Confess something that might surprise others or damage your reputation on JUB - 2014

[G-Lexington]

...Anyway, once I saw he had accepted my friend request and was posting, I wasn't sure what to expect. Maybe 75% Biblical quotes, and 25% music he's working on? Nope.

Well, I got my first direct "May you learn His name, and learn to fear It" today. So I guess that finally showed up.

Lex

 

[ChickenGuy]

Well, it's official.

After 16 months of waiting (since Nov 2012) for this neurologist's appointment....

....they assessed me, they interviewed me, I filled out forms, they conferred, they considered....

....and they concluded - that yes, I do indeed, have Asperger's Syndrome.

(which I first suspected at the beginning of 2012)

It's so wierd to think how SO many years of my life - my teens, twenties, and early thirties - over 20 years - went past - without me having the SLIGHTEST idea this was the case, and (perhaps more surprisingly) no-one telling me. None of my family, no-one.

Looking back on my teenage behaviour now, it's perfectly obvious to me. I guess it 'dawned' on me only in the last few years.

This, plus the recent (a year of two ago) psychologist's diagnosis of a certain type of OCD (which I suffered TERRIBLY from especially in the 2000's) all explains so much. Finally.

 

[darden]

I'm sure this is some shade of racism, but I just can't fucking stand having to deal with tech support in China.

they're technically fine, but I feel like the calls take twice as long between each of us trying to break through the other's accent.

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Well, it's official.

After 16 months of waiting (since Nov 2012) for this neurologist's appointment....

....they assessed me, they interviewed me, I filled out forms, they conferred, they considered....

....and they concluded - that yes, I do indeed, have Asperger's Syndrome.

(which I first suspected at the beginning of 2012)

It's so wierd to think how SO many years of my life - my teens, twenties, and early thirties - over 20 years - went past - without me having the SLIGHTEST idea this was the case, and (perhaps more surprisingly) no-one telling me. None of my family, no-one.

Looking back on my teenage behaviour now, it's perfectly obvious to me. I guess it 'dawned' on me only in the last few years.

This, plus the recent (a year of two ago) psychologist's diagnosis of a certain type of OCD (which I suffered TERRIBLY from especially in the 2000's) all explains so much. Finally.

at least with a diagnosis, you can look into treatment/therapy properly (assuming you want to)

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Well, it's official.

After 16 months of waiting (since Nov 2012) for this neurologist's appointment....

....they assessed me, they interviewed me, I filled out forms, they conferred, they considered....

....and they concluded - that yes, I do indeed, have Asperger's Syndrome.

(which I first suspected at the beginning of 2012)

It's so wierd to think how SO many years of my life - my teens, twenties, and early thirties - over 20 years - went past - without me having the SLIGHTEST idea this was the case, and (perhaps more surprisingly) no-one telling me. None of my family, no-one.

Looking back on my teenage behaviour now, it's perfectly obvious to me. I guess it 'dawned' on me only in the last few years.

This, plus the recent (a year of two ago) psychologist's diagnosis of a certain type of OCD (which I suffered TERRIBLY from especially in the 2000's) all explains so much. Finally.

I kinda felt the same way once I realized I was gay. It was like some epiphany "Ah-Hah!!!" moment that made my life and all the awkward moments seem so clear, and why I wasn't 'wired' the same way everyone else was.

 

[dpnice]

Im love myself a lot and always have too look good ,before i go out.I get off on myself too cant help it and dont feel much guilt or empathy.

I see nothing wrong in that either. Personally when I look in the mirror I find myself old and not at all attractive. But as soon as I get dressed to go out I find myself rather chic and classy and I like what I see.

I never care a wit whether I am over or wrongly dressed for a particular occasion; I just like be well dressed and smart when I walk out the front door.

 

[dereperez]

Lately my meditation sessions have gone awry. They're supposed to be maybe last 10 to 15 minutes as usual but recently I've passed out and wake up like an hour later. I didn't even feel tired. One moment I'm sitting up, eyes closed, focused on my breathing...and the next, I'm waking up baffled at what happened. I think my wiring has gotten all messed up.

 

[belamyi]

Lately my meditation sessions have gone awry. They're supposed to be maybe last 10 to 15 minutes as usual but recently I've passed out and wake up like an hour later. I didn't even fell tired. One moment I'm sitting up, eyes closed, focused on my breathing...and the next, I'm waking up way later. I think my wiring has gotten all messed up.

You were in NYC, weren't you?

 

[dereperez]

You were in NYC, weren't you?

That would explain a lot if I were...but I wasn't.

 

[dereperez]

Well, it's official.

After 16 months of waiting (since Nov 2012) for this neurologist's appointment....

....they assessed me, they interviewed me, I filled out forms, they conferred, they considered....

....and they concluded - that yes, I do indeed, have Asperger's Syndrome.

(which I first suspected at the beginning of 2012)

It's so wierd to think how SO many years of my life - my teens, twenties, and early thirties - over 20 years - went past - without me having the SLIGHTEST idea this was the case, and (perhaps more surprisingly) no-one telling me. None of my family, no-one.

Looking back on my teenage behaviour now, it's perfectly obvious to me. I guess it 'dawned' on me only in the last few years.

This, plus the recent (a year of two ago) psychologist's diagnosis of a certain type of OCD (which I suffered TERRIBLY from especially in the 2000's) all explains so much. Finally.

I'm glad you finally got your official diagnosis. A lot of life is finding out more about yourself and how you use it to empower yourself with that knowledge. One step at a time, as they say.

 

[belamyi]

That would explain a lot if I were...but I wasn't.

Oh, damn it!

