Maybe the word I'm looking for is "Denialism". I'm hiding from the connection between cowboys/gun culture and science fiction.
Boxing Day always reminds me of an uncomfortable truth - I was the only boy in my neighborhood that never got a gun for Christmas. To be singled out by my friends was bad, but even the other fathers in my neighborhood noticed too. I can only imagine the conversations that took place among my neighbors.
My dad stood against the United States norm of air rifles as Christmas gifts for boys, and that stance put my father at odds against USA popular culture.
Cowboys and guns are more "American" than apple pie, and played a role in comic books, radio dramas, and TV shows about space travel adventures in science fiction. Not just for Christmas but all year long major magazines of the 40's, 50's and 60's ran sponsored ads for sporting goods that featured guns prominently. This was expected in magazines like "Field & Stream" or "The Outdoorsman". But Science fiction magazines, and comic books in general, were also filled with ads from gun manufacturers happy to tie the "Old West" as a companion to space exploration, "we're on course to outer space, with guns blazing all the way!".
Now I have a better understanding of what "sci-fi" television shows are up against. Every show has to have weapons fire - and plenty of it. There are enemies everywhere - shoot first, or be shot. My love for science fiction television and movies has waned as I've agreed more with my father's view of USA cowboy/gun culture. Now that I've come to terms with my upbringing I don't want to embrace "Cowboys and Spaceships".




