Anthony's Odyssey

[Shelby29]

Thanks, guys! It has been quiet around here lately. Randy has been spending a lot of his time with his family. Ash is in Florida visiting relatives. And I've been doing a lot of yard work. Mine and Ash's. I'm mowing/trimming/weeding/watering his garden while he is away.

I did manage to accidently spend the night at Randy's house. You read that right. Saturday night, we were hanging out on his sofa. He was sitting and I was on my back with my bare legs/feet resting on his lap. He began to rub and massage my feet. That felt good and it wasn't long that I slid my hand under my shorts. Randy then started to work on my toes. He slipped his tongue between my toes and licked all around each one. And then he sucked each toe as if he was trying to get cum out of them, going up and down on each one like he was sucking 10 little cocks. Randy is a big strong man, yet he has such a gentle touch. Watching him worship my long, narrow, size 13 geek feet was as sexy as the touch.

I started jerking myself hard and fast and eventually became frustrated that my dick wasn't responding. I looked at him and realized he was observing me. He told me to stop before I set myself on fire. "Anthony, are we going to have strap you to a chair again." I stopped torturing myself but Randy kept working on my feet. Then I remembered how he had gotten me off that day I was blindfolded and strapped to the chair. I used only my thumb and index finger and stroked slowly and the sensation was . . . sensational. After about 15 minutes and some attaboys from him, I shot cream all over my belly and chest. WOW. As I was collapsed and exhausted in a wonderful way, Randy used my cum as a lotion to rub my feet some more.

We started to watch a movie, and I fell asleep on the sofa. I didn't wake up until Sunday morning! Randy kissed me awake and I panicked. Have you ever had that moment where you suddenly woke up and wondered 'where am I, what day is it, why are my pants down?' Randy was already dressed and making breakfast. Scrambled eggs, Spam, and buttered biscuits. It was about 7:30 AM and figured I should call Mom and tell her where I was. It was the first time I'd ever spent the night at someone's house I wasn't related to. When I called she didn't know yet I wasn't home. She wasn't happy, but not angry either. Randy said, "Make sure you tell her your rosebud is still intact." I went home well-fed, well-loved, and a night well-spent.

Your first sleep over and you slept thru it. At least you got to CUM all over yourself. Always makes me horny reading your well-written and sexy posts. Keep it, up, Anthony!

 

[flamingo]

Friday the 13th was Randy's 29th birthday. A lucky day for sure! Ash had come home from his sojourn to Florida and he was telling us about it and showing some video of being on a lake on his cousin's raft. And sitting on a pier late one night while someone across the lake was setting off fireworks. Ash is a pretty good pool player, and he won $250 from the locals at a bar. He told us about an arrogant kid wearing a Justin Beiber shirt who'd had a little too much to drink and challenged Ash to a game. Ash won and asked for the shirt which the dude gave up. He brought it home and gave it to me as a gag because he knows I can't stand JB. So, we had a little ceremony in Randy's backyard. We hung the shirt from a clothesline and lit it. Sorry, Beibs. Up in flames.

The 3 of us sat around Randy's kitchen table and played spades. Spades is a card game I learned from my Dad when he used to play with some of his buddies. I managed to win a couple of hands. Randy told Ash about my recent sleep over. Ash pretended to be upset. "I leave the state for 5 fuckin' minutes and see what happens!" Their birthdays are just a week apart. Randy's is July 13, Ash's is July 20. Both fall on a Friday this year, and they are planning a big party for next weekend at both of their houses. There goes the neighborhood.

Ash was still in the kitchen playing solitaire while Randy and I were sitting on the sofa. He had his big arm around my shoulders and held me close while I rested my head on his chest. He told me how much he loved me and how happy he's been since moving in next door to me 4 months ago. I feel so safe and content when I am with him. I curled up and put my head in his lap and told him what he has meant to my life. He massaged my thigh and asked me if I was going to fall asleep on him again. I squeezed his thigh and asked him if he wanted to watch tv as I felt his cock hardening against the side of my face.

He slid his right hand under my boxers and started rubbing my ass and said, "You haven't given me a birthday present yet." I didn't say anything and his finger started going around my asshole. He kept rubbing all around my hole and then began to push inside. I took his hard cock out of his shorts, stretched his foreskin down and began sucking his head.

