OK where to start, I'm a "straight" male, 31 in a 9 year relationship with my girlfriend who I do dearly love. although I'll probably get some abuse for that statement at the end of this thread. At the same time I have been friends with a guy for over ten years, we have been away together, out together and worked together. I've always in the back of my mind fancied men, watched gay porn, the usual horny stuff you do. I have never and would never disclose any of this to my girlfriend. My friend and I have often had heart to hearts, we've once years ago even compared the size of each others penises. but behind all of this, I have always had it bad for him. We have had opportunities when I could have come clean but never have.
however now this is eating me up, I'm not saying I would do anything with him, but everytime I go to bed I'm thinking about him, when I watch porn I'm masturbating to the thoughts of doing something with him. He was over in a pair of shorts last week and I could see his thighs and it got me so excited I had butterflies.
What do I do? come clean, knowing that anything would probably absolutely never happen as I really can't see him commiting any form of sexual act with another man. will I feel better for telling him and if he rejects me finally be able to get him out of my head and enjoy my time with my girlfriend. even if I don't tell him anything should I leave her because I'm having these desires. Any questions, help or advice would be greatly appreciated. I need to sort my head out one way or another. thanks guys x
however now this is eating me up, I'm not saying I would do anything with him, but everytime I go to bed I'm thinking about him, when I watch porn I'm masturbating to the thoughts of doing something with him. He was over in a pair of shorts last week and I could see his thighs and it got me so excited I had butterflies.
What do I do? come clean, knowing that anything would probably absolutely never happen as I really can't see him commiting any form of sexual act with another man. will I feel better for telling him and if he rejects me finally be able to get him out of my head and enjoy my time with my girlfriend. even if I don't tell him anything should I leave her because I'm having these desires. Any questions, help or advice would be greatly appreciated. I need to sort my head out one way or another. thanks guys x









