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Best-Friend Fantasy Comes True

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Part I

I will never forget the moment when Kirk, my blond blue-eyed buddy from high school, unzipped his jeans and let my mouth have its way with him. Remarkably, he did the same with me. We were 22 at the time, and a little drunk to be honest. But the attraction and unspoken sexual tension between us had been building for years, and finally, in the privacy of his college apartment, it came to a head. No pun intended.

From ninth grade on, Kirk was one of the cutest guys in school, and on that evening, in his apartment, when he shot a thick rope of semen into my mouth, he hadn't changed a bit. Kirk still had sparkling blue eyes, a dimpled grin, a swimmer's build, and a plumped-up penis. Never before that day, though, had I seen him erect, let alone in full orgasmic bliss.

When Kirk and I first met, we did not have a lot in common. Today we do. We both are married with two cars, two mortgages, and two kids apiece. Though we tasted each other sexually as 22-year-olds and have privately done so several times more, we have, for good or for bad, joined the mainstream of straight American life. But as we would eventually reveal to each other, we both yearned to know what could have been, or might have been, had we grown up perhaps 15 years later, at a time when must a few mouse clicks would have revealed that our feelings for each other -- but also for women and our wives -- were nothing unusual. That sometimes guys like both men and women. That emotional ties between guys can be healthy.

* * *

Anyway, I should introduce myself. My name is Stuart, and today I am 38, as is Kirk. We both live in Iowa, the state where we both were born and where we both grew up. He works as a hospital administrator in a small town, and I work for an insurance company in Des Moines. My job, unfortunately, is to scrutinize claims from people who were injured in car accidents and to withhold money from people who quite frankly deserve it. It's depressing work much of the time, but it pays for my kids' orthodontist bills.

I could have been a doctor. Should have been, really. Kirk said so himself. I aced every science class I ever took, but my family lacked the funds to send me to med school so I settled for a four-year degree and a physician assistant's certification instead. More on that later.

* * *

The first day of seventh grade is when I first set my eyes on Kirk. We lived in a town of about 7,000 and had gone to different elementary schools -- he the Catholic one, I the public one -- so we had little chance of seeing each other before that day. We were about the same height back then, but the similarities ended there. I was an intense know-it-all type with a round chubby face, frizzy brown hair that was always out of place, and a bubblish butt. Kirk, by contast, was a happy-go-lucky boy with straight blond "feathered" hair that perfectly parted in the center, thick glasses, and a string-bean of a body that left him, quite frankly, with no ass.

Gym was our first class of the day. To this day I find it odd to require 12-year-olds to arrive at school squeaky clean only to make them get hot and sweaty during first period. But somebody had to have gym first, I guess, and it might as well be the seventh graders.

The school administration had sent a letter home informing our parents of what we were to bring and wear for gym -- a light-colored t-shirt, polyester blend shorts available for purchase at the dime store store downtown, athletic shoes, an athletic supporter, towel, soap, and deodorant. I, of course, had tried on my jock for size at home, an experience that culminated as it probably did with pretty much every 12-year-old who slipped on an athletic supporter for the first time: a trip to the mirror, and a throbbing erection. But somehow, once in the locker room, I was able to keep my penis under control as I unbuttoned my Levi's, slipped out of my shoes and shirt, and removed my white briefs as I watched Kirk and the other boys do the same.

I stole a glance to learn that Kirk and I were at about the same place in the puberty department. I had played enough strip poker and Truth or Dare enough to be comfortable with my naked self, and Kirk was equally comfortable. Once in the gym, though, I was pretty nervous. I was a clumsy, awkward boy who always was the last one picked for the team. Sports did not come easy for me, but they did for Kirk, and on that first day I marveled at how quick he was on his feet, how he could do the obstacle course with ease and precision, thick glasses and all.

We did not work up much of a sweat, but the gym teacher made it abundantly clear that we would be showering that day and every day. A couple of the boys balked, but the directive did not freak me out in the least. I was comfortable with my body, and Kirk too. There was no ignoring that he was among the first of us to strip off the shoes, socks, t-shirt, shorts, and jock, pretty much in that order. Then he dug his towel and soap out of his gym bag and headed to get clean as I followed right behind.

Our school shower room had four sets of posts with five showerheads on each. That first day, as on pretty much every day we had gym, I chose a showerhead next to Kirk. At that point in my life I had seen perhaps eight friends naked total, so the experience of seeing so many naked bodies all in one place was fascinating. Kirk was particulary worth watching. He seemed so uninhibited with being naked.

As I would later learn, that was understandable, since he had two older brothers, two identical-twin younger brothers, and an older sister -- all of whom had to share one shower. In Kirk's family, Mom and Dad's bathroom would be off limits to the kids.

What I really remember about Kirk, though, was his eyes -- how, when his glasses were stowed in his locker, his eyes were candy blue and beautiful, how even at at age 12 they sent a message of sincerity and provided a path into his soul.

Remarkably, Kirk and I were assigned to the same gym class for three straight years, so I got to see him naked in the shower a glorious three times a week. Sometimes I hit the shower first, sometime Kirk did, but we always seemed end up at the same post of showerheads and in a position that gave us good views of each other's bodies.

Something magical happened to Kirk between eighth and ninth grade, and when he came back to school after a summer of farm work, he had grown probably four inches and was a bona fide was a stud with blond hair, blue eyes, a tan from the summertime Iowa sun, and muscles pumped up a bit from farm chores. The girls were starting to notice my studly friend, particularly after Kirk's parents found money for him to get contact lenses so that his beautiful blue eyes were on display for all to see. But even as Kirk enthusiastically flirted with he girls, he continued to fixate on me -- in the shower, and otherwise. I was kissing girls, too, but also attracted to Kirk. And mighty confused.

In tenth grade, the showering stopped because gym was no longer required. But in a way, that was good, because it was as sophomores when the friendship between Kirk and me really took off. We went to movies, ate at each other's houses, hung out between classes and at lunch, and talked -- really talked, not just about stuff, but about emotions, things that mattered, and with almost intrusive eye contact. Ours was a deep friendship, as deep as two 15-year-old boys can have anyway. We seemed to be soul buddies, and from the way Kirk looked at me, and I at him, we both sensed there was emotional and not just physical attraction. He cared about me, and I about him.

Still, the physical attraction intensified and continued, even outside the showers. I got confirmation of that fact about a week into sophomore civics class. The teacher had assigned us to sit two to a table, and because we were buddies, Kirk and I scrambled to sit next to each other in the back row. It was about two weeks into the semester when Kirk pressed his knee into mine and kept it there. I didn't move a muscle. We sat that way for the better part of the period and repeated that experience probably 20 times. Sometimes he started it, sometimes I did. I couldn't believe that Kirk -- cute, straight-acting, blue-eyed Kirk -- found me attractive! But if there was any question, it evaporated in sophomore choir when he unmistakably and repeatedly eyed the bulge in my crotch. I had done the same to him, of course, many times. Those experiences left me exhilarated but also confused. We both had girlfriends, for God's sake, and there we were, pressing our knees into each other and eyeing each other's bulges.

Was I straight, or gay? What about Kirk? Certainly we had to be one or the other.

* * *

Kirk turned 18 in December and I in January. In February, he invited me to the town pool. I said sure, and when I arrived I was bummed to see he was already in his trunks. But there was little question that he enjoyed watching me slip into mine, and we did a few laps and then spent most of the time in horseplay. Looking back on it, the swimming invitation was Kirk's ploy of having a way to see -- and touch -- my skin.

Afterward, just like old times, we stripped out of our suits and lingered for a good, long while as soaped ourselves up and soaked up each other's nakedness. My God, he looked great, particularly when his blond hair was all wet. Kirk looked at me with those candy-blue eyes, as if to say, I love our friendship, but also when you soak up my body. I about melted as I shifted my gaze from Kirk's face to his smooth chest to his V-shaped groin and to his 4 and a half inch penis. Kirk was thin but pleasingly so, and his lack of body fat made his dick look even bigger than it was. His testicles dangled enticingly under the warm spray as my best friend rinsed the chlorine from each inch of beautiful body. He was, in every way, beautiful. Each inch of him was beautiful.

In March, the whole school learned that my blond beauty of a buddy had not had his sports physical yet. His only sport was track, which took place in the spring, and somehow he was among the students who had fallen through the cracks. The student body learned about this during first period, when the teacher (the choir director, actually) read the daily announcements, which included a short list of student athletes who had not yet made the trip to one of the handful of town doctors.

When I heard Kirk's name, I wondered whether physicals were different once a guy turned 18 like Kirk had. I fantasized about what it would be like to ask him to take off all of his clothes except for his underwear, to poke his armpits, chest and abdomen, to slip my fingers just below the waistband of his briefs, to say that the time had come to take down the underwear, to offer reassurance at the site of his erection, and to carefully sqeeze, stretch, and prod the organ that looked so perfect in the showers of the town pool.

Remarkably, a week later, I got just a hint of what the doctor had experienced. It happened in the school lunch room. My right hand was grasping the right side of the table when Kirk, standing nearby, moved to the side of the table and pressed his crotch into my hand. He felt so different through his jeans than I felt through mine. His penis was soft, but not as soft as mine. He was, I would later learn, a "shower" not a "grower" like me. But after a couple seconds of having his 18-year-old penis on my knuckles, I moved my hand away for fear of being caught and then choked down the rest of my lunch in a state of utter confusion. Kirk had a girlfriend! And I had the hots for girls, too! Yet there he was, pressing his penis into my hand, and I was enjoying it.

What the hell was going on?

* * *

Just a month before graduation, my dad died in a car accident. None of my friends knew what to say. Among them was Kirk. But unlike my other friends, Kirk did not ignore me. He was there -- at the funeral, and afterward, when I needed a friend. He let me talk it out on my terms, and after driving home from a movie one night he did not freak out when I started to cry.

He was busy on the farm that summer, but we talked a lot and stayed close. We were headed to different colleges, but ones close by to each other. No one from our high school went to my college, but several of our classmates went to Kirk's. At college he started dating a woman from high school, and I started dating someone I had met at a party. My relationship didn't last long. After five beers, I told her she had nice tits, and the next day she dumped me.