After several minutes, Randy told me to strip and get on the floor on my knees and elbows. I did so and looked back and saw him putting lotion on his cock. He glanced back at me and said, "It's time." OMG! I was nervous as hell! I knew this was going to happen sometime, and I wanted it to happen, but, was I really ready?! Randy got on one knee behind me, put one hand on my back and pushed a lubed finger up inside me. Ash came into the living room and got on his knees in front of me and said, "I'm right here for you, baby."

And then it happened. Randy began to push his cock inside me. It hurt, and I started to whimper and cry. I grabbed Ash around the legs and held him tight for support. When I blurted out that I didn't think I could do this, Randy covered my mouth tightly with his left hand while reaching under me and grabbing my junk. I couldn't say anything and when his hand started to cover my nose, I couldn't breathe. He pushed into me harder and was kissing my neck while telling me I was going to be fine. I was scared. I've seen Randy be sexually rough with Ash, and I thought he'd be more gentle with me. I was wrong! I could feel my tears running down my cheeks and across Randy's fingers. Ash held my hands tightly and said the first time is always the toughest. Randy finally let out a big gasp and pulled out of me. I turned and looked back at him and he said, "See what you do to me, boy." He then started fingering my sore hole and rubbed his gooey cream on my toes and began massaging my feet to try and relax me.

After he cleaned me out, Randy and I sat on the sofa again and he put his arm around me and asked if I was ready to be pregnant with his first child. He asked me if I was okay and said I wasn't sure. Ash said that he and Randy were going to take care of me and that I have nothing to worry about. Ash gave Randy and I each a big kiss and went home. Randy and I sat on that sofa for another hour and a half talking about what just happened. I was still sore, but I felt comforted and loved and I told him so. He told me he was sorry he was rough with me, and I said it was okay.

I was honored that my first was with him, and now I truly feel like I'm "Randy's boy." Maybe next week I'll have to give Ash a birthday present and become "Ash's boy", too.

 

[Autolycus]

Happy Birthdays all round!

 

[Matt89]

Sounds like you had a good first time even if it hurt a bit!

 

[Junior42]

It seems like the pain won over for you Anthony, because you tell such detailed real life stories, but when it came to the actual sex, almost a 1 liner. I sure hope that next time you enjoy it more then you did this time. My first time was with a patient amazing guy and I still remember it to this day.

 

[flamingo]

I am not happy. My first time was anything but good. Unless you think being brought to tears with anal pain and being scared because you can't breathe is a good time. I think Randy is an amazing guy, but was not patient at all with an inexperienced kid like me. I will remember it for the wrong reasons. I think Randy and I have a great relationship and I'll try not to allow 15 bad minutes to ruin it. But I sure wasn't ready for that! It must go better next time!

I called Ash yesterday morning after my Mom had gone to work, and he came right over. That's the first time either of them had been in my house without Mom being here. He asked how I was doing and I said that I was hurt and bewildered over what had happened 3 days earlier. Ash told me that Randy just got caught up in the passion of sex and he feels terrible that he selfishly hurt me, and that he thinks the world of me. I believe that to be true.

After about an hour, Ash asked me if I wanted to walk back to his place and shoot some pool. It was just past 10 AM. We played a couple of games and after the second one Ash told me to get out of my clothes and get on the floor. So I did, and when I was on my back he got down and gave me the most loving deep kisses. He moved down and started licking, sucking, and nibbling my nipples. While doing that, he was caressing my hard shaft. Oh god, this was more like it! He was licking my belly button while rubbing my belly with both hands.

Ash rolled us over and we kissed passionately with me on top of him. I returned the favor of flicking my tongue around one of his nipples while pinching the other. Then I moved down and stroked his cock through his shorts. He slid his shorts down and exposed that beautiful cut piece of sausage. I moved my tongue slowly around that sweet cockhead.

Ash pulled me face down onto the hardwood floor and told me to spread my legs. He put lotion on his fingers and started to rub around my hole and slipped them inside me. I got really nervous again and began to panic. But then I decided, 'Ya know what, boy, it's time to face your fears and give this another shot!' So I relaxed and let him probe around inside me. It felt good. Then he stopped and told me to stay put. He came back with some toilet paper. OH, NO. Not that! Ash said, "Don't freak out, Anthony, you're a little dirty, it happens." FUCK!!!! While he was wiping me out I said, "Ash, I am so embarrassed. I hope you don't think less of me." (I hope those of you reading this won't think less of me for writing about this part. As gay men I figured you might understand. If I've grossed you out, my apologies )

After that unpleasantness, I was on my back looking up at this beautiful stallion standing over me stroking himself, and I began to do the same. After a few minutes, Ash leaned his head back and spurted his load down onto my chest and belly. I used his cum as a lube and before long I was gushing onto myself. Ash offered to fix me lunch, but I said no thanks, I'd rather just go home and take a long shower.

