~ Chapter 33 ~
From the Narrative of Reid Scott:
I stared across the café at my brother. It seemed to take an eternity for me to realize that, in the years that had passed since I’d last seen him, he’d grown to look a lot like me. Similar facial features, light blue eyes, straight blond hair, though his was naturally darker … it was almost like staring at myself in the mirror. To someone who didn’t know either one of us all that well, we might have been twins. But of course we weren’t; there was more than a two-year gap between us. It was this fact that bothered me the most … I should have looked after him, as his big brother.
Marcia turned around to see what it was that had me transfixed and let out a gasp. She looked back at me but I had moved away from where I’d been standing. Glass crunched under my shoe, but I hardly noticed it … I hardly noticed anything, or anyone, except the brother I had not seen in seven years.
“Carl?” I repeated, as he had not responded to my earlier call.
He seemed to stir. Only then did I realize that my feet, of their own accord, had brought me directly in front of my brother. I saw a whole range of emotions flash across his features – confusion, delight, hope, pain and anger all seemed to mingle there, leaving me no clue to as to how he ultimately felt about seeing me after all these years.
From the moment I had seen him, my arms had ached to hold him and embrace him, like I hadn’t done since our mother’s funeral. Now that I was so close to him, I couldn’t help myself. I wrapped my arms around him. For a few seconds, it seemed all was well. He was still in too much shock to react.
But once his shock had subsided, he reacted … not in the way I had hoped. He angrily pushed me away.
“What do you think you’re doing?” he yelled, oblivious to the customers around us.
“Carl, I’m your brother,” I said stupidly, as if he hadn’t recognized me from the start.
“I know who you are,” he said, barely concealed fury in his tone. “How dare you call yourself my brother?”
I reeled back as if he had physically hit me. “What?” I choked. “Of course I’m your brother.”
He glared at me coldly, his blue eyes like chips of ice. “As far as I’m concerned, my brother died shortly after my mother did.”
I stared at him in shock. I could hardly get the words out of my mouth. “I can’t believe … you would say such a thing.”
“Reid.” Someone tugged my arm. I turned to see Josh. When he’d come up beside me I didn’t know. “Maybe you could continue this somewhere more … private. There’s a room in the back -”
“There’s no need,” Carl interjected. “I don’t have anything left to say.” He turned to leave.
I couldn’t bear to let him go. I automatically grabbed his arm. “You can’t just leave …” I started to say.
I didn’t get to finish the sentence. He swung around violently and punched me in the stomach with his free hand. It might not have hurt so much if I’d been prepared for it – or if it hadn’t been my brother who’d hit me. I staggered back, thoroughly winded; Josh caught hold of me.
I stared at Carl, my eyes filled with tears of pain and sorrow. This was my first time seeing him in all these years and he
hit me. He’d never hit me, not like that, with the intent to harm.
He glared at me angrily. “Don’t tell me about leaving! You were the one who left. What you did to me, and Dad …” He flexed his arm as if to hit me again.
“Don’t hit him,” said a quiet voice. Phil positioned himself between the two of us.
Carl looked confused. “Phil, what are you doing …” His voice trailed off; he must have realized it was no coincidence that he’d met me here.
“You set this up … that’s why you led me to this café …” he said slowly, piecing together the puzzle. Then he looked up, straight at Phil and asked, “But why?”
“Because I love him,” answered Phil simply.
“What?!?” His laughter choked abruptly as he realized that Phil was serious. He took a step back. “But you … I thought you were nice. What are you doing … with him?” He didn’t even say my name.
I couldn’t stand it any longer. I shoved Phil aside, attempting to ignore the wounded puppy-dog expression on his face. “I don’t need you to protect me,” I snapped at him.
“See? You deserve better than him,” said Carl, speaking to Phil and ignoring me completely.
Phil shook his head slowly. “No. He’s the one I love.” He glanced at me. I saw the pain in those melting brown eyes. And I felt incredibly ashamed.
