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“What do we do now?”
Pete said, almost half asleep in the room filled with warm late afternoon light in the third floor apartment on 70th Street.

On his side, Swann’s hand ran up and down Pete Agalathagos’s body. They had spent the warm afternoon in here becoming warmer, pressing together and touching. There is the sex that wears you out, that satisfies you completely, and then there is another kind of sex that takes you beyond that so that soon you want it again. Where would they go after this? He had no other clothes. He didn’t want to explain Pete to his family. Easter was soon enough. He wanted to sleep at home, and when he said home he meant Saint Francis. He didn’t answer the question, but the idea formed in his mind. Even as it did, he played with Pete’s cock, and it was stiff and thick, veined like it was this morning, like this morning he waxed it with his moth and then, in the late afternoon he straddled Pete, and took the boy into him, placing his hands on his chest, his eyes widening the way they always did the first time he took someone, or when it had been some while.

He rode Pete as the sunlight made gold and red and purple starbursts against his shut eyelids, as a throbbing pressed deep, deep in him. In time he was on all fours for him. In time he lay flat, pressed against the mattress while Pete pounded the life out of him and they both shouted so loud Swann was sure he would be heard. It did not matter. Once he heard Donald and Jason fucking like this. He was in the front bedroom and heard the bed hitting the wall.

As evening approached they were dressed and pressed in their blazers, ties and trousers, riding the South Shore on their way to Calverton. They sat side by side holding hands, and Pete’s hair was soft and sticky uppy for the first and probably the last time.

“I want to kiss you again,” Pete told him.

As the ass ends of Chicago rolled by, scrubby land, old buildings, the cataracts of Lake Calumet and the Calumet River, they looked around the nearly empty train, and then kissed, Pete rubbing his rough face against Swann’s.

“I thought you were with Chris Navarro,” Pete said, at last.

“It’s hard to say.”

“I’m pretty sure last year it was Jack Knapp.”

“That was true. It wasn’t complicated at all.”

And then Swann said, “I thought you had a girlfriend.”

“Stephanie.”

“Well…”

“I hope I’m not misleading you,” Pete said, holding his hand, earnestly. “I guess I wasn’t really thinking. I just…”

“I wanted to fuck you,” Swann said, baldly. “I wanted that for a while now. And Chris is doing his own thing, and I’ve been doing my own thing. So if you want us to do our own thing for a while, I’m fine with that. I mean, your girlfriend’s not here, and really, where ever she is, I’m not there either.”

Peter’s fingers danced slowly in Swann’s palm, but he said nothing. Even though Swann had frequently had sex with Chuck in their quarters, he wasn’t sure how he would master sleeping with Pete, and he certainly planned to sleep with him again. Chris knew about Chuck, partially joined in. Chris would not feel the same about Peter Agalathagos.
 
That was an excellent long portion! Very touching and sad reading of Swann saying goodbye to his Grandmother. He had Pete are having quite a good time together. Great writing and I look forward to more soon!
 
“What do we do now?” Pete said, almost half asleep in the room filled with warm late afternoon light in the third floor apartment on 70th Street.

On his side, Swann’s hand ran up and down Pete Agalathagos’s body. They had spent the warm afternoon in here becoming warmer, pressing together and touching. There is the sex that wears you out, that satisfies you completely, and then there is another kind of sex that takes you beyond that so that soon you want it again. Where would they go after this? He had no other clothes. He didn’t want to explain Pete to his family. Easter was soon enough. He wanted to sleep at home, and when he said home he meant Saint Francis. He didn’t answer the question, but the idea formed in his mind. Even as it did, he played with Pete’s cock, and it was stiff and thick, veined like it was this morning, like this morning he waxed it with his moth and then, in the late afternoon he straddled Pete, and took the boy into him, placing his hands on his chest, his eyes widening the way they always did the first time he took someone, or when it had been some while.

He rode Pete as the sunlight made gold and red and purple starbursts against his shut eyelids, as a throbbing pressed deep, deep in him. In time he was on all fours for him. In time he lay flat, pressed against the mattress while Pete pounded the life out of him and they both shouted so loud Swann was sure he would be heard. It did not matter. Once he heard Donald and Jason fucking like this. He was in the front bedroom and heard the bed hitting the wall.

As evening approached they were dressed and pressed in their blazers, ties and trousers, riding the South Shore on their way to Calverton. They sat side by side holding hands, and Pete’s hair was soft and sticky uppy for the first and probably the last time.

“I want to kiss you again,” Pete told him.

As the ass ends of Chicago rolled by, scrubby land, old buildings, the cataracts of Lake Calumet and the Calumet River, they looked around the nearly empty train, and then kissed, Pete rubbing his rough face against Swann’s.

“I thought you were with Chris Navarro,” Pete said, at last.

“It’s hard to say.”

“I’m pretty sure last year it was Jack Knapp.”

“That was true. It wasn’t complicated at all.”

And then Swann said, “I thought you had a girlfriend.”

“Stephanie.”

“Well…”

“I hope I’m not misleading you,” Pete said, holding his hand, earnestly. “I guess I wasn’t really thinking. I just…”

“I wanted to fuck you,” Swann said, baldly. “I wanted that for a while now. And Chris is doing his own thing, and I’ve been doing my own thing. So if you want us to do our own thing for a while, I’m fine with that. I mean, your girlfriend’s not here, and really, where ever she is, I’m not there either.”

Peter’s fingers danced slowly in Swann’s palm, but he said nothing. Even though Swann had frequently had sex with Chuck in their quarters, he wasn’t sure how he would master sleeping with Pete, and he certainly planned to sleep with him again. Chris knew about Chuck, partially joined in. Chris would not feel the same about Peter Agalathagos.



In Beverly Shores, Swann called the school and asked for Chris.

“Come get us,” was all he said.

It was sort of bold. Pete had thought maybe they should stop in Michigan City, an actually destination rather than a place that was just barely a town, and where he saw no hotels. The night was approaching and trees rose all around them

“It wouldn’t be fair to ask Chris to come to us in Michigan City. Besides, it’s not like he wasn’t going to do it. I think he’ll be here in an hour. Let’s grab dinner.”

There was a restaurant up the road and which Swann apparently knew, and they ordered Mexican and were nearly through it when Chris Navarro arrived at the door in a blue spring jacket, his hair a pile of curls and a slight frown on his face.

“If they know we’re gone...”

“I got you nachos, enchiladas and a chimichanga,” Swann said, pushing the white bags toward him.

“Let me pay the hostess and finish my pop, then we’ll be off.”

They didn’t say much on the ride home. Pete, exhausted had fallen asleep. It was truly dark when they came back to school, and Pete went ahead of them, thanking Chris and sensing that he and Swann would want to talk.

“Did you fuck him?” Chris asked as they went up the steps to the vestibule of Holy Angels.

“Thank you for getting us,” Swann said, pulling open the large wooden door. “And you’re welcome for the chimichanga.”

“Swann.”

“I’m hungry,” Swann said. “Do you think if we rest a while, we can get up and eat all of this food around midnight? It’s not like were going to class tomorrow.”

“Yes,” Chris said, agreeing to ask no more questions.



The Swann who was twenty, looking down on 70th Street from the top story of The Birches decided very quickly what he needed to do. The memory of Chris and the memory of Pete didn’t make him want either one of them.

“I wanted that for a while now. And Chris is doing his own thing, and I’ve been doing my own thing. So if you want us to do our own thing for a while, I’m fine with that. I mean, your girlfriend’s not here, and really, where ever she is, I’m not there either.”

Doing their thing had been a way of life and maybe even a good one. But now he wanted to do a very different thing, and he looked at his watch, went into the back bedroom for his coat and a bag and his wallet, and then, taking his keys, went down to Donald’s apartment.

“Meech,” he said to his cousin.

“What, Swann?”

“I need you to take me to the South Shore.”

“Now? At this time?”

