Chapter 10: My New Experience
As I walked through lawn after lawn, the summer heat shined on my bare torso. I passed all the familiar houses and I felt like it was high school again. I finally reached his house and climbed up to his window the same way I used to.
I quietly entered his room through the window. The lights were off but the bright sun shined an orange tint into his room. He was still asleep with his face planted in his pillow and his arms wrapped around it. I tip-toed toward him and turned on the radio to hear “Always Love” by Nada Surf; a perfect summer song.
As he started to move around, he turned his head and barely opened his eyes at me, yet he still smiled, “Good Morning.”
“Don’t move a muscle,” I said as I walked to the bed.
He rested his head back on the pillow as I climbed on top of his back, straddling his waist. I pulled my bathing suit up over my knees and got situated. I heard him let out a soft moan of pleasure under his breath as I laid my hands on his soft, warm back that had already turned darker since summer started. I teased my finger tips down his back and started putting pressure on random spots.
I put my hands on his shoulders and laid my chest on his back, whispering in his ear, “I missed you last night.”
“I said you could stay with me,” he said softly.
I rested my head on his shoulder, “It’s fine. We’re only here for a few weeks and my parents wanted to see me before we leave for New York.”
He sighed, “I don’t know how you can sleep all day when you need to be in class but now, you’re up before I am.”
“Because YOU promised to take me to the beach and I’m holding you to it,” I got up and pulled his hand until he stood up and walked to the bathroom.
“Alright, I’m up,” he walked in the bathroom, wearing his boxers.
I sat back down on his bed as he brushed his teeth. He came back out in a pair of swim-shorts. Before I could get up, he laid back down and put his head on my lap.
He wrapped his arms around the bottom of my back, “I swear, we’ll go but let me just lay here for a second.”
I played with his hair and thought about what I said about his strong exterior but his sensitive heart. That’s what he seemed like right now. I loved it when HE held ME but I also loved him cuddling up to me; it was like a big cute dog. He trusted me as much as I did him.
I waited a few minutes and let him wake up, “You ready?”
“Yea let’s go,” he stood up and took my hand.
As we walked downstairs, we passed his parents but luckily, they didn’t notice us. I hadn’t met his parents yet but I didn’t want to. According to him, they were the spawn of Satan.
It was a 45 minute drive to the beach which seemed too short of a drive. We talked the whole way; it was mostly reminiscing. I laid my head in his lap, looking up at him while he rested his hand on my lower abdomen and I played with his arm like it was a stuffed animal.
As we got to the beach, it was already noon and the sun was in the middle of the sky. We rented a canoe and rowed it far from the beach and we just laid out under the sun for a few hours.
I laid my head on his chest, “Thank you.”
“For what?” he said with his eyes closed from the blinding sun.
I close my eyes too and drifted to sleep, “For making time… it’s like we haven’t gotten to spend time with each other in a while. We really needed this.”
As we got back to shore, the sun was setting and it started getting cooler. He zipped me up in his hoodie and we sat together in the bed of his truck, watching the sunset.
I sat in between his legs with my back against his chest. He wrapped his arms around me as I rested the back of my head on is chest.
I held his arms tighter around me and looked across the ocean, “This is nice.”
“Yea… it’s kinda sexy,” he kissed me on the head.
I smiled, “What do you mean?”
“Sunset on a beach… Everyone has one of those fantasies,” he held me closer.
I was confused, “Fantasy about what?”
“You know what I mean… sex on the beach.”
“I’ve never had that fantasy… I don’t fantasize that much actually,” I said softly as I started to drift off to sleep.
He was now confused, “Well then how do you ever get off?”
“Huh?”
“How do you… cum? I mean, I know you don’t wanna have sex and I respect that, but you’ve had to have gotten off before… right?” he said in disbelief.
“I never really thought about it. I mean, I get my frustration out in other ways.”
He looked down at me, “You can’t be serious… never mind.”
I fell asleep on his chest as he looked down at me, wondering how I could ever get through life without masturbating.
I decided to stay with him that night as my parents slowly started getting to me again. It was one of those muggy Mississippi summer nights. He was lying asleep on his bed over the covers as I came out of the bathroom. The moon shined a blue light on him through the window of his dark room. The small mist of sweat from the muggy night dripped down his chest as the fan blew a cool breeze on his bare chest.
I looked at his sleeping body; his hand was rested on his chest and the other was rested on the pillow. His legs were spread across the bed in his thin, cotton boxers. I walked toward the bed with a pair of low-rise briefs and his zip up hoodie. As I bent down to kiss him, he woke up and sat up on the bed. I sat down in between his legs with my back against his chest and my legs spread apart with my knees in the air.
I drifted to sleep on his shoulder while he put his hands on my waist. I didn’t even notice when he slowly unzipped the hoodie, with his free hand against my stomach. He slipped the sleeves off my shoulders and dropped it on the ground. I felt the breeze from the fan across my chest. I was awake as he dragged his thumb down my chest but it felt so good, I kept my eyes closed. He softly rested his hand on the outside of my briefs, moving his fingers up and down.
I gasped and started breathing heavily with my chest moving up and down. I grabbed his arm and he stopped, “I’m sorry. I don’t know what…”
I kissed him and whispered in his ear, “Don’t stop.”
I put my hand on top of his. I felt so many things at once: his big, warm hand under mine, his warm breath on my neck as his chest started getting hotter and moving faster, and my briefs getting tighter. I looked up at his face; he was breathing harder as his hand started trembling. I saw our entire relationship pass before my eyes as he moved his hand inside my briefs. I clinched his arm with my hand and pulled his other hand to my chest and locked my fingers with his. Everything felt warmer as I let out a high moan before he covered my mouth so his parents couldn’t hear us.
As I opened my eyes, he starting kissing my neck and pulled his hand out. I felt weird and ran to the shower. I turned on the hot water and leaned against the wall, letting the warm water drip down my naked body.
He walked in after me and stood outside the curtain, “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done it… please talk to me.”
He stood outside with his head facing the floor. As he turned away, I reached out from the curtain and put my hand on his shoulder. The water dripped down his back from my hand and he turned around. I opened the curtain for him as he stepped under the water. I put my head on his chest and wrapped my hands around his back, grabbing the back of his shoulders. He put one hand on the back of my head and kissed me on the forehead. He wrapped the other around my back as I kissed his chest.
The next day, we left for New York. I rested my head on his shoulder while he drove away from our small town, “Why are things changing?”
“Because they’re gonna get better,” he stared out at the road.