I'm discovering that I really like every aspect of male sexual exploration. EXCEPT that anal insertion part. I just don't know about that!

 

[Matt89]

Sorry if I came across as insensitive in my last post. I hope that if there is a next time that it is less painful for you.

 

[flamingo]

It's okay, Matt. I don't see a next time anytime soon. And that's okay, too. I hadn't talked to Randy for several days and he asked me over to hang out on his back deck. He sat on a chaise lounge with his legs spread out. I sat between his legs with my back to him and just settled back into his chest, resting my head against his beefy shoulder. His put his big right arm around my scrawny shoulders and wrapped his forearm across my chest. I wanted to talk to him but had been avoiding it because I was still mad about how he drilled my rear last time. Randy whispered into my ear that he was very sorry that he hurt me and that he loved me so much. I asked him if it was okay if we didn't do anal because I find it to be very traumatic. To my relief he said, "Anthony, I didn't fall in love with your asshole. I fell in love with YOU. And you have so much to offer in that wonderful brain and heart of yours, sex is just part of it."

I looked up at him and he pulled me tighter and gave me a kiss while he slid my shorts down and began stroking my dick. But I wanted to let him know I wanted to pleasure him even without taking his cock in my rear end. So I got up, turned and knelt beside the lounge. I pulled Randy's cock out of his shorts and began to kiss that sweet thing. He placed his hand on the back of my head. I sucked on him so hard I wanted to assure him there were no bad feelings and that all was forgiven. And I wanted to make damn certain my teeth didn't ruin the experience! He gasped and breathed hard, and I told him I loved him and that I was his boy. He pulled me into a big embrace and we kissed some more.

I wanted to straddle the lounge and sit face to face with him but that didn't go quite so well. I lost my balance and started to fall backward. Randy reached out to grab me and upset the lounge. I landed on my back on the hardwood deck and that sexy ginger stud somehow wound up on his side next to me. Wow. He smiled and said, "You are such a geek," and when he started to kiss me again, he began stroking my shaft. I reached over and caressed him just like he taught me. He pushed me onto my side and told me to relax. He started to rub his boner all around my asshole and shot his load there, pushing his cummy finger only slightly inside me. I told him I didn't like that, and he said maybe you'll like this better. He jerked me hard and I erupted cum onto my belly. OMG, much better!

We went inside and Randy made himself a drink I'd never seen before. White Russian. He let me take a big sip and I said, 'OOH, that is sweet. I like that." Randy just rolled his eyes and said, "And my corruption of minors continues."

I want to write about the leadup to the birthday parties and the parties themselves. But, that will have to come later. My Mom was just down in the laundry room in the basement and we've got water on the floor and soaked rugs after a lot of rain here yesterday. What a mess. Later, guys.

 

[flamingo]

The floor is nearly dry. The rugs are still soaked.

Anyhow, on Thursday I went shopping with Ash. It was the first time I'd ever gone anyplace with just him and it was all good. We went to Pizza Hut for the lunch buffet. While munching down on numerous different kinds of pizza, we talked about anal sex. Hey, what else do you discuss at Pizza Hut? I told Ash that was something I really wasn't comfortable doing, and he said, "That's fine, Anthony. Lots of gay men have great relationships without intercourse. There is more to making love than checking each other's oil." He has a way with words I just adore. Afterwards we made a couple of other stops before heading for the grocery stores. He was buying for his Saturday party and I was buying for Mom/myself. He drives a red Chevy Trailblazer so we had plenty of space.

Ash doesn't have a job. He doesn't need one. He was very close to his grandfather who made it big in real estate. Ash went with him on trips and hung around other successful businessmen even as a teenager. He learned a lot about how the business world works from his grandfather who helped him with his college tuition. Ash majored in . . . economics, of course! He describes his grandfather as eccentric and I'd describe Ash the same way. Eccentric is usually thought of as negative, but I think we're all eccentric in some way or another. Unconventional can be good! A few years ago, when he passed away, he left his favorite grandson a ton of assets. Ash has used his business smarts to put himself in an excellent financial position.

