Part XXVI
As Jay and I set sail for Chicago, we weren't in the car 10 minutes before I steered the conversation toward his twin brother, Justin.
"Is he a wrestler by chance?"
"Why do you ask?"
"Just curious."
"Nope not a wrestler."
"What sports did he play in high school?"
"None, really."
"None?" I shot Jay a look of shock. "Really?"
"Well, golf, but that doesn't count. I mean, as a kid, before high school, he did Little League, flag football, wrestling ..."
"Aha! Wresting! I wasn't dreaming!"
"Huh?"
"Never mind."
"Anyway, once we were in high school, I don't think he set foot in the locker room. He was sort of a nerd, actually."
I glanced at Jay and tried to look as cute as possible. "So you are identical twins then."
Again, two dimples appeared below Jay's brown eyes.
"Fuck you, Stuie."
"If you insist."
Jay chortled and shook his head in faked disbelief as the sexual tension between us increased another tiny notch. We had experienced a lot together in the space of just a couple weeks -- the trip to Dr. Fitzgerald, Jay's stunt hiding in the closet, Jay confronting me about looking at his crotch from the first day I met him, Jay confessing to at least some sexual attraction toward guys at least when they're hard, me confessing to a bit more than that.
I relished in the moment of silence and glanced to my right and marveled at how Jay's jaw line, ear, short brown hair, and the barely-visible results of a two-day break from shaving all worked together in a way that, mysteriously, made me want to suck his dick.
As I felt my cock stir and refocused my eyes to the road, I pondered the possibilities what was ahead, and specifically what Justin might be like. As the ride continued, I got more than just a hint.
"So did your mom dress you guys alike?"
"Yeah. I hated that. Justin did, too."
"Till you were how old?"
"Into junior high, actually. Then the kids started teasing us, and mom got wise and let us pick out our own clothes."
"So Justin wore red baseball jerseys and you wore blue ones?"
"Ha ha, Stu. No, like I said, you might be surprised about Justin."
"Why?"
"He really doesn't look a lot like me now. Or I suppose he'd say I don't look a lot like him."
"Really?"
"I didn't mention the deal, did I?"
"The deal?"
"Justin won't be with us in the hotel the first night."
My heart sank. "Will he the second night?"
"Yes, that's the plan."
"Well, that's good. I'm looking forward to meeting him."
"He's a
Freshmen at the University of Chicago, on three-quarters scholarship."
"No shit?"
"He's a smartypants, Stu. Like I said, he's a nerd."
"But a nice-looking nerd, I'm sure."
"You might not recognize him, actually. Sort of a greaseball, in a way. Wears these little wire-rimmed glasses, his hair is a lot longer than mine, pierced ears, a tattoo."
"Where?"
"His ankle, I guess. He just got it. Mom's not very happy, but we are 18, so there's not a lot she can do about it."
"Huh. But I'm sorry, Mr. All Sports Come Naturally To Me, I can't believe your identical twin is a nerd."
"Well, not so much a nerd as a non-athlete. He could've been one if he wanted to. He's got the body for it."
I liked where this was going.
"What do you mean?"
Jay rubbed his left bicep with his right hand. "He's sort of a natural, the little prick. Pisses me off. He's able to stay in shape without doing much of anything."
"Well, like you said, you guys are 18, and at that age it's not that hard."
"OK, not just stay in shape, but actually look sort of buff."
"Lucky him."
"Yeah, so we're at the gym this summer, a few weeks before college started. It was a fricking hot day. He wanted to sit by the air conditioning at home and read, but I talked him into lifting some weights with me, down at the high school. I lent him some workout clothes, and after we got changed, there at the high school, we headed into the weights. And after just an hour in there he was almost as pumped as I was."
I lightly punched Jay's left bicep. "Sorry, Jay, I wouldn't call you pumped."
"Whatever, Stu."
"But in the weight room, it was obvious how alike you two were?"
"Well, I didn't notice it till we were in the shower afterward, actually."
I VERY MUCH liked where this was going.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. I hadn't seen him, you know, naked for years, probably since fourth grade when we shared a room, before my parents built a new house. And we looked identical then, same bodies, same everything."
"Everything?"
"Pretty much."
"And not now?"
"I'm getting to that. So we're there in the locker room, getting ready to shower, and I hand him something I always eat after I'm done with a workout."
"What's that?"
"A banana."
"I guessed as much."
"What makes you say that?"
"Never mind."
"Anyway, I slip off my shirt and start flexing my abs in the mirror, you know. See my results."
"Sure."
