Discoveries
Rigel sighed. He didn't think he was cut out for building a wall out of half-rotten branches and chunks of sod. Lumina was right, though; the only way they were going to have shelter was to make it, and the only things they had to use were in this cluster of oak trees, where one fallen giant provided a good beginning. But that 'wall' faced wrong to shield them from the wind -- more of a breeze, so far, though Ryan and Rita agreed that evening could bring stronger force. So they were putting another wall where one great branch had crashed into the ground and another hung above it, providing a framework to build on. Others were doing well, but the pieces Rigel put in place seemed rebellious; it was like every other time he turned his back, one or another part fell. What he needed was an excuse to do something else, like Anaph had: the kid was good at plants; he'd found three different things they could eat so far Antonio was turning a tree that their fallen one had fallen against into a lookout; along with his shuriken, he had a wicked-looking knife with a 9-inch blade that worked tolerably well as a machete, which he was using to trim branches and carve handholds to make a way up as high as he could. Ocean and Chen were scouting close by in search of water -- he'd heard them talking about having to dig a "seep", whatever that was, or fashion condensation traps somehow. It turned out that Oran was an Eagle Scout, with survival training -- and practice! -- in Pioneering, which Rigel guessed was some kind of advanced scouting; so he was working on getting them fire. Rigel, though, with everyone else lacking special skills or equipment, though, was doing his best to make a wall. He reached for his fallen chunk of sod.
"Rigel?" Ryan dropped to his knees to Rigel's right, socking a chunk of half-rotten branch in along the bottom of Rigel's wall section. "Smack your sod on top." He dropped back on his heels and looked at his friend's work. "You're trying to make it too vertical."
"You came over to criticize?" inquired Rigel with a wry grin.
"No, to help -- and to talk. No dodging this time: what was that about with... that kid?"
Rigel regarded his dirty hands, wondering if he even knew. He'd never been dishonest with Ryan, so he decided that was a good place to start. "I'm not really sure", he began. "I went to bring him back to the rest of us, but when I got there....." The memory was sharp: a kid talking to a tree, Rigel's worry they had a basket case on their hands -- a worry that hadn't gone away even now.
"He was talking to the oak tree. His body was straight and still, but his face -- well, he talked with his face and his hands, not just his voice. The quick, jerky way he moved made me think of Paul -- remember him?"
"Yeah", Ryan answered. "The guy who tried every drug in the book, and tried inventing new ones. It killed him, too."
Rigel shuddered at the memory: it had been Paul's senior year in high school, and he'd made it to the state track meet in spite of all the drugs, because he'd never been caught. It was the 'mile' relay, four 400-meter legs, and Paul was anchor. Rick Geiger had been five meters back from the lead when he slapped the baton into Paul's waiting hand, a perfect handoff, and Paul had exploded down the track like he'd just discovered it. On the back stretch, he ground his way past the leader, then pulled away. On the corner, it became clear that the former leader had burned up too much trying to stay in front; Paul's lead when he reached the final straight was nearly ten meters.
With two meters to go, Paul had raised his hands in victory, grinning enough for any three people, and he practically leapt over the finish line, grabbing the ribbon and wrapping it around his shoulders. After twenty meters of 'coasting', he'd slowed and looped back to check with the official scorer -- a formality, really. Then he'd seen Lisa, who'd promised him herself if he won, and sprinted toward her....
It all came down to the drugs, the doctors had said: he'd done too many different things, many of them with bad effects on his heart. He'd just run harder than he'd ever run before -- a new state record for a leg of that relay, even. He was cooling down, and then kicked back into high gear, and his heart just quit. He'd gotten a surprised look on his face, Lisa had said, and just tumbled forward. The board of review had been kind; the doctors said that the drugs in his system weren't anything that would help his performance; if anything, they would have done the opposite, so the board let the victory stand. Paul got buried in his track uniform, all his medals and ribbons stuck to the inside of the coffin, and the medal for that race around his neck.
And then some group had shown up at the funeral to cheer Paul's burial -- because he'd been gay. They'd shown up at the awards assembly where Paul's memory was going to be honored by the other three relay members, but the wrestling team had taken care of that, so there was no disturbance.
