Bi dilemma please help!!!!

[Joeyyyxxx19]

I'm 22 and I think I'm bi lol I've been w girls my whole life. My senior year of college I let an older guy suck me and rim me...it was hot but I was so nervous and I was pretty drunk lol week later tried again w the same guy but I was sober and I was so nervous I left....since then I've cammed w guys and considered meeting other guys but always chicken out....any advice? Am I even bi? Idk!!! Haha also anyone interested in cam or meeting in north jersey??

 

[tristan91]

Why nervous? Try breathing in and out next time lol

So you said you found it hot that the guy sucked and rimmed you??.....if you did yes you're most likely bisexual. Just relax and have fun with it

 

[Joeyyyxxx19]

Idk why I wasso nervous haha initially I think it was bc I was meeting a stranger for sex combined w it being first guy experience....yeah the first time we met I was drunk and 420 lol blew my load in the guys mouth. Second time I was sober and could barely stay hard from being so nervous....even tho I was drunk if I didn't like it I wouldn't have cum...atleast that's what I'm thinking haha ever since I've chatted online and planned meet ups w guys but always get nervous hmmmmm haha

 

[MissAnne]

It is nerve racking. Ive noticed that I was curious not too long ago and it can be scary especially when you considered yourself straight for so long. You live in North Jersey, not too far away from Philadelphia. Philly has a great "gayborhood" with lots of connections and good gay/lesbian bars. Actually their Trans-Health conference is in a couple of weeks. Its not just for trans people but for all LGBTQ. You should check it out and get connected with people. Personally I think meeting someone there is a little safer than the craiglist type hookup.

 

[Joeyyyxxx19]

Ty for the replies....yeah I think you may be right it's a combination almost like a perfect storm of factors causing me to e nervous. It seems like when I'm either drink or 420 the feelings get a lot stronger.....and I felt bad for emailing people and then backing out haha

 

[HunterM]

You need to face your fears. It could be you're still in denial of your attraction to men. This is normal. Until you admit to yourself that you like men, you will always feel nervous instead of having fun

 

[Joeyyyxxx19]

Maye you're right....i don't even know if I would say its an attraction to men. For instance if I see a hot girl walking down the street I will take notice but never say "oh he's hot" when I see a guy and that's the case sober or not...but like I said my curiosity increases a lot but I've never thought another guy to be "hot" idk hard to explain haha maybe just the idea of a guy sucking me or whatever turns me on but once we move past thinking it is too much? Haha idk