Carl spoke, almost pleading. “Phil, no. You’re a nice guy, and I don’t want to see you get hurt. He’ll walk out on you, just like he did on our family.” He shot me a venomous look. I couldn’t believe it had come to this – my brother cared more about my boyfriend, than about me.
I hadn’t done anything to warrant this. “I DID NOT WALK OUT ON OUR FAMILY!” I yelled. I struggled to calm down. “If you let me explain, you’d know that.”
He pretended to ignore me, but I saw him waver. Contempt was written all over his face, but for the first time, I saw something – something that gave me hope.
“Carl, can we go inside? You can talk to your brother …” Carl flinched noticeably at the mention of the last word. But Phil continued, speaking softly so that only we could hear, “I’ve heard Reid’s story. If I didn’t think there was something in it, something that could be mended, I wouldn’t have arranged this.”
Both of us looked at him. Harrison, looking very guilty, interrupted. “Wait … it’s not his fault. I talked him into it.”
Phil sighed. “No, it’s not, Harrison.” He focused his attention on Carl and me. “Can you two just … indulge me? This once? I promise … okay, maybe I’m not in the position of promising anything, but I
hope both of you can work things out … if you’ll just listen to your brother, Carl. Reid is not the heartless person you seem to think he is. I might not be sure of a lot of things, but this is one thing I know for certain.”
He gave me a look that was both hopeful and devoted at the same time. I couldn’t be angry with him. Yes, he’d done something I’d told him expressly not to. But who can resist those puppy-dog eyes?
Apparently, even Carl could not. “Alright. Where is this backroom?” asked Carl.
Josh pointed silently. Carl nodded to him and strode off in the direction he’d pointed. I hesitated. I felt someone put a hand on my arm. It was Marcia. She gave my arm an encouraging pat. “Go on, talk to him.”
I smiled back at her and started to follow Carl. Then I remembered Phil. “Can you come with us? Please?”
He blinked. “You want me?”
“He thinks of you as his friend.”
“Yeah, and you’re his
brother.”
“I don’t think he sees it that way. It might be better, if you were there.”
Phil nodded and went into the room. I shut the door behind me, getting one last glimpse of Harrison, Josh and Marcia, and their hopeful faces. And then the door was closed. I turned around to face Carl.
My throat was suddenly dry. Or maybe it had been that way all this while, and I just hadn’t noticed it.
Carl had his arms folded in front of him. I wondered what it was we hoped to achieve; the look on his face was no more encouraging now than it had been outside.
“Reid …” said Phil. I realized they were both waiting for me to start. I just didn’t know where to begin.
“Well?” said Carl acidly. “That’s it. I knew he had nothing to say. How’s he going to explain why he treated the people who loved him like shit? Why he could abandon his family, so soon after one loss?”
His words stung. “Carl, I didn’t want to. It was Dad … I couldn’t stay there, in that house, any longer. He forced me to leave.”
“Did he tell you to leave?” retorted Carl. “Did he bodily throw you out?”
I slowly shook my head. “No, but -”
Carl was determined not to let me finish. “No one made you leave … you left of your own free will.”
“That’s true, but-”
“You see! He’s not even denying it.”
“CARL!” I shouted. He stopped and stared at me.
“Dad told me it was my fault that Mom died.”
His eyes widened in shock. But it was only for a moment. Then he recovered and glared at me. “Don’t lie.”
“It’s true! Dad said, if I hadn’t told Mom that I was gay, she wouldn’t have succumbed to cancer so quickly.”
“You’re lying,” he said flatly.
