy who was "attacking" me tried to make me drink more and more alcohol.

Oh yeah... Yves was at the bar aswell, as barkeeper. I am feeling awkward now when he's around, since he refused taking my cell phone number. Oh well - his loss.

That's it for today. I definitely need sleep, because I am feeling like a zombie right now: More dead than alive. *yawns* Nite.

 

[Andross]

I just found this in a thread on the Hot Topics forum. Don't watch it, if you're easily offended

 

[Andross]

Look who I met today...

That's Phillip - gay barkeeper in another gay bar I sometimes go to (Queens). Usually I frequent "Boy's" here in Dresden-Neustadt. All my "adventures" so far have taken place there. But today, I lost my heart again... to Phillip. He's such a cutie and a real nice person too! *melts*

He happens to be gay... and barkeeper (what a surprise... I seem to have an eye for barkeepers...) in a much frequented gay bar here in the city. I think he likes me - not yet as much as I like him, but that's ok. We'll probably meet again, simply because his sister liked the evening and night which she and her brother spent with me and my other gay barkeeper friend. We had so much fun roaming the streets at 5 AM, having breakfast and coffee in Dresden Hauptbahnhof (main trainstation).

She likes me as a friend (no, she's not lesbian) and I like her brother. However, she told me that Phillip is not someone to commit to a friendship or relationship easily. Lots of guys try to get his number and into his pants - no wonder when he's *that* good looking (that picture does not do him justice at all!). He's the cutest guy I've ever met and we flirted the whole evening (well he flirted with me and I couldn't get my eyes off him). He seems to be as careful with picking friends as I am, which is quite encouraging. He's 21 and Aries. That's a downside... Cancer and Aries don't really fit together and I am such an astrology fan Still I look forward to seeing him again this or next Saturday, when I'll visit "Boy's" again.

Oh by the way, I saw "Babel" today before going to the gay bar. That's a great movie, if you are into deeply emotional and somewhat intellectual movies. It's not easy movie-entertainment this time and that although Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett play the lead roles.

That's it for today. Next update will probably follow Sunday after my next night in the gay scene! *cheers*

 

[Andross]

Well today was again quite eventful - though not as eventful as I would have liked! (I definitely need a boyfriend... dancing alone sucks)

One of the biggest surprises today was, that Yves and Robert are a couple again... weird people. I met them at a local gay party ("Think Pink"). Robert is the cutie in the white shirt in the front of this picture. It was a lot of fun and I'm definitely there again February 10th. Stefan (the guy in the middle) is interested in me *blushes*

It looked sorta like this today aswell. Lotsa cuties, some muscle guys, lotsa twinks, some bears, a few lesbians... just the perfect mix of gays and lesbians. I love it! Not to mention the gay porn running in a separate room with couches and pillows *erhem* Yeah ... gay porn. Ass fucking, blowjobs and the like... I guess for those who can't wait until they're at home with their newest conquest.

Oh btw, there's a pic of Yves, Robert and me now... I'll post it once it is online on their official website.

This is Phillip - the cutie in the middle *melts* To the left his sister but I dunno who the girl to the right is. He was working at "Queens" today. I had a short peek inside but decided to head home, because it was almost 7 AM. It's 8:09 AM now and I'm tired as hell, so I'll bid you good night, good morning, good day, good evening - wherever you may be.

Check back soon for the pic I mentioned. We three look mighty cute on it!

 

[Andross]

The latest Partypics are online. You can check them out here:

http://www.dresden-ist-pink.de/gallery/pink10_gallery.htm

Yves, Robert and me in one picture - that picture has also been added to my gallery. Awkward smile from me, because the photographer made the picture when I was about to smile

 

[Andross]

Guys - I'm in love! And he is in love too (maybe)!! Woohooo!!!! I got a boyfriend. Neener. Neener I hope it lasts *prays to the god of gayness*

Here's picture one from today morning:
*history* Didn't work out.