“Yes,” he said, trying not to sound impatient.

She had been sitting on the sofa watching Soul Train, but now she shrugged and said, “Alright.”

“I’ll be back in a minute,” she told Donald.

“Where are you going?” Swann’s uncle asked him.

“To Calverton.”















Salvador Goode was bored
. Bored wasn’t exactly the right word. Irritated wasn’t it either. And he wasn’t depressed. He tried to figure out what the hell it was. Most of the time he moved through life and wasn’t greatly concerned with dissecting his feelings, but now he was uncomfortable and cranky, and he sensed he was also no good to his mother. They’d had lunch together and she was sure she was going to leave his stepfather and he told her, “Mom, you have to do what’s right for you.”

“You don’t mind?”

“He’s not my father.”

She asked him if he might want to go see his father.

“Nope,” Sal told her. “I’m good.”

“You know, you don’t have to hold on to being angry because he left me. You don’t have to be mad for my sake.”

“What makes you think it’s for your sake?” Sal asked her. “And what makes you think I’m mad?”

She’s said this shit several times in the past, but he’d never disabused her of her somewhat self centered notions

“It’s not about you. I don’t really want to see him.”

He felt a little bad for that. He thought he might drive over and see Chris or Joe. They’d gone to Good Friday service together, more because Chris wanted to. It had been what it always was, long and sad and kind of moving, and Sal had halfway wondered if he believed in it. He’d spent a lot of his life doing things because other people asked him to and not questioning too much. Now, tired of himself, he was driving up the road to Saint Francis, a little disappointed in his lack of originality. Evening was approaching and he might listen to the Vesper prayers, perhaps get a look a the church as they were getting ready for Easter Vigil tonight. Would he go? He didn’t really want to, but if Chris said something he would.

Tonight he was surprised that the lights were on in the chapel proper and the brothers were not in the retrochoir, but in the actual church, Father Reed saw him and waved, and Sal felt a little better. There were other people in the church and booklets and he thought, well, this must be something to do with Holy Saturday. He genuflected, sat down and opened the little book.

“I trusted, even when I said:
I am sorely afflicted,
and when I said in my alarm:
No man can be trusted.

How can I repay the Lord
for his goodness to me?
The cup of salvation I will raise;
I will call on the Lord's name.”



And there, in jeans and tee shirt, was Jack Knapp. Now Sal had to admit to himself he’d had a little crush on Jack Knapp. Jack, whose jeans still fit well, who was still broad chested and broad shouldered and eager looking. How in the hell could someone like that be trying to become a monk? It didn’t make any sense. But then, maybe he just didn’t know what the hell he was talking about. What was a monk anyway? What things did they all put aside, Brother Herulian, Father Roberts, Father Reed. Abbot Prynne, to become who they were…. If he even really knew who they were.



“Your servant, Lord, your servant am I;
you have loosened my bonds.
A thanksgiving sacrifice I make;
I will call on the Lord's name.

My vows to the Lord I will fulfill
before all his people,
in the courts of the house of the Lord,
in your midst, O Jerusalem.

Glory be to the Father and to the Son...”



“Salvador Goode,” Abbot Prynne said.

“Father Abbot, it’s good to see you. I missed you yesterday.”

“Well, here I am today. What are you doing at the moment, sir?”

“Uh. Basically being bored.”

“Hopefully not by me.”

Sal laughed.

“No, no, never by you.”

“Oh, that’s good, Prynne said.

Prynne always scared him a little. There was something wild and animal like about, sarcastic like a leopard in a tree grinning down dangerously different from the older brother feeling he got from Father Reed. Sal respected Prynne, and was thrilled by him, but also a little scared, and he understood the connection between the abbot and Swann and his cousin.

“I just…. I don’t have much to do tonight.”

“Oh?” Prynne said in a voice that told him he might have something to do very shortly.

“Then you can drive me to the train station.”
 
Chapter Four








“You looked like you
needed to talk and frankly, I didn’t have the time to listen to you unless you were driving,” Abbot Prynne said in the passenger’s seat as the early evening darkened into night.

“I don’t even know what I need to talk about,” Sal said.

“That’s alright. Sometimes you just need to be around friends.”

Sal nodded to this, and then he found himself talking after all.

“I feel like I don’t know what I believe in or who I am or even what I feel, and I never asked any of those questions till now, and I feel… itchy. Like my shirt’s too big, or too small, or something. I was just… angry today. Not angry, irritated, and I didn’t know why. And I kept on trying to figure out why, and honestly, I’ve never really been the kind of person who asked too many questions.”

“You’re waking up.”

“Huh?”

“It’s like growing up. Only worse.”

Prynne didn’t explain further and Sal knew better than to ask. Prynne would just tell him not to be stupid, and of course Prynne always called you stupid when you already knew the answer, but didn’t want to dig deeper. It was like waking up. He had moved through life with as little looking or thinking as possible.

“It sucks.”

“It’s like,” Prynne said as they drove in the night “if you’ve been ill or in pain and you finally go to sleep, when you wake up it feels marvelous for just a second, and then the cough comes back, or the pain or the worries. When you wake up it all comes back and that is a terrible, terrible feeling. It’s why everyone is busy numbing themselves.”

“Is that why you became a monk?”

Prynne looked at him approvingly.

“Yes. Part of it. I wanted to love God wholly and never be asleep to his voice, never be dull to this life he has given me.”

“Wow,” Sal said.

“But you can be dull and sleepwalk anywhere and as anything. Even as a monk. Especially as a monk,” Prynne said.

“I don’t think I love God,” Sal said after a while. “Or life. I just…I drift through things. I wish I could find that. What you found.”

Prynne said nothing to this, and Sal was grateful.

Then he said, as they were nearing the station, “Where are you going, Father?”

“Home. I’m going to my parents. Ah, you’re surprised I still have parents.”

“No!” Sal grinned. “I thought you would be doing the Easter Vigil Mass.”

“Reed can do it.”

“Ah.”

“He’s a better preacher than I am anyway. Probably a better priest.”

“You’re a great priest.”

“I wasn’t looking for your praise.”

Sal grinned.

“I just don’t think of you as having parents.” Sal said.

“You think I hatched from an agg?”

Sal shrugged.

“A little. Yeah, Birth seems kind of… Pedestrian for someone like you.”

“Ha!” Now Prynne really did laugh.

“Well, no matter how pedestrian it sounds, the train is coming out of Chicago in a few minutes. I will get on it. It will go to Michigan City and then double back around and I will be going home.”



They parked in the lonely station, trees all around, and Sal wondered if there really was a train coming, and then he heard the ting ting ting and the low roar and saw a red light becoming larger, yellow lights, and finally a great silver double decker train materialized before them.

“Well,” Prynne embraced Sal, and then he lifted the latch of his suitcase and rolled it onto the train, through its open doors.

“I’ll be back Monday, and if you want I’ll be a listening ear. Until then….”

“Travel safe, Father,” Sal told him, and the train doors shut, and then the train was whistling into the dark, east toward Michigan City.

Sal stood there, hands in his pockets in the slight chill of the spring night, listening to crickets chirp, and then he heard someone call his name. He frowned.

“Sal!”

He turned around.

Someone was walking briskly toward him, dragging a little suitcase on wheels, and before he could say his name all sadness and confusion and disappointment left him and he ran straight to him, lifting him off his feet and embracing him.

“Swann!”



“You’re why I was feeling the way I was,” Sal said as he drove back, squeezing his knee. “You’re why I was so miserable. And I was too dumb to understand it. I missed you so fucking much.

“This place is weird,” Sal said.

“It’s Beverly Shores. Or Pines. It’s like a town and a forest all at once.”

“And this restaurant seems to be thriving.”

“I haven’t been here in years.”

It was the same restaurant he and Pete had eaten in seven years ago, when he had called Chris to come and get them.

“I can’t decide if we’re some place or if we’re in the middle of nowhere.”

