Anyone a addict, Or can help?

[sk8parkdude]

I'll be 100% honest, Iam screwed up right now. I'am at home for winter break. I do sleeping pills daily (which I found out these pills have been taken off the market for some time, which would explain why they make you feel fucked up and not really tired. I did oxycontin a few weekends ago and ended up in the hospital with my best frined who also took them.
I wanna stop doing both of them, I dont want to have to miss school to do this. Do clinics or anything help in this, I also want to try to keep my parents out of it, as they do both work for drug companies. I had another post about the sleeping pills, but I couldnt stop them and we only did more to get the same effect. Is this too far gone, to get help silent or does this have to be made into a big deal with the family and missing school?? ANy help would be appricated.

 

[looseliam]

Programmes help for very few.

You've admitted there's a problem. Do you want to stop?

I was addicted to cocaine for quite some time. Massive amounts. I was able to quit and stay away.

It take mental resolve, most of all, I found.

Do you attend university? Is there a health clinic? Have you spoke with your physician?

If you'd care to chat privately, you're most welcome.

 

[racer2438]

I applaud you for your honesty..
I glad you admit to having a problem. That in it self is a major step to recovery. Just going to a rehab place with those 2 thoughts is a great step.

The hard part in following through, you need to stay away from people that could influance you back into it. You have a whole life ahead of to waste in drugs. In rehab they will also work on your pot/alcohol issue plus your other drugs that are affecting you.

It will not be quick and this will take time. There is no shame in asking for help from your parents. Thats what family is there for. They being in the drug industry will know how important this is for you.
please get help. You deserve a better life..

And again a hug and a pat on the back for your honesty.

Keep in touch and let us here on JUB know if you need a help albeit moral but we are here for you..

Best of luck, wishing you a better new year and no drugs..

 

[sk8parkdude]

See if there's a Narcotics Anonymous near you. It's an offshoot of Alcoholics Anonymous. There may even by a gay group nearby.

Here's a link:

http://www.na.org/basic.htm

There's a ton of links if you run a search for "narcotics anonymous" Include the quotes.

By the way, the problem drug(s) needn't be narcotic for Narcotics Anonymous.

Thanks man, I found one near my house and I have a feeling I might see some people around my area I knew before.

Programmes help for very few.

You've admitted there's a problem. Do you want to stop?

I was addicted to cocaine for quite some time. Massive amounts. I was able to quit and stay away.

It take mental resolve, most of all, I found.

Do you attend university? Is there a health clinic? Have you spoke with your physician?

If you'd care to chat privately, you're most welcome.

Thanks, I have to stop. Its changed me, people at home noticed it when Iam not the same, I dont want to keep hiding stuff around my house and car I just want to not have to deal with it. Its become like a daily routine, wake up take some, before I go out take some, and then late at night. The I found oxycontin and even though it almost killed me, it was still like I couldnt wait to take it again, along with my friend.
I go to a university, but didnt want to tell them or anything because of course I would be kicked out. And no one knows but my friends, no doctors.

I recall your first plea.......and am glad you really want to hang it up.
HOME is a good place to be right now.......no peer pressure there.
DO check with any groups that might be available.
I'm not sure going cold turkey is the right way to go with giving up the sleeping pills......IF you have it in you I think tapering off would work best.
Quitting drinking and smoking are different to my way of thinking and I've done both. Others may have different ideas but the fact you know you want out is a HUGE step.
Good luck!

Thanks. I really need out as soon as I can. I cant stand it, My friends at home hate it, its messed up my grades, I dont want to keep hiding it, I just want out.

 

[sk8parkdude]

I applaud you for your honesty..
I glad you admit to having a problem. That in it self is a major step to recovery. Just going to a rehab place with those 2 thoughts is a great step.

The hard part in following through, you need to stay away from people that could influance you back into it. You have a whole life ahead of to waste in drugs. In rehab they will also work on your pot/alcohol issue plus your other drugs that are affecting you.

It will not be quick and this will take time. There is no shame in asking for help from your parents. Thats what family is there for. They being in the drug industry will know how important this is for you.
please get help. You deserve a better life..

And again a hug and a pat on the back for your honesty.

Keep in touch and let us here on JUB know if you need a help albeit moral but we are here for you..

Best of luck, wishing you a better new year and no drugs..

Thanks, the staying away from people who influence me is hard. That itself will be the hardest for me. I feel like we all did this as a group, like we took baby steps into drugs and now this is where we are at....
I want to keep my parents out of it as much as I can. Not because they wont be there for help. But beause they always have drugs and such in the cars or in their office that they get from work and I think they would feel like they had something to do with it. Which they dont, I would have gotten the drugs another way if they ddint have it, or got stuff that wasnt released yet and such.

My friend wanted to quit smoking, but he'd always find himself going outside at break to 'talk with his friends' and he'd end up bumming a smoke after a day or two. this went on for a really long time.

then I taught him a game "Blackeye" at a party. He liked it so much he taught a few of the non-smokers who hung out in the break room. Every lunch hour and break period, they'd go play a round of Blackeye. He stopped going outside and stopped re-entering his cycle.

