Well, the ban's still on and no laptop, but I was able to sneak in the next chapter. I hope you like it!
Chapter 11
Anticipation
‘We’ll talk about it later.’ Those were the words that kept running through my mind as I struggled to go to sleep. I had told Nicky that I was okay with what happened, but he seemed to not want to talk, so we didn’t. I knew that what he had done made him feel guilty, but there was nothing I could do to console him for now. As we went to bed, he kissed me hard and simply said those words. When we did finally talk about it, I had no idea what I would say.
I suppose that really was the lesser of my problems, considering what the following day would bring. Our first day of school as a gay couple, and there was no way we were going to hide it. But, oh, how I wanted to. It would be so much easier to just pretend in the day and live at night. But, it had to come out some time, and Nicky wanted it to be now. Just the thought of the ensuing day kept me from sleeping, but Nick found slumber quite quickly. Amazing, how what we were about to embark on seemed not to worry him. To Nick Weatherly, it was the usual and right thing to do, but it was making me a nervous wreck.
Frustrated, I turned over and grabbed my boyfriend, partly out of love, but mostly because I needed a little damned support at the time. As if instinctively, he rolled over to face me and pulled me into his arms, never once showing any signs that his sleep was in any way being interrupted. He amazed me. I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent, forgetting all my fears and worries and focusing only on how damned good he smelled.
It was morning when I awoke to the sound of the alarm clock. It scared me shitless. I jumped up and out of bed, screaming. Nick just woke up groggily and shut it off. He looked at me and smiled. “Mornin’ sunshine.”
I gasped and fought to find my breath. “If we are going to sleep together, that fuckin’ thing has GOT to go!”
“Okay,” was all he said. He picked it up off the armoire and threw it in the trash.
Not much was said that morning. I think the realization of what we were about to do had finally sunk in, and Nick was starting to get a bit nervous. I was more than a bit. When I get nervous, well, let’s just say I get a little bit of a nervous tummy, and the result ain’t pretty. Nor is the smell. To shower, Nick opted to use a different bathroom then the one I had been using earlier.
He hopped in first and I second, my stomach cramps subsiding a bit for the time being. We washed ourselves in silence for awhile, until Nick couldn’t take it any more.
“Okay, I’m nervous, and I need to get off to calm myself.”
I looked up at him. “Me too.”
He smiled, then laid down on the bottom of the shower stall. I laid down with him in a 69 position, and we sucked each other off. It was cramped, but we made it work. We were both really horny and it didn’t take long for either of us to climax. Afterwards, I didn’t want to move. I just wanted to lay with my lover and feel the cascade if warm water soothe all my worries away. Unfortunately, that wasn’t an option. We finished our shower, dressed, and rushed out the door. We both skipped breakfast.
It was on the drive to school that we finally decided we needed to talk to ease our nerves. “Nicky,” I started, “I’m scared.”
“Me too. But I want to do this. I want all the world to know that Sean Thompson is my boyfriend, my lover, and my soulmate.”
I felt a tear drip down my cheek. Shit. This isn’t right. I don’t cry. Oh sure, I may be a little emo gay boy, but I don’t like to cry, especially out of fear or sadness. These were not happy tears, though what he said did warm my heart. Goddamn, I was terrified.
We pulled into school 20-odd minutes early, but neither of us moved for quite a while. We just sat there and breathed heavily. The in and out rhythm of our anxious breaths tormented me, going in rounds like some sick, twisted version of “Row Row Row Your Boat”. When at last neither of us could stand this any longer, we looked at each other and nodded, then got out of the Mustang.
It was warm and sunny. I remember how I had looked around and noticed what an absolutely gorgeous day it was. Gorgeous to all but us, possibly. I recalled President Roosevelt’s legendary speech about the bombing of Pearl Harbor, where he spoke of “a day which will live in infamy,” and I shuddered at thought that today could be just one of those type of days.
Trying to muster up all the courage I could possibly find, I crossed around to the other side of the car, took my boyfriend’s hand, and walked up the sidewalk, and through the wide-open double doors.
My life would be changed forever.
To be continued...