“Carl …” I was begging and as much as I hated myself for it, I couldn’t let this one last link to the family I’d once had slip away again. “You know how much I loved Mom. I would never have come out to her if I knew it would make her health deteriorate. And I know it wasn’t the reason she took a turn for the worse and died, but Dad didn’t see it that way. He blamed me. He said I helped her into her grave. I couldn’t take that – you know I couldn’t. Not after everything else. Dad always disliked me. You were his favorite; I didn’t begrudge you for it. I knew I could never be the next CEO of Scottmart; that was a job for you. Surfing was always my passion. I couldn’t -”
Carl held up his hand to stop me from continuing. My heart sank. I was pouring my guts out here and he wasn’t inclined to believe any of it.
“Why didn’t you tell me any of this?” he asked quietly.
“I’m telling you now!”
He rephrased his question. “Why didn’t you tell me then?”
“You were seventeen. I didn’t want to burden you.”
“And leaving home without telling me the reason wasn’t burdening me?” he retorted angrily.
“I … you loved Dad, and he loved you back. Just because I didn’t have that, didn’t mean I had to ruin it for you. What was I supposed to do anyway? If I’d told you, you might’ve wanted to follow me. And I couldn’t let you do that. You were well looked after in Dad’s house. With me, you wouldn’t have had half those luxuries. You were a kid.”
“I used to look up to you. And then you just … left. Packed up and left, soon after Mom died. I felt as if I was losing both of you in the same year.”
I could see that he was fighting back tears. My own eyes felt wet. “I didn’t want to leave you either, Carl, but Dad … he made it hard for me. He sent you off to boarding school in … where was it, Virginia?”
Carl nodded silently.
“He sent you off to boarding school because he thought I would corrupt you. Turn you gay, or against him or something. Carl, you have to believe me. What can I do to make you believe me?” The tears flowed freely down my cheeks.
He shuffled his feet awkwardly, looking more like the 17-year-old kid brother I remembered him as than the 24-year-old man he now was. “I always knew you wouldn’t have left without good reason. I thought it was Mom’s death which you couldn’t face.” His eyes met mine and I saw the sorrow in them – the sorrow that he, like me, had been so good at hiding. He whispered, “I’m sorry I said those things …”
I felt an indescribable relief. “Come here,” I said. I wrapped my arms around him and he hugged me back tightly. Over his shoulder, I saw Phil smiling. I grinned back at him; I definitely was not angry at him, not in the least.
“Reid,” Carl said suddenly, “You’re hugging me a bit too tightly.”
“Oh.” I relaxed my grip a little, but I couldn’t bear to let go of him completely, not after being separated for so long.
Phil snorted with laughter. Carl turned back to look at him. “What?” he asked.
“No, it’s just that you’re not the first person Reid has tried to suffocate with one of his so-called hugs.”
Carl glanced from him to me. “So you two are really together?”
I looked at Phil and, without letting my blue eyes leave his brown ones, replied, “Yes.”
Phil looked ridiculously pleased … until I added, “But Harrison is going to get it from me afterwards.”
His eyes widened. “No, hold on, he didn’t do anything!”
I rolled my eyes. “I’m kidding. I’m too happy to have my brother back.” Suddenly a doubt assailed me. “You are, right?”
He nodded and grabbed my hand. “Come on,” he said, leading me out of the room. He took me past all the people in the café. Phil stayed behind to explain things to Josh, Harrison and Marcia.
The sunlight hit me as soon as we were out of the café. I laughed at his sudden enthusiasm – it made everything else seem like a bad dream. “Wait!” I called. “Where are we going?”
He turned around to face me, but didn’t slow in his pace. “To see Dad, of course.”
I halted, pulling him to a stop as well.
He looked puzzled. “What’s wrong?”
“See Dad? Why would I want to see him? Didn’t you hear a word I said back there?”
“But …” He looked utterly confused. “I thought you wanted to be reconciled with us.”
“With
you, not Dad!” I stared at him in disbelief. “How could you think I actually wanted to be reconciled with Dad – after what he said?”
He smiled uncertainly at me. “He didn’t mean it; he was just upset at the time.”
“Just upset?” I repeated. “My God. You’re impossible! He accused me of killing the mother that I loved!”
