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First Gay Experience

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your mind is prolly still trying to get rid of the 'gay is bad gay is wrong gay is death' crap that you've been taught.
Or perhaps you had a lapse of religious conviction.

Sorry bout the bad first step into the m2m world. My first time I actual threw up on my way home. I was still in the closet, and dealing with the 'God hates fags' rhetoric.

Try making friends with a gay guy first then making out.
 
It's called post-orgasmic remorse.

I can happen for lots of reasons- guilt, shame, coming out issues...

So why do you think you felt that way?
 
I feel guilty sometimes after sex or even masturbation and I am far from a novice/virgin. I think some of us are just wired that way, partly because of some of the lies religion puts in our minds.
 
It doesn't always make you feel like crap. Given that you're unsure about your religion, I'd say you're dealing with some religious backlash. And the fact that you feel your family and friends won't approve if they know tells me that you're just putting more pressure on you.

And you can find friends here in your area to chit chat with online and get to know. Or to some extent the yahoo chat rooms by location can be helpful, Or make use of craigslist. 3 ways you can 'come out' without really coming out. And keep in mind that if you hang out with a gay guy, you're not nessicarily hanging a Giant 'I"M A FAG" around your neck. So should you find someone don't act all weird and paranoid when yall meet. Being with a gay man doesn't mean you have to go under a bridge and screw. It just means that you both share a similar interest in men.
 
I know guys who justify that its not gay by just calling it "fun" so its not neccessary to try to get the emotional part first but you probably should..
 
Sounds like you haven't really accepted the fact that you're gay. Accept that before trying to find m2m sex or a relationship, and I'm sure that this post orgasm remorse won't pop up again.
 
My first was with a guy that I met through craigslist and we sucked on each other for less then a min. then we jerked each other off. Afterward I did feel some remorse about it and then freaked the fuck out about stds. So after a about 3 months I got tested and the doctor even told me I did not have a lot to worry about since we did not exchange fluids and I had no symptoms but, anyway I was all clean. But, the first time was not enjoyable becuase of my panic afterwords. Since then I have only j/o w/ a few guys. I also have had some confusion about my sexuality becuase, in public I only notice women but, when I wacth porn(str8) sometimes I get really hot for cock and I have enjoyed the experiences I have had with guys.
And I have a secular worldview btw but, still that religious stigma over homosexuality still is present in our society.
 
I used to feel guilty after jo or mutual jo due to "Christian" beliefs. "Christian" depends on your interpretation of the bible. Now I know that I'm a human fully deserving of intimacy as well as all others.
 
trust me dude youll get over it. your mentality is saying that its wrong but thats bec ause you probably grew up learning that being gay is wrong once you be come more comfortable with your sexuaity it will go away trust me. i went through the same thing
 
Whenever I have sex with my partner (not dating) after cumming, I get that feeling too. Not guilt though. I just feel dirty, and don't want anything to do with sex. Girls or boys, because im bisexual. It's the same thing I masturbate on my own. I don't want anything to do with sex afterwards.
 
Similar here

The first time I had sex with a guy I felt dirty and just wanted to remove myself from him. I always felt this way until I came to terms with my sexuality. Now I enjoy it
 
I enjoyed my "first time" precisely because it DID make my feel "dirty"!! :badgrin:

Then again ... I was a "restrained" Preacher's Kid, and got a sense of "power" because I was bucking the "Norm"! :-<

However, there were subsequent times when I would get that "uncomfortable" feeling, mainly because of what I'd done with the Guy that I'd done it with! :eek: :slap:

This doesn't seem to be your case, though. And, Yes!, that feeling will eventually pass, with more experience. ..|

It's just a matter of learning to overcome your own "taught" aversions. Eventually, you'll come to understand what "Rubbish" has been instilled in your mind! (group)

Of course ... no matter what ...

Keep smilin'!! :kiss:(*8*)
Chaz ;-)
 
Since you are still in the closet, it's pretty clear you can't accept yourself as being gay.

I agree with everything in your post except this. I had the OP's issues initially as well since I was raised in a Christian home. I've definitely moved past those and accepted myself as gay, but I'm still in the closet to most people.

This was my choice mainly because I wanted to be financially and emotionally independent before coming out to my friends and family. I've heard so many stories of people who were disowned or rejected by everyone and didn't have anywhere to go and I didn't want to take that chance.

I'm sure there are other valid reasons for remaining in the closet as well besides not accepting yourself.
 
I agree with the "post-ejaculatory remorse" theory, everybody gets it regardless of sexual orientation. Of course if you're gay it can be worse. It does help keep people in check anyway, otherwise we'd all be constantly procreating/fucking and nothing would ever get done.
 
I fell in love with the first guy that ever penetrated me. Holy hell it was awesome.
But I'd been using toys for a couple of years before that happened. So there was no more learning to relax.
 
I fell in love with the first guy that ever penetrated me. Holy hell it was awesome.
But I'd been using toys for a couple of years before that happened. So there was no more learning to relax.

