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[Babyboyfl]

I wanted to write something profound, deep and insightful but alas, no. All I have is the ramblings of an insane man. That is me. And I am okay with that!

I recently shared a short version of the "gay story" of my life. Several people have responded via email or private message to say how much they related to and appreciated my sharing of this tale.

It made me think about my life more. What it has become, what it used to be, what it could have been and almost was and what it is yet to become. (All of those those thoughts running around in my head at the exact same moment. Is there no wonder I am insane.) And I began to realize that I have lived an extrodinary life! I could write a book!

So I decided that I would use this online journal to make notes about my life. Shine a spotlight, if you will, on some of the little details of my life. Why not? Everyone else does and my story is just as interesting. So that is what I am doing.


I really don't understand how this blogging works. I guess it's like the journal I already keep and have been keeping for the past 15 years except there is the possiblility that someone else will read it besides me.

So I will write. What I write about may not always be interesting. It may not always be profound but then again it could be the words that are repeated 1,000 years from now. Who knows. I may not write every day and no one may ever read these words besides me but I will write none the less! So we shall see what this new experience shall bring me.

Who knows. If there is one thing I have learned is that everything works out as it should. I believe in the perfection of the universe and I believe that everything I do has purpose.

so with this attitude I give you ....... me!

 

[Babyboyfl]

I am writing today becuase I have nothing else to do. I have just come from the "Hot Topic" and have once again found nothing of interest to respond to.

Am I jaded? I wonder sometimes. I know that the world is full of different types of people but I fear that most people are just asleep and do not care about anything of any significance. But what is acutually significant? Just because I find something important does not mean that it is important to anyone else..

Oh the ramblings of an insane man..... That is what I am.

It is challenging to live in a world knowing that you are sometimes alone. And yet surrounded by so many people. It is disturbing to think that the next person you meet could be just as easily be your murderer or your lover for life. Is it this uncertainty that makes life worth living?

There are days when I do not want to get out of the bed. To not try one more time. To give up the search for truth and the hope of good. Somedays I just want to not do anything except breathe.......

I don't breathe enough I think. I don't stop to wonder anymore. The world always tells me that I should be doing something else than breathing and wondering. That I should be engaged in activity that does not satisfy me nor enlighten me. It bores me to think that this is to be my existence.

The ramblings of an insane man.........that is what I am.

There are sooo many people in this world.... So many through out time....why does my tiny existence matter?....To whom and why? i try to do good and I try to be the best me that I can be....but I wonder sometimes......why?

Because it is who I am.... I love to give of myself and my time... it makes me happy to share my life with others who care...and it makes my life worthwhile to care for others too.


The ramblings of an insane man........yep....that is what I am.

 

[Babyboyfl]

Last night I had the best sex of my life....Yum.....the funny thing is I said that to myself the night before......and two days before that....and yes last week too. Yes, I am one of those people. One of those single gay men who has a different sex partner every occassion. The gigolo. The slut. Everywhere I go someone wants to take my clothes off.

I do not know why this is true and honestly I do not care. I like being sexually attractive. But I think the real reason is becuase I will sleep with anyone who has a good game and not too terribly unpleasant to the eye. Oh yeah a big dick helps too. But the simple reason is I like people. I like to meet different types of people and hear their stories about their past and present. And see what type of dick that have and is the rumor true.

Like this guy from last night......He is from Puerto Rico.....he was married once to a guy!...I found that interesting.....He also kept an orchid garden outside his window that we looked at after having sex. He told me his plants names and told me how they came to be and what his plans where with them...

All of the details of this person are irrelevant the fact is that we had sex for about 4 hours and then had sex another 2 hours when we awoke.

I have had a lot of sex like this. The guy you take home from the bar.. The guy you meet in the grocery store or just simply walking on the street. Sex is everywhere all of the time and I am glad that I am able to find it.

Oh the joys of being a slut...If I could i woul have sex with every man on the planet. (well not every man but sure many of them).

 

[Babyboyfl]

A long time ago I made a conscious decision to eliminate drama from my life. I got rid of all people situations that did not contribute to the happiness and peace of my life.

It was not easy but trust me it was not too hard either. Last Sunday I went to a party and I realized that I was surrounded by DRAMA!

Everyone in the small group of 30-40 people had either slept with, lived with, dated, or hated someone else in the group.

What is that all about? It was a bit dissapointing becuase the reason I was around this DRAMA was becuase it was a birthday party for a guy that I am getting to know. We have gone on a couple of dates and were getting to know each other. I was starting to feel pretty good about our little arrangement until this party.

I don't think I want to be a part of someone who is a part of so much drama. It was quite a dissapointment. I have not talked with him since the party. He has not called me nor have I called him. Which is something else that is a little annoying.

This guy has already borrowed money and not given it back. Has asked me to do him favors and I suspect (especially after Sunday) that he is just trying to take advantage any way he can.

Too bad. I was really starting to like this guy. Oh well......Next

 

[Babyboyfl]

Today I woke up to the parrots singing and the wind blowing and sky blue and the sun bright. It was another of those beautiful South Florida days. The ones that remind you why we live here. One of those days that makes you forget about Hurricanes and Dolphins and politics. These are the days that you get in your car and ride with the windows down and the radio up. The days that convertables are required to have their tops down and everyone is at the beach.

We have a gay section of the beach in Ft lauderdale where being at the beach is like being at the club. The boys are in their high-fashion swimwear and their gym bodies are toned to perfection. They are all trying to get that perfect color, the one that supports those tanning sessions that they all pretend they are not doing.

It is fun here! I always meet new and interesting people. Business men, students, the homeless and even the occasional multi-millionare. But we all have the same thing in common.......we live in paradise.

The landscape has a way of disarming people. It is very hard to be uptight when the weather is this way. It is a day for Pina Coladas and football, for picnics and cookouts. It is a day to not do chores and to sit under a palm tree with a good book or a good blanket and take a nap.

Yep....Another Day in Paradise.....who would want to be anywhere else?

 

[Babyboyfl]

Hello Everyone!

I would like to thank you for stopping by and checking me out.

It has been quite some time since I have added an entry to my blog so........ here is another one. :/

I don't have much to say right now except that I will be working on my galleries and blog entries in the days and weeks to come.

So I hope you come back and like what you see and give me some votes! Until then,

PEACE

 

[Babyboyfl]

My mother used to have a saying:

"Laugh and the world laughs with you, weep and you weep alone."

When I was a young child I though it simply meant: Don't cry.

In my teenage years: If you cry no one will hear you.

In college it translated to: No one will join you in your suffering.

As a young adult: Stop listening to your mother!

But now it simply means: Laugh!!


I am amused by my own life. The observation of my many quirks and idiosyncrasies causes me to open my mouth and let out a sound of merriment. Usually daily and on some of those days, hourly. Yet it also causes me to find the joy & laughter in the irony of humanity.

The beauty of the adage my mother spew out as if it were manna from heaven is that when I laugh at myself and others I do see the world differently. I see it as something I am apart of and not seperate from. I realize when I laugh that I am not alone.

When I laugh the world around me winks and smiles and laughs too. So go ahead and try it...... the same thing just might happen to you.

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[Babyboyfl]

hello All

I have noticed that many people have visited my galleries since last I wrote and I wanted to tell let you all know that I am still in the process of organinzing my pics and creating a Pic Gallery that is worthy of return visits.


Please continue to be patient as I create and update.

I will post a "Gallery Opening" when I have a full page of each category.

A big THANK YOU for your visit and your votes.

NAMASTE