“We’re fifteen minutes form Michigan City,” Swann shrugged. “To me we’re in the middle of nowhere, but it’s a charming nowhere. Really,” he said, as Sal parked, “It’s nowhere if you don’t have a car.”



“I am going to eat all of this Mexican food,” Sal declared spreading his hands over the plates of enchiladas, burritos, tacos, rice and beans.

“I thought you weren’t hungry,” Swann said, wrapping a tortilla around chicken and dipping it in molé.

“I wasn’t, And then I saw you and got my appetite back.”

“I was really…” Swann thought about it, “bored… for the last few days.”

“Me too. Bored and unhappy and all sorts of stuff, and I couldn’t put my finger on it.”

“It’s never been that way for me before,” Swann said. “I mean I’ve been parted from people put.”

“I missed you,” Sal said frankly. “I missed you, and now we’re together and I feel a hundred percent better.”

“I love you, Sal Goode.”

“I love you too,” Sal said stuffing a whole taco in his mouth, then wiping off his fingers.

Swann had wanted some credit for saying it first this time. He got none and supposed that was right. He wanted to laugh at Sal with part of a taco hanging out of his mouth, packing food and slamming beer.

“I brought Prynne to the train station. I guess he’s headed to Chicago.”

“I saw him,” Swann said. “He looked at me and said, ‘Nephew’, and I said, I was bored in Chicago, and he said you were feeling low, and I said I was feeling low cause I missed you and he said you were on the platform and then the train pulled away.”

“Were you just going to call me from here?”

“Yeah.”

“And sit in the dark?” Sal grinned at him as he started in on the rice.

“Yeah. Probably get some dinner over here. I just…. I felt like I was doing time. I think I thought that we hadn’t been separated forever, not even during Christmas, and that it would be grown up if we spent a week or so apart, but I don’t care if it’s grown up. I just want to be around my boyfriend.”

Sal beamed.

“I’m your boyfriend.”

“You know that.”

“I know that, but you don’t say it,” Sal grinned.

“I’m so used to you sleeping next to me,” he said. “And it was so… It really sucked without you.”

Swann asked nothing about Chris or about Joe. There was no need.

“My parents didn’t love each other,” Swann said. “I don’t really know how much they loved me, and to be honest, no one I’ve been with has ever stayed. So I’m not used to this. I think I just assumed we should be apart. That it’s grown up for us to part ways and not mind too much. I mean, as much as I love Chris and as much as I miss him, I can live without him. I don’t really want to live without you.”

Sal looked serious and he actually stopped eating.

He nodded.

“Yeah.”

Then he said, “Well, I don’t have a king size, but I think my bed’s a queen and that should be big enough for us.”

“If you eat all of that Mexican I feel like I might end up sleeping on the other side of the room.”

Sal laughed and embarrassed himself by rice falling out of his mouth.

“That’s fair.”

In their months together there had been nights of sickness and nights of other things when separate beds and separate rooms were a mercy.

“As long as you’re in the house it’s fine with me,” Sal said.

“I would rather have a night of bed farts than be away from you another day,” Swann said, truthfully.

“So,” Sal said while Swann sipped the tall daiquiri before him, “should we just start up the usual thing again. We can have Easter dinner at my place and then go up to Chicago?”

“I’d like that,” Swann bursts into a smile. He loved Sal, but that didn’t mean he loved staying in Calverton for the next week. Much like bed farts, he would have endured Calverton, but he didn’t long for it.

“Before that,” Sal said, “you know what we should do?”

“Get doggie bags and pay for the meal?”

“After that.”

“Go have sex?”

“That’s supposed to be my line.”

“Oh,” said Swann. “Well, then by all means, say your line. But just know I’m probably going to fall asleep halfway through it.”

“I was actually going to say go to Easter Vigil.”

“I’ll probably fall asleep halfway through that too. We’re not late for it?”

“Starts at ten. It’s a half hour drive back to Calverton, I think. It was just an idea,” Sal said. “We don’t have to—”

“No,” Swann said. “No. I want to. I’m just surprised that you want to.”

Sal wiped his hands on his napkin.

“I’m a little surprised too.”
 
That was a great start to the chapter. I am glad Sal and Swann are back together, I could tell Sal really needed to see him. Prynne is a smart guy. Excellent writing and I look forward to more soon!
 
That was a great start to the chapter. I am glad Sal and Swann are back together, I could tell Sal really needed to see him. Prynne is a smart guy. Excellent writing and I look forward to more soon!
I'm sorry I haven't been posting or responding like I should, but you know what's been going on/ Thank for investing so mch in this story, even when I'm not around to read comments. It means so much.
 
Sal woke up in time to hear:



“The LORD said to Moses,

"Why are you crying out to me?
Tell the Israelites to go forward.
And you, lift up your staff and, with hand outstretched over the sea,
split the sea in two,
that the Israelites may pass through it on dry land.
But I will make the Egyptians so obstinate
that they will go in after them.
Then I will receive glory through Pharaoh and all his army,
his chariots and charioteers….”



He had snorted and woken himself up and, most inappropriately, Swann had giggled beside him. He wanted to know how long had he been asleep? Had he done anything embarrassing? How many readings had he missed? But in the dim light of the church, faces were either expressionless or rapt in the story, and Holy Angels Chapel was crowded, and Swann had always made a point to sit as close to the back as possible, as close to getting away if getting away was necessary.



“The Egyptians shall know that I am the LORD,
when I receive glory through Pharaoh
and his chariots and charioteers."

The angel of God, who had been leading Israel's camp,
now moved and went around behind them.
The column of cloud also, leaving the front,
took up its place behind them,
so that it came between the camp of the Egyptians
and that of Israel.
But the cloud now became dark, and thus the night passed
without the rival camps coming any closer together
all night long.
Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea,
and the LORD swept the sea
with a strong east wind throughout the night
and so turned it into dry land.
When the water was thus divided,
the Israelites marched into the midst of the sea on dry land,
with the water like a wall to their right and to their left.

Despite saying he was sure they wouldn’t be late, Sal had been surprised to arrive in time, and only a few of the swinging lanterns had been on in the church. Then Father Reed in his white robes had called them outside, As they had been filing out, Swann had been gripped by the shoulder and surprised that it was Father Reed.

“Hello?” he said.

“Hi, Swann,” Andrew Reed said with a warmth that Swann found puzzling, “It’s good to see you. Happy Easter.”

“Happy…. Thank you,” Swann said.

Andy nodded and walked away, squeezing Sal’s shoulder.

“What the fuck was that?” Swann whispered.

“Swann, we’re in church.”

A little flame had become a great fire and in it, almost like pagan priests of old, Andrew Reed and Father Roberts along with the priests he could not name were seen in their white robes touched by fire, the light gleaming against Andrew Reed’s glasses.

“Technically we’re outside of church.”

“Technically, since church is the body of Christ and we’re all here, this is church.”

“When the hell did you pay attention in religion class?”

“I was an honor student,” Sal said. “I paid attention in every class.”

“I want to kiss you right now.”

“Brothers and sisters,” Father Reed’s voice broke across the darkness in the gravelly court before Holy Angels.



“On this most sacred night,
in which our Lord Jesus Christ
passed over from death to life,
the Church calls upon her sons and daughters,
scattered throughout the world,
to come together to watch and pray.
-If we keep the memorial
of the Lord's paschal solemnity in this way,
listening to his word and celebrating his mysteries,
then we shall have the sure hope
of sharing his triumph over death
and living with him in God.”
 
Father Reed raised his hand over the fire and while he urged:



“Let us pray.
O God, who through your Son
bestowed upon the faithful the fire of your glory,
sanctify † this new fire, we pray,
and grant that,
by these paschal celebrations,
we may be so inflamed with heavenly desires,
that with minds made pure
we may attain festivities of unending splendor.
Through Christ our Lord.”

And they all said: “Amen.”

