Confess something that might surprise others or damage your reputation on JUB - 2014

[JPGhost]

I gained 7 pounds! ^^
Bad news for some folks out there but good news for me, since I always need jelly.

Today I woke up in the middle of night, stuffing my mouth with snacks. Should I worry? Maybe later when I see myself truly expanding, I dont think that could happen but who knows?

I dont have anything to do except for tomorrow so maybe Im about to write something.

 

[JPGhost]

I dont think that Im very communicative.

People keep telling me that I "disappear" on them. I know that I do this when I feel like I need to think or re-evaluate. Sometimes I feel like I need to be alone with my own thoughts (to be fair to me) because I often worry too much about what other people think. If I shut down some communication it helps me think.

Perhaps, I need a new system. I should be able to talk more with people instead of isolating myself (I think that it makes people feel bad, like they did something wrong.)

Are you a wallflower? ^^ It's ok since Im not so great myself. I often talk on speaker phone but I dont have much connection inside- deep friendship usually never stay there. But it's ok, if you really pay attention to yourself, there must be 'strength' from that.

 

[Agent Provocateur]

I'm sitting at 3 1/2 months sober. Again. I haven't been going to meetings, but I haven't felt the desire to use at all, so...

 

[MissAnne]

Are you a wallflower? ^^ It's ok since Im not so great myself. I often talk on speaker phone but I dont have much connection inside- deep friendship usually never stay there. But it's ok, if you really pay attention to yourself, there must be 'strength' from that.

I used to be a wallflower. Im so much better now, I feel like Im finally blooming. I love to connect to people. Its just that I need to be alone in order to think, so I have only my thoughts and not the input of others. I appreciate input but only when Im seeking it.

 

[darden]

I had a sex dream last night.

but at least my boyfriend was involved this time, even if it was my boyfriend and my favorite porn star

 

[MadisonMike]

I love glory holes and have from time to time set one up in my house.

 

[xbuzzerx]

I had a sex dream last night.

but at least my boyfriend was involved this time, even if it was my boyfriend and my favorite porn star

We can't analyze the dream until we know who was doing what to whom.

 

[Gentleheart]

I feel shorted. I NEVER have sex dreams!

 

[darden]

We can't analyze the dream until we know who was doing what to whom.

my BF and I were in bed together in the hotel we stayed at on our last vacation... then porn guy walks in fully naked with a raging boner and is like, "hey, want to have a 3-way?"

iirc, my boyfriend was blowing him while I was rimming (which is funny since I'm not really a big fan of rimming, but I can get into it if a guy's ass is completely hairless and scrubbed clean)

 

[MissAnne]

I feel shorted. I NEVER have sex dreams!

RIGHT ?!!!!

Why....Im lucky if I get a kiss in a dream. Ughhh, some people have all the luck.

Im so serious about this.

 

[maxpowr9]

I feel shorted. I NEVER have sex dreams!

I'm too romantic to have sex dreams. I can fantasize sexually but never dream. Half the reason is that I spoon my "BF pillow".

 

[G-Lexington]

My sex dreams tend to go off the rails once the sex starts. I think that's because my dreams tend to not be very linear. So if it looks like sex is imminent, or even if sex starts...we'll suddenly be in a meeting, or shopping for socks, or arguing with a waiter at some restaurant.

Lex

 

[borg69unimatrix]

I feel shorted. I NEVER have sex dreams!

I rarely do either... I think I jerk off too often to build up any kind of spontaneous nocturnal desires that manifest on their own.

 

[xbuzzerx]

My sex dreams tend to go off the rails once the sex starts. I think that's because my dreams tend to not be very linear. So if it looks like sex is imminent, or even if sex starts...we'll suddenly be in a meeting, or shopping for socks, or arguing with a waiter at some restaurant.

Lex

I once asked a good friend what he fantasized or dreamed about sexually, and he said penises. I asked, "Just penises?" and he confirmed, just penises. He thought it was hilarious a couple of years later when I made some comment about how he's turned on by disembodied penises floating in the air, which is literally what I had pictured for all of that time.

 

[belamyi]

How old are you whiny people?

You get sex dreams when you are young, and lost, inexperienced and desperate... but after a certain age... and in 2014!!?? with all that porn around??!!

 

[borg69unimatrix]

How old are you whiny people?

You get sex dreams when you are young, and lost, inexperienced and desperate... but after a certain age... and in 2014!!?? with all that porn around??!!

Poor Belamo... he probably has to pay for his sex DREAMS too.

 

[belamyi]

Poor belamo... he probably has to pay for his sex DREAMS too.

I used to be amazed when I resisted temptation even in my dreams... and that was long ago.
But with all the hell of sexual insatisfaction I had to go through my teens and sometimes even my twenties, and after the subsequent unleashing of repressed unsatisfied desire, it would be silly not to be so cool about sex already at 39

Besides, the worse of insatisfaction is the impotence to get to what seems at hand, but once you realize that reality is so mediocre and so under your own expectations, there is no use in geting excited... and even more (there is always more with me with everything, as you may have noticed ) , fantasies are usually all the more urging the silliest they are, like a particular shape or color in the body, and once you realize that your desire is not the want of something real so much as a mental missconception, in other words, once you realize that what you once found so hot was not even actually so hot to yourself, everything makes sense and calm and under control, and then you can start enjoying life... and yourself and that is not a sexual pun....

 

[belamyi]

Poor belamo... he probably has to pay for his sex DREAMS too.

The only dream I have right now is excelling enough to be worth the interest of worthy people... and worth enough to be able to design and pay for my own bespoke wardrobe in my own style... I know, I know... that will neverr happen

 

[borg69unimatrix]

The only dream I have right now is excelling enough to be worth the interest of worthy people... and worth enough to be able to design and pay for my own bespoke wardrobe in my own style... I know, I know... that will neverr happen

You don't need designer labels to create your own style. You're more than bold and unique enough to create your own style and fashion. People will be trying to emulate the great Belamo. Your life has a Picasso waiting to have the final touches on it's creation.

 

[belamyi]

You don't need designer labels to create your own style. You're more than bold and unique enough to create your own style and fashion. People will be trying to emulate the great belamo. Your life has a Picasso waiting to have the final touches on it's creation.

I was talking about "my own label" stupid... I pass for a slacker or a mere idiot because virtually NOTHING (and nobody) in the world fits my demands... (and that utterly pathetic excuse for male fashion may in fact be the worst of it all) so who is talking of established designers who, truly, are just mass-garbage peddlers, or fitting in a group... I belong nowhere and I do not care about people who will appreciate something only because they are bored of the rest, and then they would be praising only the surface, which is as deep as they can get... that is why, like JP, to feel some deep emotion they need something that puts the nerves under their skin in emotion, and no matter how intricate and sophisticated that is, they would value it only in so far as they feel their nerves teased or even hit.
I have had enough, and still have enough, of people praising me to end up being on my own, I do not care nor need their minds or their money or their interest, I just fucking need to be me.