Ash and Randy turned 29 a week apart. They each had birthday parties at their houses on Saturday. They are just a 1/4 mile apart. I went to both as did some others. The weather sucked. A hard rain fell most of the day keeping everyone inside. No cops, nobody was kicked out, nothing major got broken. A mixture of older/younger, male/female, gay/straight, republican/democrat. Interesting conversations ranging from insightful to absurd which I added to in both regards. I think I ate more in one day than I ever have. It was a strange utopia, for sure. The weirdest thing I saw was a pro-Clinton college student actually seated next to a 70+ year old man wearing a red MAGA hat. Maybe there is hope for the world after all.

 

[Matt89]

Sounds like things are going well for you! Thanks for the updates.

 

[PrinceCory]

Randy and I sat on that sofa for another hour and a half talking about what just happened. I was still sore, but I felt comforted and loved and I told him so. He told me he was sorry he was rough with me, and I said it was okay.

Like you, I'm disappointed in Randy. And it's no excuse that "he just got caught up in the passion." He knew full well it was going to be your first time. And what was Ash's excuse? He should have said something in your defense instead of holding on to you. I don't get the fetish or whatever you call it of the hand over the mouth. That's never been my thing and wouldn't like it if it was done to me. Seems kinda extreme for someone's first time. Like you said, it's not how you thought/wanted your first time to be.

 

[flamingo]

PrinceCory, welcome aboard. I'm working past my disappointment. It's definitely not how I felt my first time would go. They both knew that was going to be my first time and it was rougher than it should have been. I think Randy and Ash are great guys. I've expressed to them how unpleasant the experience was for me, and I believe they are truly sorry. What made it really scary was Randy's hand over my mouth and nose. I couldn't speak or breathe. I call that domination, and it wasn't necessary. I can only hope and expect that my second, third, fourth times and beyond will be much smoother and enjoyable for everyone involved. And as Ash told me, a great relationship doesn't have to include intercourse. We've all had excellent sexual encounters together except for that one time.

The sun was out today with no rain. That is news here in drenched southern Pennsylvania. It had rained for 5 days straight. My rain gauge totaled about 8 1/2 inches since Saturday. My Mom couldn't get to her office in a nearby town for 3 straight days because floodwater covered the main roads and back roads leading into the town. Fortunately, we've had no additional water in our basement since that first deluge on Saturday. And that was nothing compared to what other people in our region have dealt with.

 

[flamingo]

On Friday and Saturday, Ash was at a couple of his relatives houses helping to cut fallen trees and clear debris from yards and driveways left behind from the recent flooding. Randy works as a mechanic at his uncle's auto repair business. Randy helped one of his co-workers clean mud off his porch and carry water damaged stuff up from the man's basement. Randy used to live in a neighborhood in that part of the town and said the home he occupied before moving out in March would have been completely surrounded by deep water. Yikes.

Sunday, I was out trimming some low hanging branches on our own trees. I saw Ash standing out on Randy's back deck and I waved him over. He held the limbs still while I lopped them off. I held the thicker branches while he attacked them with my handsaw. Two certainly works better than one.

We have a shed at the back corner of our property. Behind the shed is woods/brush and no one can see you back there. Ash told me he had to piss and asked if he could go behind the shed to relieve himself. I grinned and said, "Only if I can watch you." He rolled his eyes and gestured me to follow him. He exposed that beautiful package and I surprised him by shedding my shirt/shorts and getting on my knees in front of those massive thighs. I looked up at him and just before opening my mouth wide, I said, "See if you can hit the target." He said, "Are you serious?" I had never tasted another man's urine, but have wanted to. Especially from a gorgeous stud like Ash.

He let loose and as he gushed his piss into my mouth it was also streaming down my chin. I put my mouth over the end of his penis and started sucking the piss out of him. I backed off him a bit and reached up to squeeze his scrotum. He kept squirting my tongue as pee ran off my chin and onto my chest. I went back and sucked that sweet dickhead again until his urine flow stopped. "Anthony, you've become a little cock hound, haven't you?" I didn't deny it. I couldn't deny it.