He's bus driver for our local public transportation company. He's cute. He's fun. He has a great (!!) body, cute little ass, his brown eyes make me melt, he has perfect teeth, he dresses fashionable, he can dance, he is intelligent (at least as much as me) and he's a real lion in bed (*remembers his hurting left nipple...*)

I met him at the last "Think Pink" party last Saturday. I took a photo of him and one of his buddies with my new mobile phone (a Sony Ericsson k800i by the way). We got to talk about our mobile phones while the picture transferred to his phone through Infrared connection I guess, our Infrared connection also worked and now we're linked. He complimented me often - my eyes, my smile, my body... stuff that every guy likes to hear. We drank a few drinks (strawberry juice with rum, Red Bull, etc.) and ended up cuddling and kissing on one of the beds available at the party in a secluded corner. I had a raging hardon the whole time and couldn't stop kissing him. He kisses really aggressively and our tongues battled for mouth supremecy more often than not - sometimes I let him win (hehe)

Eventually we were tired and went to "BOY'S" - the gay bar I often go to. We had another few drinks and cuddled but eventually left and went to his flat in one of the nicer areas of Dresden. He lives on the 6th floor in a sorta penthouse flat with a huge balcony. It is nicely furnished, has some pictures hanging on the walls, all the latest TV/DVD equipment, a huge comfortable bed... which we promptly used, primarily to kiss, cuddle and eventually sleep an hour or so. It was 8 AM or so when we finally stopped making out and took a short nap. Two of his friends were invited for breakfast. He had baked fresh bread and so we prepared the breakfast together. I made the scrambled eggs with ham, he made fresh orange juice and coffee. His friends arrived a little later than expected, but we had a great time together - more or less. I felt like shit because of not having slept enough - 2 hours is definitely not enough for me. We went out for a short walk all together and it felt great to hold hands with him, not caring what the other people passing us thought about us. I knew then, that I was in love with him. I wanted him as boyfriend, to see him again. To feel him again. To have fun with him again.

We spent the whole day together, after his friends left. We had another short nap and some dinner afterwards (just noodles with sausage and lotsa cheese). All the time we kissed and cuddled. It felt great watching TV together with him, cuddling on the sofa.

The next night was awesome. We both climaxed almost together. Me in my thrashing, muscle-spasming orgasm that shot my stuff everywhere (even on his pecs, while he was sorta leaning over me from the left). His didn't fly all that much - he has a cute sack with small nuts, that don't produce all that much cum, apparently. Doesn't matter to me though. I love all of him anyway He wants me to fuck him... maybe I will... eventually. Although I am not into anal sex...

Today morning we woke up around 11 AM and decided to go for lunch to the shopping center near his home. The meals on the card weren't all that appealing, but we managed to get stuffed anyway. We parted when he had to hurry to catch a bus to meet another friend to visit some place and I had to go to work at the youth club.

I'll see him again tomorrow. We just had a 30 minute phone call where we planned ahead for the rest of the week. Friday will start our next long weekend with party again on Saturday (maybe... not sure yet). It feels great to have someone to go to, to know that he wants me. To go to party together, to kiss, to cuddle, to watch TV together, to cook together, etc. I can't wait until tomorrow evening!!

Wish me luck that it lasts. I would hate to lose him because I am giving him my heart. He told me that he has this tingly feeling in his stomach whenever he thinks about me. Butterflies are a good sign that he's also in love with me. I don't want it to be a short-lived relationship only. His age is 26 by the way - he is Gemini.

Quite promising if I follow these astrological directions... on the other hand - he is a real Gemini - very active, even restless at times. I will need to adapt to that, because I am a real Cancer. I like to stay home and enjoy the day together. I am not as "hyper active" as he is at times. However, I think his activity can stimulate me to join him. If he wants me

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Edit: It didn't work out. He rejected me.

 

[Andross]

Who said Valentine's Day can't be fun? I guess my sweetheart and me already had ours yesterday, since we met again yesterday afternoon and stayed together at his place until today.

