The White Stripe
Sex God
I just want to share this with someone. Seeing as I have so few friends who I am out to.
Last year I started making videos on YouTube. I have amassed a small audience that I'm fairly proud of and I love doing it so I guess that has helped. I've had positive feedback and I've been so fortunate to have a wonder audience. Back in March of this year I was particularly down one night and was sort of spilling my guts on my Tumblr page, and in response I got a message from someone who said from truly very sweet things to me.
We traded messages back and forth for several days until I eventually gave him my number and my Skype. Since then we have talked just about everyday. Sometimes we get busy with work and school, but we always find time to talk. He has become one of the most important people in my life, and I see so much good in him. I think he is truly what I have been looking for.
It was not until later did I realize he had been a commenter on YouTube who regularly messaged me and commented on my videos under a different name. He was smitten with me before I even knew who he was. He saw good things in me, long before I got the pleasure of seeing how wonderful he was.
We've been each others support system for the past nine months and have shared so many intimate feelings and thoughts that if it was not for the distance, I would have long ago asked him to be mine. I live in Texas. He lives in Toronto. The distance is the problem as you know. But, since April we have discussed meeting. I bought the plane tickets in October, and I will be flying out tomorrow morning.
I'm going to meet him at the airport and we will get to spend a lovely week together in one of the nicest hotels in the city. He wants to show me the entire city. Every landmark. What he doesn't know is that I have a ring for him, no I'm not proposing marriage, but I do want to give him something symbolic of my feelings. We both realize how compatible we are for one another, and it has fueled out dedication to one another that much more.
I really love him, and its so hard because of how far away we are, but to be honest I would still love him even if this doesn't work out. I don't know how him and I will end, or if we will get to spend the rest of our lives together. I do hope it is the later, but either way he deserves to be happy, and if I don't make him happy I would want him to still find someone who does. I still want him though. He makes me smile everyday at just the thought of his enduring smile and his lovely focused blue eyes. He goes out of his way to make me feel special and motivates me to be the best me I can.
I'm sure most find long distance romances crazy, impractical, and a long-shot, but I don't think that is reason enough to throw away a deep connection. I don't connect with many people, but this guy has captured my attention and even 9 months later I still am head over heels for him.
and tomorrow night...I finally get to fall asleep with him my arms.
Last year I started making videos on YouTube. I have amassed a small audience that I'm fairly proud of and I love doing it so I guess that has helped. I've had positive feedback and I've been so fortunate to have a wonder audience. Back in March of this year I was particularly down one night and was sort of spilling my guts on my Tumblr page, and in response I got a message from someone who said from truly very sweet things to me.
We traded messages back and forth for several days until I eventually gave him my number and my Skype. Since then we have talked just about everyday. Sometimes we get busy with work and school, but we always find time to talk. He has become one of the most important people in my life, and I see so much good in him. I think he is truly what I have been looking for.
It was not until later did I realize he had been a commenter on YouTube who regularly messaged me and commented on my videos under a different name. He was smitten with me before I even knew who he was. He saw good things in me, long before I got the pleasure of seeing how wonderful he was.
We've been each others support system for the past nine months and have shared so many intimate feelings and thoughts that if it was not for the distance, I would have long ago asked him to be mine. I live in Texas. He lives in Toronto. The distance is the problem as you know. But, since April we have discussed meeting. I bought the plane tickets in October, and I will be flying out tomorrow morning.
I'm going to meet him at the airport and we will get to spend a lovely week together in one of the nicest hotels in the city. He wants to show me the entire city. Every landmark. What he doesn't know is that I have a ring for him, no I'm not proposing marriage, but I do want to give him something symbolic of my feelings. We both realize how compatible we are for one another, and it has fueled out dedication to one another that much more.
I really love him, and its so hard because of how far away we are, but to be honest I would still love him even if this doesn't work out. I don't know how him and I will end, or if we will get to spend the rest of our lives together. I do hope it is the later, but either way he deserves to be happy, and if I don't make him happy I would want him to still find someone who does. I still want him though. He makes me smile everyday at just the thought of his enduring smile and his lovely focused blue eyes. He goes out of his way to make me feel special and motivates me to be the best me I can.
I'm sure most find long distance romances crazy, impractical, and a long-shot, but I don't think that is reason enough to throw away a deep connection. I don't connect with many people, but this guy has captured my attention and even 9 months later I still am head over heels for him.
and tomorrow night...I finally get to fall asleep with him my arms.