Remarkably, and unfortunately, about a year into our Freshmen year Kirk's dad also died, not in an accident but of a heart attack. I was among the few in our high school class who took time to go to the funeral. Of course, I did know what to say, and Kirk let it be known with his teary blue eyes that he appreciated it, and appreciated me. For the first time, we hugged. Kirk's oldest brother had begun running the farm anyway, and the twins were still home. So Kirk was free to continue his studies.

About two months after the funeral, Kirk invited me to his campus to go bowling in his college's student center. He was still with the girl from high school at the time, but I could tell things were not going well. I sensed she had not been very supportive of his dad's death. As for Kirk and me, we barely talked about his dad. Nor did we talk about Jessica. I could tell he just wanted to have a good time with his buddy and that he was not in the mood for one of our many, meaningful heart to hearts. As we spent the evening throwing gutter balls, Kirk looked even sexier than he had in high school. He wore jeans that were baggier but much more stylish, and he had started wearing his hair a little shorter in a way that would have made him pass for a member of the swim team. He was working out every day, and even through his sweatshirt I could tell he was bulking up. I had started running too, and Kirk said I was looking good. But not as good as Kirk. He was, at age 18, damn hot.

One thing led to another, and it got late, and it was cold, so Kirk asked if I wanted to stay over instead of heading back to my campus. He said it in a tone of voice that conveyed urgency, uncertainly, and excitement. My voice trembled a little as I said it was a good idea.

The invitation had come at an interesting time. Just a week earlier, a woman in an upper-division psychology class had been making the rounds in the Freshmen dorms at my school, handing out sexuality surveys. She assured me my answers would be totally anonymous and then left me alone to complete the questionnaire. Among the questions was a sexuality continuum question. Where on the the scale of gay or straight did I fall, 1 being totally straight, 7 being totally gay? I couldn't believe what I was reading! I put an x right between the numbers three and four, folded the paper two times, and handed it back to the senior student. Amazingly, with a question, I finally had an answer.

The survey was on my mind as I followed Kirk back to his dorm room. I looked at his back, and his flat butt, and wondered whether I'd be having my hands on them in a matter of moments. I felt my precum developing and my heart racing, but when Kirk turned on the light he was in for a surprise. There was his damn roommate, asleep on his loft. Apparently roomie had intended to go home for the weekend but ended up catching a cold and decided to stay on campus instead. I could tell it was news to Kirk.

What Kirk did next I will never forget as long as I live. He turned on his desk lamp, turned off the overhead light, threw me a towel, and starting stripping. Silently, we slipped out of our sweatshirts, jeans, and underwear. In the dim light, he walked entirely naked to his closet to retrieve a towel for himself. As he crossed in front of me, I could tell that Kirk's penis was just as I had remembered it from the last time I had seen it in the town pool's locker room. It was plumped up, about 4 and a half inches, seemingly on the verge of getting hard. Kirk watched me undress and smiled just a touch when he saw I had lost about 15 pounds. Then we wrapped ourselves in towels and headed down the hall, with Kirk carrying the soap and shampoo that we'd share.

As we entered the bathroom, I was delighted to find that Kirk's dorm had what mine didn't -- a gang shower. But my spirits dropped a bit when I saw we would not be alone. Unfortunately, a fat Freshmen was in there with us, and he was not hurrying and I could tell Kirk was eye candy for him. Just as the fat guy left, a stud with a body more built than Kirk's but too much acne for my taste took his place. He seemed pretty oblivious to both of us -- in other words, pretty straight.

Though Kirk and I were not alone, I had plenty of license to soak him in in the dorm's gang shower, and I could tell he was doing the same with me. I had spent most of the evening thinking about how he had become even cuter than in high school, and in the shower I was able to confirm that he had really been filling out. Kirk's torso, still super smooth, had just the right amount of musculature on his pecs and biceps. His workouts had given his groin that lean V-shape look that remains a total turnon to me to this day. Under the spray, his 19-year-old penis was nothing short of fantastic -- larger and perkier than mine, but not obscenely so, curved just slightly to the right, with an absolutely delicious circumcision scar. Although he was a blond, his pubes were surprisingly dark, and just a handful of strands of hair hung from the bottom of his scrotum, which in the shower began hanging deliciously low.

We lingered in the shower for probably 10 minutes, talking about nothing in particular, watching the water slide effortlessly from our bodies. We'd wash our parts for a second and then third time, for no particular reason, gazing at each other for more time than necessary when I asked to use the shampoo or he asked for the soap back. I fluffed myself up to make me look bigger, but Kirk did not seem to mind that I was on the lower side of average. He appreciated me for who I was, and what I looked like. As he would tell me a few years later, it was my ass that had turned him on all those years.

When our time in the shower had reasonably come to a close, I dried myself with the towel Kirk had given me. As I put it to my face, I could tell it was not clean, that it had touched Kirk's naked body and now was touching mine. I watched Kirk dry his hair, then his chest, and then his crotch, and as he placed each foot on the bench to dry off his legs I took a long look at how his public hair curled up when dry, how his penis had shriveled just a bit in the cool air, and how his testicles were now retracting a bit toward his groin.

Back in Kirk's chilly dorm room, my buddy put on a pair of shorts and climbed into his bed on the loft. It took every bit of my strength to not climb up there with him. I put my undies back on and climbed into a sleeping bag on the floor. I thought I heard Kirk jacking off, probably while envisioning the sight of me in the shower. But I could not be sure because he and his roommate kept -- I am not making this up -- a pet hamster that was making quite a racket.

What I was sure of was this: There was no question that I was going to jack off in Kirk's sleeping bag, and that given the excitement of the evening, both socks would be necessary. I pushed my briefs to my knees, fantisizing about what it would look like to have seen Kirk do that on the exam table during his sports physical, once he was 18. I relished the thought of Kirk laying there on display in front of the doctor, of the doctor stating that he was glad that Kirk's testicles were hanging so low because that made the testicular examination easier. I recalled the image of what those dangling testicles looked like in the shower, how the water flowed off of Kirk's naked, plump penis and onto his scrotum. How he let me soak him in and did nothing to conceal himself from me.

The orgasm in Kirk's sleeping bag was intense. Semen splashed not only between my pecs, but also onto the sleeping bag. There was little I could do about that. As I cleaned myself up with both socks, I gave thanks for seeing my best friend from high school completely naked one last time. But as it turned out, it would not be the last time. Because I was bound to become a physician's assistant, the fantasy of helping my best friend experience an adult physical examination would not be a mere jackoff fantasy.
 
So sad about both your dads though :( Is there going to be MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Interest are piqued here.
 
That's a good start lol. I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but this story looks awesome. I hope you continue!
 
Great job. Looking forward to hearing more about you and Kirk.
 
Wow!!!

Excellent writing skills. You held my attention the whole time. I am anxious for the story to continue.
 
Part II

Kirk's dad died while lifting one hay bale too many. Mine died when a 16-year-old girl crossed the center line on one of Iowa's many two-lane roads. His dad was 54. Mine was 48. Way too young. Way too Iowa.

There was little question that after our Freshmen years of college, Kirk would head back to the farm to help out during that first summer without his dad. I thought about moving home for the summer too, since it also would be my mom's first summer without my dad. But she encouraged me to go do something interesting with my first summer as a "real adult" and said she'd be all right. So, for good or for bad, I listened to her and found a low-paying but extremely rewarding job working at a camp in Illinois for wayward youth in Chicago.

It was a time before area codes didn't matter -- before cell phones, email, Twitter, and inexpensive long-distance minutes. Nevertheless, Kirk and I made it a priority to talk. We were beginning to have so much in common. A part of our conversation in mid-June started out pretty typical, but then got extremely memorable ...

"Kirk! Stu here."

"Stuie! Right on time."

"I said I'd call Friday at 7, so I did."

"A man of his word. I like that."

"I try. Say, Kirk, how ya doin'? What's the latest?"

"Well, you know, last week wasn't so bad, but Stu, I'm gonna be honest, It's tough, man. None of us really realized how much my dad was doing behind the scenes farming-wise, even though Ben supposedly had taken over stuff. He was a smart man, Kirk, sort of sly. My dad. Made you think you were in control when really he was. Man, whew. What a guy. Built this place from the ground up, without a day of college. Makes ya wonder, you know? Maybe I should just stay. But what's the saying, once you've seen the lights of gay Par-ee? Anyway, when you keep busy, as you've said, you don't think about missing somebody so much. So that's good, I guess, if it can be good. I'm sure busy. You know what I mean."

"I do, Kirk."

"So how's yer mom? And sis'? And you, for goodness sake, buddy?"

"Well, I'll be honest with you, my friend, it's tough for all of us too, but in a different way I suppose."

"How's that?"

"Well, you know, mom had to go back to work. Stacy is a pretty independent kid, but you know, I'm the only guy, so I suppose I should've ignored what my mom said and moved back to be the man of the house."

"She didn't want that. You know that, Stu. I think she wanted you out of the house. You can be verrrry, annoying, Mr. Know It All."

I laughed, and for a moment so did Kirk, but then his laugh turned into a cry.

"Crap, man, Stu, I'm sorry. I miss my dad so much. Why was he out there lifting those damn bales? If I would have been--"

"Kirk, we can if ourselves to death. IF that kid wouldn't been paying attention, my dad. IF my dad would've left the house a minute or two earlier, IF--"

"I know. You're right."

"These things are not our fault, Kirk. They can't be, or they'll drive us nuts."

"I know, I know that. It's just, just ... tough. Heart attack. At fifty-four. Makes ya wonder."

"'Bout what?"

"If I've got the same thing goin' on. Or my brothers. Our hearts. You remember that my grandpa dropped from a heart attack too."

"I remember that, Kirk."

"I should probably go get checked out. At the doctor's. Have 'em put me through the wringer."

"Might not be a bad idea."

"I just hate doctors. Or going there, at least. It's so, ah, you know, what's the word?, degrading?"

My mind raced back to the day when the whole school learned that Kirk had not had his sports physical yet, and how I had fantasized about what his would be like. It seemed I was about to find out.

"Why's that, Kirk?"

"Well, I know you didn't go to Dr. Bennett, growing up. He was sort of a fuddy-duddy. Old-fashioned, I'd say."

"What makes you say that?"

"He always wanted my mom in the room."

"Really?"

"At first, it wasn't a big deal. Even when I was, like, 16, I didn't mind that much. I mean, I've had reason to hide anything.