Stopping any addiction is about breaking the cycle.

I come to this from a Buddhist perspective in regards to addiction. Look for the root cause of why you continue to do what you do. Why do you return consistently to that which you want to stop.

I'm not talking some quick 2-bit answer of 'oh it feels good, thats why' because that excuse is bull. We might think we know why we do these things but we are sorely mistaken. Look down deep, way deep inside. Sit at the foot of your bed on a cushion. legs cross, sitting up straight, neck in line with your back. Relax your eyes and allow them to focus on nothing. once your comfortable start looking for your reason.

As my teacher said so pithily as an answer to every one of my questions... "SIT!"

thanks, I really dont why, it just started one day with my friends and kinda went from there....I gotta try to think real hard I think

 

[looseliam]

Sweetie, when you see a physician, he can't disclose your condition. He's not allowed to.

Withdrawal form oxycodone is likened to heroin withdrawal. I have no first-hand knowledge of how bad that is, but I've heard the stories.

Have you just abused oxycodone once, or has this become a habit. Are you mixing oxycodone with the sleeping pills?

So, let's talk.

How do you feel before you take the pills? What draws you to them? How's school life? Any hobbies? How are things at home? What are your goals for the future?

 

[sk8parkdude]

Sweetie, when you see a physician, he can't disclose your condition. He's not allowed to.

Withdrawal form oxycodone is likened to heroin withdrawal. I have no first-hand knowledge of how bad that is, but I've heard the stories.

Have you just abused oxycodone once, or has this become a habit. Are you mixing oxycodone with the sleeping pills?

So, let's talk.

How do you feel before you take the pills? What draws you to them? How's school life? Any hobbies? How are things at home? What are your goals for the future?

Ive done oxycontin multiple times since, though not really with the sleeping pills, but they have been taken within 30mins of one other. Before I take the pills its normally pretty dull, its just me and some people never alone while doing it. It use to be just when there was nothing to do and we had a bunch of time to kill. But it feels for me like I just have to keep doing it. Like when your on them, there is nothing that can bother you. I dont ever want to be bothered, so whenever I have oxy around I just take them. School is fine, except my grade which use to be pretty good. I use to be real big on skating and soccer, but with snow you cant really do that.
its just hard to explain, its so easy and when your hanging out and you know you could walk to the garage and pop the trunk of your dads car and find a selection of drugs, its just like always in your head. My parents work 6-7 days a week and go away on trips for work, so they leave their cars home and its just like always calling for you its just to easy and Ive got attacted to it, even if my I dont wanna take pills I still do because I always have for awhile. I guess my friends dont do it as much because they dont have 24hr acess to it.

 

[looseliam]

Removing yourself from temptation is a start.

Getting back into sport may help kill the idle time when you start craving.

If your friends do it, I recommend avoiding them.

As is seems more recreational, you might find it easier to quit than you think.

The sooner, the better.

And snow? There's lots to do. Cross country & downhill skiing, hiking, snowmen, etc.

 

[BlondeCanadian]

okay sorry to de rail a bit but which is which...
Oxycoton=heroin like
Oxycodein= percocets?

i know i was given percs for my wisdom teeth and i got addicted to them...i would get headaches that only percs got rid of...but then my parents flushed them down the toilet one day and i nevcer bothered to buy them...
If it is something like this you prolly need to be weaned off of it....and you could prolly cut back at first by only ddoing it socially with friends then gradually work your way down

 

[Luka]

ummmm so stop taking them?? problem solved

 

[KaraBulut]

okay sorry to de rail a bit but which is which...
Oxycoton=heroin like
Oxycodein= percocets?

i know i was given percs for my wisdom teeth and i got addicted to them...i would get headaches that only percs got rid of...but then my parents flushed them down the toilet one day and i nevcer bothered to buy them...
If it is something like this you prolly need to be weaned off of it....and you could prolly cut back at first by only ddoing it socially with friends then gradually work your way down

To clarify- Percodan and Percocet are brand names for pain medications that contain a small amount (2.5-5.0mg) of oxycodone mixed with an over-the-counter analgesic (aspirin or acetaminophen aka paracetamol).

Oxycontin is a brand name for OXYcodone CONTINuous release formulation. It is a large dose of oxycodone (10mg-160mg) in a slow-release form that was designed for cancer patients who need a sustained dose of the drug or who have developed tolerance to pain medications.

Because Oxycontin is a large dose, it has high potential for abuse.


I recall OP's original post about his use of sleeping pills and I recall that several of us posted suggesting that he get professional help to ease his withdrawal. Based upon this latest post, the problem has gotten more serious. I concur with those who have recommended that you see your physician and get help. There are several options available but seeing a physician is the first step.

 

[3nipples]

Your excuse for not talking to your parents is weak.

You're not doing them any favours by keeping them in the dark and you're sabotaging your own efforts to break out of this habit.

They need to know if for no other reason than to stop keeping drugs in the trunk of their car where you can and will get at them.