Carl flinched. “I know Dad still loves you,” he said in a small voice. He piped up hopefully, “You saw how we worked things out by talking? You and Dad can do the same!”
“Things between us were different! And Dad certainly does not have any love for me.”
“He does! I’m sure of it.”
“Carl,” I said warningly. “If you insist on me seeing Dad, I’ll have no choice but to leave you again.”
“You wouldn’t,” he said. But he could see it in my face.
“I swear, if you try …”
Carl hastily backed down. “Alright! I won’t force you to do anything you don’t want to. But I still think you’re wrong about Dad.”
“What, you don’t believe me?”
“It’s not that I don’t believe you. I just think both of you are too stubborn to admit your mistakes.”
“I didn’t make any mistakes!” I protested. Carl’s rebellious look told me he thought otherwise, and I half-expected him to pester me about it, but he didn’t.
Instead he asked, “So, what have you been doing all these years?”
I relaxed. “Why don’t we find a nice spot on the beach and I’ll tell you all about it. You have to tell me about your life too, mind.”
He grinned. “You always did love the beach. Is it really because the surfing thing or is it because you like looking at the guys? Since you're gay and all that.”
I laughed and cuffed him playfully on the head. “Oi! I’m still your older brother.”
He smiled and put his arm around my shoulder. “I won’t deny that – ever again.”
From the Narrative of Joshua Spencer:
Reid got his happy reunion with his brother. Harrison and Phil got away with their stunt. (Judging from how exhausted Reid and Phil were the next morning, I think the latter more than just got away.) Everything was right in the world … or so I thought. It seems that, in my life, there’s always a storm on the horizon.
It had been a regular day in the café. Marcia had gone with Phoebe to her appointment at the hospital. A smartly-dressed guy in his late thirties came up to the counter. I got the feeling he was looking for someone.
I smiled. “Can I help you?”
“As a matter of fact, you can. Are you Joshua Spencer?”
I confirmed the fact.
He held out his hand. “Jack Dwight. I’m the attorney representing the Hendersons.”
Mr. Henderson owned the building in which the café was housed. I shook Jack Dwight’s hand.
“You’re new,” I noted. “What happened to the previous guy?”
Jack averted his eyes. “He is … uh … indisposed.”
“Oh … it’s just as well that you came. I’ve been meaning to see Mr. Henderson myself and sort out the renewal of our tenancy contract …” I ran out of steam when I saw the look on Jack’s face. “That
is why you’re here, right?” I said uncertainly.
Reid came up beside me. The smile that seemed to be permanently etched on his face nowadays faded a little. “Hey, is anything the matter?”
“This is Mr. Henderson’s new attorney, Jack Dwight. Mr. Dwight, this is the café’s other owner, Reid Scott. Mr. Dwight is here about our tenancy contract?” I left the sentence hanging.
Jack nodded. “I
am here about the contract, but … just not about renewing it. Mr. Henderson … um … he has decided to sell the building.”
“What!” Reid exclaimed. I was too stunned to respond. “He can’t do that. We have a contract … until October.”
“That’s true, but Mr. Henderson does reserve the right to sell the building … the clause is in your contract.”
I found my voice. “I know that clause was in the contract, but when we talked to him last year Mr. Henderson didn’t say anything about selling.”
“Yeah,” Reid chimed in. “In fact he led us to believe he wouldn’t have a problem renewing the contract this year.”
Jack was biting his lip. “Well … circumstances change,” he said vaguely.
“He can’t just sell like that! What if the next owner doesn’t want to extend our contract?” asked Reid.
“Ah … well … then you will have to move.”
Reid looked mutinous. I was still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that we might be on the verge of losing the café we’d worked so hard to build up over the past year.
Jack, realizing he was treading on dangerous ground with Reid, hastily said, “Look, I’m just the messenger. Mr. Henderson is supposed to give his tenants three months’ notice in the event that he wants to sell; that’s why I’m here. If you have any further queries, you can contact Mr. Henderson himself.”
