Are you happy?

[G-Lexington]

I'm going through some pretty heavy stuff at the moment, and it has been incredibly draining. I've been noticing that I'm far more easily bothered by the little things. For example, a friend hasn't bothered to return my call from earlier this week, and another friend called this afternoon to cancel our plans for tomorrow night. Whereas ordinarily I'd just let it go, I'm now having difficulty suppressing the urge for pettiness.

I still have those urges. And I found it's best to give in to them...internally. I just lay down and imagine being a complete bitch to them, and watching them get that shocked "I never thought you would do this, nice gargoyle!" look on their faces as they feel the burn.

Then I laugh at myself for being petty, get up, and get on with my life.

More than that though, I'm struggling to avoid beating myself up over not being more extroverted, charismatic, likeable etc.

If you were any more extroverted, charismatic, and likeable, then you'd be out of our league and not talking to us.

Lex

 

[Alistair]

A month ago I was the happiest I've ever been in my life. I was in a great relationship that was moving forward. I was losing weight, exercising and feeling great.

Now my relationship is basically on the rocks. I've developed a health issue that is possibly really bad. The doctors still can't resolve what the cause even is. I can't sleep more than 5 hours. I'm stress eating and have gained 10 pounds back.

Every time I get up in my life I get kicked in the nuts.

 

[HunterM]

Every time I get up in my life I get kicked in the nuts.

Start wearing a jockstrap for protection!!!

 

[HoodedRat]

That's not bipolar, that's Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

The precise currently-fashionable nomenclature is of little concern to those who experience the phenomenon.

As for me, I will continue to prefer the term 'manic/depressive'; that has served me well for the past 30+ years.

 

[BostonPirate]

I am content.

Happy comes and goes.