Growing up with just one bathroom for all us kids made be pretty uninhibited."

"That's what I always figured."

"So anyway, the last time I was there, before senior year track?"

"Uh huh."

"He's like, Judy, c'mon back. Well, I shot her a look that said enough was enough. She reminded the doc that I was eighteen, and the only reason she was there at all was because she was going to drop me off and run some errands. So Bennett says, 'Eighteen, really? Little guy grew up so fast! Seems like yesterday I was circumcising the little guy.' So anyway, mom leaves, and I strip down as I always did. But I'm sitting there, and in comes Bennett along with his son, Bruce! Remember him?"

"N-no. Don't think so."

"He was in my brother Ben's class. So he's, what, four years older than us?"

"Oh, running back! Yeah, I remember. Sure."

"Yeah. Great athlete. Sort of a stud. Youngest kid in the Bennett family. Ol' Bennett explains that Bruce is home from college for a long weekend, and that he's thinking about following in his father's footsteps, maybe sports medicine, and that he'd be observing my sports physical. Didn't even ask."

"You could've said no."

"I guess, but I didn't. Anyway, the exam goes on, and toward the end, I'm on the table with my undies at my knees, and he says to Bruce that it's a hot day, and my balls are hanging low, so it would be a good day for Bruce to take a look. I'm thinking to myself, geez, the kid's got his own balls to look at on a hot day. The guy doesn't touch me, but he did take a good long time peering at my nuts. It was weird."

I thought to myself, yeah, that's weird, but it's also hot!

"Holy crap."

"Yeah, but you want to hear more?"

"I guess."

"You won't tell a soul, right?"

"Right."

"OK. You won't believe this, but then Bennett, he tells Bruce that he had circumcised me, as a baby. He stretches me out, and says that he did a nice job, and that I look great."

"Wow."

"So Bruce agrees. And then old Bennett, he grabs a ruler from a drawer on the table, and stretches me out as long as it would go, and says that's how long I'll be when, you know, erect, and that I'd be making a lady happy enough someday. So I'm laying there, like basically naked, and Bruce asks his dad if I'm above average. I can tell from the way he asked it that I was bigger than he is, and that Mr. Running Back was not happy about having younger and less studlier me be bigger than him. But the way Bruce was acting, I don't know, let's just say the doc didn't have to stretch anything to find out how happy I'd make a lady someday."

I could not believe what I was hearing. "You got hard?"

"Yep. It was weird. Stop me if I'm telling you too much."

"No. Hey, we're buds. We can tell each other anything."

"Right. good. So Stuie, Bennett is one thing. I mean, once, in junior high, I sprung some wood when he was doing the whole turn your head and cough bit. No big deal, right?"

"Right."

"But having Bruce there, I mean, he's like basically our age, normal guy, still looks like a jock, knew him from school, sort of. But he's talking about my dick, obviously interested in it, so, you know, it was, I don't know, arousing, I guess."

I knew one thing: Bruce wasn't the only normal guy aroused by the talk about Kirk's dick.

"Am I telling you too much?

"No. I just can't believe it. What happened next?"

"Yeah, so Bennett, he hands the ruler to Bruce, tells him to hold it in place while Bennett makes my dick stand straight up. Bruce puts the ruler right next to the base of my dick, takes a measurement, and confirms that there was enough there for happiness."

It took every bit of my strength to not ask Kirk what the measurement was.

"You could have had him arrested."

"Well, maybe. I've thought about that. But we're in a small town, you know. Who they gonna believe?"

"True."

"So Bruce, he's wearing a pair of shorts, and he backs away from the table, and there is NO QUESTION that Mr. Running Back is totally hard too."

So, of course, was I.

"So Stu, Bennett, he he knows he did a dumb thing. So he says, 'Well, looks like you were enjoying yourself. Maybe it won't be a lady you'll be making happy someday. So we'll just keep this quiet, so it doesn't get around town, your reaction, your reputation. Doctor-patient privilege. Would be a shame for Father O'Leary to ask why you weren't in confession this week."

"Confession? Unbelievable, Kirk."

"Yeah, unbelievable. And it was weird, having Bruce get hard while I was hard."

"I suppose."

"So nothing like that ever happened to you?"

"Another guy getting hard?"

"No. A physical like that."

"Nope. Never."

"You can see why I don't like doctors. I mean, Bennett knew my dad had died from a heart attack, and that day he spent barely any time listening to my heart. And I was running track, for God's sake."

"Sounds like a horrible doctor."

"I'll say. Lucky I've made it to nineteen. It was weird."

"That's weird."

"OK, so you have to hear the end, if I'm not grossing you out."

"Not in the least."

"So Bennett says I'm fine, that I can get dressed, and he'll sign my form and leave it at the front desk where my mom's probably waiting. So I climb down from the table, and let's just say I'm not going back to the floppy state very willingly. Bennett smiles at Bruce and tosses me a box of Kleenex and says that if I need to take care of business, now is as good a time as any, that he'd close the door, I can take my time."

"Holy crap, Kirk!"

"I obviously should not have done it, but I'm like, yeah, I've got to get this experience behind me. So I climb back on the table, and it didn't take me too long, and just as I'm ah, you know, Mr. Running Back opens the door! I'm like blowing it at that very moment, Stu, and he comes in. He's claiming his dad sent him back in to look for some medical form, but he just stands there and watches me. I'm stuck, because I'm over the edge, if you know what I mean. There's no holding back. So he quickly shuts the door as I fire off the last couple of rounds. Usually, you know, those last couple, they sorta dribble. You know."

I tried to contain my excitement of getting a blow by blow of my blond friend's ejaculation. "Sure."

"But not this time. I don't know, it was weird, having Bruce in there at that moment. No one had ever seen that before. Besides me, of course. Well, besides one of my little brothers, who caught me in the shower one time. But that was awhile ago."

"Wow."

"So Bruce is like, 'Wow, hot day, in more ways than one.' He mentions my brother, Ben, and says he'd be giving him a call this weekend to say hi, and that it would be good if everything that happened today just stayed private. And I agree, and he says 'good,' and -- Stu -- I am not making this up -- Bruce unzips his shorts, pulls out his dick, and starts doing himself right there. I'm not sure what came over me, but I just sat up and watched, my undies still down. He asks if I like what I see. I think it's best to just not say anything. So he comes over to me, stands just to the side, looks right at my crotch, and at that moment blows his stuff right on the paper of the exam table. Actually, some of it, the really watery part, landed on my thigh, and some on the floor behind the table too, but most of it is on the paper right beside me. I'm like, whoa! Then he says, 'Just between us.' And I say, 'OK, I guess.' And he's like, just leave things be and he'd clean up."

"That is fucking unbelievable."

"It is. So, Stu, that's why I'm a little apprehensive about going back to the doctor."

"I see what you're saying."

"And you won't tell a soul, right?

"You've got my word."
 
Part III

I was driving back from my summer job in the wilderness of Illinois and nearing the border of my native Iowa when the billboard caught my eye, and my crotch:

XXX VIDEOS and BOOKS
NEXT EXIT

I had spent the summer working as a counselor for wayward youth -- a challenging, time-consuming job that left little time for romantic relationships or thoughts about whether I was straight or gay. My summer job at the camp also had been exhausting, so I hadn't had much time, let alone the privacy, to masturbate. As I looked at the billboard, I realized it had been five days since my last orgasm, which took place in the private shower of the counselors' bathroom. The thought of "XXX VIDEOS AND BOOKS" being only an exit away got my loins warm and juices flowing.

My drive took place in the early 1990s, the pre-internet days, before any 19-year-old with an internet connection, ten minutes of privacy, and the know-how to clear out the cache could learn with a few keystrokes that porn comes in pretty much every flavor imaginable. But I was ignorant, and painfully so.

The store was called Porn Palace, and I was glad to see that the parking lot was around back, away from the hum and visibility of the freeway. There were a few semi trucks, several more pickup trucks, and a fair number of normal-looking cars. Despite the lack of windows, the entrance seemed harmless enough, and once inside I did not feel strangely out of place. The tattooed guy looked at me pretty hard -- perhaps to make sure I was old enough to be where I was, perhaps (looking back on it) to gauge whether I might make a suitable plaything. But I walked by him without a word from either of us and joined about a dozen others who seemed to be spending their lunch hours perusing the periodicals at the Porn Palace.

I had seen my share of Playboys, a Hustler magazine or two, and even a Playgirl once. But I knew that although I liked looking at guys, especially Kirk, I loved girls -- the way they felt, their breasts in particular. My high school girlfriend, Katie, and I had sucked a lot of face, and I had felt her tits many times. It was was my fantasy to have her suck me off. But the fantasy went unfulfilled, and it remained so even at college, since I was the sort of Freshmen who was more interested in schoolwork than romance.

I had never seen the wide array of glossy, hard-core porn on display in the Porn Palace. Toward the front of the store, I was treated to front covers featuring a potpourri of porn -- guy and girl, guy and girls, guys and girls, girls and girls, and the one that really got my attention: guys and girl. On the cover photo, the girl had one guy's dick in her mouth and the other guy's dick on top of her sweet ass, preparing for some sort of entry. That dick was really dark and angry looking, but the other penis, the one in the girl's mouth, sort of looked like mine and the cover shot was taken from an angle that let me know that its owner was in his early 20s, maybe as young as 20, just a little older than me. The magazine was in a plastic wrapper and the girl didn't really look like Katie, but I figured it would be worth $7.95 the risk to try to get a glimpse of what a guy like me would look like before, during, and after a blowjob.

Then as I continued down the row, a magazine titled "Handjobs!" caught my eye. It featured a girl on front with her hand on and lips near a faceless erection sticking out in front of her. In a flash, I recalled the night on the family room couch with Katie, how I could have had a handjob but chickened out. As we were necking, I had taken a risk and placed Katie's hand on the crotch of my jeans. To my delight, she did not move, and to my absolute delight, she began began pressing against my erection through the tight denim. When I lifted the waistband, she placed her fingers on top of the cotton of my white briefs, and then when I lifted the elastic from my waist, unbelievably, she accepted my invitation to investigate what my naked erection felt like. She began with my tip and used just her first two fingers. She seemed a little surprised by the watery substance emerging from my erection's opening, so perhaps for that reason she slid her fingers to the top half of my five-and-a-half-inch erection. She touched me pretty lightly, but then harder, and she must have liked what she felt because at that point and with no prompting she went further to explore what the base of her boyfriend erection felt like, and perhaps his testicles, and then who knows what else?