Ash got on his knees behind me. He grabbed my semi-hard dick and pulled it under me and said my ass was so sweet. He ran his fingers all along my ass crack while jerking my dick from behind. He moved against me and began to fuck my ass crack. I stood up and Ash said, "Where are you going? You like this don't you?" I bent over and began to stroke myself and I told Ash to go for it. He said, "Are you sure, babe?" I wasn't sure, but I pretended to be sure. I got down on both knees and elbows in the wet grass and piss-soaked mud. He started to push as I helped him by pushing my asshole onto him. Knowing the problems I've had with this before, Ash was concerned if I was okay with this. While anchored on his knees, he let me do the moving around to however it felt comfortable to me. He said I could stop anytime and I told him, "I want you inside me, Ashland! I want to be your boy!" It soon became very awkward and uncomfortable.

He stood up, lifted me to my feet, roughly turned me around to face him. And he gave me the loving lecture that this 19 year old boy needed to hear from my man 10 years older. It went something like this:

"Anthony, you are my boy. You are Randy's boy. You belong to both of us. How can we get through that pretty head of yours that we love you very much. From that heart of gold to that adorable smile, and that clever wisdom you don't seem to think you have. You dumb geek, you're not our trophy! Shoving our cocks up inside you isn't going to make us love or respect you. And you don't have anything to prove to either of us! Being who you are is your greatest charm, Anthony. Don't ever lose that." That last part came out almost as a whisper. We gave each other a loooooooong deep kiss.

Ash then smirked and said, "You need mouthwash. Your breath tastes like piss."

 

[flamingo]

Yesterday, Ash invited me over for a swim. I didn't know he had a pool. It was cloudy and muggy when I walked the short distance to his house. I came around to the back and saw him filling a plastic wading pool for kids with a water hose. It was big around and deep enough that 2 adults could sit and spread out comfortably like a huge bathtub. When the pool was filled Ash stripped naked and got in. He told me to strip and get in with him. I was nervous about this because I had never been naked in someone's outdoor pool before. He said it was okay because no one could see us. I looked around and we were in a secluded spot under a big maple tree. Total privacy. So I stripped and slipped in beside my shaggy-haired stud. I got over my uneasiness and relaxed in the refreshing water and while we were engrossed in conversation it began to rain. Again. It was a light shower, and the maple tree helped provide a bit of cover. Of course, we were already sprawled out in a pool of water, so a little rain didn't matter.

Ash and I slid down into the water so that it came up over our chests. I moved my hand over and fondled his shriveled dick under the water as he held my nuts. Then he stood up and straddled me as I looked up at him. OMG. His muscular body glistening as the water poured off him. Holy shit. He stepped out of the pool and reached under my arms from behind pulling me up. He wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted my skinny ass up and out of the pool. Ash gave me a long luscious kiss before drying me off. By this time the brief shower had passed. The affection that Ash and I have for each other is getting deeper all the time.
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Does anyone know about JUB members techie70 and Matt89?

 

[flamingo]

Last night I went next door to see Randy. It was the first time I'd seen him in person since his birthday party almost 3 weeks ago, though we've talked on the phone a couple of times. As soon as I'd gotten in the door he held my head between his big strong hands and kissed me on the lips and nose and called me his sweet little angel. We removed our shirts and as he kissed me on top of my head I told him I missed him and loved him.

Randy pulled my boxers down, got on his knees and began to lick my hard dick. He did that for a few minutes, then stood as I got on my knees and pulled his beautiful cock out of his blue shorts. I wrapped my wet lips around his dickhead and ran my tongue all around it. It felt so good to have that man in my mouth again. I asked Randy if he wanted to lick my ass. I never asked that before! He said yes and I got on my back on a brown leather ottoman and he lifted my legs until my knees were on each side of my head with my feet over my head. I'd never been in this position before! Randy put his firm hands on my asscheeks and started to play with my hole with his tongue, tickling my scrotum with his nose. Randy stroked himself as he washed my asshole with his tongue. This was a new experience and I fucking loved it! He stood up and rubbed his cock all over my hole and my nuts as he leaned in to kiss me. We kissed each other's mouths and noses while he groped my asscheeks. Soon he blew cum onto my asscheeks, asshole, my nuts, the ottoman. My back was sweaty and slimy being against that leather. He was sweating, I was sweating! Wow. I didn't get to cum, but that was okay because I was focused on him getting maximum pleasure.

 

[Shelby29]

Last night I went next door to see Randy. It was the first time I'd seen him in person since his birthday party almost 3 weeks ago, though we've talked on the phone a couple of times. As soon as I'd gotten in the door he held my head between his big strong hands and kissed me on the lips and nose and called me his sweet little angel. We removed our shirts and as he kissed me on top of my head I told him I missed him and loved him.