"Yeah", he said to Ryan, "that guy. Anaph was moving like he used to sometimes. And remember the assholes at his funeral? Looked like they thought they were God's own gift to the world, and we should all just thank them and kiss their feet for telling us Paul was an abomination and the heart attack was God's judgment?" Ryan nodded, so Rigel went on. "When he turned and looked at me, he looked like them -- crazy, maybe possessed or something. What he said to me...." Rigel shook his head, then suddenly rolled off his knees to sit leaning against his recently improved wall.
"He told me that the tree said I'm sturdy, like a spruce, and would provide shelter in storms -- ha! I can't even build a wall right!" The two friends shared a grin. "That's when he grabbed my hand and dropped to his knees,and then he says, 'I am Anaph, the branch, and I am yours'." He felt lust stir again, and shook it off. "Rye, I swear he was going to blow me, and I wanted him to! It was crazy -- I wanted him more than I wanted my first girl!" Rigel stopped, his jaw clamped shut; he stared into the distance.
After a few seconds of silence, Ryan asked softly, "What stopped it?"
Rigel jumped up and walked off a few paces. Ryan went to him and put a hand on his shoulder, and waited.
"Did I ever tell you about my buddy Jake?" whispered Rigel.
"Your best friend -- before me? But he died, right?"
"I guess I didn't tell you." Rigel turned to face his friend. Ryan felt him trembling, and grabbed his other shoulder. After a deep breath, Rigel started again. "He didn't just die -- he hanged himself. I found him. He was so cold...." Rigel squeezed his eyes tight against tears. "He had a baby sitter. They got him through the church, the Seventh-Day Adventists. When he was little, it was all fun. The guy let Jake do anything, and then helped clean it up or fix things. One day they got really, really dirty, so the guy threw their clothes in the washer and they took a shower together. Jake already had crotch hair, and it turned the guy on." He looked his best friend right in the eye. "He molested him, Rye. Not just then, but a bunch. Jake said some of it felt good and some of it hurt, but none of it was fun, and he wanted it to stop. He told his dad, he told my dad, he told the preacher, but no one believed him; the baby sitter was too convincing. So one day, when he found out that his folks were leaving for a week and the guy would be staying with him, he waited until his parents were gone, and he went over to my house but I wasn't there, so he went over to my aunt's house looking for me. When I wasn't there, either, he couldn't take it, and he went out to the apple tree and hanged himself." Rigel looked at his feet for a moment, then back up.
"That memory came in, just filled my mind, when Anaph touched my leg. I remembered Jake, how he died, why he died. I remembered I wasn't there for him. And I knew Anaph is only seventeen. I wanted to stop, but my body was on auto-pilot." Rigel took a deep breath before continuing. "But him on one knee like that reminded me of the school play in tenth grade -- I can't even remember its name, but I remembered, well, I kind of remembered the oath the knights took when they pledged themselves to the king. So I did the king part the best I could remember, and...."
Again he broke away, but after a moment turned back and continued, softly. "I was running out of words, but all of a sudden I wasn't. They weren't any words I remembered, they were all new. I asked him to serve 'with all the life is that in you, to serve mine with yours, for the sake of life, now until rebirth'. Ryan, I didn't think of those words: they came to me."
What Ryan wanted to do was ask, "Who from?", but he knew Rigel was asking himself the same thing, and he also was sure that they both knew the best answer: whoever had snatched their souls from certain death in Monument Circle and plopped them into copy bodies here... wherever here was.
What he said instead was, "And you felt used."
Rigel shook his head. "No, not really used, just... like a pawn, I guess, put here to play a part, and when I needed something, the prompter off-stage fed me lines."
"You mixed your metaphors."
"Yeah, well, I still feel pretty mixed, and it wasn't metaphorical."
"Now you're mixing your tenses. You're stressed, bud."
Rigel burst out laughing. "I needed that! 'Stressed', he tells me. Heck, I died in a car crash I didn't experience, I'm here with a bunch of other people who did, too, I have a kid getting religious experiences and swearing loyalty to me, I'm trying to build a wall for a shelter tonight with just dirt and rotten wood, I'm hungry and can't do anything about it, I'm thirstier than that -- why would I be stressed?" The two grinned at each other like a pair of maniacs.