“Damn right we will!” said Reid.
Jack looked unsure how he was supposed to respond to that. “Um … well, then … here are the documents …” I took the papers he offered numbly.
Jack snapped his briefcase shut and smiled tightly. “Okay, then. It was nice, er, doing business with you.” He was in a devil of a hurry. I had the feeling his eagerness to leave was due to more than just Reid’s forceful personality.
My suspicions were confirmed when he bumped into Harry, who was just coming into the café. His eyes lit up in recognition.
“Jack! Well this is a surprise. I wouldn’t have expected to see you here.” He smiled. Jack, on the other hand, looked distinctly uncomfortable.
“You know this guy?” asked Reid.
“Who, Jack? Sure. He’s my father’s attorney …” Harry’s voice trailed off as he realized something was wrong.
“What’s going on here?” he asked in confusion.
“It’s just business, Harrison,” said Jack, looking, for the first time, slightly guilty. He gave a curt nod and hurriedly left the café as though he was being chased by a pack of wild dogs.
Harry, perplexed, looked from Jack’s retreating back to me and Reid.
“Guys?” he asked uncertainly. “What’s going on? Why are you both looking like that?”
I didn’t know what to say. Of course I should have seen the congressman’s hand in Mr. Henderson’s sudden change of heart. I had been foolish to think that he was actually going to let me get away after what I’d said to him.
I didn’t want to say anything. But Reid wasn’t quite so calm. “Your father!” he exploded.
A worried expression appeared on Harry’s face. “Dad? What has he done now?”
“Nothing – except try and destroy us!” said Reid furiously.
I laid a hand on his arm. “Reid …” I pleaded quietly, “Don’t.”
“No, tell me what it is,” said Harry suddenly. “I need to know. You can’t keep protecting me from him, Josh. Just tell me what it is.”
I could see that he was determined to find out. Still I hesitated.
“Josh, tell him,” said Reid. “If you don’t, I will.”
I glared at Reid. But I knew that they were right.
“Okay, let’s go into the backroom. Liz, can you …?” She nodded. The three of us retreated into the back.
I shut the door and turned to find Harry, with his arms folded and looking at me expectantly. “Well?”
Slowly and hesitatingly, I went over everything that had transpired with Jack Dwight.
Harry was flabbergasted. “But … why do you think Dad has anything to do with this?” he asked.
I looked at Reid. This was the difficult question I’d been anticipating. I still hadn’t told Harry about what I’d said to the congressman the night Marcia had her heart attack.
“Harry … You remember when your Mom had a heart attack?”
He nodded.
“And I went to talk to your Dad … to tell him to leave both of you alone?”
He nodded again. I could see realization was starting to dawn on him.
“Harry … everything I said, it was out of love for you. Of course I would never actually tell anyone publicly about it.” I was starting to babble and I knew it. But I was terrified of what Harry would think of me after I told him what I had to.
“Josh, you’re starting to scare me,” whispered Harry.
“Okay …” I took a deep breath. “Basically … I told your Dad, if he didn’t leave you and Aunt Marcia alone, I would reveal to the world exactly what kind of a father he was …”
Harry’s blue eyes filled with tears. “You wouldn’t!”
“Harry, no!” I cried. “Of course I wasn’t actually going to tell anyone.”
He whipped around to look at Reid. “But you told him,” he said accusingly.
Reid looked helplessly at me.
“You weren’t supposed to tell anyone!” yelled Harry.
“I had to tell him. I swear, he’s the only one I’ve told.” I looked pleadingly at Harry.
“Harrison, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I’m damned fond of you. Otherwise I’d have throttled you within an inch of your life for that stunt you pulled the other day with my brother. And despite that, you wanted to keep something like this from me?”
Harry looked embarrassed and stared at his feet. “Well,” he mumbled, “I didn’t want you to think I’m a weak person or … or just a stupid idiot.”