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

Lately my meditation sessions have gone awry. They're supposed to be maybe last 10 to 15 minutes as usual but recently I've passed out and wake up like an hour later. I didn't even feel tired. One moment I'm sitting up, eyes closed, focused on my breathing...and the next, I'm waking up baffled at what happened. I think my wiring has gotten all messed up.

...but the astral projection was as usual, I trust?

 

[ChickenGuy]

At least with a diagnosis, you can look into treatment/therapy properly (assuming you want to)

In fact some of these services were available to me even before diagnosis (which I was pleasantly surprised at) but they take the form more of social groups, outings, meetups, and basic help for work.

I went to the AS social groups a few times. To be honest, it was VERY socially awkward, as some of the other people there seemed to have a greater severity of difficulties, communication wise. I guess it's why they call it the 'autism spectrum'. Some people could barely talk. Some stood around doing nothing. Some others were a bit easier to get along with. My own case, by general opinion, was very mild in comparison, and I agree, I'm not sure they're my kind of group.

However, in another of these organisations, I met a guy who I get on SO well with, he's great. I see him about once a week, and he's just SO easy to talk with. He's on the 'same level' as me you might say. Usually I have slight/mild trouble holding conversations. With this guy, the conversation just flows back and forth SO easily, without any trouble at all. Some of the similarites in our personalities and interests and past experiences are quite staggeringly identical actually.

Pretty much the ONLY major difference between us is that he's straight, and has a girlfriend. A bit of a shame.

I kinda felt the same way once I realized I was gay. It was like some epiphany "Ah-Hah!!!" moment that made my life and all the awkward moments seem so clear, and why I wasn't 'wired' the same way everyone else was.

With being gay there was never an 'Ah-Hah!' moment for me - with this Asperger thing I'd say it's like there were a series of 'mini-Ah-Hahs' over the period of a couple of years. It seems SO obvious to me now especially when I remember how I acted when I was 18. I'm amazed how I could have been SO oblivious to it for SO long.

I'm glad you finally got your official diagnosis. A lot of life is finding out more about yourself and how you use it to empower yourself with that knowledge. One step at a time, as they say.

Thanks for the kind post dereperez.

 

[dereperez]

...but the astral projection was as usual, I trust?

Many would probably consider my astral projection episodes an invasion of privacy...

 

[maxpowr9]

I ran over my wallet while buzzed and destroyed the "better half" of my wallet; by that I mean the side with all the CCs. Of course the Mobil hotline is not open to call for a replacement but thankfully I filled my tank yesterday. Amex and BoA I just did over the phone and Starbucks I did online. The side with the "ancillary" things like my health insurance card, license, AAA card and train pass were good. I'm just glad I dumped a lot of those non-essential cards in my "check wallet" [by that I mean I got a snazzy Coach wallet to hold my checkbook and it has cardholders too]: which sadly includes one of my debit cards and another CC.

I'll have to dump the $250 Visa Gift card on my Starbucks card since it was shattered in my wallet but such is life sometimes.

I'm just glad I only ran over it instead of having it stolen or else it would have been MUCH worse.

 

[belamyi]

I ran over my wallet while buzzed and destroyed the "better half" of my wallet; by that I mean the side with all the CCs. Of course the Mobil hotline is not open to call for a replacement but thankfully I filled my tank yesterday. Amex and BoA I just did over the phone and Starbucks I did online. The side with the "ancillary" things like my health insurance card, license, AAA card and train pass were good. I'm just glad I dumped a lot of those non-essential cards in my "check wallet" [by that I mean I got a snazzy Coach wallet to hold my checkbook and it has cardholders too]: which sadly includes one of my debit cards and another CC.

I'll have to dump the $250 Visa Gift card on my Starbucks card since it was shattered in my wallet but such is life sometimes.

I'm just glad I only ran over it instead of having it stolen or else it would have been MUCH worse.

I hope that post will get terribly outdated in a couple of years, and you can get all that stuff in a cloud or something, without even caring if your Smartphone r whatever gets run over, since you can Access to it all from any other device or through any other means.

 

[belamyi]

I'll have to dump the $250 Visa Gift card on my Starbucks card since it was shattered in my wallet but such is life sometimes.

I'm just glad I only ran over it instead of having it stolen or else it would have been MUCH worse.

I wonder whether that is only the tip of the iceberg of your throwing your money out the window.

 

[belamyi]

I have spent an important (both in size and value) part of my life striving to find something that, ultimately, always, unexpected and effortlessly, came to me... when I did not care about it any more.

 

[maxpowr9]

I wonder whether that is only the tip of the iceberg of your throwing your money out the window.

Nope. I actually found $240 in my "financial bin" under my desk cleaning out all the old bills and what not in an envelope. That's basically "two weeks" worth of pay from one job I have that I must have forgot about. That money is going right in the bank. I'm getting as bad as my mom and leaving money around the house.

I also find it strangely amusing that now, I can drink 4-5 beers and get a good buzz but drink my "can of vodka" and am still sober. It's quite bizarre.

 

[belamyi]

Nope. I actually found $240 in my "financial bin" under my desk cleaning out all the old bills and what not in an envelope. That's basically "two weeks" worth of pay from one job I have that I must have forgot about. That money is going right in the bank. I'm getting as bad as my mom and leaving money around the house.

I also find it strangely amusing that now, I can drink 4-5 beers and get a good buzz but drink my "can of vodka" and am still sober. It's quite bizarre.

That would depend on what you call beer... and vodka.

 

[belamyi]

I so rarely use my Nokia "pager-cell" ( that is a bit from an old confession already)that , after checking out if I had received some alert yesterday from the guy I had a book to put new covers to, and then also to check for even older messages from like the past couple of weeks, I spent almost a whole minute tryng to turn it off again.