Complex to Simple (What's happening here)

[ZeroOne]

I feel like my life is complex. I don't see a clear crystal sexual orientation. My identy or past tells me to wait for a solution. I can't. I need a life shift.

Past drive me to think that which I am a gay male, lately I have been guilty about these attractions and I have not been satisfied. Sex is very important to me, complex and risky to attempt to relate with others in a sexual level.

I want to shift complex into simple. Have actions to fullfill my sexual pleasure, desire and choice. I have been thinking for over three years, this is it. I got to breakthrough this complexity.

 

[Rolyo85]

Simple: come out

 

[ZeroOne]

Thanks for creating 'coming out.' I am out as a gay male. I feel frustrated and unsure of my sexuality.

I have been out for 5 years. That happened.

 

[Seasoned]

So you have come out as gay and have had sex with men? Of you are feeling guilty over this you will need to work through it either by talking through it with gay friends or seeking some therapy if that's available to you.

The more you express your true self the more apparent it will become that this is your true identity and deserving of respect and even celebration. Good luck to you.

 

[MrRochesterNY]

ZeroOne, I find it difficult to understand what you are saying, when you write.

For example, in your last posting, I'm puzzled by two sentences: "Thanks for creating 'coming out' " and "That happened." Who created what coming out? And what happend?

 

[ZeroOne]

Created, bringing it into te conversation. I express to people I am gay, the communication happened.

I open myself to discover that future I want. I have had sex with men. Thier is a missing to my sexuality, something that makes a real difference.

 

[uslad7]

Try having sex with a woman? I'm a bit confused as to what you're saying. You seem unsure of yourself.

Perhaps you're just missing that special someone.

...like half the people on here, including myself

 

[ZeroOne]

Sharing myself fully and freely causes a difficulty.

A woman can be different, I know such that sex with a woman incompletes the very humanity that I am. Can I stand and have intercourse with the opposite gender?

Deep down I believe in a personal truth, which isnt a real truth, that I am ugly.

 

[ZeroOne]

I am going to take action. Going to a gay club this week.

 

[MrRochesterNY]

If ZeroOne went to that gay club back in November, it must have been the end of him. It's hard to tell though, because he doesn't write coherently.