I could have -- should have, in retrospect -- moved my jeans and undies to my knees. Looking back on it, there was little question that I could have had the first handjob of my life. But I didn't. I got scared and pulled Katie's hand from my crotch, not quite ready to share my semen with someone else, not quite ready to deal with the aftermath. We broke up soon after, leaving me to dream about what both a handjob and blowjob would be like.

At $7.95 times two, I could find out about all this. That would leave no money for lunch, but what the hell?

As I continued to review my options, I stumbled upon what I never really realized would actually exist -- a section of porn featuring just guys, for guys. There was no warning, no roped-off area, no sign saying "Danger: gays only." Rather, just like that, right in front of me, were magazines featuring guys having sex with other guys, with not a girl in sight.

Problem was, just then, in my sight, was a burly guy in a red-and-blue flannel shirt and days-old jeans. He looked like a trucker, and to be honest he scared the hell out of me. The big guy looked sort of like Rex, a janitor in high school, but he looked at me much differently than Rex ever did. He began with my eyes and then my curly hair, and he freaked me out when he did nothing to hide that he was very, very interested in touching himself as he peered at the crotch of my Dockers shorts. As I turned on my heels to escape him, I heard him breathe in and out and moan quietly as he watched my ass move away. Looking back on it, I really had no clue about what a great ass I had.

As I walked from the trucker dude, I saw the sign for VIDEOS and the arrow pointing downstairs. A guy about my age was coming up, and he looked normal enough, and rather pleasant actually, so I figured if he could survive it, so could I. After I went down, I encountered perhaps a half-dozen rows of videocassettes. I didn't have a VCR, so looking at them seemed rather pointless, so I was attracted to the far end of the room and a sign that said "PREVIEW." A man in a business suit was using a change machine at the the entry of the "preview area," and after retrieving a handful of quarters, he headed into the darkness.

It was at that point when I realized I'd be doing the same.

As I crossed to the far side, I fumbled through my wallet to find a five. As I fed it into the machine, I glanced at the 12 "FEATURED" videos that were on the rack outside the entry. Eight videos, it seemed, were "straight." Four appeared to be "gay." How would I know which booths played what? I guess I'd find out.

As I entered the preview area, I smelled a cleaning solution -- the same stuff my mom used on the kitchen floor. There were perhaps 20 unmarked booths, each with a set of swinging wood doors, and judging from the glare of TV monitors on the shiny tiled floor and the sounds of male and female moaning, grunting, squealing, about half of them were occupied.

But I knew girls turned me on. Which booths were for gays, and which were for straights?

My hands were shaking as I entered a booth at the very back. As I read the directions and put in two quarters, I saw a small puddle in front of the little stool and thought to myself, that's funny, it's not raining. Not until I put in two more quarters and saw the dried stains on the wall did I learn one unmistakable reality of what guys do when they drive alone on the interstate.

Then I turned my attention to the reality of the TV tuner, which had been left on Channel 4. It seemed that the last guy had been watching a movie featuring two women licking each other. Did a guy really jack off in here while watching two girls have sex? Really? Some guys were turned on by THAT?

Channels 5 through 8 were more to my liking because they served up a variety of guys fucking women and women sucking guys. Channel 7 was the best, and I lingered there for a while to watch a decent-looking man wearing a white shirt and tie on his upper half but absolutely nothing on his lower half who was fucking a girl in her vagina but from behind. The audio featured her grunts but the video focused mainly on his thrusts, and the sight of him sliding in and out of her made me about two-thirds hard. I got completely hard when the angle shifted to show him from behind and gave a close-up view of his balls jiggling between his legs with each thrust of his hard penis into the girl's vagina. Someday, I thought, that would be me, and my balls!

Still, none of these channels showed what I wanted to see: some guy like me, my age, having sex. I lost interest in Channel 8 when the camera started fixating on the girl's face, so I moved to Channel 9, and it was at that point when I learned that the booths did not discriminate between gays and straights. I wasn't at all prepared for what Channel 9 served up. It featured a video of a buff guy in his early 30s screwing the ass of a hairy dude about his age.

Um, OK, wow.

Channel 10 was much more intriguing and in my mind realistic, but guys were old, probably in their 30s. What I wanted to know was this: What did guys like me looked like when they had sex?

Channel 11 was getting close. They guys were about 25, and as I tuned in they had just finished kissing and the better-looking of the two -- OK, he was cute -- was preparing to give a blowjob to the other guy. At that point I had no interest in kissing another guy, but I did have interest in seeing more of the cute dude, the one getting on his knees. He had short hair and was just a little too muscular for me to say I had a body like his, but his face was so sweet, and he looked so innocent, so honest, so feminine but not at all girly.
What I wanted to see was that guy's penis and balls, to see if they looked sort of like mine. But the video was going nowhere fast because it just kept focusing on the bigger guy's dick getting a blowjob, and as my time ran out I put in four more quarters and changed to Channel 12.

There, on the last channel, I could not believe what I was seeing! On the floor in front of a fireplace was a slender guy, about 19, with light hair, lightly muscled, and what appeared to be blue eyes. The camera panned down to show close views of his chest, then his abs, and then his penis, which was plump but not erect. It must have been warm by the fire, because his testicles dangled freely, as mine did in a hot shower. He didn't really look like me, but ...

Kirk! The guy on the video looked a lot like Kirk! Holy shit!

At that point, nothing else seemed to matter, and I got tunnel vision as I fixated on the screen before me. He was so blond, so beautiful, so buff but in a swimmer sort of way, so kind. He was lying on a light-blue sheet and was pleasuring himself while all alone, as I knew Kirk did -- as he had done on the exam table at the doctor's office with the doctor's running back son watching.

The camera focused on the guy's nipples and then panned to his face. The masturbator then licked his lips, opened his blue eyes, and smiled at the camera before shifting his view toward his penis.

"Kirk." I said my high school friend's name softly, under my breath. "Yesss! It's YOU!"

It was at that point when the camera revealed that the young man had made himself completely hard. A close-up shot showed the veins of the blond 19-year-old's penis and the outline of his strong, firm erectile tissue on the underside. The young man in the video was circumcised, like Kirk, and judging from the thrusts his penis seemed to be about 1.5 times as long as his four fingers were wide. There was little question that the blond beauty was bigger than me -- not a lot bigger, but bigger. And his style was different. While I had become accustomed to masturbating with my fist, the blond 19-year-old was using just his thumb and first two fingers and was going a lot slower than I was used to.

Did Kirk do that too?

As the masturbator began lifting and massaging his supple balls with his left hand, I did the same through my clothes. I squeezed myself hard when I saw that his balls, like mine, like Kirk's, were virtually hairless.

The camera shifted to the fireplace, then to the Kirk lookalike's face, then back to his crotch. By this time the blond with the swimmer's build had begun fucking his fist in a manner similar to what I was used to.

Did Kirk do that too?

Almost without thinking I unzipped my Dockers, spit in my hand, and started massaging my naked erection while watching the sight of a Kirk lookalike masturbating himself. It was so fascinating, so sexy, to peer into the private life of a guy like that, like Kirk, to see how he did it, when in private.

I put in four more quarters to make sure I could see the blond get up on his knees and start fingering his butt with his left hand as he masturbated with his right. At that point, the camera shifted to a wide-angle scene, and I was able to soak up full-body sight of such an attractive young man who was so close in looks to Kirk and seemingly so close to an orgasm. The camera then shifted to get a front-on view of the stud's beautiful masturbation technique and then zoomed in to zero in on the young man's erection that was glistening from precum under the TV lights. Just for a moment he removed his hand to give the camera a front-on glimpse of his balls, which were now pretty tight against his groin. Then the camera angle shifted to the side to show that the blond's pecs looked perfect and his abs heaved with each thrust into his hand.

At that moment, it happened. The first shot of the blond's cum seemed to land outside the view of the camera, but fairly quickly the camera operator zoomed out to record the remaining spurts of semen. The first few were strong and large and splattered on the light-blue sheet. The next few were less strong and landed below the stud's penis or on his hand. The camera zoomed in to record the final convulsions, the last of which the young man shook from the tip of his reddened penis.

It was when the camera surveyed the volume and length of his cumshots that I blew. It looked just like mine, probably like Kirk's. The reality of that caused me to plant two large cumshots on the wall under the TV tuner. I moved back a step, but when I looked down to realize that my jizz was joining the pool of the previous guy's cum, I got revved up again and planted two more shots on the wall before firing off probably a half-dozen more onto the floor and into my hand. I shuddered as I confirmed in the video that the young man's post-orgasmic bliss was a lot like mine, that he, too, licked his hand.

Did Kirk do that too?

I still had four quarters in my pocket, but no more semen in my balls. I licked a little of my hand and then did the only thing I could think of at the time -- I wiped the rest in my hair. There was not much I could do about the semen on the wall. Handkerchiefs were for guys in previous generations, so my semen would have to stay there. As for the pool on the floor, I rubbed it with my tennis shoe as if stuffing out a cigarette and then zipped up to prepare for my exit.

It was as I turned to leave that I saw the other guy's face in the shiny tiled floor. He apparently had seen what I was doing. Was he the manager? Was I in trouble? I could explain ...

"Hey, guy, I'm out of quarters, can I join you?"

"Wh-- Ah, no. I'm just leaving."

"What, you don't you want any company?"

"N-no. I'm, ah, no. I'm good."

"I'll say."

"I need to go."

"You sure?"

"I'm sure."

I recognized the guy as the one who was about my age who I had seen come from upstairs. As I escaped, I noticed I was tracking semen with my left shoe, and I got a pit in my stomach when the guy went into my booth. My cum was on the wall! Would he report me?

But he had agreed I was "good." Ahh ...

It was at that point when I realized that the guy my age probably would be enjoying seeing my semen on the wall, much as I had enjoyed seeing the Kirk lookalike's semen on the blue sheet in the video.

I blushed at the thought of a guy my age peering at my pearly semen. I located a drinking fountain just outside the entry to the preview area, took a few sips, spit a little water into my hands, patted at my reddened face, and got a whiff of my crotch mixed with my semen. I dried my hands again in my hair and headed upstairs, trying to look cool.

