Confused :(

[allaroundboy]

Hello, I'm sorta new to these boards. I guess I'm young but I'm old enough to realize I'm sort of in a mess I guess.. Well, I'm gay and no I'm still 'in the closet' and I don't know if I should ever come out. I'm a muslim, but not a strict one, like my family doesn't go to the mosque every week or you know pray everyday but still we are religious when it comes down to it. Well most people know homosexuality is supposed to be a sin and I really don't understand why... I didn't choose to be this way.. If God thought homosexuality is bad why would God create homosexuals?!? I don't have anyone I could trust or anyone who is close enough to talk to about this, like what am I supposed to do? My father would probably disown me, but I think my mother would be distant so I think I can manage them not knowing. It's for the better. But you can only hide something for so long right..? HELP, I feel like my head is going to explode.

 

[allaroundboy]

Like I'm really fine with my religion but to know I'm going against is just makes me feel horrible, but it's not something I can control.

 

[Seasoned]

You are right. You can't control it. You have come out to yourself, and that is the first step. You can now choose tocome out to others or not. I think your next step ought to be a connection with other gay Muslims. Look on line for support groups. Another step would be therapy with someone who understands your religion. In the meantime watch the movie, My Beautiful Laundrette. Much luck and many good wishes. You are no longer alone.

 

[bollywoodboy14]

if u wanna chat about i will be their for ya! ps i'm in The GTA RIGHT NOW!

 

[thewiz]

Having been through what you are encountering...all I can say is that the day I said three words: "I am gay" changed my life for the better.

I, too, had tried to hide the fact I was gay; I tried the "prayer cures," being hetero so that I would change, you name it. Hell, I was ready to be ordained a deacon because I thought it would change me. The only thing it did was bring more depression, desperation, and despair when I found myself only being attracted to men.

I was married; had two kids; had the white picket fence and house in the burb-like part of the city. My kids and I have remained close; I now live in a condo in DC and I totally enjoy my life. I have a great boyfriend and tons of friends (even kept many of the straight ones!)

Know there are many on this site that have also been through what you and I have had to deal with. I hope you find your answers!

 

[yehme2]

hey allaroudboy,

I have decided to make an entire profile so that i could reply to ur thread after visiting the site for many years. Im in the same boat as you, kinda and im muslim living in the west. If you need to talk hit me up

 

[Beanstalk]

I have figured out that religions are just there to give people a reason to go to war against others who have a different religious idea! I still feel a spiritual orientation, but I have no interest in anyone else's dogma.
Here's how I see it --
God is Life.

God=Life=Love=Union=Sex
So love everyone you can! The more love you feel for everyone and anyone, of any age, gender, sexual orientation, political belief, financial status, color, cock size -- whatever! Just spread the love.

One time a Muslim that I corresponded with wanted to talk about his religion. "To begin with, I'm sure you will agree that God will love us more if we understand the true religion . . . "

"Wrong! I think God would love us more if we live in harmony with our neighbors! I am sure he couldn't care less what we might believe."

So if you are a friendly and loving person -- you don't lie, cheat, steal, kill, etc. and you love your friends, God will love you. Simple. Religious gatherings are social events, nothing more. Go to your mosque or whatever with your family, greet your friends, and make your own prayers to God.

Personally, I think the Quakers have it right! Instead of praying at God, giving Him His marching orders, they listen, to hear the messages God has for them!

I like it.

 

[Yohan1989]

Islam copied the lies from men of tradition doctrine of Christianity (hope I didn't insult no one). The real bible never claimed homosexuality a bad thing because no where in the original neo-Aramaic and ancient Hebrew bible never-ever claimed to be against gays. God created gays. Yahweh is not a homophobic. Only those brainwashed Christians are creating a wrong image who create a false God. They think their god is love, but the real God I know is real love.

2. Hell is pagan beliefs. I'm just preterist Universalism Christian and I know this as a fact.