He intoned the ancient words as he marked the tall white candle:



“Christ yesterday and today

the Beginning and the End

the Alpha and the Omega

All time belongs to him

and all the ages

through every age and for ever. Amen.”



Sal heard Swann murmur along with the priests:



“By his holy and glorious wounds,
may Christ the Lord guard us

and protect us.

Amen.”





And something cracked in him. He was strangely emotional as they processed back into the church. It wasn;t that he that he didn’t believe, he truly believed, though if someone had asked him what he believed he could not have said it, but he was in the heart of something true and strong and good and powerful, and glad to be here more than anywhere else, and glad to be here with Swann Portis.

But the service was long, and the night was late. This was, after all, a Vigil, and after the all the little tapers held by all the congregants were lit so the church looked like a cave full of young stars, and the long chant of the Exultet, which was usually done by Prynne was sung by Father Roberts, and some of the lights went on and they blew the candles out, Sal yawned, and when one of the boys from the school came to do the first reading, the story of the creation, Sal fell asleep somewhere around the second day only to wake up while God was urging the Israelites across the Red Sea..





“The Egyptians followed in pursuit;
all Pharaoh's horses and chariots and

charioteers went after them
right into the midst of the sea.
In the night watch just before dawn
the LORD cast through the column of

the fiery cloud
upon the Egyptian force a glance that threw

it into a panic;
and he so clogged their chariot wheels
that they could hardly drive.
With that the Egyptians sounded the retreat before Israel,
because the LORD was fighting for them against the Egyptians.”
 
He had never been much of a thinker. Now he was around Swann who thought about everything, and he realized that though sometimes he called himself stupid next to Swann, it wasn’t because his grades were poor, or he was dumber than anyone else, but because of late he had found himself in the presence of someone who was always thinking. There was a drifting quality to Sal’s life, and though people talked about that as if it was a bad thing, calling people unsettled, the truth was most people were drifting. They went gently in the direction they were tipped, with not too many questions, and found themselves where they were supposed to be. Found themselves at Easter Vigil and Christmas year after year, maybe in church on Sunday, with the whole enterprise rolling off their backs Monday morning.

How painful it must have been to be someone like Swann, someone who seemed to actually look and listen to everything, who did not blithely accept, but peered into everything. Sal remembered driving Abbot Prynne to the train station.

“I wanted to love God wholly and never be asleep to his voice, never be dull to this life he had given me.”
Prynne had never been their religion teacher, but what if he had? No one had ever in twenty one years said something like that to Sal. He’d had religion classes since he was five. He’d had his Confirmation classes, and he had knelt in front of the same bishop who made Prynne abbot and been given his Confirmation name. He had gone on from year to year, and no one had ever talked about loving God wholly, or not being asleep to his voice, or not being dull. And Sal had been dull, he’d just been dull because everyone else around him was dull



Then the LORD told Moses,

“Stretch out your hand over the sea,
that the water may flow back upon the Egyptians,
upon their chariots and their charioteers."
So Moses stretched out his hand over the sea,
and at dawn the sea flowed back to its normal depth.
The Egyptians were fleeing head on toward the sea,
when the LORD hurled them into its midst.”

Back in sixth grade, there had been this girl named Kelly who scared them all because she was an atheist. He’d run into her later in high school, and one night he’d been discussing her with Swann who said, “I admire her.”

“For being an atheist.”

“Mind you,” Swann said, “if she had been a teenager I wouldn’t have admired. Every teenager is an atheist. It makes you feel independent while you’re living off of mom and dad. You don’t need belief when someone else is taking care of all your needs. But to be that young and realize that all the tings you’re hearing don’t mean anything to you, to realize it three years before it’s cool, I admire that. I think I admire anyone who questions everything.”

And Sal had never questioned the idea that God had told Moses to lift up a rod and split the Red Sea in two, but this was not because of his great faith so much as a great apathy.



“As the water flowed back,
it covered the chariots and the charioteers of Pharaoh's whole army
which had followed the Israelites into the sea.
Not a single one of them escaped.
But the Israelites had marched on dry land
through the midst of the sea,
with the water like a wall to their right and to their left.
Thus the LORD saved Israel on that day
from the power of the Egyptians.
When Israel saw the Egyptians lying dead on the seashore
and beheld the great power that the LORD
had shown against the Egyptians,
they feared the LORD and believed in him and in his servant Moses.

Then Moses and the Israelites sang this song to the LORD:
I will sing to the LORD, for he is gloriously triumphant;
horse and chariot he has cast into the sea.”



The choir, launched into the psalm, “I will sing to the LORD, for he is gloriously triumphant; horse and chariot he has cast into the sea.”

The choir rose and swelled like the sea itself, and like the wind on waters, and Swann leaned beside Sal and asked, “Are you awake, now?”

Sal looked at him amused or bemused.

“I’m not sure,” he said.

He thought he might have never really been awake. Twenty years of church had drifted around him. This had been the environment of his whole life, and he had never questioned or even thought about it. The readings of the prophets went on. The psalms in between. Midway through his stomach roiled, and he said in a voice far calmer than he felt, “I’ll be back.”

He slid out of the aisle and made his way down the darkened hall of the school. In the old lavatory he found a stall and sat down with his face in his hands hoping no one else was coming in. Anyone else would probably use the church bathroom, might not know about this one and would leave him in peace to void his bowels in this most magnificent fashion. Somewhere between bouts of intense shitting, he heard the music from the church and almost laughed to himself. He vowed to not go back until he didn’t feel sick in his stomach, until he didn’t feel like someone who was in danger of shitting Mexican food onto a church floor on the holiest night of the year.



The Alleluia was being loudly proclaimed when Sal returned, and all the lights in the church were on. The women were coming to the tomb, but their world was not like this one. For them it was dark and barely morning, and they were full of sadness and dread and then they found the tomb open and no Jesus, and they ran away in fear and Sal tried to remember if he’d ever heard this version at all. He tried to remember the Easter story, and realized he couldn’t remember any version because he’d never read the Bible.

CONCLUSION OF CHAPTER FOUR
 
I know you’ve been very busy so I appreciate you posting at all. A great long portion. Sal talking about his faith is fascinating. As someone who is no longer religious this is all very interesting to me. Excellent writing and I look forward to more sometime soon!
 
I know you’ve been very busy so I appreciate you posting at all. A great long portion. Sal talking about his faith is fascinating. As someone who is no longer religious this is all very interesting to me. Excellent writing and I look forward to more sometime soon!
I very often wonder what religion is.
 
Chapter Five















On the way home,
Sal said, “That wasn’t what I expected at all.”

“The Mexican food and your half hour trip to the bathroom?”

“No, Well, yes. Well, the whole thing. I feel really confused now.”

“I feel a little confused all the time.”

“I feel good,” Sal said. “But confused.”

And then he said, “Do you love God?”

“Huh?”

“I was taking Abbot Prynne to the station, and he said he became a monk so that he could see clearly and love God wholly.”

“Well, that does seem like a legitimate reason to be a monk.”

“And I thought, I don’t know if I’ve ever even really thought about God. Or about seeing clearly.”

When Swann said nothing, Sal said, “You are a disappointing conversationalist.”

“Sorry?”

“I’m trying to have a serious conversation, and you’re… not being serious.”

“Salvador, I’m tired. It is past midnight and I left home at around five to be with you, and we ate dinner, drove to the abbey and sat in church for almost three hours. It is officially Easter and things you’re thinking about for the first time I think about every day, so no, I am not good conversation. I am sleepy conversation. I am almost no conversation at all.

“And,” he added, “now I’m thinking I should have called Chris. And how’s he going to feel knowing I got in last night and said nothing, and now I need a shower and a bed.”

He also wished that they were staying with Chris, in his basement, in the beds that he knew with the nice bathrooms he knew and the freedom he knew. How much could they possibly do in Sal’s mother’s house? And he didn’t know this woman. These were things he didn’t say because even near one in the morning he knew they were ungracious.

