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sitting miserable in my house i can't stop thinking about him. i'd spend the day and night with him today as i had planned to stay at his house today but unfortunately my plans got canceled.
when i told him i can't stay at his house today he said ''never mind i'm probably spending the day with my girlfriend today'' she wanted to take him to the shops and walk around in the city all day long. i was like ''oh that's so nice you're gonna have so much fun today'' and the fact is that it was a beautiful Saturday morning. i pretended i was fine with it and totally happy but inside me i was like http://whatgifs.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/funny-gifs-my-first-day-of-school.gif Inside me i wanted to blow up! i felt so jealous that she would spend such a beautiful day with him and i'd sit miserable in my house. he told me he didn't really wanted to go to the shops cause he finds it very boring, as most straight guys do, but he had to go cause she asked him... he then told me i could go with them if i wanted to and i started laughing just to have the time think something clever to say. of course i hate that bitch i won't go out with her again, i was like ''nuh i don't like being the third person between a couple'' and he thought it was funny and said ''come on don't be stupid, it's not like we're going to have sex in front of you''
now i realise that that bitch isn't as bad as i think. i mean she is mean but i only call her a bitch cause she's his girlfriend lol
why why why do i have to feel like that? it's so tiring... but i know that it's what a couple naturally would do. spend a beautiful day together. what i wouldn't give to be in her shoes... even though they're high hills lol
so i have this plan for tomorrow. i can't tell him what i did all day was sitting home miserable so i'm gonna pretend i'm tired cause i was out with friends all night long. i'm gonna pretend i have a life
Good luck to you.This is a TRUE LOVE. I admire youEverytime I read one of these stories it nearly breaks my heart. What if that would have happened to me? You see, I fell in love at first sight when I was 17. I didn't even know his name when I first laid eyes on him. I made my way over to him and started up a conversation and I was gone. We were inseperable from that moment on for 33 yrs. I didn't even know if he was gay when I first saw him, that came about two weeks later. We had sex that night and I learned he felt the same about me.
I sometimes wonder what would have happened had he not been gay or interested in me. I felt like you do. I was hopelessly in love with him and it would have shattered my heart to pieces. I do know this. If he didn't feel the same I would have had to get away from him. I truely believe I would have been incapable of maintaining just a friendship with him. I also believe it would have eventually killed me should I have tried. I loved him so much I doubt I would have been able to finish my college education constantly pinning over him.
Fortunately for me, we remained deeply in love all those years. Unfortunately, I had my heart shattered anyway 33yrs. later when he passed away suddenly and left me alone and heartbroken. Since you obviously haven't taken others advice to get out asap, I'll add mine. Sit him down and tell him exactly how you feel about him. Get it all out in the open and let the chips fall where they may. You can leave out the part about his bitchy girlfriend, it serves no purpose. Make it solely about you and him. I wouldn't even bring up sex since it really is not the issue. You are in love with this guy pure and simple.
Maybe you are stronger than I was when I was 17 and you can handle a friendship with a guy you are in love with. I'm over 50 now and still believe it serves no purpose to continue to hang around someone I am in love with just for the friendship. That is something you are going to have to decide.