It was my bff who first penetrated me so didn't fall in love but fell in love with what we were doing for sure. We had been playing nude together for years, then playing in panties, gridles, all lingerie. Finally he took the initiative during one of our panty play sessions: He rolled me over onto my tummy, played with my ass, slowly pulled them down and off, used both hands to massage my cheeks...e leaned down and kissed them and then licked. My dick was soooo hard be then I was moaning and squealing loud. I didn't even notice he had repositioned himself over me between my legs which he had pulled apart. I felt his boner rubbing all over my cheeks and moaned even more. First I felt a finger tracing up n down my crack but paying close attention to my hole. two fingers. Then, three. Then his entire nude body was on top of me his head near mine. His breath was hot on neck, back, shoulders. His tongue was licking my ears and moaning just like I was. His tongue found my lips and our tongues met. Finally his hard cock was pressing against my waiting hole. OHHHH FUCK...this was it. Neither one of us could stop now. We both knew that! he was so gentle but persistent. hen his cockhead popped past my sphincter that first time I let out a "yelp" but it felt so damn GOOD. Both our bodies were sweating by now and that felt so good too. The feel and sound our our bodies together was like nothing we'd ever felt before. His dick was about as long as mine but thicker. The pressure stretching my was intense but whatever pain there was was quickly forgotten. I was urging him on now...deeper, harder, PLEASE! His hands were all over my body even as his body was on top of me. I had no idea how long we'd been at it but his breathing was getting harder and faster. So was mine! I knew I was about to CUM He reached under me and took my hard on and balls in his hands. I'd felt them so many times before but never with his cock deep in my ass. He urged me to CUM as I urged him to fuck me faster and deeper. He didn't disappoint. I couldn't hold back any longer and I came LOUDLY all over his hands. That's all he needed to finally let his CUM fill up my ass. But he didn't stop pumping while moaning like I had just done. I squeezed my asshole hard around his cock but some of his load I could feel leaking out and running down my balls and onto my thighs. His body went limp. His face next to mine as our lips and tongues found each other's. We lost track of time, I didn't want him to pull his dick out of my ass and told him not to move. Our wet, sweaty bodies felt like we were molded together. Yes, eventually his hard on get soft and I felt his cock slipping out of me BUT more of his load started gushing out. We both thought our CUM loads were the biggest we'd ever had till that time. AWESOME! How the hell could anyone ever forget first time like that~I remember it like it was yesterday. I wish it was.
 
The most likely reason you feel this 'remorse' is that whatever got you 'high' during sex (Serotonin?) has run out and you feel like you're having a hangover.
If you use one of these banned drugs -or alcohol- recreationally they will often have the same effect.

How often have I not pondered the existence of pain in the universe with needles in my head the night before? (Did that stop me from drinking? Nope.) This should be much the same process.
 
It was my bff who first penetrated me so didn't fall in love but fell in love with what we were doing for sure. We had been playing nude together for years, then playing in panties, gridles, all lingerie. Finally he took the initiative during one of our panty play sessions: He rolled me over onto my tummy, played with my ass, slowly pulled them down and off, used both hands to massage my cheeks...e leaned down and kissed them and then licked. My dick was soooo hard be then I was moaning and squealing loud. I didn't even notice he had repositioned himself over me between my legs which he had pulled apart. I felt his boner rubbing all over my cheeks and moaned even more. First I felt a finger tracing up n down my crack but paying close attention to my hole. two fingers. Then, three. Then his entire nude body was on top of me his head near mine. His breath was hot on neck, back, shoulders. His tongue was licking my ears and moaning just like I was. His tongue found my lips and our tongues met. Finally his hard cock was pressing against my waiting hole. OHHHH FUCK...this was it. Neither one of us could stop now. We both knew that! he was so gentle but persistent. hen his cockhead popped past my sphincter that first time I let out a "yelp" but it felt so damn GOOD. Both our bodies were sweating by now and that felt so good too. The feel and sound our our bodies together was like nothing we'd ever felt before. His dick was about as long as mine but thicker. The pressure stretching my was intense but whatever pain there was was quickly forgotten. I was urging him on now...deeper, harder, PLEASE! His hands were all over my body even as his body was on top of me. I had no idea how long we'd been at it but his breathing was getting harder and faster. So was mine! I knew I was about to CUM He reached under me and took my hard on and balls in his hands. I'd felt them so many times before but never with his cock deep in my ass. He urged me to CUM as I urged him to fuck me faster and deeper. He didn't disappoint. I couldn't hold back any longer and I came LOUDLY all over his hands. That's all he needed to finally let his CUM fill up my ass. But he didn't stop pumping while moaning like I had just done. I squeezed my asshole hard around his cock but some of his load I could feel leaking out and running down my balls and onto my thighs. His body went limp. His face next to mine as our lips and tongues found each other's. We lost track of time, I didn't want him to pull his dick out of my ass and told him not to move. Our wet, sweaty bodies felt like we were molded together. Yes, eventually his hard on get soft and I felt his cock slipping out of me BUT more of his load started gushing out. We both thought our CUM loads were the biggest we'd ever had till that time. AWESOME! How the hell could anyone ever forget first time like that~I remember it like it was yesterday. I wish it was.

My Lord & Taylor I need a cigarette!
 
I don't experience remorse at all.

The first time was playing around with a friend and gradually over a long period of time resulted in sex, originally oral and then anal.

Sex is for fun and pleasure and I lack hangups over it. But I also grew up outside of religious organizations that stigmatize sex and I remove people from my life who do.
 
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