“Well, it’s your fault,” Sal said.

When Swann refused to rise to the bait by asking what was his fault, Sal said, “I never asked questions or thought much about anything until you came a long.”

“Oh,” Swann said. “Well, then that’s kind of your fault.”



Swann knew the main streets of Calverton, and how to get to the mall and into Ashby, the slightly larger neighboring city, but he’d never known the neighborhoods, and certainly didn’t now them in the dark, and he was surprised to realize he hadn’t met Sal’s mother yet. He hoped she was asleep and they didn’t have to exchange pleasantries this late at night when he wanted a shower or maybe even a bath, and he was relieved when Sal brought him in through the back door and pretended to not be surprised by the dog.

“Oh, be quiet, Mr Roff. Be quiet, sir. That’s my boy, that’s my good boy.”

Sal had never discussed a dog, and Swann was completely surprised and a little in love seeing the boy pleasure Sal took in the dog who was kissing him on the mouth.

“Mr, Roff,” he lifted th dog up, “this is Swann. Say hi, Mr. Roff.”

Before Swann could say a word to the button nosed little dog who looked more like a teddy bear on four legs than anything, he heard Sal growl, “Hi, Swann! I’m Mr Roff. Give me a kiss.”

He did kiss Mr. Roff, because Mr. Roff was adorable, and the dog licked its own lips and seriously looked at Swann, found him to be a friend, and climbed into his open arms where he touched his cold nose to Swann’s lips again, and then seemed to smile.

“You iz my new fwend,” Sal growled.

“Sal.”

Sal looked Swann.

“Do you always talk for Mr. Roff.”

“Me and Mr. Roff ah waze—”

“Sal—”

Sal cleared his throat.

“I’m in a silly mood. You and Mr. Roff make me happy. You’ve got Mr Roff, so I’ll grab your bags. My room is upstairs.”

“That is a fair exchange.” Swann decided.

Up in Sal’s room, while Swann sat on the bed with Mr. Roff who promptly stretched out on his lap, Sal opened the windows and began picking things up.

“Oh, my gosh, is that a stuffed animal?”

“It’s Mr. Judkins,” Sal said, trying to look casual as he stood, all six feet of him, in jeans and a hoodie, holding a black eyed stuffed elephant.

“And a My Buddy. Oh, my God!”

Sal went red.

“I never thought of you with a doll,” Swann said, and stood up while Mr. Roff F jumped onto the floor and sniffed the elephant’s feet.

“He’s not a doll. He’s a boy’s companion. Do you not remember the commercial.”

“He’s a doll.”

“If you’re just going to make fun of me.”

Swann threw his arms around Sal’s very strong neck.

“I am absolutely not going to make fun of you,” he said, pressing his fingertips to the little curls at the back of Sal’s neck, “but that is a doll, and you were a gay little boy and now you are a gay, very strong man who is my boyfriend. And everything you do is dear to me. Mr. Roff is dear too me and Mr. Judkins is going to be my new best friend, and I guess I’ll be friends with the My Buddy.”

“His name is Alex.”

Swann kissed Sal, and his lips felt good and even his old breath with the remains of Mexican food was good and the nearness of him, how he smelled of church incense and probably not showering today was good, and wrapping his arms about Sal’s neck while Mr. Roff panted between them, then leapt up to be loved was good too.

“You wanna shower?” Sal said.

“I think we should.”

Sal put Mr. Judkins on the bed and the elephant looked very pleased.

“I’ll get towels,” Sal said after a moment of thought, and he came back with very soft very large towels that made Swann love his boyfriend’s mother, and as he took it, his foot kicked something and he looked worried, placing the towels on his dresser, crowded with knick knacks and trophies.

“I’m so sorry,” Sal said in a higher pitched voice, picking up a fox and a stuffed pig.

“Do we need to be introduced?” Swann asked.

“Tizzly,” Sal said of the dirty old pig who only had one eye.

“We go way back. And the fox is Mr. Razzlebones.”

“So, not Mr. Tizzly?”

Sal shook his head.

“He never stood on formality.”

Sal undressed, neatly laying his clothes on the floor and giving the sight of his body to Swann and to Swann it was a gift. Sal knew how much Swann loved to look at him, his long torso, the muscles in his broad back that went to his narrow waist, the way the black hair went neatly over his chest, lightly on his amrs, under his high breast, made a line down to his navel, how Swann loved his narrow muscled legs, his thighs, his ass, rounded like two fruits, his penis, his balls hanging under the dark hair, tender and sweet. Sal knew so well that Swann loved looking at him, that often, in Dwenger, he never put a towel on before going down the hall to the showers. H drew the naked Swann to him and they hugged, delighting in the heat of their bodies, Sal smiling down at him.



It was early spring, yes, but not yet so warm the furnace did not come on. In a morning darkness that reminded Swann of the women at the tomb, he lined up Mr. Razzlebones, Mr. Judkins, Tizzly and Alex in a comfortable row in the old chair under Sal’s window. He even blanketed them in an old shirt.

“Well, now they’re comfortable,” Sal approved when he woke.

Sal stood naked in the middle of the room rolling deodorant under his arms, and Swann sat on the edge of the bed, massaging lotion over his limbs. Before they slept, Swann turned around so Sal could lotion his back and all the back of him, lingering for a long time on his thighs and on his ass, rubbing him almost meditatively. Swann rolled into the covers and Sal got up long enough to turn out the light and then climbed in beside him. They clung together, happy in each other, legs entwined face pressed to backs, arms locked around each other, though they turned back and forth slowly in the night, and Swann felt deliriously happy, as if the three stuffed animals were new and brilliant friends at a slumber party or better yet, new family members whose approval he had gained.

In the night, .hugs and laughter, long embraces, became kisses and pressing together became more until they were making love in hushed breathes and clinging to each other. Sal surprised himself by crying out, and Swann put a finger to his lips, but soon after trembled and shook over and over again, feeling that tremendous fragility and shock in the moment of coming in someone else’s presence. They pressed together so sleepy and so glad to be with one another they never rose to clean off, but descended back into sleep.
 
That was an excellent portion! I’m always glad to have a Swann and Sal centric portion. Great writing and I look forward to more!
 
The night Chris Navarro brought Swann back from the train station with Pete Agalathagos, he and Swann sat in the lounge on the third floor until two in the morning eating tacos.

“I’m going to be glad when this year is over,” Chris said, licking his fingers.

Then he said, “Do you ever feel… dirty’s the wrong word…?

“Tarnished?”

“Tarnished,” Chris said, going for a burrito, “is a very good word. Like we’ve done much too much too much.”

“Yes,” Swann said. “I was thinking about that today.”

He didn’t say, “I was thinking about that today when I was fucking Pete,” but he did say, “I was thinking it would be nice to be a little more innocent, or to have had been a little more innocent a little bit longer.”

“Was Jack your first?”

“Yes?”

“And then Chuck, and then me, and then Pete.”

“Yes.”

“I was in eighth grade,” Chris said, taking a sip from his soda. “I was a councilor at camp, and there was…. Okay, this is going to sound like one of those lies that people tell to sound impressive.”

“Okay.”

“I was tall. I mean, you know that. I’ve always been tall. And maybe she didn’t know my age, but she was a junior. It was bonfire night and we snuck off and I think I told myself I didn’t know what would happen. And then it happened. And when it happened… See, here’s the thing, I didn’t think I was that kind of person cause I was an altar boy and everything. I always tried to do the right thing. So I was nervous. I felt like I was a bad person. I felt like I was bad, but she had broken up with her boyfriend, you know grown up stuff that I shouldn’t even be dealing with, and she wanted us to keep doing it, so we did. It felt good. So like, by the time we met—you and me—I’d been with a few girls. I think they just didn’t know how young I was.”

“What was the camp girl’s name?”