 

[Rock92]

It really is sad when I hear stories like this. I have seen too many people in my life (and I am only in my early 20’s) who have completely ruined their lives due to drug addiction. Currently one of my best friends has such a severe drug addiction problem that he now only cares about his drugs & drug buddies. I and my friends no longer want anything to do with him. It appears from what you have written, you are heading down the same road my friend (now ex-friend) is on. The only thing different between you and him is that you have admitted you have a problem. So now there are a couple of things you need to do.

First, you need to tell your parents. While it does not seem like it they are in some way YOUR SUPPLIERS!! Telling them will MAKE THEM keep the drugs away from you. Now, deep down inside you don’t want to tell your parents because you know you will lose where you get your supply from (something drug addicts never want to have happen).

Next, you need to get rid of these so called friends of yours. They are influencing you in taking the drugs. Plus, you are supplying them with the drugs. I can guarantee that if something happens to you or you no longer supply them with the drugs they will drop you and try to get drugs somewhere else. They most likely only care about themselves so therefore, you need to care only about yourself and stop giving a fuck about what people think of you.

Now, it might not seem possible, I have seen people who were at their lowest bounce back and are doing very well today (even though they have urges). You just need to stop being weak and controlled by the drugs and put your life back on track. People on this site have taken a time from their lives to try and give you advice to help you overcome this. It is now up to YOU to get the help you need. Just remember the road to recovery is very difficult. If you are not up for the challenge there is a strong possibility your parents will be burying you sometime in the near future. This might sound harsh sometimes you have to say shit like this to get a point across.

You are too young to let something like drugs wreck you life. Hopefully my and the other members advice will make you seek the help you need. I wish you nothing but the best of luck in turning your live around. Let us know how everything turns out.

 

[sk8parkdude]

Thanks everyone for your replies and help.

Iam away from home with family in a different state now, so its gonna be a real test if I take anything. This has been a daily thing for me so its hard. I dont wanna tell my family about this around the holidays.
Again this part is all honest even though it doesnt go by what alot of people say.
I looked at the NA and all and I can deff go to them. I truely feel like I have to stop myself. I got myself into this I gotta get myself out. I know thats not the way I should do it, but I have to for self respect, I dont like to go to other people for help. If that doesnt work Then I will seek help other wise with pros.
Does that make anysense or am I just completely an idiot at this point haha

My friends are real, Ive known them forever pretty much. They can do without drugs, but it seems that Iam the only the one that keeps taking them. When I was in the hospitial I found all my friends came, and I learned who where my real friends. Most of them are the ones who know I've changed this past year with all this.

 

[son1fan]

Awww I'm so sorry. I kinda know how you feel. For the past few weeks, i'v been taking extra doses of my allergy medicine so that I immediatly pass out.

 

[seven_sins]

Your father keeps non-prescribed narcotic drugs in the trunk of his car that he got from his workplace? I can't believe this. That has to be illegal. Are you sure he is not addicted also? Drugs at home are a major cause of addiction in young people. The only way you can remove the temptation is to have the drugs removed. If I understand it, you said that your friends don't have the problem you have because they don't have the easy access that you have. You are going to have to get the drugs out of your reach to get off them. You are going to have to tell your father. If you don't, you are going to be in much worse shape as the months go by. I see no other way out but to come clean with your parents. Good luck man.

 

[sk8parkdude]

They only have the sleeping pills, and other non illegal stuff in their cars and office. They both work for drug companies and do research, its really not that uncommon. I know other people my age-ish that have parents bring stuff home also.

 

[Georgiadude]

I just noticed this thread and have a couple of thoughts to add.

I have been fighting addiction for 12 years. I put my family and friends through a living hell. I was good at hiding it in the begining but like most addicts I couldn't keep track of the lies any longer. Soon the only person I was fooling was myself. My drug of choice was opioids. vicodin, lortab, oxycontin, codiene, dilaudid, morphine, demerol. It started slow like you. Take a pill to start the day. take a pill before lunch. take a pill before bed. Soon 1 pill wasn't enough. I had to take 2 or 3 to just feel anything. It kept increasing to the point I was taking 20-30 vicodin a day. It's a miracle that I'm still alive today.

I'm not telling you how much I did to brag about it. I'm telling you where this is leading if you don't get help NOW. You need professional help. I can't tell you how many times I did the "I can do this on my own" routine. Having been through rehab 3 times and listening to hundreds of addicts tell the same story. Trust me. It rarely works.

You need to tell your parents. You have a disease called addiction. If you were diagnosed with any other disease they would be the first person you told. You need their support to get through this. How would you feel if they needed help and were too ashamed to ask you for it? Their your parents. They will love and support you through anything.

NA is a great resource however right now you need professional help getting off of this stuff. Like other diseases there are medications and treatments that can help put it in remission. There are countless rehab facilities that can help you. Most facilities have outpatient programs that will allow you to continue working or going to school while getting the help you need. Most insurance companies cover the costs very well.

I know this is getting long and I'm almost done. You have a disease. You need the help of doctors, counselors and addiction professionals to win the battle. You took a huge step by recognizing you have a problem and want to stop. Don't take this disease lightly. Addiction is a cold, heartless bastard. It doesn't care who it attacks and it will kill you. Trust me. The time and energy you invest now will save you from years of hell. Don't wait like I did.