dragon08
Slut
Sorry I apologize in advance that this is a long post. I need to type this out and clear my head and hopefully get some good third party insight.
Ok so theres this guy that I have for class. I met him at the beginning of the school year but I never paid much attention to him because we never had to interact much until recently.
Starting about 3 or 4 weeks ago I started to run into him a few times and we made small talk and I didn't think anything of it. So then I had to play at this event for the university with the Jazz Band. The event was on a Friday night but we had to be there from about 1 pm to like Midnight. As it turns out, He was there as well because he was doing a comedy Routine as part of the entertainment.
At the event I started talking to him and we sat together along with a professor and his acting partner while we ate the lunch we were provided with. After the lunch we broke off from them two and we started talking alone.
While we were eating I realized that I thought that he was really handsome, and that I really liked his personality.
After we broke off from the other two, we talked and got pretty deep in conversation, he told me what he wants to do in life, what he's done and a bunch of stuff. (He already knew that I was gay.) Over the course of the conversation I found out that he is Bisexual. He was in the army for a few years and was in Afghanistan. He is 27 (I'm 19), he wants to direct movies and/or be an actor. (He isn't one of those half assed "actors" though. He has gone to auditions and he's been an extra in a legit hollywood film. And this is all within the last month or so of talking to him)
But he also told me that he has had a difficult past. He told me that he wasn't over his last relationship a few years ago. They were really serious to the point where marriage was a possibility. The guy that he was with died. As he was telling me this he looked like he was on the verge of tears and I just wanted to hug him and make it all go away. The look on his face broke my heart.
Our conversation got cut short by someone else but later on in the night he made efforts to try to talk to me while we both had free time. Afterwards I had to help put all of the bands equipment away while he was talking with some of the guests. By the time that I was finished helping he was gone so I couldn't talk with him more.
Later on when we had class we got to talking a bit. The class after that I ended up walking him to his class afterwards but I had to make an effort to catch him. I added him on facebook and I messaged him and we started talking more.
The next class he literally waited for me. I had to talk to the professor after class and he waited for me. I then walked him to his class again and we talked until literally the last minute.
We've messaged each other a lot over the past week or so. Normally at this point I would ask him out, but I'm unable to right now because this entire week I'm out of town. So all we can do is message each other. When I get back I'm going to try to maybe go out somewhere with him even if it's for coffee or lunch on campus.
I'm pretty sure that he knows that I like him because I've complimented him and told him that I think that he is handsome.
I've gotten a couple of mixed signals from him, but I don't know if they mean what I think they do. For instance, today we were talking but the conversation seemed a bit strained. I would have to keep the conversation going a bit, and he would take a long time to respond between each message. I thought that he wasn't all that interested.
BUT, then I found out that he was studying the entire time for this big test, and the second he said that he was finished studying, the conversation got much more easygoing and consistent. So I don't know if I'm reading things like that wrong. It isn't a lot just a couple things. He hasn't been rude, or blown me off in any way.
I do get really positive vibes from him and I think theres a chance that he likes me too but I'm not sure. The more I find out about him, the more I like him. I'm starting to get REALLY strong feelings for him.
I do have a few worries though, for one there is the age gap, we are both Sophomores in college but he is 27 and I'm 19. I don't know if he is just going to think of me as some kid or something. When he found out my age, he literally said "I feel like your Grandpa." He knew I was younger than him and I knew his age before he knew mine but that was his reaction to the exact number.
I'm a bit worried about the fact that he has gone through so much (Being deployed, losing someone he loves, working and going to school, Moving across the country and buying a house) while I on the other hand have had a pretty easy life just going to school on a combination of a scholarship, loans, and my parents money living in a dorm not having to work. (I am really thankful for all of my opportunities though)
I also think that he is more attractive than I am, and that he could easily have someone else. Some of my friends tell me that I'm full of shit saying that but they're my friends, I think they are a bit biased in my favor.
And finally the big one, He has literally told me "I'm still not over the last person I was with" in the first deep conversation that we've had. That was a couple years ago, and I understand that is a terrible thing to go through. And I know that I can't even compare to what they had, at least not right away. And I'm worried that he might try to compare us both. A friend of mine has said that I might just be the person to give him that last nudge he needs, but as hopeful as I am, I want to stay realistic.
I really like him. I don't know if I've ever had as strong feelings for someone as I do for him. I've never been in love. So I'm also a bit inexperienced in that sense as well.
I'm worried that either the situation is too complicated for it to work Or that I'm just going to get my hopes up and end up broken hearted.