Randy pulled my boxers down, got on his knees and began to lick my hard dick. He did that for a few minutes, then stood as I got on my knees and pulled his beautiful cock out of his blue shorts. I wrapped my wet lips around his dickhead and ran my tongue all around it. It felt so good to have that man in my mouth again. I asked Randy if he wanted to lick my ass. I never asked that before! He said yes and I got on my back on a brown leather ottoman and he lifted my legs until my knees were on each side of my head with my feet over my head. I'd never been in this position before! Randy put his firm hands on my asscheeks and started to play with my hole with his tongue, tickling my scrotum with his nose. Randy stroked himself as he washed my asshole with his tongue. This was a new experience and I fucking loved it! He stood up and rubbed his cock all over my hole and my nuts as he leaned in to kiss me. We kissed each other's mouths and noses while he groped my asscheeks. Soon he blew cum onto my asscheeks, asshole, my nuts, the ottoman. My back was sweaty and slimy being against that leather. He was sweating, I was sweating! Wow. I didn't get to cum, but that was okay because I was focused on him getting maximum pleasure.

mmmm, true: Absence makes the heart grow fonder!

 

[Junior42]

I too am one who likes to please my partner and don't mind if I get off or not. Very nice!

 

[CharmedFan28]

Sounds like a good time was had by all!

 

[bs29697]

I've been reading your story and wow what a time you have had!! You are a much more forgiving person than I. I also had my first anal sex with someone like Randy. My first time ended in tears of pain and the guy telling me I should not have tightened up my anus.

 

[flamingo]

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. I haven't heard that one before. I haven't seen much of Randy lately because within the last 3 weeks his father had a heart attack and his older brother, Jeff, came down with a severe case of pneumonia. Both have just come home from the hospital and are making slow recoveries, so Randy has spent a lot of that time at the hospital and with his family. We have talked on the phone and we can't believe at our young ages, we've had fathers suffer heart attacks. I was 16 when my Dad died at age 40. Randy is 29 and his Dad is only 60. I've mowed Randy's lawn a couple of times and pulled some weeds so he didn't have to be bothered with that while his focus was on more important things in life.

I've been busy with some of my extended family members. Husking and cleaning fresh sweet corn to make soup or to freeze. Peeling and cutting zucchini. I love zucchini, and I think my family has every zucchini recipe known to man. I even learned how to make relish. The older women do things the old fashioned way having grown up on farms and having Mennonites as neighbors. Using a 64 year old hand crank grinder, I ground up squash, peppers, onions . When all the proper ingredients were mixed in and cooked, I filled the canning jars. It's fun to learn these things and I felt useful. I must have been doing a good job because no one complained about what I was doing. Now my Mom is ready to can tomatoes.

Ash bought himself several dozen ears of corn and I went over to his house one afternoon to help him husk and clean it. As you might expect, my conversations with him are worlds apart from my relatives who don't have a clue what I am about. All my kinfolk seem to want to know is, "Tony, honey, when are you going to find yourself a girlfriend?" Grrr! I hate that question, and I hate being called Tony!

Ash tells me about getting invited by some friends to go on a road trip to explore some different gay communities across America. Two of those "friends" blurted out that Randy wouldn't be welcome to come along because he voted for Trump. Ash told the guys "if Randy isn't good enough to go with you, then neither am I." Ash chose love and friendship over political crap. Good for him. I can't believe it. Randy basically got the Red Hen treatment by dudes who were invited to Randy's and Ash's birthday parties last month. They were at Ash's party, but didn't go to Randy's place. I guess we now know why. Ash is really pissed about this, but did manage to joke, "Poor Randy, I guess he just isn't gay enough!" Those 2 have been very close for nearly 10 years.

Maybe I like pleasing my partners more than myself because they are 10 years older than me and have taken me under their wing and have shown me respect and love that I've never felt before from a man. Oh, I LOVE IT when they get me off! But it really makes me happy to see their reactions when they climax. And I love when Randy says, "See what you do to me, boy!" It makes me feel special when I help give him that feeling.

bs29697, thanks for reading! And yes, it has been a wonderful 5 months of my life with Randy and Ash. I've probably been more forgiving for the reasons I mentioned in the previous paragraph. I won't let one bad experience define my relationships or my future sexual encounters. If I do, I'll drive myself crazy. Of course I've learned you don't need to have anal sex to have a great time in the sack!

If anyone following along wants to share with me your "first time" and what you learned from it, good or bad, send me a PM.