Feeling down

[akahia]

While I was reading about the recent suicides, I somehow stumbled upon a gaybashing website. Maybe it's because I'm exhausted, or maybe just because I'm emotionally weak, but that website got me feeling really down about myself. The whole "you're going to hell, the world hates you, you were a mistake" spiel, for whatever reason, is really getting to me right now...

I just want to be pulled out of this rut, so anything you could say to bring a smile to my face would mean a ton to me. Even if it's just saying hello so I don't feel so alone.

thanks

 

[akahia]

Why you'd go to a gaybashing site and read it, i'll never know...

Morbid curiosity with a side of delirium, brought on by extreme exhaustion? Honestly, I have no idea.. >.>

 

[redfox70]

Hello akahia

Don't let the bastards get you down! I know that's easy for me to say, but the bigots are the ones with the problem not you. You're worth so much more that all those ignorant assholes. Always remember that.

 

[akahia]

You guys (and girls!) are great

 

[threetimes]

While I was reading about the recent suicides, I somehow stumbled upon a gaybashing website. Maybe it's because I'm exhausted, or maybe just because I'm emotionally weak, but that website got me feeling really down about myself. The whole "you're going to hell, the world hates you, you were a mistake" spiel, for whatever reason, is really getting to me right now...

I just want to be pulled out of this rut, so anything you could say to bring a smile to my face would mean a ton to me. Even if it's just saying hello so I don't feel so alone.

thanks

im 31. looks 21. closeted. yet so out there. want to reach out. im scared. i have so much to lose. read abt clementi. felt more upset. u r not alone. we are all alone. in this together. you have a friend in me.

 

[G-Lexington]

The way you felt after you went to that website? That's the entire point of that website. Just like a haunted house is supposed to make you feel scared (in a happy way), those sites are meant to make you doubt yourself, feel down on yourself, and hate yourself. They're not "real", any more than the haunted house is "real". It's there to produce an effect. So if you don't like the effect, don't go in.

You do know we kick so much ass, they can't ever compete, right? Good.

Lex

 

[altlover85]

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I hope this helps you feel better!

 

[akahia]

Mission accomplished.

Thanks guys

I should post here more often, these boards aren't as scary as they seem

 

[Poozy1]

I'm glad your feeling better try not to let those assholes get you down man.

 

[unloadonme]

Don't go to those awful sites, come here instead. Post more. Get to know a few people. You'll soon see that you're not alone.

 

[BostonPirate]

we are an odd lot of people, but at the end of the day, if you asked for help, I honestly believe that we all would be there, either in word or in deed.

 

[noah617]

Awww you're so cute. Don't let those evil people get you down. Go out and have some fun and share your cute self with the world.

Oh and now that you're feeling better take a second to think about it. You were down and now you're not. That's how it works. Things are never as awful as they seem.

 

[akahia]

we are an odd lot of people, but at the end of the day, if you asked for help, I honestly believe that we all would be there, either in word or in deed.

I'm figuring that out pretty quickly. This thread has brought me many smiles today

 

[roadtripboy]

I had the same feeling an hour ago. Then I noticed the "Beautiful Bridges" post in Hot Topics. Can explain why but it lifted my spirits at just the right moment.

Like everyone else said: don't go to those sites come here. It may not look like it, but I believe we all love each other here.

 

[Runewell]

Just jumping on board to say hi! I also want to add--you know yourself and what's RIGHT for you, better than anyone else. All these hatemongers and bigots would be the first to decry anyone telling them how to live their lives. Similarly, why should we EVER bend to anyone telling us how to live ours? Just because they don't understand it/disgusted by it/fear it, that's not our problem. I say: If you don't like it, KISS MY FRUITY ASS!

Don't ever let anyone tell you or even make you think that because you're gay, your life is something shameful or not worth living. That's truly evil.

 

[barnbuddy]

Don't forget, the people who spew hate are the sick ones. They have to live in the vile stew they call their brains everyday.

I remember the first time I went to a gay pride march. What I remember most was all the smiles. I'd never seen so many people just being happy with who they were.

 

[SmileForMe]

Akahia, I think that we all go through this.
Its really hard, I know. But just try to stay positive. And remember you are NOT alone in this. I often feel disgusted with myself for being "different" and aggrvated about the fact that I cannot change it. If ever I need someone to speak to I always have friends. I think if you are feeling down about such things you should go speak to some friends for some comfort. I wouldn't want you doing anything silly...

 

[7Anthony5]

I should post here more often, these boards aren't as scary as they seem

You haven't seen my posts then.

Just kidding man.

Don't let the haters get you down. Always keep in mind that life is what you make of it. In the end, the only opinion that matters is your own. If you keep your opinion of yourself high, then no words can hurt you.

 

[birddog7]

I know how you feel. I'm down too. I don't need anyone to hate on me, I already hate myself.

 

[amerikkka]

i don't get offended in the least by religious people condemning gays. considering everything else they believe in, i can't them seriously.