When I reached the gay magazines, I did not see the trucker around but the section was not empty so I passed it by. Instead, I returned to the racks of magazines to make my purchases -- the one called "Handjobs!," and the one with two guys and one girl. As I handed the guy at the front a $20, I realized that the Handjobs package actually had two magazine in it. Hmm, bonus! Then I headed for my car, and for home to see my mom.

* * *

My intention was to save the porn for another jackoff session in the privacy of my bedroom. But the temptation was too great, so as I drove down the interstate toward home, I ripped open each cover and perused the magazines while driving.

Behind "Handjobs!" was a complete surprise: a magazine called "Naughty Nurses." The cover featured two girls dressed in silly nurse hats and ridiculously short white skirts, and a guy laying on an exam table who was half-dressed. My mind shifted to Kirk, and the conversation we had had about his last physical, where old Dr. Bennett had crossed the line and the doc's studly son had watched Kirk cum and then came himself, right on the exam table. Certainly Naughty Nurses wouldn't be any more unrealistic than that!

Driving while looking at porn was not a safe stunt, but necessary at the time. Handjobs did indeed look like fun. As for the two-guys-on-one-girl porn, at first I was disappointed to see that the guy who sort of looked like me did not come in the girl's mouth. But then, driving down the interstate and looking at where the guy had laid down his semen, I learned a type of sex I had never known before: tit fucking. The young man had been rubbing his dick between the girl's breasts as she held them tightly together, and when he came the semen splashed off the underside of her chin. She was grinning, and seemed to be enjoying it. From the looks of it, I knew I would.

As for Naughty Nurses, the guy was older, probably 30. And the whole thing seemed completely implausible. Still, as I drove toward home, the subject matter turned me on. It was the nurse's job to give the guy a complete exam. He began the experience fully clothed, and gradually, they made him get down to his briefs. Each step of the way, he seemed apprehensive, and deliciously so. Once in the briefs, the patient was ordered to lie down on the table, as I had done several times, as Kirk had done with Dr. Bennett.

Halfway through the magazine, the time had come for the guy's briefs to come off. He looked at the nurses, stunned., with a look of "Really, are you sure, I could just--" But they were in control, and they stood at each side of him to peel the briefs down to reveal a flaccid penis that would be the subject of their examination. Then, on a single page, the patient laid completely naked, waiting for his examination.

The rest of the magazine, of course, was completely unrealistic. The nurses began their examination as a real doctor never would, with their mouths. The trip to the clinic ended in ridiculous fashion, really: with the nurses kissing each other as the patient screwed one of them from behind. But the first half -- man! -- it got me thinking. I found it a turnon, the experience of arriving at a clinic, starting the exam fully clothed, and being forced to disrobe for the exam with the examiners still clothed.

After about 20 miles of this, it became clear that there was no way I was making it home. I pulled off at a rest stop and scanned my selection of porn. I'd be taking one into the restroom with me, but which one?

Surprisingly, Naughty Nurses was my choice.
 
A fine way to end a stint as a counsellor at Summer Camp, where you're horned up big time!

Thanks for bringing us this look at a time gone by and needs we've all felt - revisited in the technicolor of our imaginations against your great narrative.

I look forward to your next installment.
 
Great story and great writing; please continue!!! Thanks!
 
Hi. Part IV is below. Part V is well under way.

If you've read the other parts, you know that this is a bi story. It's inspired by stuff that actually happened to me. In fact, much of Part I -- the stuff about junior and senior high and the incident in my buddy's Freshmen dorm -- is absolutely true, right down to the unexplainable shower. For years I've wondered what might have happened had my buddy's roommate not been in the room.

Anyway, even if you don't swing both ways, I hope you find this tale an enjoyable trip through the reality of complicated sexual orientation and two guys' often unspoken attraction to each other. Warning: I think this story is going to go on for a while. But I'm trying to make the installments a lot shorter than my last (first) attempt, Trey's Hockey Injury and Exam, which is entirely made up!

Comments welcomed.

Part IV

"Hi, Mom."

I was back on home turf, for a two-week visit before going back to college to start my sophomore year.

"Stuart, you look great! So tan! Here, let me take that."

Mom was attempting assume custody of my duffel bag, which included my newly acquired copies of Naughty Nurses, Handjobs!, and various other things. I have to admit, I felt sort of guilty bringing porn into the house where I had grown up, where I had been conceived for crying out loud. This was especially true since the car accident, since I was now the only man of the house. But a man had to do what a man had to do.

"I got it, Mom."

"OK, well ... you look super, Stu. Mom's eyes were sparkling. "It's great to see you."

It's true. I did look great. I had toned up a lot. Lost some weight. Even Stacy, my 16-year-old sister, was eyeing at me differently with a look that seemed to say, "Wow, you might just turn out to be a stud someday."

I looked at Stacy, then Mom. "A tan is what happens when you work outside all summer."

"Did that tan get you a girlfriend?"

"No time for that, Mom."

"Well, shucks. A mom can always dream."

"I know. Grandkids. Here we go ..."

Mom turned her smile upside down. "Oh, Stu, I just want you to be happy."

"I am happy. Honest."

"Well, hmm. OK. Good. Stacy, take your brother's duffel downstairs, empty it out in the laundry room."

"Ah, no, Stacy, I got it. Really."

"Stacy's been doing the laundry since--"

"No, really. It's fine. I can do my laundry."

"It's not like I haven't seen your dirty underwear before, Stuie."

"Oh, Stacy, lay off. Geez."

"Nice to see you too, Stu."

"I'm sorry. Yes, Stacy, nice to see you."

Ah, home again home again ...

* * *

"Kirk, Stu here."

"Stu! Welcome back. Great to hear your voice."

"You heard my voice at least once a week over the phone this summer, man."

"I know. Well, good to hear your voice when it's not long distance, then."

"Well, same here bro. I missed you."

Kirk paused and then said he had missed me too.

"Hey, Stuie, you're here for, what?, two weeks?"

"You should know. Our colleges are on the same schedule."

"Yeah, say. Ah, I've got an idea."

"Um, OK."

"Let's go fishing."

I thought to myself, let's not. I hated fishing. But Kirk didn't. Behind my buddy's short blond hair, swimmer's build, and sparkling blue eyes was an outdoorsy type of guy who liked to stare at the Des Moines River for hours on end.

"Kirk, the Des Moines River is not--"

"Let's go to Minnesota."

I thought to myself, road trip north? With Kirk? Sleeping arrangements? Hmm ...

"Minnesota?"

"Northern Minnesota. Way up, close to Canada. I've told you about my cousins who live up there. My mom's sister's husband, the Finnish guy."

"Finnish, as in from Finland?"

"Uh-huh."

I don't think so ..."

"Sure I have. The ones with the sauna. By the lake."

Then I remembered. Indeed Kirk had told me about these cousins, the ones who spent lots of time in the sauna. Oftentimes naked. Suddenly, fishing sounded like a tremendous idea.

"Oh, OK, I guess. When?"

"Leave Thursday morning, back Sunday night?

"All right. I'll need to use your pole."

Kirk said that would be fine, that I could use whatever pole I wanted.

* * *

On the morning we left for Minnesota, it was hot and humid in Iowa, even at 6:30 in the fricking morning. Nine hours later, by the time we reached our destination, it was cold, by summer's standards anyway. It must've been close to freezing, and the forecast for the next day was rain. I had to admit, I was not having the best of times. Kirk's 23-year-old brother, Brad, was along for the trip too, so Kirk and I had little time for heart-to-heart conversation on the way up Interstate 35. Plus, Kirk dropped a bombshell. He was taking the fall semester off from college so he could stay home and work on the farm during the harvest season. My heart bled for my buddy.

And my spirits hit rock bottom when I saw what the sleeping arrangements would be on the trip: Brad, Kirk, and I in one room with a single bed, which Brad claimed with a toss of his duffel. Judging from the stuff on the wall, the room seemed to belong to a hockey player, who, according to the schedule tacked to the bulletin board, practiced even during the summer. What a bunch of oddballs up here, I thought to myself.

Things started looking up when Kirk's 24-year-old cousin Alison poked her head in the room. She was at home for the summer before beginning what I would learn would be her thirteenth and final semester of college in North Dakota. She had longish blond hair and a chest that looked promising for sauna purposes. In her surprisingly raspy voice, Alison told us to come on downstairs because we'd be joining them for dinner and there'd be cake in honor of Andy, whoever that was. As I followed Alison, Kirk, and Brad downstairs, I saw that there indeed was cake. Birthday cake. And soon, beefcake, right out of the oven.

My attitude brightened significantly when the guest of honor treated us to his presence in the kitchen. Cousin Andy was about six feet tall -- an inch shorter than Kirk, but more built. He had dirty-blond hair that he purposefully kept in an unruly fashion and a combination of peach fuzz and razor stubble on a face that, to be honest, looked more feminine than masculine. Andy entered with cockiness and confidence as if to say, "I'm a jock. I'm really good. I'm really good looking. And I know it." He made no eye contact with me at first, but when he did, I saw that he had piercing green eyes. Despite the cold weather, Andy was wearing a size-too-small gray t-shirt with a high school hockey logo that gave me license to stare at his pecs. If he asked me what I was looking at, I'd just ask him about his school!

"Andy, good to see ya."

"Hey, Kirk, what's up. Long time no see." Andy lingered on the word "no," like Minnesotans have a habit of doing, and in a way that made him strangely hot. As I watched Kirk, Brad, and Andy get reacquainted in a cousins sort of way, I shot a quick glimpse to confirm that Andy's baggy cargo shorts were concealing his crotch cargo but that his blond-haired hockey-player calves were strong and surprisingly tan.

"Hey, this is my buddy, Stu. I've told you about him, but I don't think you've met."

"Hey."

As I shook Andy's surprisingly soft hand, I wondered how many minutes or hours it had been since it had massaged whatever lurked underneath those cargo shorts.

"Sorry to throw you out of your room on your seventeenth birthday, cuzz."

"Eighteenth."

"Eighteen? I thought you were a senior this year."

"Yeah, I got held back, on account of me being born so late, in August."

"Oh, that's right. I forget. Well, happy birthday. Is today the day, actually?"

"Yesterday, actually. August 21st."

"Well, welcome to adulthood."