“Mallory Vick. And then when I got home I started with Amanda across the street. I knew what she wanted, but I had been afraid of it before. After Mallory, I wasn’t afraid anymore.”

“So,” Swann spread verde sauce over a steak taco, “you know who I’ve been with—including you—but after Amanda and Mallory?”

“The girl you saw me with at that party we went to. Jen across the street from me, and girls whose names I can’t even fucking remember.”

They ate with only the crunching of food as their noise, and Chris said, “So, I’m not judging you about Pete… Or anyone. You’re my best friend.”

“You’re my best friend,” Swann insisted.

And then he said, “Do you remember once you said something about us. How one day we should be together?”

Chris grinned.

“Yeah.”

“Just asking.”

Chris nodded.

“Well, the way you laughed just made it sound moronic.”

Chris looked at him and then looked away, still amused.

“You don’t get it,” he said.

“What don’t I get?”

“It’s moronic because of me,” Chris said.

“I’m a real fuck up.”

“You’re a Boy Scout and an honor student.”

“I am a fuck up. I don’t know my own mind. I fuck girls. I mean, I’ve fucked a lot of girls. I don’t even know their names. And then I like fooling around with Chuck when he’s fooling around with you. And then the truth is I’m mad about Pete. Like, I’m physically jealous. And I shouldn’t be. And like… you know when we went home this winter, and… what happened in the car.”

“I told you to pull over and then—”

“And then you blew me, Swann. And I was pissed, but I wasn’t pissed. And then we were together that night, and then I still went and fucked Jen, and I’m just a mess. I’m all over the place.”

The bells were chiming two. No one was going to class tomorrow. It was Holy Thursday now.

“And you know what the bitch of it is?” Chris said.

“Huh?” said Swann, who was rarely confused.

“I am really, really, really in love with you.”

“I… did not expect you to say that.”

“I don’t know why. I never hid it. I don’t show it well, but… It’s like, if you ask me how many people I’ve had sex with I can say…. Too many cause I’m sixteen. I can name them. But if you ask me how many times I made love and remembered it? It’s us.”

“You’re going to really embarrass me now. You’re going to make me feel really dumb about Pete.”

“I don’t want you to feel dumb. I’m just… I want you to feel like I’m in love with you.”

“You wanna stay up all night?” Swann said, almost incongruously. But it wasn’t. The idea of going to bed beside Chris seemed painful, impossible. The idea of having sex with him seemed gross after he’d just spent the day with Pete. But they had to be together, and so they finished their food and went up the winding step to the second level of the hall where they sat on a sofa, side by side and, in time, fell asleep, Swann’s head on Chris’s shoulder.



Christopher Navarro did not keep his word. Whatever his very private life was, he didn’t have it in him to be a bad student. He got up long enough to walk Swann to bed, and then went himself to shower and the next morning went to all of his classes leaving his best friend a note. When Swann woke up he read it, murmured the word fuck, and lit a cigarette, Without bathing, he skipped gym to go to Abbot Prynne’s third hour lit class.

“What a surprise, Mr. Portis. I didn’t know you were with us.”

“I’m not sure I am, Father Abbot. I’m not sure I am.”

But aside from Prynne being his godfather, he was a gifted teacher and English was his favorite subject. He came to life here and was on his way to lunch, vowing he’d take a shower afterwards. He traveled the back way to the cafeteria, nervous because it was near the weight rooms and the gym he had just skipped, and he saw, coming down the hall, tall and slender and handsome in his navy uniform, the sun of that quiet hallway touching his aureole of white gold curls, Chris Navarro, who bursts into an even greater smile at the sight of Swann.

He stopped swinging his book bag and seized Swann by the wrist.

“You just got out of the pool,” he said. Chris smelled like chlorine.

“Can I fell you something?” Chris demanded more than asked.

Swann nodded, and he pulled him toward through the door toward the weight room, empty right now, where it was dark and a wall of gym mats separated them from the exercise equipment.

“Sure, whaddit you—?”

Chris swept down and caught Swann’s face in his hands, kissing him so deeply it literally took his breath away. They sank to their knees on the un swept gym floor, and until Swann breathed in Chris’s lips, his tongue, the scent chlorine and teenage boy cologne he wore, and let his face rest between those two big hands. His body remembered making love to Chris, those nights in the dark in his bedroom right before Christmas when nothing separated them.

“Enough fucking around,” Chris said when they had parted long enough and caught their breaths. “Let’s be together.”

And for the first time since Jack, he experienced something heady and powerful beside which even his day with Pete paled. But then again, even all of his days with Jack paled beside this. He only nodded, and Chris Navarro kissed him again.





“Well, that just makes sense,” Jill said.

“You don’t even sound excited.”

“I’m happy for you,” said Jill, who was involved in her own romance with Jim Hanna, “but I’m not excited cause I’m not surprised. I mean, you and Chris are like… you’re like the same thing. You’re more than best friends.”

“Are we soulmates?”

“You’re being sarcastic, but I think you are. I think you’ve always been. It’s not the easiest thing to tell what’s going on with you,” Jill said. “But it’s obvious to anyone with eyes or without them how Chris feels about you. Yeah. I’m glad you all have quit fooling around with this.”

In those last days of the year there was little that made their relationship different from how it had always been. They were nearly always inseparable, so that hadn’t changed. For the moment they didn’t really trust themselves to have sex with each other. Sex had been strange and misleading and it was too easy to have it with someone who didn’t matter that much. But the partition came down between them, and at night one of them always gently bolted the door that separated them from Pete and James and Brad. When night came on they pressed their beds together and, lying side by side with the window open and the breeze of spring blowing through, discussed what living arrangements they’d have next year.

But before the year was over, Pete called a dorm room meeting. It was strange sitting beside Chris and looking at Pete in his striped shirt and tie, his young muscles pushing against the snug shirt as he pushed his glasses up, turning a glance now and again to Swann.

“Now, gang, we have to decide how we want to live next year. Someone has dibs on this suite, but Northwest Suite down the hall is open, so should we go for it or not?”

“I’m going to room with Harry,” James said and Swann shrugged, not sorry to see him go. He looked at Chris, though, because they had talked of either staying together or living in private rooms.

“Northwest Suite is one common room, two rooms on either side and both rooms have a private bathroom,” Pete notified them.

“Well, I plan to be very private,” Swann said.

“You’re always private,” Brad told him. “You hardly ever come into the common room now.”

The tall blond boy who Swann still thought looked like Chris with a shaven head threw up a hand.

“I’m in.”

Chris looked at Swann and Pete did too giving him a goofy face.

“Pleaazzze.”

“Yes,” Swann said, and Chris nodded.

“Goodie,” Pete stomped excited in his expensive shoes. “So if James is out, who’s our fifth?”

“Why should we have a fifth? I’ll go to housing tomorrow and tell them we want Northwest. If they tell us we need a fifth…. Nick Cavertini.”

CONCLUSION OF CHAPTER FIVE
 
That was a great conclusion to the chapter. I am still really enjoying this story and thanks for posting despite how busy you are!
 
Chapter Six





























“Yeah. Yeah…. Yeah
. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah!”

Swann could hear Sal on the phone.

“Well, he took the train in, but I didn’t know, but I was bringing Prynne to the train station. Yeah, Abbot Prynne…. Cause I went to Saint Francis…. Cause I was bored. You know how I was yesterday… Uh, uh…. Yeah. Yeah. Right. Right? So I got to the station, and there that fucker was with his suitcase. Then we went to the restaurant. Yeah, that one. No, you’re right. I should have called you. And then we went to the Vigil. I thought you’d be there. But… oh…. Okay.”

Swann yawned, wondered who Sal was talking to, decided it wasn’t quite as important as sleep, and rolled back over.

“Yeah… then we just came back here….. Yeah…. You’re right. Thanks. Thanks, yeah, you’re right…. So, are you coming here, or you want us to come to you?”

