10.22AM
Rachel says she volunteers to be the first one to go to jury. Shelly tells her to get the stupid stuff out so they can deal with reality.
10.39AM
Rach-Wish she could walk out the door w/Bre. But, prefer to get her money.
10.41AM
Bre/Rac- why can't the house go against the house and vote Jordan out. Why can't it be 4-3. Everyone is scared to go against the house. She would vote someone out if she wanted to
10.53AM
Shelly-youre saying everybody is a floater. you're saying I'm a floater. Rach- I'm not saying that. I talked to Dr.Zackery yesterday. Obviously, I'm f'd up in the head. FOTH
10.55AM
Rach-It's not funny when a tv show allow someone to say that your butt cheeks are showing and flapping all over. I have to try to get a job. NT
10.56AM
Kalia up as well. Jordan says Rachel is going crazy. Rachel is saying she lost her family, her friends after last season.
10.56AM
Rachel said she came out of the house and her mom and dad wouldn't talk to her.
10.58AM
Ra: Everyone hates me. America hates me, Shelly hates me, I hate myself. Br: don't say that! Ra: I do hate myself.
10.59AM
Rachel says she is going to leave with Brendon. She cant fight all the time. He says ok she can leave with him
11.00AM
Br asks Ra if she wants to leave with him today. She says she doesnt even know why they (BB) wanted us to come back, they hated us!
11.00AM
rach crying in the kitchen to Bren. Jordan is trying to pep talk her, saying if Bren goes, she has a chance to fight harder
11.00AM
Jordan in the kitchen giving Rachel a pep talk. Rachel says she lost everything in her life, and Jordan hasnt
11.01AM
Rach saying she only came back to BB b/c she needed the money from the stipend. She says she has no job, she lost everything b/c of the show
11.02AM
Rach-It's not about the game. It's about my life. When you go to a job interview, they say Oh it's the girl from Big brother. When I tried to get a job last year. They ask why did you act like that on tv?
11.03AM
Jordan says Rach seems like she doesntk now who she is without Bren, and thats sad. Shel says take a few weeks in BB to figure out who u are
11.03AM
Ra now telling Jordan that she only came back because she needed the money. She says Jordan doesnt understand what it's like to not have a job.
Ra says she had 6 job interviews and they asked her why did she act like that on BB. She didn't get a job.
Jordan says she shouldnt quit and should act differently. Ra says she doesnt care. Jordan says it's almost like Ra should walk out the door with Brendon, and just becuase Br wont be here doesnt mean she can have a good summer alone.
11.03AM
Shelly is basically telling Rachel to just take some time off and figure out who she is.
11.04AM
Rach- walks off ... I just want people to leave me alone
11.05AM
Rach says she wishes they would stop (giving pep talks). Shel says she's trying to help Rach b/c shes a real person and "You are a valuable persn and you dont see that in yourself. Brendon is validating your doubts about yourself."
Rach: this is a show, its not real life
Shel: you're making this real life. Get through this tough time, and tell us when you want your friends to help you get back up
Bren and Rach go to another room to talk alone
Shelly and Jordan talking now. Jordan says its sad. Shelly says if Rach wants people to stop pep talking her, then to stop feeling sorry for yourself
11.07AM
Bren telling Rach to stop feeling sorry for herself. She's been through so much,it doesnt matter what other people say
Bren: This self pity crap, I'm over it. You dont need to feel sorry for yourself. Youre not so hard off. Youre smart, youre tough, you dont give up.
11.08AM
Shelly said Rachel will try to walk out for the drama out it.
11.11AM
Rach-The only network that we were on used the picture scandal. They made fun of us.
11.15AM
Rach saying, before BB, she had a great life (good job,friends, etc). She said they came back to BB to change their image but they got knocked down
11.15AM
Rach-saying Jeff telling them they need them. then say but oh really Jeff, where was he when they needed him.
11.15AM
Rach telling Bren she will be ok without him, she just doesnt want to do it without him.
11.16AM
Rach says to Bren: If I go to jury, we still get our stipend. FOTH
11.28AM
Jeff- it's like dealing with a f'n 4 year old who wants a piece of candy. Shut the f'k up.
11.28AM
Bren-We'll just leave. That it. We don't even have to go to the wrap party.
11.35AM
HGs in HOH. Rach could be heard crying/sniffling. Her head is on Brendons lap. She's in a fetal position and he is rubbing her shoulders.
11.40AM
Rach- crying uncontrollably.
11.41AM
Rachel is still crying (real tears btw) everyone is just quiet. its very uncomfortable. Shelly, next to them, glances at camera and mouths "Oh my God"
11.42AM
Dani to Kalia in HOH Bathroom: "That's an act" (re: Rachel).
11.53AM
Trivia
12.59PM
trivia for over an hour now
1.11PM
Brenchel in have not room
Rachel is saying she just wants to be left alone, just let her be sad