"He slips off his shirt, well my shirt, and in the space of an hour he already had the beginnings of six-pack, the little prick."
"Lucky him."
"And then he's teasing me and shit, saying 'See, bro', this isn't so hard.' Man he pisses me off! If Justin knows one thing, it's how to push my buttons. I hate that. So anyway, we slip out of our gym shorts and we're standing there virtually naked, and he just keeps going, pushing my buttons, no regard for human decency, the little fuck wad. So I started walking toward him, making it look like I was going to weigh myself on the scale, but then I showed him who's boss."
"How?"
"I clocked him."
"You punched your twin brother in the locker room?"
"Not at first. I charged him and got him down on the ground. It was tough at first. We were just wearing that athletic boxer-brief underwear stuff. So it's just bare skin, and we're all sweaty ..."
"Sure."
"So it was a struggle for me to get control, since basically we were naked."
"That sucks."
"Yeah, and then the little prick gets his knee in my crotch. That DEFINITELY hurt. It's like he instinctively knew where to go, which I guess makes sense since his crotch is basically my crotch."
"M-hm."
"But what comes around goes around, and let's just say I knew where his balls were too, and I got my hand on his goods and strangled his little nuts till he took his knee off of mine."
"Yikes! But I doubt they're little."
"Well you're right there. Anyway, then I pinned the sucker down by the shoulders and rubbed my knuckle into the little prick's bare chest. Of course, I knew right where to press, 'cuz his chest is basically mine."
"Huh. I suppose."
"Then he cried uncle."
Jay slapped his upper thighs to signal he was done with the story.
"And that's it? That's the story?"
"Yep."
I stayed silent hoping Jay would realize he promised more of a story than that. But he didn't.
"What about the shower? You were talking about the shower."
"Oh yeah, right. Well, the little brainiac, he always has a way of saying the right thing, saying stuff to -- what's the word -- deflate the situation?"
"Defuse? Defuse the situation?"
"Yeah, that's it. I mean, he says the stuff even when he doesn't mean it. Knows exactly what to say. He'll be a good lawyer someday. Been doing it for years, with mom. She's such a pushover."
"Anyway, you were saying, about the shower ..."
"Yeah, so, well, Justin's hair was pretty long our senior year of high school, and we dressed so differently by then, you know. He was just growing out of that Goth stuff, I think, and I was, well, pretty much like I am now. Jerseys and jeans and shit. So in the school hallways, we really didn't look much like identical twins."
"But in the shower you did?"
"Yeah, I'm getting there. Geez, Stu, you sure are interested in this."
"I think twins are interesting. I always wanted one of my very own."
"Well, be careful what you wish for. Anyway, we strip down and head into the shower. Of course, he forgot a towel, so he has to use mine. He's always been mooching off me. So he's completely naked, heading to the shower. And as I'm following his naked little ass down the hall, it starts to dawn on me, wow, do I have a little hair right there, on my ass, like he does?"
"Sure."
"And where it really hit me was in the shower, after we got the water going. He's showering right next to me, because he needed to mooch my shampoo. And when he's washing his hair, I just sort of take him all in -- his body and his hour's worth of six-pack, his chest and shoulders, hips, the whole bit. He really did look just like me, standing there, completely naked, without his baggy black pants and rock-band t-shirts, with his hair wetted down."
"Wow."
Jay paused in a way that again signaled the conversation was over. But I, of course, had one more thought on my mind. Amazingly Jay volunteered it and I went on to learn some things absolutely intriguing in light of our weekend trip to Chicago.
"Even down there, Stu."
"Down there?"
"In the crotch department."
I didn't know what to say, so Jay filled in the blanks.
"Stu, I know you were wondering."
"Shut up."
"But I'm right, aren't I?"
"So?"
"So what?"
"So, um, you two are the same, down to the last inch?"
"Appeared to be. And it was news to me. Hadn't really thought about it before. I mean, he wasn't a jock, and we had enough bathrooms in the house that I just didn't have a chance to see him in the shower at home. So apart from the occasional public bathroom and all, I just didn't get much of a look."
"Sure."
"And of course since he never got sports physicals, he never needed a chaperone. In hindsight, I probably would have gone."
I laughed as the Sexual Tension O' Meter went up yet another notch. Then I couldn't resist. I landed a blow below the belt.
"Guess you didn't hide in his closet, either, eh?"
"Fuck you Stu."
"OK, here? Should I stop the car?"
"Oh cripes, just drive."
"So you want to screw me while I'm driving?"
"In your dreams, dude."
"Wet dreams maybe."