I thought to myself, yes, dude, welcome to adulthood!


* * *

We didn't have to go far to go fishing. Just down to the dock, and into the boat. Kirk's cousins lived on a lake, and a good one for fishing I was told. But I didn't catch a thing, and the only thing that kept me going was thinking about the sauna and Kirk in it. And maybe Alison. And hopefully Andy. And Brad too, I guess.

We darted off the lake around 5 when it really started to rain and back to the homestead. Andy hadn't joined us because he had had hockey practice during the morning and had to work at a gas station during the afternoon, but expected to be home by 6.

Kirk, Brad, and I went in to town for pizza and bought more than enough for the entire Finnish family to share. As we arrived around 6:30, Andy was nowhere to be found, but I nevertheless tried to steer the group toward firing up the ol' sauna down by the lake as we munched on pizza in the family's basement rec room.

"You ever been in a sauna before, Stuart?" The dad -- his name was John -- wanted to know. John was pleasant enough -- a little bald, but otherwise decent looking for his age.

"Sure. At hotels. The Y with friends. Where else?"

"But a real sauna? One like ours, with a wood-burning heater and not one of those silly electric ones."

"N-no."

"Where you pour water on it."

"I guess not."

"Well, you're in for a treat. Know how to swim?"

"Sure."

"Good, because you'll be going in the lake too."

"I can do that."

"It'll be cold."

"That's OK."

"Bring a suit?"

"A swimsuit?"

"Yeah, a swimsuit."

"Well, yeah, I did."

"Well, wear it if you like, but up here in Minne-soh-tah, we don't wear suits. Business or otherwise."

John paused, Brad chuckled, Kirk shrugged, and Alison grinned. And, when I heard Andy come home, I hardened.
 
Thanks for the latest instalment.

Can't wait to find out what happens in the sauna!
 
sfcfml,
Very nice installment. It sounds like the Dad has thrown down the manly man gauntlet on wearing a swim suit. Hot guys, a hot chick, all naked as jay birds, and Dad's blessing on it, too!

What's a guy gonna do? Yeah, What's a guy gonna do?

Go for it! Looking forward to your next installment.
 
Part V

The pizza was cold by the time Andy came down to the rec room, but that didn't seem to affect his appetite. I could not help but stare at the newly minted 18-year-old as he plopped down on the couch and began folding slice after slice of pepperoni and sausage into his mouth and washing it down with big gulps of Coke. The hockey player was wearing stone-washed, loose-fitting jeans and a short-sleeved shirt with a gas station logo on it. I had been sitting on a chair where I could get a decent view of Alison, but with Andy on the couch I moved to the floor by the coffee table so I could enjoy both more pizza and a little of Andy's crotch. Unfortunately, there was not much to be seen in the baggy jeans, but I felt compelled to move anyway.

I again steered the conversation toward where I wanted it. "Can't wait to hit the sauna."

John, the dad, was first to respond. "Don't know if I'm in the mood. But you guys fire it up if you want to. Brad, you've started it before, haven't you."

"Think so."

"Well, it's not rocket science. There's plenty of wood."

Plenty of wood. I swallowed hard. This was, I had been told, a NAKED sauna, and it would be a chance for me to see my best buddy naked again, and also perhaps the hockey stud whose crotch was right in front of me.

"Towels are out there, in the changing room. Just bring down the jugs of drinking water. You'll need it. You'll be losing plenty of body fluids."

Body fluids. I swallowed again.

"So who's game?" That was Brad talking.

I raised my hand high. Kirk smirked at me and my enthusiasm and as he raised his hand halfway. I returned it with a smirk.

"Sure," said Alison. With that, I was torn. Kirk or Alison? Kirk or Alison? Alison was a mystery, and her boobs were delightful. But then there was Kirk, and also, um, sex on skates over there.

Andy?

"Yeah, I spose. But probably later. We'll see."

* * *

Had Alison not agreed to take a sauna, Brad never would have gotten the fire going by himself. Kirk and I stayed out of their way and lingered in the changing room where I took stock of the stack of towels and pegs where our clothes would soon hang. Indeed, there were no showers, no privacy curtains. Just a shack, really, and the smell of cedar mixed with pine trees.

Soon the fire was soon raging almost as much as my hormones. We followed Alison's lead and shucked our shoes and socks in the changing room, headed for the dock, and dangled our feet in the water as we waited for the sauna room to reach at least 180 degrees. Family rule, Alison said.

In late summer, the air was cold but the water surprisingly warm. We sat there for a while and then rose to head to the sauna. As both I and my cock began stirring, Kirk told me to wait a minute so he could explain the drill. The family rule, he said, was that when in mixed company, the girls keep a towel around their upper and lower half and the guys do the same on the lower. The towels come off at the dock for a skinny dip, but then they go back on again -- until and unless it's just guys or, presumably, just girls.

Then, magically, the four of us -- three guys and a girl -- were in the changing room together. A bare lightbulb illuminated Kirk as he faced me to strip off his sweatshirt and t-shirt in one motion. Wow! He had spent the summer lifting things and working shirtless, and his chest looked golden in the dim changing-room light. His pecs were those of a young working man, not a health-club addict. Alison's back was to us (must have been the family rule) as Kirk slipped out of his jeans and lingered for a bit in his white briefs. He seemed to be teasing me on purpose, just a little. Kirk waited to see me in my boxers before slipping his briefs over his crotch, then to his knees, and then over his feet. As he stepped out of them, I watched his penis dangle above his balls and confirmed that his package looked as delicious as it had in the Freshmen dorm shower. I waited for my friend to wrap himself in his towel before revealing myself to him. Alison was still shielded from view, so once my boxers were off, I stretched my arms above my head, saying I needed to stretch, so I could give my blond buddy a good look at my torso -- which, from a summer of working as a camp counselor, was almost as tanned as his. Brad, meanwhile, was trying to get a glimpse of his 24-year-old cousin, who then led the way into the sizzling sauna.

We stood at the stove as Alison deposited two ladels of lake water onto the rocks. The rocks belched, bubbled, and sizzled as a cloud of mist drifted to the ceiling. Brad stood on the lower bench so his face was in the steam and his crotch at eye level. I had never seen Kirk's brother naked, and did not have a burning desire to, but still, seeing his slight crotch bulge through the towel right in front of me was worth a moment's stare.

Then my fixation turned to Alison, who put two more pours of water on the stove before handing the ladel to Brad, taking a handful of water for her hair, and assuming a position closest to the rocks on the lower of the two benches. As she closed her eyes, I soaked her in. With her hair wet, she really was pretty, gorgeous really. Extremely sexy, actually.

And an older woman, no less. I sat on the upper bench to her side and tried to look down her towel as she began massaging her bicep and forearm with her right hand. At that point, Kirk climbed onto the bench and I felt my cock twitch as I glared at his tan abdomen. But then, I went straight back to Alison and watched her massage herself. That, in turn, triggered a daydream fantasy of her massaging me -- well, my dick -- here in the steam.

Just as I felt the first bead of sweat drip from my brow, I felt my cock really began to stir. I leaned forward and kept my knees close together to conceal the inevitable and capitalized on the silence of each of us becoming accustomed to our getting-hotter surroundings. I closed my eyes and fantasized about leaning back on the bench, opening my towel, and inviting Alison to take a look. She'd be pleased with what she saw, the way my 19-year-old penis was firm against my abdomen, how my testicles sagged toward the warm cedar beneath them. I'd part my knees and she'd stand between them before asking with her eyes whether it was OK to touch me there.

I'd respond just by closing my eyes, and at that point she'd touch me for the first time. It would be a light touch, almost a tickle. The sweat would be pooling in my four-pack, and she'd grab some of it to use as lubricant as she began jacking me off. She'd move from my penis to my testicles and back to my penis again, and would pick up speed as my preseminal fluid mixed with the sweat from my chest and her hand. She'd do this until I had reached the edge, at which time I'd make her stop and position her to a reclined position on the top bench.

Then my best friend's 24-year-old cousin would open her towel, spread her knees, and silently invite me over. I'd put my knees between hers and bend over her to kiss her, first lightly and then deeply. I'd suck one tit and then the other before pressing my raging hard-on into her belly. The sight of my precum by her navel would cause her to smile, and the sight of her smile would cause me to smooth the moistened underside of my penis along her smooth and sweaty torso. Her eyes would be closed, but she had been with guys before, so she'd know where to find my plumbing.

I'd reposition my knees so they were on either side of her torso, and then I'd push my penis into the crevice between her breasts. Because her hands already had been on her tits, it would take little effort for her to fold them around my dick. And then I'd begin thrusting, first slowly but then pretty rapidly. My penis would be moistened by the sweat between her breasts and the fluid emerging from my erection. I'd press my abdomen into her nose, and she'd breathe me in and love the smell of a 19-year-old's pecs on top of her. She'd lick me there as I placed my hands under her butt and she'd put up no resistance as I used fingers from both of my hands to spread her vagina apart.

Then I'd lean back and ride her breasts as I placed my hands behind my head. I would feel the sweat drip from my armpits, and I'd keep my eyes focused on the area just under Alison's chin so I could be turned on by the sight of my penis head appearing, then disappearing, and then reappearing out the top of her compressed breasts, over and over and over. From Alison's vantage point, she would see more of my abs than my dick.

Alison would know from the depths of my thrusts what would be coming. Me. She'd free my penis from her breasts with hopes I'd position it in front of her face so she could see. When I did precisely that, the sight of seeing me so hard and so sweaty would cause her to start masturbating herself with both hands. But when she saw the condition of my balls in the steamy sauna, she'd have to investigate them too. She'd moan that she loved the way my balls felt when they were like that, so large and so easy to explore.

Hearing Alison compliment me in that way would be the final straw. I'd position myself over her again and place the dripping underside of my penis against her chest and slide it back and forth perhaps a half dozen times before splashing three shots of semen on the underside of her chin. Alison would not be able to see it, but she'd feel it, and it would be strangely cold, since her skin would be 180 degrees and the semen pooling on top of it a mere 98.6. She'd laugh at the feel of it all, and she'd moan as I pulled my penis from her skin to fire cum toward her head. The first couple shots would land in her hair and the rest on her face. A little bit would end up on her lips, which she'd wipe into her mouth. I'd lean over to kiss her, to use my tongue to move more of my cum onto her lips, and and to taste myself to taste myself in her mouth. My penis would be pressed into her torso as it heaved out the last of its ejaculate.