What are your guys' thoughts?
Ok so theres this guy that I have for class. I met him at the beginning of the school year but I never paid much attention to him because we never had to interact much until recently.
Starting about 3 or 4 weeks ago I started to run into him a few times and we made small talk and I didn't think anything of it. So then I had to play at this event for the university with the Jazz Band. The event was on a Friday night but we had to be there from about 1 pm to like Midnight. As it turns out, He was there as well because he was doing a comedy Routine as part of the entertainment.
At the event I started talking to him and we sat together along with a professor and his acting partner while we ate the lunch we were provided with. After the lunch we broke off from them two and we started talking alone.
While we were eating I realized that I thought that he was really handsome, and that I really liked his personality.
After we broke off from the other two, we talked and got pretty deep in conversation, he told me what he wants to do in life, what he's done and a bunch of stuff. (He already knew that I was gay.) Over the course of the conversation I found out that he is Bisexual. He was in the army for a few years and was in Afghanistan. He is 27 (I'm 19), he wants to direct movies and/or be an actor. (He isn't one of those half assed "actors" though. He has gone to auditions and he's been an extra in a legit hollywood film. And this is all within the last month or so of talking to him)
But he also told me that he has had a difficult past. He told me that he wasn't over his last relationship a few years ago. They were really serious to the point where marriage was a possibility. The guy that he was with died. As he was telling me this he looked like he was on the verge of tears and I just wanted to hug him and make it all go away. The look on his face broke my heart.
Our conversation got cut short by someone else but later on in the night he made efforts to try to talk to me while we both had free time. Afterwards I had to help put all of the bands equipment away while he was talking with some of the guests. By the time that I was finished helping he was gone so I couldn't talk with him more.
Later on when we had class we got to talking a bit. The class after that I ended up walking him to his class afterwards but I had to make an effort to catch him. I added him on facebook and I messaged him and we started talking more.
The next class he literally waited for me. I had to talk to the professor after class and he waited for me. I then walked him to his class again and we talked until literally the last minute.
We've messaged each other a lot over the past week or so. Normally at this point I would ask him out, but I'm unable to right now because this entire week I'm out of town. So all we can do is message each other. When I get back I'm going to try to maybe go out somewhere with him even if it's for coffee or lunch on campus.
I'm pretty sure that he knows that I like him because I've complimented him and told him that I think that he is handsome.
I've gotten a couple of mixed signals from him, but I don't know if they mean what I think they do. For instance, today we were talking but the conversation seemed a bit strained. I would have to keep the conversation going a bit, and he would take a long time to respond between each message. I thought that he wasn't all that interested.
BUT, then I found out that he was studying the entire time for this big test, and the second he said that he was finished studying, the conversation got much more easygoing and consistent. So I don't know if I'm reading things like that wrong. It isn't a lot just a couple things. He hasn't been rude, or blown me off in any way.
I do get really positive vibes from him and I think theres a chance that he likes me too but I'm not sure. The more I find out about him, the more I like him. I'm starting to get REALLY strong feelings for him.
I do have a few worries though, for one there is the age gap, we are both Sophomores in college but he is 27 and I'm 19. I don't know if he is just going to think of me as some kid or something. When he found out my age, he literally said "I feel like your Grandpa." He knew I was younger than him and I knew his age before he knew mine but that was his reaction to the exact number.
I'm a bit worried about the fact that he has gone through so much (Being deployed, losing someone he loves, working and going to school, Moving across the country and buying a house) while I on the other hand have had a pretty easy life just going to school on a combination of a scholarship, loans, and my parents money living in a dorm not having to work. (I am really thankful for all of my opportunities though)
I also think that he is more attractive than I am, and that he could easily have someone else. Some of my friends tell me that I'm full of shit saying that but they're my friends, I think they are a bit biased in my favor.
And finally the big one, He has literally told me "I'm still not over the last person I was with" in the first deep conversation that we've had. That was a couple years ago, and I understand that is a terrible thing to go through. And I know that I can't even compare to what they had, at least not right away. And I'm worried that he might try to compare us both. A friend of mine has said that I might just be the person to give him that last nudge he needs, but as hopeful as I am, I want to stay realistic.
I really like him. I don't know if I've ever had as strong feelings for someone as I do for him. I've never been in love. So I'm also a bit inexperienced in that sense as well.
I'm worried that either the situation is too complicated for it to work Or that I'm just going to get my hopes up and end up broken hearted.
What are your guys' thoughts?
Inquisitive minds would love to know.