The sex tonight was wonderful again. I think I never shot more juice than last night and he also surprised me with his explosion My whole belly was covered and I hit his right pec again (hehe). He tastes quite nice, but seems like he's not that much into sucking or tasting cum. *shrug* He likes to play with my ass and he likes me to play with his - who am I to complain? I wonder how my thick and quite long cock is supposed to fit into that cute little ass of his... I don't want to hurt him. He'll be the first guy I am going to fuck. I am scared and excited at the same time. Any suggestions?

I gotta go to work again today, so we're seeing each other again tomorrow evening. I'll stay at his place until Sunday. Hopefully that is not too long. Ya know... seeing each other too much can kill the feelings for each other. I don't want that to happen. Although I have enough love to love him forever, he seems to need a little longer to fall in love with me. He said, he loves me "a little", while I am totally in love with him. *sigh* Please, please, please, dear god of all that is gay, make him love me as much as I love him!

My new cellphone background is this:

*removed* He didn't want me.

 

[Andross]

... Holding hands with your boyfriend in the tram, not caring what everyone else thinks... I did that yesterday with my cutie - it felt so right and I felt so proud. If not for the other people staring, I think I would have kissed him too I sorta envy the hetero couples who do it openly... somehow I am not prepared yet to kiss my boyfriend in public, unless we're at a gay party.

 

[Andross]

Here's an update on my situation now, since he just left my place:

We just had some sex again after spending the last Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday together at his place. Unfortunately, he says I am not 100% his ideal mate (I'm only 70% he says...) so he doesn't love me enough to start a longterm relationship. We'll stay friends though.

During the last few days I noticed that he's a real hectic kind of person - always in a hurry for something, walking extremely fast paced, rarely enjoying some time cuddling or just watching something together. I am not much of a fan of this sort of behaviour, so I also think it's the best if we don't become a real couple. Although he's cute and takes care of himself extremely well, looks is not all that counts. I told him that I see no reason to always put yourself under time pressure if it's not necessary. In return he said, he sees no reason to always stay relaxed...

He doesn't like my relaxed attitude and my calmness. He wants an energizer bunny that always jumps around him and talks all the time. I am not that sort of guy. I enjoy just sitting at a restaurant and enjoying time together, watching movies together cuddling on the sofa, sleeping long and keeping each other warm, having a nice breakfast and a walk in the park afterwards if weather permits. Watching the stars while sitting on the balcony with a cup of hot tea... I'm sorta romantic, I guess.

Although I enjoy his looks and get a boner each time I kiss him, his personality is sometimes a real turn off for me. I told him that he will have to look for a long time to find a guy that fits his "special" wishes 100%, that I would be willing to try it out and see if we can work it out together or not. But now that his one week vacation is over, he won't have that much time anymore to see me. He has to work at very odd hours, being a bus driver and says that he rarely has free time when he's not on vacation. If I am not his dream guy, he's free to look for someone else, I guess. We will still see each other from time to time - i.e. to go shopping, look for new furniture for his balcony, to have a coffee etc. but it won't become a love relationship.

On one hand I am sad that it didn't turn out the way I thought it would. On the other hand, I am glad that he was honest and didn't play with my feelings more than he already did. My lesson out of this is that I should not fall in love that quickly again. Since this was my first attempt at having a real relationship with another guy, I might still have some mistakes to make and heartbreaks to endure, but I think in the end, it will be worth it. The part that sucks is, that with each new guy, you gotta start again fresh and build up a relationship again only to have the risk of being told again that you're not "Mr. Right".

Wish me luck that it works out better next time.

 

[Andross]

Today I met him again. He was working and since he works as a bus driver, what else to do than sit in his bus and be nice company? I burned some movies he wanted on a DVD, so he got them too. That was the first time I sat in a bus because of the driver - and a real cute one at that, no?