"Wet dreams, shit. Just not in bed next to me in the hotel, 'K Stu?"
"I'll try to control myself. Maybe Justin'll be game."
Jay and I just shared a glance that can't really be described with words. Let's just say the Sexual Tension O' Meter went up several more notches.
"So, Minnesota Twin, you were sayin'?""
"Don't insult me that way."
"The shower?"
"God, you won't let it rest, will ya Stu? OK, anyway, Justin's got his face in the spray, and I couldn't resist. I just had to look."
"Look where?"
"You know, Stu."
"Tell me."
"And see, see if he's like me."
"Like you, naked?"
"Yes Stu, naked. Our dicks. And balls. There, I said it."
"And was he?"
"Yeah. Right down to the brothers."
"Brothers?"
"Our balls. Left one bigger, hanging lower. You know."
"Wow, sounds like you did get a good look."
"It seemed like the thing to do at the time, and maybe my last chance, you know, ever."
"Maybe not."
"It was just weird to look see, I guess, my flesh and blood, naked, right there. To think that's what others see -- OK, Stu, what you see -- when you see me. And it -- well, I -- was right before my eyes. Face, chest, abs, dick, balls, everything. It's weird."
"Interesting."
"Yeah, and not to be mushy, but I did sort of feel the love with my bro' there in the shower, you know? Don't tell him that, OK? But I did. And not in THAT way, mind you."
"Yeah."
"But it is pretty cool, to have a twin. So I don't know ... And I have no idea why I'm telling you this."
"You can tell me anything."
"But that day, something came over me."
"How so?"
"Well, Stu, it's weird. I don't know. I wanted him to have the same experience."
"What are you talking about?"
"I just, geez. I just wanted him to get a good look at me."
"What did you do?"
"Well, I put more shampoo in my hair, and lathered it up really good, and then put my head under the spray, and left it there a long time, with my eyes closed, knowing what he'd do."
"What did he do?"
"Got sorta hard."
"Sorta?"
"It was weird. Really weird. I mean, I just never thought of my brother in that way -- as a person who would, you know, have a hard dick, a dick he'd have sex with. It's sort of like your dad, seeing your dad hard. Well, ah -- Sorry, Stu, not your dad ..."
"It's cool Jay."
"Anyway, thanks. For listening I guess."
"Can I ask you a personal question?"
"More personal than what we're talking about?"
"Probably not. Do you think your brother, your twin, shares your interest in, you know, hard dicks and handjob mags and stuff?"
"That is a personal question, Stuie."
"But it's a question about him, not necessarily about you."
"I guess. But why do you ask?"
"I'm just curious. I find it all pretty interesting. Twins, turn-ons, stuff that runs in the family."
I had hit a nerve. Jay turned to the right and looked at the cornfields whizzing past. I knew him well enough to know that whenever he looked out the passenger-side window, he was struggling with something. Then he turned to look straight again and tapped the dashboard lightly as he explained.
"See, Stu, that's the problem."
There had been a catch in Jay's voice when he reached the word "problem."
"What's the problem?"
"You can't tell a soul, OK?"
"All right."
"OK, here goes. About a year ago, maybe a little less, I found a magazine in Justin's backpack."
"What kind of magazine?"
"Playgirl."
"Playgirl?"
"Yeah, you know, guys, naked guys?"
"Yes, I know."
"Anyway, I was shocked. I mean, last couple years, he's been sort of swishy. You'll see. So I always wondered. And the little glasses and pierced ears don't help. But he's had a girlfriend ..."
"Sure."
"But it just sort of hit me, in his backpack, when I went in his backpack. My brother, my twin brother, is gay?"
"Is he?"
"I don't know."
"What did you do?"
"Nothing at first. I let a couple days pass, and then I couldn't stand it anymore. So I asked him about it."
"No shit?"
"At first, he was super pissed that I had gone into his backpack. But I frankly did it by mistake. He had left it in the car, and I thought it was mine. So anyway, we're alone in the house, thank God. And he calms down, and says to follow him, that there was something he had discovered that I probably should know, but that Jeremy was too young to know."
"Where did you go?"
"My dad's home office."
"What was there?"
"A file cabinet."
"OK ..."
"I can't believe I'm telling you this. I mean, you're going to meet the guy in about two hours."
"I thought you said Justin's not joining us till tomorrow."
"No, my dad. You're going to meet my dad in a couple hours."
"I already met him, in your dorm room."
"That's right. And based on that meeting, would you have guessed?"
"Guessed what?"
"Where Justin got the Playgirls?"
"He got them from your dad?"
"Yep."