Ok I wrote a cliffnotes version. I wish I could edit my first post but the edit button is just not there.
PS: It still turned out kind of long but I did my best lol. I think it describes the story more accurately than the longer version. I still don't know how I manage to write so much describing stupid crap. I have way too much time on my hands lol.
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I am 18 and graduated from high school. I liked a certain guy at my workplace who I'll call Nick. We weren't friends, but we would say hi to each other and talked briefly a few times. He was a senior in high school. He does not act bi/gay but you never know. Back then I had given no indication to anyone at my workplace that I like him or am even gay, and according to almost all the people I've come out to, I'm very straight-acting.
My specific job involves standing close to one or two girls (unless I'm alone), most of whom are juniors or seniors in high school, and we are usually talking to each other. My job is not a woman's job but at my workplace it turns out I'm the only male with that specific job. Often one of us has to walk away for about 30 seconds (the time varies), but we are together the majority of the time.
One day I was working with two particular girls who I'll call Pat and Daisy lol. After knowing them for a few months, I am pretty certain that Daisy is trustworthy while Pat is not. Anyway, they started talking about Nick. Then Pat asked me if I "wanted" him. I said "uh, no haha". A little later they started to repeatedly ask me if I wanted them to "tell him something". I kept repeating "uh, no" like any normal straight guy would. Then they mentioned that Nick was bisexual. Nick walked by and Pat asked him what kind of guys he liked. He smiled and said "hot ones". The girls laughed like girls do when someone tells them who he/she likes.
When Pat was not there, Daisy again asked me if I wanted her to "tell him something". I asked her why she and Pat kept asking me that, did Nick like me or something? With a slightly nervous look on her face (that couldn't have been faked), she quietly replied "that's what Pat tells me". I blushed. She saw it instantly and again asked me the question. I was hesitant, so I said "not yet". Then I told her I might be bisexual. When Pat returned, I foolishly decided to tell her I might be bisexual. She chuckled and said "that's ok". She mentioned how she and Daisy once made out when they were drunk. Nothing more was said on the subject.
The next day I worked with just Pat. I had been thinking about what Daisy told me since yesterday and absolutely had to ask Pat about it lest I be driven insane. After attempting to dodge subject, she solemnly and nervously replied that he didn't date people from work (though I later was told that he used to date Daisy, and there was seemingly no tension between them) and that he was "talking" to a girl at school. Later she actually brought up the subject and seemed to want to reveal more, but she never got to tell me anything because other workers kept walking up to talk to us or look at stuff in our area.
After work I was restless, so I texted her, asking her if yesterday was all a joke. She texted back saying it was "all a joke, sorry" and then offered to keep an eye out for any available males or females, whichever I wanted.
I was pretty disappointed, but the next day Nick walked past me and awkwardly said hi while blushing. So I called Daisy and asked her about it. She said that as far as she knew, Nick really was bi, at least according to one of his male friends. Earlier she had mentioned that she also knew him long enough to be able to tell. She said that Pat seemed serious when she told her Nick liked me and that it was not a joke as far as she knew.
Though we hardly even knew each other in the first place, things have been awkward between us whenever we work at the same time. We stopped saying hi for a while. A few days ago I got the guts to start talking to him. He gave a brief response and walked away (though not rudely) without really trying to to continue the conversation.
So that's that! Any thoughts?
I feel like such a loser for still even thinking about this crap.