During the 2 hours some old grandmother also came in and decided to go on our nerves with her endless deranged chatter. The poor woman seemed to have forgotten where she lives Eventually she left, so we had the whole bus for ourselves again - it was after 0:30 after all.

Although he works all week and wasn't sure if we could go to the next gay party this Saturday together due to his work schedule, he told me today that he can go. Thus our next time seeing each other will be Saturday, 11 PM at my favourite gay bar. I hope the party with him will be fun - but knowing him, it most likely will be

I don't know why, but I still have strong feelings for him. Even if it does not become a full fledged relationship, I look forward to doing many more things together with him as friends.

Next update will be Sunday or so, when I'm back from the party.

 

[Andross]

I think Fortuna was smiling on me today. I won two free tickets to the party tomorrow. Guess who I am taking with me? He doesn't know yet that we'll be able to go to the party for free - I'll tell him tomorrow at the entrance: "Honey, put your money away. We're on the guest list." I am so happy right now, smiling from one ear to the other, when I imagine his reaction tomorrow

 

[Andross]

The news today are - the party was pretty boring and my heart is broken. Although he was there with me, it felt awkward to always see him around, not really caring that I'm there too. He appreciated that he didn't have to pay the entrance fee - thanks to the two free tickets I had for us. Well... glad I could at least be that much of service (hmph)...

I wasn't really looking for someone, since I sorta only had eyes for him, as wasted as that energy may have been In the end, I asked him if there are no feelings left for me. He nodded and our short embrace was half assed and impersonal from his side. My head is full of him and the nice short time we had together. I really enjoyed it - maybe he did too, who knows. My heart needs some time to heal and I think I'll walk around with a sad face for the next two weeks or so. He'll probably be at the next big gay party March 10th - he'll look at me as a stranger and I will look back with a sad puppy dog look, knowing that he's out of reach.

I hope the next guy I fall in love with appreciates me for who I am and does not pretend to love me the first two days only to reject me again. Lonely relaxed Cancer with a strong sense for romantics and cuddling looking for a guy who wants someone like me

Thankfully the barkeeper at my favourite gay bar was supportive and endured my sad face and story of destroyed love. I had too many energy drinks, too much coffee and too many cigarettes - it's time to stop smoking (again).

The next parties will be next Friday and Saturday with my boss, her wife, a lesbian friend of mine and her friends. That should be fun again and hopefully get him out of my head.

By the way - I know that falling in love with people you meet at a gay party is not the greatest way to start a relationship. But it was worth it for the experience and I didn't have as much sex during this February as in the last 7 years. (No worries, we didn't fuck or swallow each other's cum, so there should be no STDs )

 

[Andross]

... at my favourite gay bar. His name is Thomas. He's quite a cutie (short sandy-brown hair, warm blue eyes, beautiful and masculine hands...) and pretty small. I'm maybe 15 cm taller than he is - which may or may not be a problem... we'll see. I could get used to this "protector" role. *imagines himself in shiny armor*

His name reminds me of my first crush during highschool: Thomas, a very good-looking (hetero) classmate, who I had a huge crush on during my teenage years. He was smaller than me too, but very well developed for his age. The same goes for the Thomas I met today. The body I felt underneath his clothes when embracing him as we said "See you again in two weeks", felt very nice with muscles in the right places. Unfortunately he was a little drunk, so he might not remember what he did or said at the bar. I was still quite sober after the "Think Pink" party. He gave me his cellphone number and I sent him a message when I was back home. Hopefully he will remember who I am tomorrow morning.

Although he's cute and a relaxed sort of person like me, he lives quite far away (not *that* far, but maybe too far for me to start a real relationship with him... I am not sure yet). I'll have to figure out where he stays when he comes here to go to parties - he sleeps at some friend's place near the gay bar I go to and invited me to stay there tonight - but I politely declined. I don't really do that until I know a person a little better. Anyone else like this or am I abnormal? Please add your comment below

That's it for today. The next update should happen in two weeks, when I met Thomas again. Wish me luck!