At first, we'd I'd be too exhausted -- too stunned, perhaps -- to move. But when I realized that she was masturbating herself, I'd begin grinding my soft penis into the mess that we had made. Alison would have one hand inside herself and the other hand on my butt. Then she'd wipe the remnants of my cum from her face and use the ejaculate to moisten my scrotum, but from the sexy back side. That sensation -- the sensation of my sweat, my semen, and my testicles, all in one place, and being felt from the rear -- is what would send Alison over the edge. She'd squeeze my scrotum hard, too hard really, and have one of the best orgasms of her life. All because of me. All because of the sauna. All because I--

"Stu!"

"Wha--?"

"We're hitting the lake. C'mon."

That was Kirk, my lovely best friend from high school, summoning me. Somehow I had completely tuned him out, in favor of Alison. Must be straight, I thought to myself. Yes, indeed!

Kirk lingered in the steamy sauna for just a moment and glanced toward my tummy. He knew. He knew I was hard. There was no question. He opened his towel for just a second under the guise of repositioning it on his body, but in reality, I knew he was getting a charge out of flashing me. He seemed to be a little aroused. Not as aroused as I, but a little. And then the thought of Kirk getting aroused by me getting aroused by Alison just made me, well, ugh!, want to jump in a lake!

What the hell was I, anyway? Gay? Straight? WHAT?

I followed Kirk out of the sauna and tried to gain my composure. The sun had set an hour earlier, but there was enough light to see that Brad and Alison were already in the lake splashing, flirting really. Maybe Brad would get his cousin's pussy tonight, I thought to myself. Maybe I'd get to go next, I thought to myself.

I followed Kirk as he walked onto the dock, and when he dropped his towel, I realized that my straightness had taken a curve. In the faint light, I could see the V shape of the 19-year-old farm boy's back and the white half-moons of his butt, which, after perhaps three seconds, plunged with him into the water. I breathed in the evening air and recognized how marvelously erotic it all was. I reached the edge of the dock just as Kirk's blond head surfaced. He was disoriented at first, but then turned around to face me, and when he did, I treated my friend to my frontal nudity.

"C'mon, naked boy! The water's -- whew! -- fine."

It was true, I was naked, and so was Kirk, and the experience of standing there with nothing on, and of him eyeing me and egging me on, and of my daydream about cumming on Alison, made me get about half hard. I felt a full erection coming on when I examined my buddy's blond hair matted down against his scalp, and he seemed to sparkle as he treaded water as the lake dripped from his nose and ears.

"How deep is it?"

"I can't touch bottom."

"OK, then ..."

I took four steps back and did something really dumb, but something that ended up being really sexy. I dove head-first toward my friend and aimed my dive with hopes that the front of developing erection would slide against his bare skin somewhere. I didn't quite make it, but the water was clear enough that I could see my friend's form under the water, and I pulled him under in a way that let me brush my chest against his crotch for just a moment. I could feel the soft tube of his penis and his wet pubic hair against me as he kicked himself free. But he was surprised, and when he surfaced with his back to me, I capitalized on his vulnerability and disorientated state by grabbing him from behind and pressing my still-developing erection right into his backside. There was little question that I had hit his crack.

"Oh, shit! Gawd!"

I kept bear-hugging my blond friend as I dragged him under the water. He went willingly, actually, and then reached around to place both his hands on my bare butt cheeks. I felt a hot flash in the cold water. I couldn't believe it, that Kirk was touching me in that place, in this place here in a skinny-dipping lake. And he was making no signs that he was going to move anytime soon. And then ...

"What's goin' on over there?"

Alison wanted to know.

Kirk moved his hands from me, and I moved mine from his. He spun around, and we glanced at each other with a look that said a thousand words: OK, that was fucking hot!. But not here, not now. We just can't. Plus, we're, like, straight.

"Nothin'!"

"Just horsin' around."

"What, you guys gay or somethin'?" Brad wanted to know.

"No. Are you?"

"Fuck you."

"You wish."

"Guys, guys. C'mon. We're here for a sauna, not trash talk."

That was Alison, and she was in charge, and Brad was doing whatever she said. She swam to the side of the dock, reached for her towel, and slid it along the dock until she was close enough to the shore that she could wrap it around herself. Brad did the same and followed Alison toward the sauna for Round 2.

Kirk and I, meanwhile, were still at the end of the dock. He was out of the water before I was. I about melted when he sat his butt on the edge and gave me a close-up view of his his crotch. I treaded water in front of him for a good ten seconds, taking in the wonderful sight of water dripping down his torso and onto his penis and balls, right there in front of me, in the developing moonlight. In the cold night air, his penis was as small as I had ever seen it. But that did not matter. It was Kirk's. It was lovely. He was lovely. If he would've been a girl, I would've fucked his brains out, right there. But he wasn't a girl.

I swam to my friend and placed my hands around his ankles. "Kirk, this is a blast."

"You said it."

"Should we stay here?"

"I think we better hit the sauna."

As I hoisted myself out of the lake, there was little question that Kirk was enjoying me and my every move.

"Cold out here, isn't it?"

"Yeah, but it's warm in the sauna."

"Hot, I hope."

"Me too."
 
Wow, great stuff. You've got a great narrative style. I'm sorry to hear about your dads...

That last part... I don't even care if that was true, it was HOT!
 
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Very nice wet dream installment. I'd love to join them for the sauna, too!
Nice action, even with the inherent am I Straight, Gay -- maybe the one in the middle he didn't consider - BI?

Lots of sexual body parts floating around and just under terry cloth in HOT, enclosed, spaces!

Keep up the good work. I'm looking forward to your next installment of As the Penis Pops, aka Teen Angst and horrormones!

Thanks for your hard work. (*8*) :=D:
 
Good story. I am enjoying it. You keep me cumming back. Wanting more.

OK, now let's all get in the sauna. I need to get off.
 
Part VI

The sexual tension between Kirk and me continued to build as he, I, Alison, and Brad enjoyed Rounds 2 and 3 in the sauna and then the lake. At the start of Round 4, the older cousins opted to go back to the house but Kirk and I were eager to stay behind.

"That door have a lock?" Kirk wanted to know. So did my cock. Kirk looked amazing in just that towel.

I checked the door. Shit. "Don't think so. Not that I can see."

"Well, what the hell." Kirk stood and turned away from me as he removed his towel from his waist and laid it flat on the higher bench. I did the same, and soon, there we were, two best buddies from high school, sitting naked next to each other, in a sauna in northern Minnesota. But the sauna didn't have a lock, so we had to stay cool. We were, after all, from Iowa, and we weren't gay, and we had good heads on our shoulders for crying out loud. I mean, c'mon.

Kirk spun 90 degrees so his back was against the side of the sauna and his legs flat on the bench. I did the same, but I put my knees up to give my friend a glimpse of my crotch and how my balls were beginning to feel the effects of the sauna once again. He responded by sitting Indian style and proceeded to make an excuse about having to stretch his groin. His testicles also were feeling the effects, and I could tell that his penis was back to his "shower" state. It was at that point that I got up the courage to place my penis in my hand and to begin moving it, pleasuring it, in a way that would make it bigger and would draw my friend's attention. Kirk scooted a little closer to me, and touched himself, and ...

Sqqqeeeeeak!

The outer door to the sauna shack was opening. Shit! We spun around and covered our waists with our towels.

"Alison?" Kirk wanted to know.

"Nope. Andy. Just dudes in there?"

With the tension building between Kirk and me, I had forgotten about cousin Andy, the hockey player two had turned 18 a day earlier. Was he coming to join us? Was there a God?

Kirk's face was toward the door and my back to it. As I heard the door open, I watched my friend eye his cousin's face, then his crotch, then his feet. I turned expecting, hoping, to find a naked Andy, but instead what I found was an athlete dressed in a long-sleeve t-shirt, gym shorts, and sandals.

When I turned back to Kirk, he was adjusting himself under his towel and reiterating that it was just dudes.

"K. Back in a sec."

"Goal fulfilled with hockey player." That was the look Kirk and I shared for just a second. But then we looked away from each other and just stared straight ahead to await the next player on the bench. I mean, we were from Iowa, and there weren't gay people in Iowa! It was the early 90s, for heaven's sake, and what were we going to do, marry each other? In Iowa? I mean, THAT would never happen ...

When the door opened, I was bummed to see Andy with a towel, since it was just dudes. We made room for the athlete between us, but before sitting down he poured three ladels of water on the rocks and then opted for the lower bench instead.

"Gotta start out down here. Gotta ease into this. Otherwise, you get too hot too fast."

I looked at the hockey player's shoulders, broader than mine and Kirk's also. His eyes were closed, and he was enjoying the hot steam. The athlete's hands were on his toweled thighs, and his pecs rose and fell with each breath. We sat there for about a minute, three guys in their late teens, wearing just towels, silent.

"Hey, ya wanna pour another dip of water on the rocks?" Andy wanted to know.

I complied, and as I turned to resume my position, my eyes went to Kirk, who looked stunned, and then to Andy, whose back was to me but whose frontal nudity -- yes, nudity -- was facing Kirk. Cousin Andy's backside nudity was facing me, and I the hockey player's muscled but perfectly proportioned butt to be just fine!

"Can't recall, Kirk, have we done the sauna before."

"Yeah, not for years though."

"Ever been just guys? Like now?"

"Only when we were kids, like, 12 maybe? Or I was 12 and you were 11? The last few times, there was mixed company. Alison always likes it. So no. Or not in a long time. A lot has changed since then, Andy."

Andy had spread out his towel on the top bench and still had his back to me. His butt was tremendous -- toned, muscled, just a hint of hair.

"Well, I sorta like it this way. Makes me feel freer. Feel free, guys, what with the towels. Just dudes, you know. Not a big deal in our house. It's the way I grew up."

Andy placed his bare butt on the towel but his elbows were on his knees so I could not see anything of the hockey player's package. Kirk, meanwhile, stripped off his towel and just stood there, dangling, trying to get a glimpse of his cousin's penis and testicles.

I felt myself getting hard, so I inquired whether my sauna mates wanted more steam and used the question and answers as an excuse to turn away from them so I could think about algebra for a half minute. After I poured on the water, I stood on the lower bench, breathed in the steam, and dropped the towel.

