I've had a few that I'm convinced were really straight. One, I remember, was a young guy who was waiting for a bus one afternoon at the Port Authority Bus Terminal here in New York City, where I live. He had a great build and wore a white T-shirt and jeans and he happened to be my type, a good-looking young guy from a rural part of the country. He had his ticket and was sitting on a bench with a bag at his feet. I approached him somewhat cautiously and tried striking up a conversation. He seemed reasonably friendly. Among other things, he told me he had been in New York to comfort his aunt after his uncle died, and that he was now on his way back home to get married to his longtime girlfriend. No hope for me, I thought. My gut told me I should get up and leave, but for some reason I didn't. Maybe it was because he had a "farm boy" look and had big biceps and had great pecs under his T-shirt. I knew I should give up on him, but I felt horny, so I continued to sit there and exchange innocent remarks, and after a while I got up the nerve to mention that gay men sometimes hung out at this terminal. He made a face, and though he didn't use any "faggot" words, he made it clear he wasn't interested. Well, if I hadn't had a few beers in me, I might have accepted this as a rejection and gotten up and left. But I had been drinking beer since noon (I was temporarily unemployed), and I thought, the worst he could do would be to slug me, but since we were in a public place, he probably wouldn't go that far.
So after a silence, I managed to say, "Please don't be offended, but I think you are a great-looking guy."
He gave me a funny look.
OK, I said to myself, get the hell out of here. But before leaving, I said, "I'm sorry if I offended you."
"No problem."
I stood up and extended my hand for a possible handshake.
But he didn't take my hand. Instead, he said, "What did you mean by what you said?"
"When?"
"Just now."
"About your looks?"
"Yeah."
How explicit should I get? And how far could I take this? I sat down again and reverted to an old routine that I learned in the service (I'm an Army vet). I said, "I'll tell you something. I'm straight myself, but now and then I've been known to...uh...get together with a buddy."
He looked away. Then, "What do you mean?"
"Oh, just messing around."
More silence.
I said, "I mean, just helping each other out when you need it. When you mess around with a dude, it doesn't mean you're gay or anything."
"Huh?"
"You know. When both of you are feeling horny."
"What kind of person are you, anyway?"
"I'm just a guy."
He looked at a clock on the wall. "My bus is at three forty-seven."
"Well, it's been nice talking to you."
"Yeah."
"We won't see each other again, so..."
"Guess not."
"So long, then."
"So long."
"Have a nice trip."
I stood up to go, but he kept looking at me and said, "Have you ever been married?"
"Once. Briefly."
"Didn't work out?"
"It worked for a while. It's a long story. But I think it will probably work for you. So good luck." Our eyes were beginning to lock. He was almost staring at me. I said, "Could I buy you a beer or something?"
"I guess I could use a Bud."
"So if we...is there a chance you could take a later bus?"
His hand toyed with the handle of his bag. Finally he said, "You're not serious about this, are you?"
"About what?"
"About what you said before."
"I'm totally serious. When I get together with a guy, I don't necessarily expect anything from him. I mean, I really just want to make the guy happy. I do all the work."
"Yeah, but I don't...what would...if you...I mean..."
This guy was too beautiful for a men's room scene. I dug into my mental list of possibilities and said, "I have a friend who has a hotel room not far from here. If I can get hold of him, we could probably get a six-pack and go up there for a while."
He screwed up his face and glanced at the clock again. I was caught between my mounting desire and my own nervousness. After all, he was going home to get married. I had already pushed things farther than I should have.
Finally, under his breath, he said, "I've never done this kind of shit, you know."
"It doesn't mean you're gay. I know you're not gay. Believe me. I've been through this scene myself."
"You have? When?"
"When I was in the Army." (True.)
He gave a little laugh."I think you're crazy."
"I probably am."
Squinting and pursing his lips, he stood up and picked up his bag. So he was going to walk away and get on his bus now. But he didn't. He gave me a kind of twisted smile and said, "I probably could take a later bus, I guess."
The rest of this story went about the way you'd expect. My friend--a salesman I had tricked with a couple of times--discreetly let us use his hotel room, and when we got there I took off his T-shirt and jeans. His body was sculpted. His cock was beautiful and already rock-hard. He lay down on the bed, and I went to work. Though I expected his cock to explode right away, it didn't. I kept sucking on it for what seemed like the longest time, loving every second. I kept on and on, up and down his shaft. But he still wasn't cumming, and soon I began to wonder if he ever would. After what seemed like a half hour (it couldn't have been that long), I pushed myself off the bed to grab a breath, and he said, "Don't stop." So I got down and went at it again. Mostly, through all of this, he didn't give any obvious signs of reacting--I mean, he didn't put his hands on my head or anything. But I knew he was feeling it. During the whole thing, he lay there with his eyes closed looking as if he was dreaming while I continued to suck and slip up and down his cock and take his balls in my mouth then and slide back to his cock. Then, suddenly, without any warning, he gave a yell, and it happened. He exploded into my mouth with an huge load of cum. I licked the remainder off his shaft. He sighed, and--without any more conversation--he gave me a sheepish grin, went to the basin and washed himself off and put his clothes back on and picked up his bag. "I'll get the six thirty-five bus," he said, and as he went out the door, he turned and said politely, "Nice meeting you."
(Think what you will, guys. It's possible he had had some m-to-m experiences growing up in his farm community. I'll never know. I hope he did get married and went on to lead a happy life. Still, this remains one of my fondest memories."