Swann blinked a little more awake at the prospect of getting dressed and traveling. He didn’t want to go anywhere for anyone right now. Sal was sitting on the edge of the bed, beautiful and naked, and had swiped one of his cigarettes. He scratched his chest.

“Great. In an hour? Cool. See you then. A’right. Yeah man,” Sal said shyly. “You too.”

He hung up th cordless and Swann said, “Who the fuck was that and please don’t tell me we have to go and see someone.”

“Well, not exactly. Chris is coming to us.”

“That was Chris?”

“Yeah.”

Swann was relieved. The only thing that terrified him about his love for Sal was his love for Chris, and the only thing that intruded on his love for Chris Navarro was Sal. To think about one was to think about the other. His morality wasn’t as modern as his mind. He sat up behind Sal so that his face was pressed to his back and his legs encompassed Sal’s while his arms were about his waist. His hands reached up to cup his stomach, caress his chest, and he pressed his cheek to Sal’s back. He felt his heart slowly pulsing.

“I think we were super lonely without you,” Sal said. “We were no fun.”

“Well,” Swann said, rubbing his hands up and down Sal’s hairy chest, “I wasn’t having much fun either.”





“So, you’re Swann!” Sal’s mother said.

“I wondered when I’d finally meet you. Chris was over yesterday with Joseph. But I remember them from Saint Francis.”

“Swann went to Saint Francis too, Mom,” Sal said.

“Well, I know that,” she said, “because you said it. But I never met him.”

“We didn’t really know each other back then,” Swann said.

“We didn’t know each other at all. Ma, you want me to put the frittata in the oven.”

“That would be helpful. And take out the Danish. And you could even put a shirt on.”

Swann was about to say it wasn’t required, but he was mindful of Sal’s mother.

“I don’t remember when Sal started being half naked,” his mother said. “I think it was when he and Joe started running track. And then he thought that red shorts and sneakers was casual wear and putting on a tee shirt was dress up.”

Swann was in pajama pants and a white tee shirt with a cardigan, and he was wearing Sal’s ring as Sal was wearing his.

“Oven preheating,” Sal said, lounging against the stove and still, Swann noted, shirtless.

“You’re smoking again,” his mother noted, sniffing him.

“It’s a filthy habit,” Swann said, sipping his coffee. “I’ve tried to break him of it.”

Sal’s jaw dropped and his eyebrows flew up.

“Why, you—”

“I don’t get it,” Sal’s mom continued. “He runs track, plays soccer, played football for two years and then he’s like, let’s get a pack of Marlboros.”

“I know. It’s crazy, I don’t get it either,” Swann said.

“The oven’s ready,” Sal said. “Let me get the frittata.

He moved behind Swann for it and slapped him sharply in the back of the head.



While the frittata was baking, Sal said, rolling his hand, “I shall go upstairs and return with a shirt.”

Swann, head still thrumming from Sal’s swat, got up and followed him, and in the hallway Sal turned and said, “You’re such a jerk,” pressing him to the wall and kissing him.

“You are so—” Sal stopped, and turned to see his mother looking at them.

“Hey!” Sal said “We were—”

“Making out,” his mom said. “I’ve been married twice. I know what making out is.”

Sal looked awkward with that half laugh that was the equivalent of a deer caught in the headlights, and his mom said, “Well, I’m just glad this happened now because frankly I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to know and what I wasn’t supposed to know and we would have been dancing around each other and it would have just gotten more and more awkward.”

“Mother,” Sal said, becoming suddenly formal, “I’m sure we’ve never had this conversation before.”

“No, but you broke up with that Courtney, and you never really liked her. You never even brought her or any of those girls here, and you used to be a fun little boy, and then you got so serious in high school and you’ve kind of been like that ever since. But then you start talking about Swann, and your voice changes and then he’s here and you’re in a good mood—”

“I’m always in a good mood.”

“Um,” his mother looked at him as if asking if he really believed that.

“You’re always in a boy mood. Kind of surly. But in the last few months you’ve been speaking in whole sentences and being excited about things, and I just figured that you had finally figured out something. So, well, there it is.”

“And you’re okay with it?” Sal said.

“Does it matter if I’m okay with it?” she said. “If you’re okay with it? If you’re happy. And if Swann is willing to put up with you.”

“Dad…” Sal started. “Dad…”

“Your dad is a jerk, and the truth is he always said that…”

“That I was a faggot.”

“Sal,” his mother crinkled her nose.

“Well, he did say it.”

“I didn’t know that. But I shouldn’t be surprised. And I should have protected you. That’s on me. You probably know by now some men get really fragile about themselves, about what they are. So they take it out on others. Everything that made you happy or… lighthearted he was suspicious of. He wanted to throw that pig away.”

“Tizzly!” Swann exclaimed and covered his mouth.

“I could have done better by you,” Sal’s mother said. “But I’m here now.”

Sal nodded rapidly, looking to Swann, for some reason, like an accountant.

“Thanks, Mom.” he said. “I appreciate that.”



“Oh, by the way, Mom’s going to want you to call her Brenda,” Sal said when they had gone back up to his room

“I wasn’t sure what to call her. She’s not Mrs. Goode.”

“She hasn’t been Mrs. Goode in years, and she’s divorced my stepdad so… I don’t know who the fuck she is.”

“Brenda,” Swann said.

“Yeah,” Sal pulled on a Saint Damian’s soccer shirt, and his black wavy hair sticking up and his face unshaven, he looked especially handsome.

“So now we can really be open,” Swann declared, catching Mr. Roff as the little dog jumped onto his lap.

“I don’t even know if I know how to do that.”

“Well, I’m always open.”

“Yes, Swann. Yes you are.”

“I’ll just say, my God, for starters, Brenda, the way your son fucks—“

Sal threw a hand over Swann’s mouth, his eyes shining, and he stopped himself from laughing.

“Don’t you fucking dare!”

“Brenda, the way he takes me from behind and just shoves it inside me. I mean, he’s huge! And the shit he says!”

“You need to stop,” Sal warned him, “before I beat you with Tizzly.”

“You know his come tastes just like—”

“I hate you so much right now.”

“You wanna fuck me right now.”

“Hell, yeah I do.”

“That would give us something to talk about over breakfast.”

“Alright, let’s get out of here before I do fuck you,” Sal said, jamming his hands in the pockets of his shorts and walking backward out of his bedroom.

Swann put down Tizzly and came after Sal, who pushed him lightly against the corridor wall and placed his hands on Swann’s hips bending to kiss him, pressing his erection against Swann and grinding him.

“See what you’ve done,” he murmured as he kissed him.

Swann took him by the hand into the bathroom and took down his shorts. Swiftly he took Sal in his mouth and almost immediately, trembling like he’d been shocked my a lamp, Sal came.
 
That was a well done start to the chapter! I am glad Swann and Sal’s Mum met. I am also glad she isn’t homophobic. Excellent writing and I look forward to more. Thankyou for posting!
 
By the time Chris arrived they were finishing off breakfast, and Brenda and Sal were dividing kitchen duties between them.

“Then I guess I’ll just watch the game.”

Brenda looked at her son.

“What, I spent yesterday helping you pre make half the food.

“That is fair,” his mother agreed. “Only, I actually wondered if you were just pretending to like football.”

“I’ve been an athlete my whole life, but suddenly cause I have a boyfriend it’s a ruse?”

“That was stupid of me,” Brenda realized.

“What am I walking into?” Chris wondered as he embraced Brenda and then Sal and then lastly, and lingering, Swann.

“Sal’s coming out.”

“Oh,” Chris said distastefully.

“It feels like a stereotype, but I swear it’s not,” Swann said.

As usual, Chris was well dressed in good shoes, khakis and a white shirt. He’d hung his car coat in the closet.

“I’m glad you’re here,” Chris said. “And for Easter too. I was thinking I was going to have to drive up to Chicago. Everyone was super bored. We were literally boring each other. I think Joe’s on his way.”