Reid put both hands on Harry’s shoulders. “Harrison, I don’t think that at all. I admire you for putting up with all the stuff your Dad did … It makes what my Dad did seem trivial next to it, and I couldn’t put up with even that.”
Harry sniffed. “That still doesn’t put you in the right.” This comment was directed at me.
“I couldn’t think of any other way. I knew how desperately you wanted to be free of him … not only you, but Aunt Marcia as well. This was the only way I could be certain he would be too afraid to force either of you into doing something you didn’t want to.” I couldn’t bear to look him in the eye.
“Josh …” Unexpectedly I felt his fingers under my chin, propping my head up. His lips brushed lightly against mine. His brilliant blue eyes met my own grey ones.
“I know you’d never hurt me in any way … you’re the last person on earth who’d even dream of doing that. I believe you when you said you did it out of love.”
He paused. I wondered if my relief was going to be fleeting.
“But it doesn’t seem to have worked, he continued. “Dad must know you weren’t serious when you said that.”
Reid pointed out, “To be fair, Harrison, I would say that it has worked, to a certain extent. Your Dad did agree to sign the divorce papers, and he hasn’t tried to contact either you or Marcia in the time since Josh talked to him. I think this is more of a personal revenge against Josh. Because he actually stood up to him and got the better of him. I don’t think … anyone has ever done that to him to before.”
I had to agree with Reid’s observation. And, apparently, so did Harry. “Yes … he must know what the café means to you, Josh. You really shouldn’t have done that – challenged him, I mean.”
I was incredulous. “But, Harry! You know what would have happened if I hadn’t.”
He nodded slowly, with his eyes closed. I knew he was remembering all the times he’d suffered. Suddenly his eyes snapped open. I was, as always, amazed at just how deep a blue they were.
“I’ll do it,” he muttered. Looking straight at me and Reid, he gave a strained smile. “This problem is ultimately because of me, and I have to fix it.” He turned to leave.
“Wait!” I called. “Where are you going?”
“My Dad’s,” he replied.
“Are you crazy? You can’t go there.”
“Josh … I’ve put it off long enough. I hoped I would never have to see him but I realize now … I have to. Reid knows that, too, don’t you?”
Reid was put on the spot.“Um … well …”
“You said it – just now, you said I wasn’t a weak person. I have to prove it.”
“It’s not going to change anything,” I told him.
“Maybe not,” he acknowledged. “But at least I would’ve tried. I can’t let you do everything for me, Josh. I have to do this.”
“You don’t have to do this alone; I’ll come with you,” I said.
Harry shook his head. “This is something I have to do for myself. Besides, your presence will probably only infuriate him further. And no, Reid, you can’t come either.”
I tried to stop him from leaving, but Reid held me back. I shrugged off his arms once the door shut behind Harry.
“Why didn’t you let me stop him?” I asked him angrily.
“He didn’t want you to interfere.”
“He’s going to get hurt. You know how he is with his father …”
“I don’t think so. He thinks differently of him now that he knows he isn’t his real father.”
“Still! You don’t know the congressman. He holds this – this power over Harry!”
Reid sighed and squeezed my hand. “He’ll be fine. I’m sure Harrison doesn’t want you to worry about him.” I wasn’t convinced. Reid raised his eyebrows and added, “Trust me, the kid’s got balls.”
I smiled in spite of myself. I knew Harry was certainly not lacking those. But it wasn’t his courage I was worried about …
To be continued …
It’s difficult to live up to expectations and deliver a chapter like the last one. I can only hope I’ve done a good enough job with this one. It's a bit long, because I had to fit in all the 'action'. Now the story is winding down, there'll be quite a bit of that. At the moment I am wavering between whether the final chapter will be number 39 or 40 … still a long way to go, I’m sure you’ll say. But it feels like we’re all too near the end. But I like the ending I’ve planned out – all the storylines clearly resolved and all the characters’ fates ultimately determined.
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