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Does anyone else think Tom is kinda cute?

lol

 

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This quickly became a favorite video of mine and I still watch it when I need a little cheering up. So thanks

And don't forget 1:07! (or in this case 2:09, the counter seems to be going backwards)

 

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(this, of course, is just one man's opinion)

Needed to move this to my "favorite videos" category.

 

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.... maybe they're supposed to be there.

 

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It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

Your little brother,

Christopher​

 

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Ohohoho yeeeeeeaaaaaaaaah!

 

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Okay, so I'm in a good mood for once. Don't get excited, it probably won't last long.

I haven't done much in my blog as of late, except for videos I like. I'm sure that's boring as hell to some of you (yes, I remember the thread several months back about videos and song lyrics being the most lameassed blog entries) but whatever, I sort of express what I'm feeling or thinking through the videos. The "hugs" video is still my favorite ever. I guess I'm just wishy washy and set in my ways.

Another reason I don't do much writing in my blog is because I never have anything interesting to say, lol! However, I do want to say that you're all a great bunch of guys and gals and I really enjoy being a part of this community. Even you heathens that like to cause trouble lol are an important part of it as well because we're all bricks that make up a wall and it would be boring as hell if every single one of those bricks were the same.

So I just wanna say... I love you, man!

And yes, you can have my Bud Light.

and

Christopher

 

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Order your food Fresco Style.

In Taco Bell terms, Fresco Style is supposed to mean that your favorite Taco Bell items are lower in fat and calories than the original recipe. Look it up for yourself on tacobell.com! This is how Fresco Style is described:

When you say “Fresco," we'll replace cheese and sauce with our freshly prepared Fiesta Salsa - a zesty mix of diced tomatoes, white onions and cilantro. Fiesta Salsa packs in lots of flavor, but adds only five calories per serving and no fat. So, your TACO BELL favorites become lower in fat.

Right. As long as the person taking your order knows what the hell you're talking about.

Twice now, at two different Taco Bell restaurants, I've ordered my items Fresco Style. And here is the general response...

Taco Bell Employee: "Excuse me?"

Me (repeating myself): "I'd like 2 chicken soft tacos and a chicken enchirito Fresco Style".

TB Employee: "Ummm, excuse me, sir, but what do you mean?"

Me: "Fresco Style, you know... the item I just ordered with fiesta salsa instead of cheese and sauces."

TB Employee: "But what do you mean by Fresco Style, is this some sort of sauce you're asking for?"

Me: "No! Fresco Style means the regular item except you replace the cheese and sauce and sour cream with fiesta salsa."

-slight moment of silence-

TB Employee: "So okay, you want two chicken soft tacos and a chicken enchirito without cheese."

-huge sigh from me-

Me: "Yes yes, without cheese or sauce or sour cream."

Okay, now, like I said, this has happened to me a couple of times. And I don't understand it. If Fresco Style is supposed to be a common thing at Taco Bell, why in the world don't the frickin' employees know what the hell it means?

I don't even bother saying Fresco Style anymore, I make sure I SPELL IT OUT FOR THEM by saying the item I want and THEN tell them specifically what I don't want on it. I mean, like the Fresco Style thing is totally lost on all TB employees in my area. Don't know if it's the same way in other areas, but it sure as hell is like that around here. It's like they've never even HEARD of Fresco Style.



Thanks for listening to my latest rant!

 

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You ever feel like you make a total mess of things and you just wanna kick yourself in the ass? Well that's where I am right now.

Oh yeah, and...

No reason for this, just a small vent. For anyone that would like to kick me, please do.

Thank you.

 

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Just been busy lately and have had some issues to deal with, so I haven't been in a very social mood. I still pop in every couple of days or so to check messages and leave behind the occasional post. But truthfully I just haven't had a whole lot to say. It doesn't mean I don't still think about everyone and I hope you're all well.

Just wanted to let you guys know I'm still alive and looking forward to Fall and football season. Go Blue!

(ummm, Michigan fans will know what that means, lol)

Kisses to you all,

Chris

 

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In fact I stay as far away from them as possible. But I ran across this and it's sooooo hot and romantic.

