Chapter 5
5 years passed.
Five years passd since I saw the boy that changed my life. The first couple of years were excrutiatingly painful. I tried everything I could think of to track him down. Accessing his information at university was impossible since it deletes records of students who don't attend more than one semester.
He told AcidicJump his name was Smith and his landlord, that his name was john. So I tried John Smith, but nothing was found. I even kept checking online jail websites to check if there have been any new arrests.
Unfortunately the search was hopeless, so I gave up. I still got occasional visits from him in my dreams, but other than that, he was long gone.
So I moved on. Dated a handful of men.
Brandon, the sweet human rights activists with a tiny penis.
Timmy, the tattoo artist sex addict from Chicago who wanted nothing other than two quickies a day, and I was fine with that until he wanted to take a crap on my face.
Sammy, a conceited and arrogant bitch, but a fireball in bed and had connections with hollywood executives. Meryl Streep anyone?
Marlon, African American cutie with OCD which made him take seven showers a day. None of which I could join in on.
Oh, and the most interesting guy, Kiki! Russian ex drug addict model, who cheated on his boyfriends with men they're related to for fun. I only found out when my brother, who happens to be the only one in the family who knows I'm gay, told me Kiki grabbed his package.
Had one night stands with a tonne of others...
White boys, black boys, Asian boys, Arab boys, thin boys, fat boys, straight boys, married boys, trannies, even girls!
Yes I did it all, and I had all the bathhouses, bars, and online dating sites in America to help me, but nobody gave me the fireworks that boy gave me. Nobody made me want to cry because I never thought I could be this vulnerable with someone like he did.
I thought it was over for me, until I met Steven.
Steven was also a Marine Biology graduate just like me. He wasn't the best looking guy around, but he was charismatic, confident, and had the cutest smile in the world. His short black hair complimented his dark brown eyes which fell on top of rosy cheeks and big red lips. He was a little overweight. His stomach was a little "pouchy," but he had big muscly arms and legs to die for, giving him a very buisness man fetishy allure going for him. He made me smile, and I needed that.
Steven and I moved to California a year after we graduated, and worked at the same medical experimentation lab. We were happy, until I went home and my world came crashing down.
On Christmas, I decided to visit my parents. My mother had planned a huge gathering which was attended by all five of my uncles and aunts, their children and a few of our neighbours. It was snowing, the house was decorated beautifully and the christmas spirit was at maximum level.
That night was special. My sister announced she was pregnant, and my other sister was home which rarely happened since she was always so busy with her job in China, and the entire family was eating and laughing, and it was just the best christmas anyone could have.
Then I realised how alone I really felt, this biology boy thing had left me so disconnected. I hadn't thought of him lately, but now that I was back close to where I met him. It hit me. I never really got over him, I just got away from him. The curiosity of where he was had been my burden for a while. It's something I carried around all by myself.
Why though?
I barely know him? Was it fate? Is it true we only get one chance at love? Was he it? Maybe I just needed closure?
Pointless it would be for me to visit the woods for the millionth time, especially in this weather, but I did.
I drove myself back to where we spoke for the first time and where I saw him last.
It all looked the same, wasn't very snowy. Most of the snow was on the trees. Suddenly I noticed something. Right under the snow covered branch were a bunch of cigarrette packs. Red, probably Davidoff. Just like the ones he used to smoke.
Picking them up I noticed they were plastered shut. Could it be?
With shaky fingers, I started to rip the the pack open. It was so tightly shut, and not being able to keep my hands still made it harder, but it when I finally opened one of them, I found a note!
"This is my number incase you were looking......"