Andy seemed not to notice in the least. Rather, the sizzling cloud caused the hockey player to place his hands behind his head, lean back, and give Kirk and me side views of his package. Then I realized why Kirk had looked stunned. My view was far from perfect, but Andy's penis seemed to be about Kirk's length, maybe a little longer, but definitely on the chubby side. I could tell he kept everything trimmed, probably so his girlfriend would give him head. His balls must've been dangling nicely in the hot room, because I couldn't see them.

Andy sighed and closed his eyes and did not seem to be opening them anytime soon, so I found license to visually inspect the young man from head to toe. Beads of sweat had developed across his torso and were trickling toward and beginning to pool in the ripples of his six pack. How could he not have a six pack, what with year round hockey practice up here in the far north? Tiny water droplets stuck to the blondish treasure trail that made its way from the stud's belly button to the top of his pubes. The trial was perhaps five inches long, and a pencil width's thick, and would fill in over time. His groin made a V, and the area just above it rose and fell with each infrequent breath. He was an athlete completely in shape so his heart and lungs were in perfect form.

When Andy opened his eyes, he seemed not to notice that he had been the subject of his sauna mates' visual inspections. That, or he did not care. Or he liked it. Andy gazed at his penis, which he lifted from between his legs and then placed so its head was resting just inside his thigh. He seemed proud of himself. How he looked. How he felt. And with good reason. He was stunning, really, and I thought how lucky his girlfriend was. Certainly, I thought, a stud like this had a girlfriend.

The thermometer read 185, and I was thinking that soon I would have to jump in that lake or that my blood would boil. Literally. Still, I did not want to miss a second of Andy feeling himself. The young man closed his eyes and kept massaging his package and, remarkably, seemed to be on the verge of actually masturbating himself. Kirk and I said nothing for fear Andy would stop. And then, the athlete dropped a bombshell, seemingly out of nowhere.

"Shit, I got a sports physical tomorrow."

How to respond to THAT? I thought fast to find a way to keep the conversation going, even though the room was getting almost unbearably hot in more ways than one. The thermometer had jumped to 190 in a manner of a minute.

"Physical for hockey?"

"Yeah. But since I'm 18 -- what, by two days? -- Mom's making me go to her doctor, and not do the thing at the school. The group physical thing. The assembly line, as we call it. Or called it. No more of that for me, I guess. To be honest, that's the only time I've been to the doctor. Since I was, like, 10 maybe."

"I s'pose that will be a little different."

"Cuz I'm 18? How so?"

I glanced at Kirk, who had shared with me the experience he had had during his first adult physical with old Doc Bennett, an experience that had totally crossed the line and ended with the doctor's pre-med son watching my best friend cum on the exam table, and then cumming himself right there in the exam room. But Kirk was steering clear of making comments, so I thought I'd take a shot, even though my last physical had been when I was 17 because my college had not required me to have one.

"Well, you're 18, so the doctor will be more thorough. Probably he will be anyway."

"She."

"She?"

"Mom's making me go to her lady doctor. That's why I said shit, a sports physical tomorrow."

"Oh. Well, I'm sure she'll do a good job."

Andy turned toward me because I seemed to know what I was talking about. "By thorough, what do you mean?"

"They'll probably do some blood tests. Check over your skin. Make sure you're ready for a full body contact sport."

"Am I going to have to get naked?"

"Probably not. She'll respect your modesty. Or she better. If she's a good doctor."

I looked at Kirk, who had had a bad doctor. A perv, really. And because his dad had died of a heart attack, Kirk was a guy who needed, who deserved, a good doctor.

"Yeah, but of course she's gonna look. You know. Down there." Andy had turned sideways to face me best he could and was drawing my attention toward his penis and testicles, the latter of which I confirmed were as lovely as the rest of him. "How's that going to go, now that I'm 18?" The hockey player was examining his penis and had lifted it so he, and I, could see the underside, which, I had to admit, looked a little red and might draw a doctor's scrutiny. But it might have been the heat. How did I know?

"And, um, I mean, she's a she, and I'm--"

"Well, she'll probably just confirm you've reached full adulthood. Check you for a hernia. Examine your dick a little. Make sure you know how to do a self-testicular examination."

"What's that?"

"You don't know?"

"You've never been told to do one? Kirk was entering the conversation too. "Never saw the movie in health class?"

Andy glanced over his broad shoulder to acknowledge his cousin's question but then turned back toward me, who, I could tell, he found to be the most knowledgeable about physical exam procedures on 18-year-old hockey players. It was getting REALLY hot in the sauna, so I tried to explain the procedure in the fastest way possible, which caused Andy to curl his torso over his lap and watch himself bounce his balls in an erotic but medically ineffective way.

"Like this?"

"N-no. Here."

My first thought when I rose to position myself right in front of Andy was that I would be helping a guy who seemed nice enough, and who needed to stay healthy. But then, with my feet on the lower bench and my crotch perhaps a foot from his eyes, helpfulness gave way to hotness, and the reality of it all -- that I was asking a guy a year younger than me to watch me press my testicles between my thumb and fingers -- sunk in. I tried to keep my breathing under control as Andy craned his neck to glance at my face briefly to make sure it was OK that he was watching what I seemed to be asking him to watch. When I silently let him know it was fine, he leaned back to observe the procedure. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Kirk cover his lap with a towel.

"I get it. Between my thumb and fingers."

"They say you're supposed to do it in the shower, when they're nice and warm. But from the looks of it, a sauna is a great place too."

Andy's balls were enjoying the full effects of the sauna. I stepped down to watch the athlete begin the procedure on himself while he used the other hand to hold his penis out of the way so I could see. His scrotum had barely any hair but would be one that the female doctor would examine the next day -- probably thoroughly, given the specimen she'd be in charge of.

In a split second, I visualized what it would be like for the athlete who had not been alone in an exam room with a doctor since he was 10. And it would be a woman, no less! She'd most likely meet him fully clothed and ask about any recent illnesses, about hockey, about whether he was sexually active, about safe sex. Then she'd step out so he could follow her directions to take off his clothes but to leave his underwear on "for now." The words "for now" would resonate in Andy's brain as he would peel off his long-sleeved T-shirt, then his shoes and socks, and finally his cargo shorts. The paper on the exam table would make a crinkly sound as he positioned his boxer-briefed butt on it. He'd be nervous, and he'd lift the waistband of his undies, fret at the shriveled condition of his dick, and then masturbate himself slightly to try to make himself more presentable. His balls were hanging OK, he'd decide, but his dick, he needed to do something about that. She was, after all, a lady, and he'd want to---

"And, um, Stu--. It's Stuart, right?"

"Yup."

"What am I looking for?" Andy moved his other hand from his penis, which seemed to have plumped up even more and was resting alongside the wrist of the hand that was feeling his balls. I thought that tomorrow, most likely, the lady doctor would enjoy the experience of examining such a specimen, a young hockey player just turned 18 with unruly hair and perfectly toned abs. This would be particularly true after she asked him to lie back on the table, in just his boxer-briefs with a tantalizing bulge in the center, vulnerable, with no choice but to comply. She'd let her fingers intrude just a little under the waistband of his underwear, and her hand would brush against his bulge for just a second. Then, she'd ask him to stand and, in her words, "please push down your shorts." At first, he'd be thanking his lucky starts that at least she did not ask me to take them off. But then, the experience of pushing down his underwear in front of a fully clothed woman would cause concern. He would not be too small, but too big, and when the doctor put her gloved hand to his dangly testicle, his penis would begin to grow, and assume a position alongside his examiner's wrist, much like what I was--

"Well, Andy, you're checking to make sure that--"

And at that moment, we heard the crrrrrreak of the door. Someone was joining us. Fuck!

"Alison?" Andy wanted to know.

"No, Brad actually."

"Coming back in, bro'?"

I hoped not.

"No. Gotta talk to Kirk. It's, um, important."

I did not know Brad well, but I could tell from the way he said "important" that it was really important.

We toweled up and Brad opened the door to ask his brother to come out for a minute. From Brad's demeanor, and from the way Kirk was reacting toward him, I could tell there was something was wrong. Very wrong.

Suddenly my focus turned from helping a hockey player feel his balls to feeling concern for my best friend. Kirk didn't deserve to endure anything more. It had been less than two years since he had lost his dad to a heart attack, and I knew the family was struggling to keep the farm afloat. My dad had good life insurance at the time of the car wreck, and the accident on the two-lane road was the other driver's fault so that driver's insurance paid big. But Kirk's dad had nothing. And it had been a dry year in Iowa. I was not a farm kid, but even city kids knew that a month before harvest, the crops were not terrible, but not great either. We needed more rain.

Kirk joined his brother outside and I told Andy that I just had to jump in the lake. He said it sounded like a good idea but suggested a quick dip so he could ask me a few more things about tomorrow, what it might be like, since he was used to the assembly line physicals at school and didn't know anything different. We headed to the water as Kirk and Brad were intent on having a private conversation. Kirk and I were best friends, so I knew I'd find out what was going on, but at a moment like that, family came first, and I could tell they needed their time.

My skinny dip in the lake with Andy was quick, and because I still had Kirk on my mind and was extremely hot, temperature wise at least, the experience was surprisingly un-erotic. When we returned to the sauna changing room, Brad was gone but Kirk had stayed behind to tell me what was up. He explained that, well, we had gotten rain, but from extremely severe thunderstorm that had moved through our hometown just after dark, just an hour ago. Well, actually, it was just outside of town, so my house, my mom's house, would be fine. But at his house, there had been hail. Lots of it. Sort of unusual for this late in the summer. But as we knew from when we had piled into the car in Iowa the previous morning, it had been hot and humid. So the meteorological mix was just right. Or wrong. It was dark, of course, so no one could be sure about the extent of the damage, but it seemed to be bad, so Kirk and Brad would have to get back and we'd have to leave first thing the next morning.

Kirk apologized and said that it looked like I had been getting the hang of fishing. I said not to sweat it. And he said, speaking of sweat, feel free to stay down in the sauna, but that he was done because he had to call his mom and oldest brother back.

Andy encouraged me to stay. He had some more questions, he said, about the doctor, and the "self-testicle thing," as he called it. And I seemed to know what I was talking about. That's what Andy said. And who was I to tell him anything different?
 
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