~dreamy sigh~

 

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Haven't added anything to my blog lately. In fact I haven't done much at ALL around here lately. I'm even back to being the average Joe, no longer among the elite group of supporters. But that's okay, I don't come around as much anymore anyway. But I assure you, it's nothing personal at all. Sometimes I really miss this place and all of you as well.

I guess I just got busy doing other things and I don't get as many chances to pop in as I used to. And sometimes I feel really guilty for it. How crazy is that, I ask you? I'll sometimes think OMG, I haven't been to JUB in a few days, I've really gotta stick my nose in and see what's up.

Well, you know, I mean you don't hang out at a place for a whole year and get to know several people and then just walk way without ever thinking about them. Or at least I don't.

Anyway, I hope you're all well and a wonderful Merry Christmas to every single cute little body that graces the floors of JUB.

Christopher

 

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Or anyone who happens to be listening.

I'm so sorry I haven't been around and posting. But I've been dealing with some pretty serious issues - one of them being (and this is not something I'm proud to spout off) anxiety. Yep, ridiculous anxiety. I don't mean just the typical average anxiety that most people feel at one time or another. I'm talking REAL debilitating anxiety that two weeks ago put me into the hospital. I spent my entire Friday night in the ER because I couldn't breathe. Horrible shortness of breath. I couldn't get enough air, no matter what I did. They took x-rays of my lungs (2 sets) which were perfectly clear. They took my blood. My bloodwork, according to the doctor attending me, was "perfect", to use her word. They shoved oxygen tubes up my nose and even gave me a straight albuterol inhaler with one of those steam thingies. Straight albuterol, yep. Didn't work. I still couldn't breathe. And just so you know, I've had several 'breathing issues' over the last so many months.

So then the doc sat down with me as I laid in the little ER room with an IV stuck into my arm and she said, "Honey, your lungs are clear, your bloodwork is perfect, your EKG is normal and your oxygen levels are at 100%... yet you still can't breathe, am I correct?"

I nodded, so tired from tests and not being able to get enough air. I mean, seriously, I was ready for someone to take me out to a pasture and shoot me.

So she said, "Okay, I don't think your problem is physical... so let's talk about the mental side of this. I'd like to try a drug on you to see if it works, if you'll give me your approval."

Well yep, I gave her my approval. Again, I was ready to be put out of my misery by then. So they gave me, through my IV, a drug called Ativan. Wonderful shit. Within minutes I was calm and breathing normally. For the first time all evening. My brother was in the ER with me and said to me, "You're smiling. This is the first I've seen you smile all night."

Well hell yes I was smiling, I was stoned, lol. But seriously, I felt better. I could breathe. That's all that mattered to me. So to make a long story short, I was given a prescription for the Ativan (actually the generic, which is Lorazepam) and it's helped me lots. I call them my "panic pills" because I only take them when I have to. I was also prescribed Celexa, but me being the stubborn fool that I am (I don't like taking 'longterm' prescription drugs) I haven't taken them yet. I'm just using the Ativan on an "as needed" basis. Which isn't all the time. I only take 1/2 pill. I'm also in therapy because I want to learn how to deal with this and control it myself without the use of anti-anxiety meds. The Ativan is okay cuz I have it around for when I really need it. But I don't wanna have to take "maintenance" meds on a daily basis. I'm weird like that.

But yep, I'm in counseling for my head. Which is something I need, truthfully. I need to sort my head out because I've got a lot of shit I'm dealing with right now. But I just wanted to let you guys know I'm still alive and whatnot, I'm just dealing with some issues right now and I still think about you all and stuff. And miss you.

& and thanks for listening...

Chris

P.S. Goodbye Shaun, and Rest In Peace

 

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Yes, I'm still alive. Been through a few years of stuff. The anxiety I went through (that I was on meds for but can proudly say that I weaned myself off of them and I'm med-free and still able to function) moving to my own new place, etc. Just had no desire to have the "online life" that I had back then. And good gawd! I've aged. I'll be 30 years old in 2 years. To be honest, I didn't think I'd see 25.

But... here I am. A little 'harder around the edges' than I used to be. I've seriously dropped into this "don't give a rats ass" attitude most of the time. But I guess that comes with age, eh?