"Let's get a log", Ryan said after a half minute of face-muscle stretching. So they did that, and worked on the wall for a while.
"You could have let him, you know", Ryan said quietly when they'd topped the section with a decaying branch. "We're dead, this is a different world."
The thought had occurred to Rigel, too, and he had his answer. "No. It's a different world, but we need to stick with what's familiar. We follow the rules we know, until we get settled somewhere and have the luxury to sit around and debate changing them. There may be nothing immoral, really, about a guy that's twenty-two and one who's seventeen having sex, but back home that's the rule, and for now it's the rule here, too." Then he got a mischievous grin. "Besides, I don't think I could have come with an audience."
Ryan laughed at that. "But you're actually serious about the rules, aren't you? That's why your mind coughed up the memories -- it's what you believe, deep down."
"Yeah, it is. Even though I think it's a dumb rule -- any guy who's seventeen can make up his own mind about sex. But it's the rule we've got for now."
Ryan nodded. "Agreed. I'll stand with you on that." He wouldn't have thought of that on his own, but Rigel was right: things were going to be hard enough without throwing their common background to the wind, too.
They meant to go back to work, but it wasn't to be: Anaph was waiting to show him some kind of fern they could eat tips from, and after him was Oran. Rigel wasn't thrilled by the flavor of the fern, but he praised Anaph anyway, and told him to get someone else to help gather whatever they could, before the sun started getting too low. "Sleeping in a strange place is bad", he told his -- what? follower? -- "but sleeping in a strange place with an empty stomach is wretched."
Then it was Oran. "What's up, fire-master?" Ryan quipped.
"Look at your money", Oran said without preamble. "The coins". Ryan and Rigel reached into their pockets and pulled out their loose change.
"Yeah? It's money -- quarters, nickels, dimes, pennies", Ryan observed. "So?"
Oran sighed. "Look close."
Rigel was the one who got it. "Oh. My. Fucking. Hell." He whistled and looked at Oran. "No layers."
Ryan whistled in turn. "They're real silver, all the way through!"
"The quarters and dimes, yeah", Oran agreed. "And the pennies are real copper, so I guess the nickels are real nickel. But do you guys have any of those new dollars, with the Indian chick on them?" Both shook their heads no. Oran pulled reached into his left pocket and brought it out. "I think they're kool, so I always have some. This morning I stopped by the C-U and got a new roll, so I have a bunch. And look." He opened his hand to show a shiny pile of George Washington U.S. dollars. "Take one."
"It's heavy", Ryan observed.
"And soft." Rigel had bitten his. "You're not saying they're pure gold?"
"Why not?" Oran asked.
Rigel had seen Antonio jogging their way, and now waved him over. "Join us. What's up?"
"You found out about the coins, huh? You think those dollars are real gold?" Antonio asked, standing between Rigel and Oran.
"We were just wondering that", Rigel told him. "But why'd you want me?
Antonio looked around before answering. "We're not alone here. I don't know if it's someone or something, but we're being watched. I thought I saw something on our hike over here from where we, um, landed, so I've kept an eye out. Now I'm sure -- I saw movement, from up in the tree."
Ryan frowned. "Best guess?"
His grimace showing his uncertainty, Antonio replied, "Someone -- people. They're too clumsy in hiding."
"Animals in their own habitat, who stalk other creatures, wouldn't be seen by amateurs like us, huh?" Ryan asked. Anotio nodded. "So, do we alert everyone?" They all looked at Rigel.
"Chen and Ocean are still out there", Antonio pointed out.
"Think you can find them?" Rigel asked him.
Antonio shook his head. "On foot -- no. But I can go higher in the tree -- maybe I can see them."
Rigel didn't like it, but there weren't any options. Back home he could have hopped on his Honda and zipped across the grass -- though back home he didn't know of any place where the grass just kept going like this. It was unnerving. "Take something bright with you, to wave if you see them. Maybe they'll get the idea to hurry."
"If I see them, and get their attention, I'll go join them." Antonio tossed a shuriken pointedly, then vanished it back into wherever he'd plucked it.
"Good. And thanks." Rigel had a sudden thought. "Hey -- you have some gold dollars, too?"
Antonio grinned. "Yep -- seven of 'em." He turned and jogged back to climb the lookout tree.