“What?”

“I called him, His house is crowded, you know, with all that family. And then I think I promised my parents we were all going over there later,” Chris pushed a hand into his bush of curls, “though I didn’t exactly say when later was.”

“I’m going to put the turkey in the oven,” Brenda said, “and start the mashed potatoes.”

Chris reached into the bag he’d brought, and Swann could smell his expensive cologne.

“I brought… Cheesecake, and sweet potato pie because now I realize no one really likes pumpkin pie, and crusty bread and a bottle of wine, though not the good kind.”

“Well, if you’re wearing that I guess that means we better put real clothes on,” Sal said, scratching his head.

“At least by the time the turkey’s half done,” his mother suggested.

“So, we’re going to Chicago tomorrow,” Sal said. “Or maybe even tonight?”

“Tonight?” Swann said, but was ignored.

“Are you coming?” Sal asked.

“I didn’t know we were going anywhere?” Swann said.

“It’s not like your driving,” Sal said.

“If we go tonight you can sleep,” Chris told him.

“And I will,” Swann said.



Joe arrived near one o’ clock, and dinner was coming to the table close to two. Brenda had done a ham which Chris said was great because his family was doing turkey, and Swann brought out the mashed potatoes and stuffing and tried not to say anything about the lack of macaroni. There were rolls in addition to the bread and a corn pudding and something with sweet potatoes that was not suite potato pudding as well as a green bean casserole. Brenda clapped her hands in honest happiness and said:

“I thought it would just be me and Sal this holiday, and look at this. A real family gathering.”

And then she turned to Swann and said, “Would you like to say grace?”

And Swann said that he would not, and Chris kicked him under the table and then when everyone looked at each awkwardly, Swann put his hands together and made a suitable prayer thanking God that they were all together, and thanking him for the resurrection of his son then tacking on a quick Amen. There was no need to stretch it out. His father used to always stretch it out, and the more stretched out it was, the sillier it became.

As Brenda stacked up Joe’s plate, he said, “At my house they keep the game on the whole time and people watch it from the table. If there is a table.”

“We could turn on the TV,” Brenda said.

“No,” Joe said. “I just meant it’s nice to act like civilized people.”

“Well, we can always act,” Brenda said as Joe took the plate.

Swann said very little, which Brenda said was praise .

“When no one talks that means the food is good. Or either you all hate each other. And I feel like that’s not the case.”

Joe had apparently heard the whole story Sal told Chris and he said, “So you just pulled up last night on the train?”

“I was lonely just sitting in South Shore without you all.”

“Apparently Prynne felt just the opposite,” Joe said, recalling how he had been going in the opposite direction.

“What do you think the Prynnes talk about around the table?” Sal wondered, opening a hot roll.

“You don’t have to imagine,” Chris said. “Swann, what do the Prynnes talk about?”

“Well, they will probably be with my family and the talk will probably be a little inappropriate, but if we get to Chicago on time, we may learn what they talk about first hand.”

Sal laughed to himself and said, “I told Prynne I was surprised he had a mother. Actually I said I couldn’t imagine him being born.”

“Well, I can’t imagine it either,” Swann said as he scooped more stuffing onto his plate. “And what’s more, I don’t particularly want to. However, Miss Florence is, I assure you, a very real person, and she would be surprised if you told her she hadn’t given birth to her son.”

Right around the same time Brenda was rising to ask if anyone wanted dessert there was a knock at the door. Mr. Roff barked and ran to the door.

“I’ll get it,” Sal said.

“You’ll have to,” Brenda said going to the kitchen, and Sal headed through the living room and opened his front door only to see:

“Doug!” Joe exclaimed.



In the midst of general rejoicing and exclamation, Swann Portis asked, “How the fuck did you get here?”

“When I got to Birches, Meech said you left for Calverton, so I stayed the night and then got up early this morning and came here. I stopped at Joe’s house, but Lucinda told me you were here, and so here I am.”

“You missed dinner,” Joe said.

“No he didn’t,” Swann said as if it was his house. “Just go in the kitchen and make him a plate.”

“Make me a plate, Joseph” Doug repeated, hanging up his coat.



Around four they parted from the house, all hugging Sal’s mother, and saying goodbye to Mr. Roff. Swann rode with Chris. Sal drove behind them. Joe drove next and Doug went behind him.

“We look like a funeral procession,” Swann noted.

“Then are we the hearse?” Chris said.

“I’m afraid we are.”

They wound south into Benton and the cul de sac of houses half hidden in trees and hills and the Navarro house was filled with turkey, casseroles, steaming vegetables and how rolls, and Chris introduced everyone but Swann to his Aunt Sophia, his Uncle Percy and cousin Alix.

“Did you bring a sweet potato pie?” Alix asked Swann.

“I did not.”

“Aw, Man, What about macaroni?”

“Alix, Swann was on a train and he left sort of spur of the moment.”

“Why did you leave like that?” Alix asked.

She was thirteen and Swann simply said, “Because I wanted to be here.”

Knowing she still coveted the sweet potato pie and macaroni which he had made here once, Swann said:

“Next time, I promise.”

They were all in that kitchen built over the garage with the large windows over the sink looking down on the street, and the open doorway on the other side leading to the dining room.

“Do you think you can eat a second dinner?” Chris’s mother, glass of wine in hand asked, but before Swann could answer, Tina shook her head and said, “Why did I even ask?”





The days were lengthening and after dinner, as Chris and Sal lay sprawled on couches sleeping, and Joe’s head was on Doug’s lap, Swann said, “And they thought we were driving to Chicago tonight?”

“We could,” Joe yawned, eyes closed, and turned around, butt sticking out, his head on Doug’s lap.

“Joseph,” Douglass Merrin said when Swann had risen and left the bedroom they sat in, “I need you to wake up long enough for me to tell you something.”

“Okay,” Joe yawned and burrowed into Doug more.

“Joseph,” Doug said, firmly, “wake the fuck up.”

Joe blinked up.

“Alright.”

“Sit up.”

Joe did wake up now, rolling his neck and swiveled his shoulders. He sat beside Doug.

“Hit me.”

“I slept with Mike Buren.”

“What?”

“On Holy Thursday I went out with Mike and then I stayed the night with him.”

“Wait wait wait. Let me get this straight? Joe said. “You fucked Minnow.”

“Why is this a surprise?”

“It’s… It’s a surprise because you’re sitting here with me, and you’re my boyfriend.”

“And that’s the reason I’m telling you, and it’s not like I’m running around fucking everybody, but what happened between me and Mike—”

“Are you going to do it again?”

“I don’t know. Probably… Yes. I love him.”

“But you don’t love me.”

“You know that’s not true.”

“So… You and Minnow have this deep love for each other.”

“Just like I have a deep love you for.”

“And what about Ben Forrester.”

“I don’t give a fuck about him. I don’t even know about his ass.”

“What about me?”

“What about you? You all aren’t in the same place. Where you are Mike isn’t. Where Mike is you aren’t.”

“So that gives you license to fuck both of us?”

“If you want to put it that way—”

“There’s not another way to put it.”

“Then actually you give me license to fuck the both of you. And he does too.”

Joe threw his hands in the air, but not with much energy, He was shaking his head and he was tired.

“I don’t think I like this.”

“You know what I think?” Doug said. “I think you fucked my cousin and Sal with not so much as a by your leave while I was five hundred feet away, and I think you’d be glad to do it again, and I also think that you even tried to fool around with Sal and Chris before Swann got here because he told you he didn’t give a fuck, only it wasn’t very good.”

Doug fixed him with that awful triumphant glare, the look of someone who saw far more than they should and knew far more than was proper.

“So what I think is I don’t give a fuck what you think because Michael is in the picture. He always was. Unless you plan on leaving me, we’ll just both have to learn to live with it.

END OF PART ONE
 
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